I keep ruining everything. My mom told me today that she absolutely hates me, and that I am truly an ugly person. I completely agree with what she said, but it still hurts. I always thought the one person in this world who is supposed to love you unconditionally is your mother, but she can’t even tolerate me anymore.
My mom took my sister and went to stay at my grandpa’s house. The dumbest move she made today was leaving me alone with my thoughts. I really think she is hoping to come back and find me dead, so she can finally close this chapter of her life.
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Its an unbearable pain when your own mother says such cruel and hurtful things to her own child, trust me I’ve been there. My mother used to tell me she hated me and wished I was dead every single day, she once told me she would show me how to properly cut my wrist so I would bleed to death, no one especially a mother should make another living being feel this way, your not alone and I know it feels like your at the end of your rope, but just hold on BC believe it or not it does get a little better. Idk your age but once you turn 18 your free, and I know it sounds terrible for someone to say “cut your mother out of your life” but believe me she’s doing you no good when she’s causing so much emotional damage, it was the best thing I could have ever done, I didn’t speak to my mom for over a year, finally she reached out, she realized the damage she caused me, our relationship isn’t perfect but its not as toxic as it once was. I really hope things work out for you.
Try to live and be as successful as possible, prove her wrong. Your mother may think you are nothing, but you are definitely something… each person is worth something, it’s up to them to live up to that worth, or throw it all away… I genuinely care about the well-being of others, so I hope you hold on. bent-not-broken is right, once you’re 18, you can try to live on your own, with another relative, or a college dorm if you are graduating high school. Being alone with your thoughts is one of the worst things someone can do to you, but hold on… keep fighting.
Have you got other family to go to? Grandparents,uncles, aunts, cousins, anybody? If not,try appealing for removal from your home,and try to GE into a foster or adoption agency,so that you can be with people who will truly love and care for you,simncr its obvious that your mother won’t do that for you. Get a boyfriend or girlfriend, or just a friend that you can tell your story to. But,if you can’t, than you always have us, and there will always be someone to talk to here.