Sometimes, I just wish someone would notice. I want someone to just realize that I’m hiding behind a mask. I wish they would see through me. I wish they would plan to save me. But I guess that doesn’t happen in this world. Maybe I’m unrealistic. I mean, how could anyone know if you constantly pretend everything is perfect. I guess they wouldn’t… I don’t know. I feel like I’m giving hints, but I guess nobody catches them or nobody cares… I don’t know anymore.
I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.
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I bounce between wishing for someone to save me, a certain someone, a specific woman in my life, and then thinking why should they give a shit about me, they shouldn’t have to deal with my problems, she shouldn’t…
I don’t know anything either ErasedEon…
But I don’t think it’s unrealistic, just…hard to come by perhaps? Try for the help you desire, if you can and are willing, people are…oblivious, and read signs rather terribly. They need a little more to see.
Hints wouldn’t be enough. Most people are oblivious to, almost, even the most obvious of hints. I think you should just be as transparent as possible. Go to the person(s) you want help from and tell them, plainly, that you need help. Beating around the bush isn’t helpful to anyone.
Perhaps it’s time you noticed your own deeper self, explored who you are. You are the only person who can truly know you.
No one is going to save you. My whole family knows I’m an outcast, a total mess and no one can do shit for me. The only answer I have is seek psychiatric help and a therapist. I’m close to giving up on that too, but in the beginning I at least had hope. Maybe they could help. Regular people you tell won’t know what to say. A lot of people don’t know what it’s like to feel this way. They function normally and keep right on going with their lives.
This may not be what you want to hear, but there is probably no single person who can save you from what you’re going through. It’s likely up to you because at the end of the day we’re all alone. No one else can think for you, or feel for you, no one will ever know exactly how you feel because they are not you. So your best bet is to work on yourself, nowadays depending on others always seems to fall through because there are a lot of selfish people out there anyways.