I just joined this community, I joined because I read a post about someone who didn’t believe they were interesting. I joined because they mentioned one of my interests and I desperately wanted to reply and show him that I was interested in him. But now I can’t find the post, one more failure to add to my list.
Now that I’m going to post something I’ll tell you what brought me here. It’s pathetic, but I’m retaking college algebra (I got up to calculus in high school and this is a college refresher course) And we are learning quadratic regressions. I just turned in a blank test because I couldn’t remember how to do it. I’ve never gotten anything less than an A and I don’t know how to deal with failure. I just, can’t.
I have no friends, no idea how to successfully maintain a relationship. I’ve never even been in an actual relationship. I’m 19 years old, I was the girl who everyone thought could do anything, and somehow I find myself here, wondering if I can even keep living.
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Don’t listen to that voice that tells you to kill yourself because that’s the demon of suicide putting self hatred and guilty thoughts into your head to make you so depressed causing you to end up killing yourself ! What ever sin you did go straight to Jesus Christ and confess it , repent of it with a sincere heart and Jesus will forgive you ! Jesus wants you to live ! Jesus will never tell you kills yourself that’s the enemy’s voice ! Rebuke it , get back on your feet and say I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me ! The demon of suicide attacked me one time causing me to put a wire around my neck but thanks God I’m still here and have learnt to keep your friends close but your enemies closer ! Know your enemy ! Your enemy hates you and wants you to die but Jesus loves you and wants you to live ! I had quiet a few attacks from the demons since being a Christian but thank God who is greater in me than the Satan who is in the world ! God always gets me back up and makes me more stronger as what dosent kill you , will make you stronger! So be watchful don’t be ignorant of the dark rulers ! They exist the demons exist , don’t act like they don’t or ignore that they exist because that’s when you become an easy target not knowing their devices ! You should acknowledge them so then you can rebuke them in Jesus name so you can then serve God to the fullest without distractions from the dark rulers lurking about ! Otherwise 1 minute your happy next your sad next your depressed next your doubtful next you want to kill yourself next you hate yourself next you love yourself … Your up down up down not having a clue what the heck is going on ! The fact is were in a war, not with flesh and blood but with the dark rulers of this present evil world ! And they have their own names and own characters ! So put on the full armour of God so you can stand against their tactics …..
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I (Jesus) have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. “
Failure helps you learn more about yourself, if you let it
Your primary objective in school is supposed to be learning not having perfect grades.
I guess you remember how to do quadratic regressions now. If that’s the case then you haven’t failed.
I turned that blank test in 3 hours ago. I have no fucking clue how to do a quadratic regression. I know it’s a really simple process, my memory is just terrible, so I can’t remember how to do it. I understand that the purpose of school is to learn, which is why I failed. I haven’t learned quadratic regressions, I haven’t learned French grammar, i haven’t learned how to use SPSS for POLS, I haven’t learned how to identify different methods of filming, I have managed COMM though. . . Anyway the point is my memory is terrible, and because that is something I can’t really change I find myself losing all hope for my own academic future. Everything is simple when it is explained, then I forget, and all I know about the topic is that it’s simple.
Suicide is never the answer , Jesus is the answer ???For we do not have a high priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but One who has been tempted in all things as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and may find grace to help in time of need. (NASB) Hebrews 4:15-16
For those who are struggling, remember that Jesus wants you to cast your care on Him.
. . casting all your anxiety upon Him, because He cares for you. (NASB) 1 Peter 5:7
I know where you are coming from…. My issue is physics, which is what I am majoring in. I like it, I like the things it involves, but I’m doing so terrible at it, and I don’t know if I would survive failing a class and falling futher behind…in fact it’s been the cause of quite a few scars… Keep trying though, seems people have faith in you, that they hold you to high expectations because you have high expectations for yourself. Do what you can.. take care of yourself, Fall.