I just turned 20. Usually it would be the best day for me, but this time I just feel wrong. I’ve had severe anxiety over the last few years (Avoidant Personality Disorder to be specific), which has led to extreme depression. I don’t have any close friends and have never been in a real intimate relationship.
Over the last few months I’ve been taking an antidepressant called setraline, which has been helping with my mood and made me more confident.
The last few weeks have been bliss, but just now, just when I turned 20, I began to contemplate my life and how I am still very alone. The thought of my crippling loneliness is starting to hurt, more than ever before. I started to look at pictures of uni classmates to see how good they’ve got it, making me more anxious. Finally, I came here to share my thoughts.
It’s 3 minutes to one in the morning where I am. This helped me too much, but hopefully i’ll feel better after some sleep. Thanks for reading.
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Hey. Happy Birthday. No one bothered to wish me on my birthday because Iam a pathetic waste of space. No cakes.. anyways I closed down my social networks its not for me no one cares about me im that pathetic and lost no one bothers to even look at me though I look beautiful.. anyways whats your plan ? Sertraline is good and helpful.
I’ve been taking Sertraline for somewhat of a year now, does it help you a lot? I’m glad it’s doing you some good. I tend to do that too, look into the lives of others to see what they’re doing. It always seems like they’re having fun and doing so many amazing things. Whenever I do it though, I feel worse so I know for myself to avoid it. Hope you get a good night’s sleep.
And btw, happy birthday. I hope you still manage to enjoy it to some extent.
happy birthday
Hey, lovely person, Happy Birthday! <3 I hope you have a great day, and an awesome week as well.
I am glad that your medication is working. And you shouldn't compare yourself to others, even tho it's hard. I believe everybody follows a different path, you know?
But you are not the only one who feels lonely, I am almost 21 and I feel very very lonely compared to all the other popular kids, but I am hanging on, and you should too 🙂
Happy Bday again!!