Why do all my worst thoughts happen at night? During the day I’m not much better however at night my emotions heighten. My darkest thoughts are at night. I think too deeply about everything and spiral into bad thoughts. During the night is when I’m closest to finally ending it, but never do as I remind myself of how desperately I don’t want my thoughts to overrule me. All my feelings become too real at night, I get too close to doing bad things. I don’t sleep during the night I don’t like to. I have too many things to think about instead of sleeping. I cave in eventually and have to but I hate it. I feel as if I’m wasting time when sleeping however it’s a break I guess. In the end I don’t completely hate the night but wish my thoughts weren’t so messed up and my feeling weren’t so strong.
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Ah, yes. Counting sheep never fucking works. I tend to do the same as you and stay awake until I cant keep my eyes open. Mostly out of fear for nightmares. Theyre too emotionally draining. Nightly brooding doesnt help either.
Its a shame because dusk and night are my favorite time of the day. The silent peacefullness of it, knowing almost everyone is asleep and not judging you. I suggest listening to your favorite music or sleeping with something valuable to you. Fuck whoever says you’re too old for a teddy bear.
Try to think about good stuff till you fall asleep. I also have thoughts and I guess if somebody could read my mind, he would be in tears. At night I cry, I think, I don’t feel relaxed but then I just try thinking the other side like what would I wanna do in my future and all this stuff would end soon, and I just fall asleep.