Back Again…

It’s been a while. I think the last time I posted I was feeling decent. Now I just kinda don’t know. I feel like crap. There’s nobody I can full on talk to about how I feel without making them uncomfortable or without them telling somebody who might worry. People worrying about me and overreacting is the last thing I want. I just want someone to understand where I’m coming from and listen without freaking out or being inconsiderate. As of right now it’s 11:04 p.m. and about half an hour ago I realized how worthless I kinda am. Nobody really wants me. If I didn’t exist tomorrow nobody would really notice. They would just keep living without me. But if I died then everyone would freak out and say how much they cared for me when they don’t even know me. How I was such a great person who always loved to laugh when right now I’m about ready to cry myself to sleep. I feel like I’m just taking up space and nobody really wants me around but they just tolerate me because I’m here. It feels nice to let it out for once without crying so bad or talking to myself. Nobody listens… Nobody…