I previously wrote a post on here titled “no purpose” here’s is the link below if anyone wants to read it to give more In sight to this post.
I stupidly trusted someone with this post and showed them, reasons why? I wanted to tell someone how I genuinely felt, a reach out for someone to understand me better so they wouldn’t play with my feelings anymore, a reach out as I know I need help!
So after opening up to someone about this that person said they quote “hurt me or anyone else intentionally” and said they would be willing to help as they didn’t want anything bad to happen due to this. Was this ever far from the truth! This person then decides to do a 180 and tell other people about my no purpose post saying it caused them stress!
Why would someone tell or show others something that’s so extremely personal to you, to even open up and tell someone like this is not easy. How can another human being betray another one like this, I just don’t understand, are people genuinely that heartless and selfish that they want to push others even lower to the breaking point. I cannot even possibly think of the words to describe the way I’m feeling about this! Betrayed, stressed, anxious are all an understatement.
Maybe I got the title wrong and there is a purpose, a purpose to end it as this world is full selfish people who’s only pleasure is to see others suffer. There’s only two people in this world who could possible come close to stop me from feeling like this, where one has made me an appointment to see someone. But the fact iv always felt like this maybe not. I just can’t stop thinking about how someone can betray you like this, it’s just over playing in my mind. I’m tired of people fucking me over, so might as well fuck myself over permanently! At least I have something to look forward to.
Hbs
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Betrayal is the worst sort of pain. People suck. But they’re all just people. I know it’s awful (my brother, most important person to me in my life, told me there was a special place in hell for my kind), so don’t dare think I’m belittling your feelings, but you have to try to see from their point of view. They are immature, and they don’t know how to deal. Finding out that someone wants suicide is a big deal, and they are just too weak to handle it. For a similar reason why you told this person you want to commit suicide, they told other people. We all need support. Though that is awful and I’m so sorry that happened to you!!