I initiated a divorce and going through with it. I find second guessing myself but it is the right decision. Ex is a good person and deserves another good person to love. I’m the bad one who fell in love with a third party – whom doesn’t feel the same way. I didn’t expect the third party to reciprocate to begin with. I’m OK with it but I’m having a hard time with the situation. I want my ex and the third party to be happy. Even though I might not be.
I just recently got promoted and finished my degree. Other aspects of my life falls into place perfectly how it supposed to, yet I can’t shake off the feeling of emptiness and tiredness. I understand I won’t always get what I want, but this unreturned love of mine is killing me.
I am so tired and I don’t want to go on anymore. Life is exhausting and I want this to end. I just want to rest in peace.
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Unrequited love is not easy to deal with. I fell madly in love with someone once. I don’t know what it was about him but everytime I was around him my heart would just beat like crazy. It didn’t really do that for anyone else I had ever known. But the fact was, he was in a marriage with someone else and I didn’t want to destroy what they had with each other which was a significant amount of time and a beautiful child as well. Now, I don’t know if your reading this third-party wrong and they do love you and just don’t want to interfere with your marriage. That may be the case. But you should seek what truly makes you happy as a person I think to find your answer. My unrequited love/friend was an absolute wreck without his wife when he separated from her for only a moment in time. He was sad, and quiet, and just pitiful. So I know that he really didn’t want a divorce. As far as I know, that little time apart helped him to realize how much he really loved her and that he didn’t want a divorce. I hope things work out well for you and that whomever you love returns that love. Unrequited love sucks. But its not the end of the world… eventually you can find things to replace that emptiness with. It just takes time.
That’s awesome that you just got promoted and finished your degree! 🙂
Thank you. Not sure how well things will turn out for me. I’ve been trying to be strong, but I am just so exhausted and drained. I have nothing left. For the third party – I don’t get his thought process, but I’m very understanding about it. Not sure of anything or anyone matters to me anymore. I’m just so tired.
I’m sorry to hear that. Sometimes people just need time to sort themselves out.