Well, so I wrote this…. scared to share as always as I really hate it…. Maybe if I tried harder I would get something better out of me…. Something cohesive and something that doesn’t sound mildly crazy…. I kind of don’t want to talk about why I wrote this, the subject manner is kind of shameful. -_- This was kind of directed at a person, but I don’t want to just give it to that person…. It feels less weird giving it to many people instead, and I kind of hope in a way that that person doesn’t see this, or gets made at me…. (Please don’t hate me) -_- I’m sorry about posting this here, I always want to show people these things and I just felt like starting this tonight and it got done too late to show anybody (as a person called me and distracted me for like 3 hours midway threw) grrrr I’m sorry 🙁 I know it’s shitty and sucks and shouldn’t exist -_- and the formatting really doesn’t mean anything that was simply to make it easier for me to keep track of, and may make it a bit easier to read -_- I just chose 8’s and didn’t really care about trasnfering ideas over or such, I thought about posting with no spaces, but it just looked too crowded -_- sorry :/
I devour your beating heart
My mind goes blank, time to restart
I’m sorry that I am so dark
I want to go to the park
And love you, and just cuddle
Thoughts of you turn me to a puddle
But that is just fine
Because I will break your spine
So that you can never leave me
So that I will never grieve see
Please just be mine forever
I know that’s a pointless endeavor
But I hatched a plan so clever
When you walk in I’ll pull that lever
And you’ll be caught forever
I’ll hold you with a tether
Dress you up in the finest leather
Then you will be my treasure
That’s only how I feel
Doing that would make me ill
Instead I’ll just show you love
Hold you up, high above
The horizon and all the stars
Start disguising all my scars
Because you make me better
I latch on to every letter
That you type and send to me
Yes you did rescue me
Made me a bit happier
I was crying like Eeyore
You make me want to be a whore
Because it’s you I do adore
Sadly I’m asexual
Sex with me is conceptual
Only, as it is disgusting
But as I grow more trusting
I may be able to try
Please don’t hate me if I cry
I don’t understand the reason why
This fear I can’t justify
But you make me feel so frail
Make my skin turn so pale
Make my thoughts turn to a flurry
Make me scared and start to worry
At the thought of you lost
My heart grows cold like frost
I love you, please believe me
I love you, please don’t leave me