I’m sitting here at work smiling and doing my job while my suicide note is in my bag and I wonder, do they know? Do they suspect a thing? Will they say “She seemed so happy. How could this happen?” I guess I’ll never know.
Does anyone else feel like they’re living a lie? A carefully constructed lie. An empty, meaningless lie.
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Ofcourse they will. Who doesn’t gets talked about? You should know this beforehand.
Yes I am living a lie, not carefully constructed lie since most know I’m beyond sad. A meaningless lie, YES iam living.
This reminds me of that scene from “What Women Want” the Mel Gibson movie. In the scene he reads a suicidal lady’s mind who is asking herself the same question. He then goes out of his way to save her life, and stops her from committing the act.
Sounds to me you need a young mind reading Mel Gibson.
In all seriousness I have run this scenario in my mind over and over again, as I have written a suicide letter while being at work myself. I presume that most employees would suffer some initial shock and wonder, but life would inevitably move on. In fact, one of my co-workers died of an overdose {unintentional), and that’s exactly how things played out. The problem with questioning people’s reactions in the workplace is that the reaction is from people who do not perform a truly meaningful role in our lives. It’s the reason they don’t know you’re suffering in the first place, they just don’t know you well enough.
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