Hello. After I came back from break, I did my best to avoid a particular person. It wasn’t hard seeing as this person doesn’t even know I existed. Today they called me over as I was sitting on the bench and asked if they could braid my hair. I have long hair for a guy. Their hands ran through my hair. They made a few comments about how soft my hair was. All of a sudden they stopped. My hair wasn’t braided. They looked down at one of their friends phones and said nothing to me. I got up and left and they didn’t say a word. Just how invisible am I? I know they didn’t do it on purpose out of malice or anything. Their mind just wandered to different things. I find it strange how one person could be the only thing a person thinks of, but that person doesn’t know the other exists. I wonder if I’m someone’s other. Probably not. I’m very invisible. I walk around and observe everyone’s little bubble they call their day to day life. It’s strange how isolated everyone is from one another. Everyone is just so preoccupied with their own reality. Maybe I’m just as preoccupied. I should probably get them out of my mind. I’m trying to get over this disease and thinking about them will only make it worse. I’m close. I will get over it just like I got over the other ones. It just takes time. Thanks for listening.
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I’m invisible. At the beginning it was what I wanted I enjoyed just being around other people but not really being there. Once I graduated from high school I discovered a totally different kind of loneliness. The type of loneliness that suffocates you and engulfs you in fear. I’ve been yearning for someone who would like to be penpals with me. I would really like to find an anonymous friend
Aintofgreen i would love to be your anonymous pen pal if you want 🙂 Never tried but seems healthy and interesting. If you want, im here: hannes@lovbacka.se