Basically My Life Story, Reasons For Being Suicidal.

There is much more that turned me onto suicide years ago. If anyone wants to hear it tell me. Right now, I will tell you my most relevant issue:
I am a FREAK OF NATURE:
The worst there ever was. Why? For starters, I’m fat, creepy, a dork/nerd, unattractive, stupid, have bad posture, […]

As I lie here on the couch [my 19 yo brother gets my room] my favorite feeling has comeback to haunt me.suicide.My whole life has been shit.I mean my brother is my moms favorite (even tho she acts like hes not)and all he does is treat me like scum even tho I bend over backwards […]

It’s been over a month after I officially graduated from college. I always thought my parents would be supportive of me and my decisions in life (Note: At 20-something, I still live with my parents (I’m asian! LOL) but ever since my younger sis graduated a month ahead of me (blame it to my […]

Fuck….I dont know what to do anymore I hate myself every second of my life…I feel so ugly I feel so angry at times because I get so sad at night when im alone..I always try to invite someone over…I dont want to be alone. I hate being alone I hate it so much I […]

What do you do when nothing makes sense and those who say they love you only hurt you? What do you do when they hurt you again and again until you are left an empty shell?

i know i’m not suicidal, yet i am going through a tough timje, and i need to tell someone.
My mom and i never get along, today was one of the worst cases of our arguments. It started off just as usual, she forces me to do my chores, i argue back, then the argueing continues. […]

So it is all sort of really pointless if you really want to give someone a wake up call and you know better because people don’t change. Don’t put your head in a clothes bag in the closet and then bang on the wall when you start to lose air. He isn’t coming. He already […]

Well I know that I cant ever leave my family. To many ppl depend on me. I have a 9 year old so , a husband who adores me. But I cant get over the pain of my past. Things wont go away, I keep hearing voices in my head, telling me to […]

People think happiness is just found behind a smile, but behind a smile is alot more than happiness. For the past 15 and a half years I have hidden behind my smile. I have hidden my tears, my thoughts, and my fear of death. The habit of hidding my feelings began at a […]