Ok, so from what I understand this site is the same site that actually had someone messing with my mind till the point that I had to go into the hospital. However, I bet that the people responsible are not interested in paying the hospital bill that was paid by a loving charity of around 8,000. Even though it was “their fault” that they harassed me enough to cause the problem. See there’s this type of people called “trolls” and there is this other thing called “electronic harassment” well you know what. I’m done with you. You can have this site. I don’t need the […]
Death and Psyche
I’m one of those people who believes that if there is a god that I don’t have to give in an go to church for things to work out right. But more and more I feel distant from the kind of God that people celebrate. And I start to feel like whatever “God” people pray to doesn’t exist. My life has become a big mess and it seems like anyone holy holy will tell you to pray. I find it hard to pray. I found out not long ago that my cat is sick. Today I found out that not only is she sick but […]
I feel a new beginning or positive reset may be coming into my life. I hope that I am right because more than anything I need circumstances to seem less gloomy. Not having pocket money for Christmas is gloomy. Not having any sense of what I should do or who I should be speaking to for help is depressing. I got a call from some cranky sounding guy who is expecting a call back. I know I need to call him but if thats his attitude it’ll be hard for me not to get agitated and tell him I have enough crap to deal with […]
I’m thinking I may have that. Because I am disgusted by the human body. It makes me not want to date. I have no sex drive. I don’t know whether this is because the people I dated always wanted to be really physical and they were emotionally abusive but that seems to be the reason. They never made me feel pretty or attractive or really anything positive about myself, just used. And at first I thought it was normal because I could see it in other people’s relationships. But now I realize if that’s what a male/ female relationship is then I don’t want one. I […]