would it really be that bad if i killed myself right now?
HoldingBackTears
HoldingBackTears
Hey there. I'm Deanna. Yeah I cut my self. Big deal. I do it because I have a reason too. I have a couple of friends. I really miss being in a relationship last one I had ended because we couldn't see each other... Well anyways that doesn't mean I'm desperate. I only date guys If they understand me. I hate labels. Especially when people call me "emo" fucking. Hate that word. I die my hair all the time. I've died it almost every color in the rainbow. Well I hate my life. That's really all you have to know about me.
hes finally mine. ive waited for a while. im doing better. no more cutting unless we fight. i hate fighting with him. it hurts me so much. i wounder if he knows how much pain it puts me in. i love him so much. i really dont want to loose him. i want to stop fighting with him and the worst part is that we fight over the stupidest stuff. but what can i do? im not going to break up with him. i love him. any suggestions? :/
I’m so depressed.
I can’t think.
I just want to cut.
And cry
Why does it feel so good?
Why can’t I stop?
It’s like an addiction.
A forcive habit.
So many scares.
It’s like I’m shredding my leg.
His initials carved into my leg.
Hate carved into my leg.
I can’t feel my leg.
So much pain.
I’ve turned numb.
Is this the end?
Someone please take.
Far away
From here.
From….
This….
When I walk away
I want you to grab my arm,
Kiss me
And say “don’t go”
Behind my smile,
My fake smile,
Is my soul,
Slowly fading away,
Withering away Into..
Nothing
When I’m with you
I’m reborn inside
That’s
When my smile becomes real
I look up at you
See you smile
I smile
A real smile
A smile that only happens
When I’m with you
Think about you
See you
Hug you
Kiss you
Love you