So, I’ve come to realise that even with the friends I have, I’ve never actually had any friends. I love the friends I have, but I always feel like I am doing something wrong and am sort of there just as an accessory. It’s not that I don’t think my friends dislike me or intentionally make me feel this way, but they seem really close to each other. I’m just here wanting to have close friendships like my friends have, but I’ve never had one.
I just don’t know… you know?