No friends, family busy with their own lives, a phone that never rings, and no one to call on. Just the sound of a truck motor while I sit here by myself seeing no end to this pain, no one to save me this time.
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I have a plan in place to at least try and make my death less hurtful for my family members, but after last night it took every bit of strength I could summon not to end it all early.
My husband of 15 yrs has been gone just over a month and I found out last night he is living with a younger woman. Not only have I been forgotten, our life together erased, but I’ve been replaced and someone else gets to live the life that was supposed to be mine.
If I had any food in my stomach last night I would have been physically […]
Since my ex has decided I wasn’t worth the effort, and has left me and our life behind, I believe he deserves one last birthday gift from me.
I have until the first of next year to get my affairs in order, then on his birthday, even though he will never know it, he will get the gift of finally being free of me for good.
I know he’s not worth it, but nether is living with the pain of losing him and the years of lonliness I will be facing, knowing he moved on with his life the day he left.
I just hope one day, if […]
I am trying to tie up a lot of loose ends 1st, but I feel like I am losing the battle.
My house is not a home anymore since he left. I am just going from room to room cleaning them out. Pictures off the walls, china cabinets cleaned out, 25 years worth of stuff being donated or sold off. Even then, I’m left with 15 years of memories that I can’t get out of my head. The silence and lonliness are my enemies, yet I don’t want to leave the house because I can’t keep it together and end up in tears in public like […]
I was in a very bad place due to the breakup of my relationship 5 years ago, had my method of leaving this world planned, and all my goodbye letters written out. I guess God didn’t think I had been put through enough hell yet so He intervened. My then ex, the love of my life, sent me a text message, one word, two letters, “hi”. That one word opened the door to us meeting up, talking things through, and eventually getting back together.
He promised me then he would never again leave me. Fast forward 5 years later, a little over 2 weeks ago he […]