I’ve come here to vent. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’m utterly lone. 🙁 Its my fault though, I push people away. I don’t feel anything…nothingness. A black hole that has eaten every part of me. I want to disapear into the nothingness, like in the movie The Never Ending Story…just swallow me whole so I vanish forever. I’ve been planning my suicide since March 2013 and each day and month that goes by I’m baffled because I should have been dead by now. I hate myself for not doing it sooner, seems like the longer I wait the harder it is for […]