I honestly haven’t post on this website in months. o 3o Hi old and new people and if any case i am still suicidal and it has increase to the point where i have thoughts about me hanging myself. Sounds amazing right. c:
SuicideKillMe
The one thing I want more is my own death. I am getting pretty tired of my life right now. My family. My friends. Everything. I have no life. So whats the point of stay here. I will never get better. If I get help I still wont get better. Really I could never channge my mind. I feel like crying but tears wont get me any further in life. I know everything I do wont get me far in life. The one thing that is holding me back is Andre. If I wasnt dating him I would had ended my life. Why cannt he […]
Been awhile since i posted it here. Mind as well share something for everyone
i found this so i wanna share it
http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/gethelp#comment-400825163
I dont know where i will be gone from here. From this place that only brings tragics my way. I do nothing. Completely nothing. I have no respect for myself. I dont have self-confidence. I dont even have the will to live anymore. Where will i go? Who would be there. My life has no valueable meaning. I really dont understand why im here. Why im typing this. Or who would respond. I guess being depress you could get lonely. Broken. Or tear you to shreds. I have no path that i could walk down on. Broken glass with shatter memories. Cuts on the bottom […]
(╯°□°)╯︵ â”»â”â”» *flips table in rage*
┬──┬ ノ( ゜-゜ノ) *puts it back*
thought i might share it with you guys c:
Do you hear the rain
cracking against my window?
The stormy clouds
that cover my mind.
The antidepressants
all over the counter.
I lost what i used to know
the feeling of enjoyment
that use to brighten my day.
My friends
i knew and love
that walk out in my life.
The lover i trust
who pack his bags and left.
I trap in my own room
the walls are closing in.
Feeling like…
im trap in a box.
No one is here
to smooth my troubles.
No one is here
to hear my cries.
No one is here…
to tell me…
i will stay […]
The marks on my arms
the needle in my hand.
The ugly stabs
that was on the tip.
I must hide away
I must fade somewhere.
The rules i must exceed
to be perfect.
In the eyes of others
i’m coated with make up
the long sleeves i wear
i hide no cuts.
The poison i inject
in my body
it is not drugs
that wears out my body
that flows in my veins
as it crease into my body.
I didn’t pass out from the needles
it was what i had become
it was the need to be perfect
It was the need from […]
I feel like i bother people. I feel like i make them worry to much. I feel clingy for some reason. That every time i talk to people i always think that why is she talking to me or why wont she leave me alone or that why is she bothering me. Its always the reason why i keep silent at times. I always know i bother him. I really don’t know why. I know he must be ignoring me since i havent talk to him since last week. It saddens me that i can’t be that special confident girl. It seems like i can’t […]
I had a cuts all over my ugly body
you just stare.
I had a knife dripping with blood
you were motionless.
I lay my knife against my neck
you stare at my action.
I added more and more pressure
but you didn’t say stop.
I felt blood drip down as i stare at you
you couldn’t stop me.
You didn’t stop me.
I fell back as i look at the nothingness
all i heard was your footsteps
as you were walking away.
Suicide…
look what you done to me.
Suicide…
see what i have become.
Cutting and burning
you are my friends.
Razor i love
when you bring me pain.
I can’t see the bright side
So i mind as well have died.
I can’t denied
what i crave the most.
A rope around my neck
Or water in my lungs.
Gas that makes me gag
Pills i couldn’t control
Suicide
you become what i hate.
Sleep is all i really do, except be on my laptop. Soon enough, that will be taken away. My mom yell at me for sleep. If she haven’t notice. Thats all i got to do. And she wouldn’t even let me explain either. Lets face it. I can’t live in this household anymore. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Why does my life have to be so boring. So depressing. So… miserble.
I have a temporery problem that needs a permented soultion.
http://www.givesmehope.com/
You know what i hate about them. Everything!. They consently judge me on the things i do. I brought this cool hat WITH my own birthday money and all i get is constent complaints. If they didnt fucking like it they could had gotten me something. But nyuu none of them did. And today i had my hat on and my dad keeps say that i like those white girls clothes. Are you fucking me? Are you fucking me? Maybe you havent realize this, but you barely ever come on. Have you not realize that i now hate talking to you cause you certainly always […]
Why? Why must the person i know be gone from me. The aching feeling not being able to talk to him anymore. To laugh with him. To hug and smiile knowing i have him in my arms and we were destient to meet. Why god? Why take someone who met the world to me. Who met the world to everyone. Was this all just a plan? a trick? What could that possible be. I would cry out my tears knowing i cant get him back. That i have to wait till my time is up to be able to see him again. Although he didn’t […]
This week is like July all over again! Who knew i would come back to something that happens every year. Really? Three arugements in one week. Saddens gather up in to dust and all they say was a mask. Just that who knew that someone you know was this close to commiting suicide on you. Get you worry all day just thinking will i ever see them again. If i had to aruge about something like this? we are really crupted. By the way he didnt do it. He was close but he didnt. This much worrying over one person? It seems i always worry […]
What am i doing wrong? Is it the words i say? The prescene of me being here? What! What! What is going on? This been an horrible week. Had an arugement with one of my friends. Then today i had to more and now i dont know whats gonna happen to me and my bf. And my friend whom i had the horrible arugement left. He left me just like my best friend did. Now we are just two complete strangers. I know now of them. I never seen them in my life. I never commuicate with them. I have no memories of them. What […]