It doesn’t ever get better does it? I’ve been feeling like this for 6 years and I keep trying to tell myself things will get better. They don’t. It feels like the world is constantly falling apart and rebuilding itself around me. Every time it rebuilds it looks bigger and better it seems like it’ll finally be the thing that makes me happy. Then, more spectacularly than before, it crumbles. It crumbles suddenly and wholly. I don’t think I can handle any more of these demolitions of my life.