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September 4th, 2010by Tobias

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I Just Tell It Like It Is

August 29th, 2010by Tobias

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August 26th, 2010by Tobias

Please, I need some help. Forget about what causes it; I’m just sick of being in pain. I notice that I can have a few good days during the week if I’m lucky, but the rest of the time I’m in pain and I’m just tired of it. And it’s such a shame to throw away a potentially good life, but I don’t know what to do anymore.  I can really see how good it can be if my mental handicaps didn’t bring me down all the time and I just keep saying to myself, “It’s not fair.” I don’t know what this came from or …

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Muscle Dysmorphia Is Ruining My Life

August 24th, 2010by Tobias

www.facebook.com/TheyCallMeManhattan Please feel free to add me if you find refuge in any of my writing or you’d like to talk to a critical thinker. Today went pretty badly, as I was overly concerned with my physique yet again. I have a condition called Muscle Dysmorphia; a specific term from a broader term known as Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD). Muscle Dysmorphia (MD) is commonly referred to as Bigorexia because as the name implies, it is an obsession with the physique, only with the opposite desires of an anorexic. I wish to be bigger and weigh more. I cannot stress enough how much this means to …

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A Revelation, or Simply Humility?

August 3rd, 2010by Tobias

 

I put this before all my notes. You may add me if  you like. Always looking for like-minds to chat with. www.facebook.com/theycallmemanhattan

It’s been a while since I’ve written a note. I feel one is due. I’ve been feeling as if

my writing skills have been steadily declining; as if my predisposition to write well-

structured and perspicacious writing is losing it’s substance. I think I attribute this

feeling of “lost talent” if you will, to the fact that my writing seldom comes from the

heart anymore. It’s been that way for the last month or two. I have to literally sit and

think about my next sentence before I …

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An Overview of Suicide

July 14th, 2010by Tobias

You are always free to add me on www.facebook.com/theycallmemanhattan I could always use more insightful minds on my list. This “note” is something that I wrote about a year ago, very broad, but I understand that for some parts the organization has suffered.  I haven’t completed this, nor have I fixed all of the grammatical mistakes, however I believe that if you feel suicidal, this is something you should read. It’s fair and true. Thankyou.

Suicide

Why would anyone ever even consider suicide? Better yet, why would anyone even think about it at all? What could possibly be so bad that would make someone think that …

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Though I Don’t Talk About Suicide, This Is A Contributing Factor

July 11th, 2010by Tobias

If you relate with my philosophy in any way, I’m always open to networking with like-minds. You may add me on www.facebook.com/theycallmemanhattan

You know, I’ve come a long way with my current therapist. I’ve had so many of them but not once, except with this one, have I ever been fully understood. I think that my problems are very different from others’ so it may have been that that made it difficult to “connect” with previous therapists. Fundamentally, my problems are probably the same as anyone elses. I yearn for companionship; platonic or otherwise. I yearn for acceptance, gratification, fulfillment, a purpose, to be happy, …

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Subjective Morality Is Causing Me Pain

July 7th, 2010by Tobias

What the hell am I supposed to do? I don’t know if you’ve read any of my previous posts, but if you have, you’d have noticed a consistency in them as far as the problem I have with society’s subjective morality. I have several notes I’ve written on facebook that I welcome you to read. www.facebook.com/theycallmemanhattan I am just so sick of the subjective morality that has been instilled. I have had it! I just can’t handle it anymore. People are SO SURE that this construct is flawless and absolute and they’re just so wrong. Anytime I try telling these “monkeys” this truth, they …

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Does Anyone Else Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder?

June 27th, 2010by Tobias

You know, I’ve come a long way with my current therapist. I’ve had so many of them but not once, except with this one, have I ever been fully understood. I think that my problems are very different from others’ so it may have been that that made it difficult to “connect” with previous therapists. Fundamentally, my problems are probably the same as anyone elses. I yearn for companionship; platonic or otherwise. I yearn for acceptance, gratification, fulfillment, a purpose, to be happy, etc.. All of those are rudimentary foundations for humans to desire. What separates my problems from others is my perception of things …

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Peoples’ Ignorance is Draining

June 19th, 2010by Tobias

I don’t think that any human ever truly wishes to die. I think all humans desire an ideal lifestyle. Some of them are unable to live it, so they choose to not live at all. Ofcourse, there’s bound to a few people that are an exception to this generalization. I’d like to know why they’d sincerely like to die. What are their motives other than great curiosity of what happens after death?

As for myself, negative feelings often override the positive ones. I find humans in general to be relatively stupid. Humans tend to be more comfortable with believing things that make them feel good than …

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I Don’t Know How Much More I Can Take

June 8th, 2010by Tobias

I find myself to continue to be suicidal because of my objective views of life. I recognize the emptiness of every moral, value, or principle and I can’t seem to adopt enough of them for myself because I hardly find any of them reputable enough to call my own. I’m so sick of the subjective morality of this place. I’m sick of hearing about how I need to find Jesus, I’m sick of the constant reverence and respect for a deity, and I can’t seem to find anyone that thinks the way I do. Anytime I express that, I’m always torn down with, “well, you …

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My Objective Perception of Life With Acknowledged Biases

June 5th, 2010by Tobias

I feel like sharing some of my thoughts. I’m able to write very well when I’m upset, I’ve noticed. Two things are always responsible for making me upset or suicidal. This has been true especially for the last 5 years. The first thing is my physique. You know what an anorexic is, right? Well for different reasons I exhibit some of the same feelings an anorixic has, but just the opposite. I cry about not being big enough. I do whatever I can to GAIN weight, which is exactly the opposite of what an anorexic does. My therapist reminds me that quite often, anorexics aren’t …

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So What the Hell Do I Do Now?

May 30th, 2010by Tobias

You want the whole truth about suicide? I’ll tell you…
For the record, I’m usually very perspicacious in my writing, but for this post I may not be. I’m just pissed and upset and I’m going to tell it like it is.

I’m tired of feeling pain. I’m tired of having nothing to look forward to. It’s not right and I don’t want any part in it anymore.

First of all, I’m really tired of all the bias against suicide. These uneducated simpletons think that suicidal is inherently selfish or irrational. Granted, a lot of times it’s acted out without any real preceeding analysis or careful assessment, but …

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