Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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This is gonna be a rough one, but it has to happen

March 25th, 2015by serenityseeker

okay, so i was just writing a post that gave everyone all the information that could possibly need and then some about any reason I may have for feeling blue. I had to stop myself mid way because I realized it wasn’t even helping me out. I was boring myself! Instead, what I am going to try to do here is just blurt it all out. Say what I’m feeling, maybe add a reason or two, and then move on to the next whatever comes to mind. I’m hoping this does at least a little something for someone if not for me.
3………………3………………….2………………………………….2……………………………………2……………………………..1…………..GO!

worthless. I …

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Looking into his heart and soul -

March 22nd, 2015by AvidJourney

I am drinking a beer. I have dried tears on my distant face. I am reminded of the most severe pain I’ve ever experienced. I have glimpsed into my father’s mind and seen a tiny bit of the damage that relentless emotional damage, drugs and physical pain were causing him: before he decided that he did not want to deal with any of it anymore. “…made me turn to drugs and use the needle and my drug addiction to destroy myself..” “Makes me want to be left alone and not bothered by people.” “My moods are usually controlled by how often I think of my …

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My Life

March 16th, 2015by Dontjudgeme

faithWhere do i start well first and most importantly i love my family but sometimes i feel they dont love me back.I have been having these thoughts for a while now,everything in my life is just gone wrong.For one i cant find a girlfriend but that’s mostly because deep down inside im really afraid of rejection.My sister is on dyalisis and needs a kidney,so me and my mother take of her together because my sisters father was deported a while ago and he has never took care of her and my little brother anyway.My father was …

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Spare me the ‘confidence’ boosts

March 14th, 2015by daikirai

one day left. Its quite nice being so numb, i no longer think so much and no longer care about how it may affect her and everyone else. without her even being near me i can tell how hurt she is, i wish she would just let go, it would be so much easier…..people always say it’ll get better, well it never did it just got worse and even now people say it but they still don’t realise for some it never gets better, it just gets worse. I wonder whats after…..death, is it worse then this? Or better then this?

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I never knew just how much….

March 14th, 2015by serenityseeker

my mind really meant to me. I spent the majority of my teen and adolecent years concerned with how I looked, what I wore, who I spent time with and so on. My educaiton was never a really huge concern of mine (although I did care if I was able to get the higher marks on my sudies along with my peers) but I did okay as far as all of that went. Even into my 20’s I wasn’t as concerned with what I knew as much as I was with what I was doing at the time.
Now, here I am in my late …

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Every Beginning Must Have An End

March 14th, 2015by DarkShadow

Hello everyone,

i would like to preface this by saying thank you to the wonderful staff who have created this website and for those who will read this. I appreciate your time.

I am a 26 year old man. I stand six feet tall and have a decent body and some pretty nifty talents and gifts, but sadly i in my short time on this planet have managed to destroy every single good thing that has ever happened to me through very poor decision making. I currently perform stand up comedy, i am in a nirvana tribute band and i have a variety of extracurricular and …

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June.

March 11th, 2015by freakthecreature

I’m going to go by my middle name, which is Briana, i’m 16 and obviously a girl. I decided that in June, I will die.

 

I wanted to do it on a month when no one in my family has birthdays or anything special going on. Reason why? I don’t to ruin anyone’s ‘special’ events during that month. I have now, until June to get my sister out of the house. I do not want her there when it happens, let alone have a 6 year old find me. I am planning everything down to the time.

I’m not sure how I plan to do it, but …

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My Story Part 1

March 10th, 2015by whatawaist2000

At age 6 I was raped. I covered it up, pretended to be happy. Pretended it didn’t happen. I was extremely shy and scared of people. He told me he would kill me if I told anyone.

When I was 7 my family moved. Leaving the man who raped me behind. I still miss the country side, my brother and I would go into the woods and catch animals. We had 2 begals, my dad traded them for a pig. He slautered it.

When school started I wasn’t very popular, and people bullied me. Calling me crack hills when I bent over, shoving me in the hall, …

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I’m so tired of “trying”

March 10th, 2015by whyohwhy1113

I just recently was discharged from a psych ward. This was my second hospitalization. I’m still suicidal and have been for a long time. My parents told me today that I need to “try harder to be happy.” I’m just sick of hearing shit like this.

I just feel like dying, how am I supposed to stop all of a sudden. I just don’t understand their logic. I’ve been struggling with depression and self harm for about 8 years now (since I was 10 years old). And haven’t felt happy to be alive in about 2 years. My suicidal thoughts / planning have increased and became …

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Affectionless

March 9th, 2015by 5201jm

Well to start off I don’t think I would consider myself suicidal, i’d just prefer to not be living. I mean it’s not like my life is bad or anything, I mean I’ve never been abused or homeless or anything. I’ve just been alone a lot growing up. it’s nobody’s fault really, my dad just worked a lot and all my siblings and mom lived in different houses. Plus i practically never had friends over unless they already lived in my neighborhood. As far as my love life goes i didn’t get my first girlfriend until sophomore year of high school and it was only …

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in sickness and in health

March 8th, 2015by scartopia

 

I know I’m dying and they know it too but they’re too afraid to face reality

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Why do people think/act this way?

March 7th, 2015by mywall_wontfall

I always seem to end up in a melancholy state. No matter what I do I always end up there again. Things only go good for a while then bam. I got to start all over again from the beginning. It seems to happens no matter what I do.

I guess the reason I feel this way is, because I know no one really gives a fuck about anyone else. I’m guilty of this myself and the only reason I act the way I do is because everyone else is doing it, so why not me too then? Why should I be the one that gives …

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Here’s an idea

March 6th, 2015by impossible_girl

Dear Everyone Who Knows Me IRL:

If you don’t actually want to know how I’m doing, why don’t you stop asking me how I’m doing? Terribly sorry to inconvenience you all by refusing to simply respond with a (incredibly fake) bright smile and a cheery “Fine, thanks! How are you?” It’s almost like I have the notion that I can be open with people who are supposedly friends. Crazy, huh?

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Confessions to an Old Friend

March 5th, 2015by Sammi6xoxo

“But sometimes, I can see myself sinking so far down. Getting so desperate for some sort of tangible stability or peace. I can see myself getting a gun and swallowing the barrel.. I can’t See myself ever pulling the trigger, but I can almost hear the defining silence that comes after the blast. And I just wonder. Is there anything after this? If so, could it be better? I just want to be stable. I want to be okay. I can picture this landscape. Tall grass and a weeping willow in the middle of the field. Mountains are barely visible against the cool summer sky. …

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Bitter Sweet

March 4th, 2015by lezbehonest94

My wife came and stayed with me last night. And brought one of our kids. I missed her. We lived together. Then we were separated due to her fake beatfriend/roomate giving her altimatums on me being there. Today is the fifth day we’ve been living apart. Last night went great. Of course we bickered about what has been going on and stuff sence I’ve been gone the house isn’t a home . its been turned into a frat house. She promises to have me back home soon. She promises to have me back in her arms. In our bed with our pup and our normal …

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My battle with depression and suicide (Help)

March 3rd, 2015by HopelessAD

I have been dealing with suicidal depression for over a year now. I’m 18 I no longer live at home due to some family issues and am currently living with my sister who I split rent with. I have a full time job as a cashier, I go to college, and overall am a very busy person. I am actually adopted from a family of drug addicts. My birth dad left my mother when I was born and she did some drugs while pregnant. This caused me to have a form of high functioning Autism called Aspergers (AD) syndrome, ADHD, and OCD. Some of the …

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Is it true? Please Answer

March 2nd, 2015by Quiver

I’ve built my life on trust… confiding in people, caring for them, loving them. And today I’ve realised most, if not all, have broken my trust in the last few weeks, when I needed them most.  I’m doubting whether or not people are worth it… Is trust really not worth it?

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Do you ever think about

March 1st, 2015by Ascending

what happens after the end?

I have been suicidal since I can remember. The only thing that has stopped me from attempting (in recent years) is the fear of what will happen after I catch the bus. What if I am successful in my endeavor, only to end up in the same position again?

I have the means. I have the will. Now I just need the courage to take my final step.

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Caring and Kindness

February 28th, 2015by Streamers

I know people who are kind, and think they are never unkind. I know people who cars for some but not others. And it hurts.

My reading teacher asked yesterday, “Aren’t I the kindest teacher you’ve ever met?”

My answer was no. I even told her that she has hurt my feelings multiple times, but I didn’t tell her why. (She was shocked) I doubt she would understand.

Nearly everyone has hurt me. Because they just don’t care.

And without the caring and kindness of others, I’m lost. I try and be kind to others, but if no one cares, it sets a bad example.

I hate to say I’m …

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The Hopeless Child

February 27th, 2015by nobody special

Ever since I was born, I have always been a shy person. I would try to ignore my own feelings to help others. In fact, I was forced to at such a young age since my friends were all a few months younger than me. Therefore, since I was the eldest, I was the one who got reprimanded and to my young mind, did everything wrong. This idea was reinforced by my mother shouting at both me and my dad a lot. My dad and her yelled at each other every night. They tried to hide it from me, but I was a poor sleeper. …

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