Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Let Me Go

September 26th, 2016by caribgirl

I’m trying. I really am.

I’m trying to understand you and why you say things that demean me. How is it that with just your words you can take away my power? You tell me I cannot act or behave in a certain way, that I have no right to do so. I have to tell you everything going on in my life because you support me. I have to tell you where I am and what I am doing at all times. I have to let you know how I am doing in school and exactly when things are due and you take it upon …

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Why

September 24th, 2016by notonlyou

Why do people take advantage of you?

Why are people user-friendly?

Why are people so fake?

Why do i let them do that to me?

I brought this upon myself, the only one to blame is me.

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why am i doing this… why?

September 22nd, 2016by depressive_cries

i just… okay so my best friend got to know about the reason of my depression through here and i was planningto tell her but couldnt get it out of me.. now that she does know i dont know what to do but to isolate myself and i dont know what to say anymore…

things have be so grimm lately and my behaviour towards her is so unjust i hate myself not being able to come to peace with myself and tell myself that its okay, whats done is done move on.

I just cant and i dont know what to do. Maybe self isolation is my …

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actually, i have every reason to be scared

September 15th, 2016by death bunny

in about two weeks i’ll be leaving my one bedroom flat to move in with my girlfriend and our nine months old baby boy. we were living together for four months and another two months after he was born, but things fell apart as we drifted away from each other, trying to maintain ourselves without letting this parenting thing take over who we are. i needed time alone to do my art stuff, letting off some of my steam, which ultimately led me to rent my current flat.

i’ve been living here for the past six months, while my girlfriend went back to her parents’ house …

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Reopening the project…

September 12th, 2016by 2sadhappy

It’s been about a year or so since I was here but something tells me it’s time to come back for a bit. I want to be here to be a lifeline for somebody. I used to receive emails from around the world and hear amazing stories. I had to step away for a while to catch my own breath but I like to hear from you guys.

I don’t consider myself suicidal at the moment although I have cut before and sometimes think about the silence of death as peaceful. I probably stand out a little in that I see death I’d say at least …

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Day 3

September 11th, 2016by Nico The Robot

Yo, Nico again.

I’m pretty excited about today because I’m gonna go out with my friends and stuff later. Well that’s if I manage to keep my parents happy today and not get them mad like always.. They’re really hot headed and stubborn so even the slightest thing can make them explode.. They scare me a lot..

Heheh but anyways we’re gonna be going to the mall and stuff to hang out.They want to go to the halloween store but honestly I’m a huge pussy so I don’t know if I’m gonna go with them. ;-; Mm but they took out one of my favorite places there.. It …

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Day 2

September 10th, 2016by Nico The Robot

Hey guys, it’s Nico again.

Heheh it’s nice to see people being nice to me here, most people I’ve met on the internet are jerks haha. Oh, and thanks to the people who said happy birthday hehe~ As you all said I’ll try to keep my upbeatness.

As of right now life’s been kinda alright. Mm, well yesterday wasn’t so much. Mainly because of school stuff. Especially health and safety.. We had to do a group project this week where we had to make a skit about saying no to someone telling you to do drugs, drink, or cut class.. I got placed with a group that …

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Day 1

September 5th, 2016by Nico The Robot

So, this is my first post. It’s my birthday actually so that’s kinda nice. I guess I don’t know whenever it’s my birthday my family usually makes it a normal day and normal days are hell with them. Today though my Mom allowed me to go with my friends to this arcade, which I’m surprised she allowed me to do since she never lets me do anything.

Oh, right, I never really introduced myself. My name’s Nico, well, it’s not my real name but it’s a nickname my friends gave me, we all have one from the anime LoveLive. Yeah, I’m a weeb. I’m

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No title…just how I feel…lost, hurt, alone, ABANDONED and BETRAYED

September 5th, 2016by whenallthestarsfall

There was a time in my life that I would have looked in the mirror, seen what I now once again see and run.  Fly away…escape in flight, run back into the night, where in the end, I have always belonged.

Time is that ever horrible tick of deep space; that reminds me that I am worthless and nothing will ever change that.  That there is only one path in the end.  I’ve seen all the roads and no matter what, change will never come, for there is only one road in the end to be had.

Once again, the clock …

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I Feel So Alone…..

September 4th, 2016by sh0tgun_

My Boyfriend Recently Broke Up With Me Because His Parents Forced Him To. I Try To Talk To My Friends On XboxLIVE. But I Still Have Xbox360. They Have XboxOne… They Mean So Much To Me. We Were Actually Planning On Living Together Along With My Boyfriend. Yeah I Met Them Online Gaming… But I Met My BF In Person.. Best Day Ever. My Other Friend Not Yet But Soon.
Now…….. I Feel Like Everything’s Falling Apart. And I Don’t Know What To Do Or Who To Turn To… I Used To Be A Cutter… But I Stopped For My Friends. Because I Know They Would …

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Do I Deserve To Be Angry…?

September 4th, 2016by GerbzBaby

Every time me and my friend meet up to talk after work someone he knows shows up. He leaves me, whether I’m right beside him, in his car, etc. He doesn’t come back until the ones working decide they need to go fearing they’d get introuble. I can’t talk to his friends. They give me an odd vibe, I’ve tried to talk with them but they don’t seem to like me. I’m an idiot when I talk so now I just shut myself up.

He comes back and apologizes, “are you mad at me because I left you?” Of fucking course I am.. But I didn’t …

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My plan, and my question.

September 4th, 2016by Shootmeup

I think about killing my self often. These thoughts of suicide, I’ve had them for the past five years. As the time has passed, up until now they have only progressed and became more and more frequent.  Now, I seriously think about killing my self on average of about three times a day at least. I’ve noticed that through out the years I’ve only gotten more serious about it. As I recall, it began with thoughts of more unrealistic methods of suicide or death. Back then I was basically just toying with the idea of killing my self. Recently, in the past two years, I’ve …

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How do you explain depression?

August 31st, 2016by youwouldntrealise

My dad cant seem to understand why i am, like i am.

How do i even begin to explain;
Why im so sensitive about things
Why i stay in bed the majority of the day
Why i cancel a lot of my plans.

We had a fall out because apparently his mum came down to see me before i go away to uni & i had a bad turn so had to cancel. He is still going to meet her with the rest of my family… So its not 100% pointless for her travels. He went out of his way to make me feel so guilty i am so close …

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I Thought I Was Better, But I Actually Got Worse

August 28th, 2016by GerbzBaby

I can’t keep going on like this. I feel so unappreciated. I feel so lonely. I need help but no one doesn’t want to take time out of their day to help me.. All they do is worry about themselves. They care little for those like me who are suffering.. I thought I was getting better when in all actuality I’m just getting worse. I’m so sleep deprived. Working just makes everything worse. As I’m sitting here on my break all I can think about is suicide. I feel that will be the only way to release me from my suffering. I can’t

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So my stepfather has a chance of dying.

August 28th, 2016by Thinking-of-a-good-name

My stepfather has gone into “septic”. And has a chance of dying. I really don’t care too much what happens to the piece of shit either way. He abused me and basically took away my childhood growing up. Am I a bad person?

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No Idea Why

August 26th, 2016by AshCoveredAngel

I am stressing about trying to get employment. I’ve been applying for jobs on and off for 5 years now and gotten literally 3 interviews.

The main reason why I have no idea why I’m stressing is because I have no plan to try and fight through postpartum depression if I have to go through it again.

Basically once I’m not prego I’ll kill myself if it gets bad again. That’s where I’m at.

I don’t have to worry about the Fate of my kids either because well I’ll be dead. Nothing will matter. Not the good or bad.

That’s how death works.

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coping and shit…

August 26th, 2016by bent-not-broken

My coping skills are about as great as my social skills…they are shit, but I get through the best I know how. At my lowest you can find me hidden in the darkest room, music mind as loud as it will go, it blocks the world around me out and sometimes if I’m lucky it helps me to not focus so Much on my own thoughts, being left alone with ones thoughts, especially ones as morbid as my own, is a living hell I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemy.
I feel like I’m at the end of my rope. I’m at my lowest. …

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Sick and Tired

August 25th, 2016by No Resting For The Weary

I needed to rant so here I am. I have social anxiety and it’s very hard to express myself. Whether it be in public or online. Up until two years ago, I didn’t even know what social anxiety was. When this girl online describe what she went through all her life, I thought to myself. That sounds like me. But my family and sisters call me weird. They don’t even think social anxiety is a real thing.  They are very close-minded and like to label people. Plus, they think they are better than everyone. The sister closer in age to me is a spoiled as*h*le, …

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I’m not sure what to do.

August 25th, 2016by Your future friend

So,this is my first post,and I hope it will be the last. My dad is in terrible shape. He smokes,he’s admittedly very overweight,he has a bad back and a bad heart,and it’s a true and terrifying thought that he could drop dead at any moment,and he’ll leave me forever. I can’t stand what he does to himself,it’s as is he wants to die and leave me and my brother and sister. I never want to leave his side because I’m afraid something will happen and I won’t be there to help him. Every morning I get to wake up every morning to him waking me …

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I’m not real

August 24th, 2016by velveteennightingale

I’m not a real person because I am going crazy inside with my depression that no one can see.  I am not a real cutter because I don’t cut every day (most of the time).  I’m not a real anorexic because my BMI is technically normal.  I don’t fit in completely with the extremely poor because I am no longer homeless.  I don’t fit in with the rich because I am far from rich.  I don’t belong in my family because I have different tastes in music, books, movies–I haven’t told them my real likes because I’m afraid of rejection: they think the sorts of …

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