Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Tomorrow

January 26th, 2015by Streamers

Well, Annie owes me her bottom dollar…

I can’t take it anymore, I can’t.  I’ve been taunted, teased, and emotionally tortured for way too long.

I break down at the simplest thing. I’ve lost every bit of my will to go on.

All that is left is a yearning for death and escape.

I don’t have school tomorrow, that gives me plenty of time to plan and act.

I have nothing keeping me here, so why stay?

I’m leaving.

Sadly, no one’s gonna miss me when I’m gone.

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Sacrifice

I don’t know if anybody is going to read this, I don’t know how this works, but I hope it helps me… I’ve been having a lot of problems at home, with my dad being mad at my mom and I, barely acknowledging that we live there too. There is just too much tension and […]

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Grey Area

January 23rd, 2015by insignificantobserver

It’s hard to remember that there is never truly a ‘right way’ of dealing with suicide, whether it’s you or a family member that has attempted. People will always get hurt, there will always be those feelings of shame, pointing fingers, those that will calls us melodramatic and say things that could tighten the noose a day sooner.
So knowing that, why not just buck up and take on that added shame when you reach out? I tell myself. Why am I so afraid of uttering my deepest secrets to the person that I’m expected to do that with?

Because the moment I do, he will remind …

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I want to protect my brother

January 23rd, 2015by Melancholic

Hello,

I am a girl that now lives a life like any other citizen and do not have any particular horrible family problem — so far, at least. But I have kept on noticing how my brother seems to be mistreated in the house, as I on the other hand kept on being spoiled and cooed with by my parents. I keep thinking it’s very, very unfair for me to have such attention and for him to always be frowned at.

What makes me think he is mistreated is because every single time he voices his opinions, my father and mother both would reply with …

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You.

January 23rd, 2015by hellblau

You don’t deserve the way my heart aches at the thought of you.

You were red. You liked me cause I was blue. You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky and you decided purple just wasn’t for you.

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Admitting it

January 22nd, 2015by Streamers

Thoughts of death have been plaguing me all day. I nearly came clean.

Now I don’t think I can.

I just learned that my sister’s frenemy is very suicidal and not answering texts. That was my first reason.

I also just found out that my sister used to cut herself. (I guessed it, but still) I don’t want to seem like an attention hog.

I’m scared that now that my sister has told me, she’ll hate me I’d I do anything, and claim that I was jealous of attention.

I’ve done school debate with teacher research on lethal doses of different chemicals (such as potassium cyanide) to question the possibilities …

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Friend.

January 21st, 2015by hellblau

If You had a friend who spoke to you in the same way you sometimes speak to yourself, ¿How long would you allow that person to be your friend?

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Man’s Best Friend & My Best Friend

January 21st, 2015by Trogdor7620

 

Just two days ago, my dog had to be put to sleep. As I’m typing this, I should be getting some sleep myself. It’s 1:30am, and I don’t want to, nor can’t I, sleep.

The worst part? He was my only real friend. From the moment I owned him, even to this day, I had, and still have, a grand total of zero human friends.

All my schoolmates did was one of three things: say hello once a month, ignore me, or see how far they could push me, if they could make me snap.

It must have been their favourite game: Push The Freak Until He Breaks. …

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Just Stupid Things

January 20th, 2015by piercetheflower

1/16/15 This my first post on this profile. I had a previous one but could not log into it so this is my new one.

I had a shitty day Friday and it’s really hard when everyone says for me to “let it go” or “stop thinking about it, wait and see. Life will get better.” I’ve been told these things the past 7 years. I am almost 16, everything is boiling down to this one thing.

All my life I was abused, bullied and depressed. I don’t remember the last time I was ever fully happy. Every time I think about my past it just makes …

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January 19th, 2015by hellblau

You’re the most beautiful pain. You’re so cruel and vain. But still, I’d go if you call me, I’d die if you ask me. I’d fight if you want me. I’d do anything for you. I love you more than you could knew. I just wish I have the courage to tell you, what I feel for you. Wish I could tell, how I wish I could erase you, but you’re on my daily thoughts and on my days. That makes it harder to forget. But your such a beautiful pain, that I’d be glad to have you for the rest of my days. …

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Idk what to do

January 17th, 2015by darksouI

uhm hi everyone,im new here.so last summer i tried to kill myself with pills but i failed and ended up in hospital for 2 weeks.i was diagnosed with major depression.my whole family thinks this is some kind of joke,they think that theres no way i could be depressed bc im just a teen and its so disgustin and annoying.my parents are horrible.theyre calling me names and expect too much.i cry almost everynight because i cant get their words oyt of my head.my mom thinks “i’ve everything” but to her everything is money and material stuff.they never tried talking to me and always act like everything …

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No Happiness….No Reason To Live.

January 16th, 2015by BrokenHope

I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant, I’m only 19, turning 20 in the 7th month of the year. The guy that I may be pregnant by is not the best, but I cant help that. I told my mom and siblings I think I’m pregnant, my mama did not freak out, nor did my sister or little brother, but my older brother told me he’s gonna kill my child if I am. I know I might be young but if I am pregnant the last thing I wanna do is kill it or have it killed by someone else. I actually want a kid and it …

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End.

January 15th, 2015by hellblau

Once again, I considered leaving all behind,
but I can’t, it’s the only hope I have.
And the sun comes out and there’s pain in every single choice,
the moon brings another reason to hold on.
There are some times that I even pray,
asking not to die like this.

I’m think I’m gonna fail,
Feel like it’s getting to an end.

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Vulnerability

January 13th, 2015by cr-123456

Hello,

Thanks for taking the time to read this post. I have been thinking about shame and guilt. What I’ve noticed so far that I have done some terrible things in my life as a result of shame. I have intense suicidal thoughts due to shame. Shame, meaning I am a bad person and guilt meaning I have bad behaviors.

At times, I think people use shame and guilt interchangeably, which is detrimental to someone who struggles with mental illness. I have a lot of shame. I am shameful of my ethnic background, I am shameful of my behaviors and people I’ve hurt. There’s several things wrong …

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One and counting.

January 12th, 2015by hellblau

First day and I still have to fight to not feel so fucking down when you’re not around. Your presence was what kept me alive. I miss you so much. Please come back ._.

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3 hours

January 12th, 2015by hellblau

I just talked with you like for three hours straight and I feel like flying, but I was dying to tell you how much you mean to me, and my fucking brain turned my feelings into words like ¿ How you been ?

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I won’t write you a love song (on purpose)

January 11th, 2015by impossible_girl

I’m not supposed to be that sort of woman, the one who has that mythical “other half”. Soul mates are supposed to be a joke, a laughably illogical lie that the deluded and overly romantic comfort themselves with: “If I just wait long enough, I will find my soul mate.” Yeah. Right. You and I know better. I’m experienced. I’ve been used and abused so often it’s old hat now. You’re nearly six years my junior and still running scared from letting yourself fall for anyone. Newsflash. Too late. We happened to each other before …

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I am MAD!!!

January 11th, 2015by Pretend Girl

I am mad! Mad at my depression that interrupted my life, caused heartache and hurts. Separated me from my family for my emotional safety. I am mad at the counseling I had that went no where because I didn’t understand my emotional state of mind, 20 years later!

Over the years I had counseling, but they said counseling wasn’t about dredging up your past, it’s about moving forward! But if the unresolved thoughts and feelings aren’t examined, it IS what I needed/need.

I tell you I am also mad about how many people are affected this way- family of origin does harm and leaves the child to heal …

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January 11th, 2015by StrayMuttBall

Society doesn’t care
My “friends”don’t care
My family….I can’t even begin

I feel guilty about everything, though many times i could not have known better

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Confused

January 9th, 2015by chopsios

A bit of a background is that I was bullied by my older brother to stop it happening to my little brother (us being around 4 when it started him being around 15/16) that continued until I was about 13. Fortunately I guess I remember none of it on the other hand i don’t remember anything that happened before i was 13. I feel very uncomfortable talking to people first, i don’t mind talking i mean i bloody love talking to people it makes me so happy but I’m too scared to message them first because i feel like I’m a burden and because of …