Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Are you really gone?

October 24th, 2014by goingnumb

We dated for awhile then we were just friends things got messed up we hurt each other helped each other we met on here and you’ve been wanting to die just like I before we ever met I think. You really did it this time and i hope you didn’t im crying so hard I know you were in so much pain and I couldn’t fix you I tried so fucking hard and you even said you can’t be fixed I love you I hope you’re feeling peace for once

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Last night, I got a long hug. And someone listened to me.

October 22nd, 2014by AmIStuckNow

Someone really helped me. It’s long, but I want to put it into words and share.

Yesterday I felt extremely lonely. Devoid of all emotion. I just…couldn’t feel anything at all.

Almost anything. Just when I looked in the mirror and saw age spots and gray hair on someone so young it just showed the fighting I’ve been doing and stress of my life. At that moment I felt anger, worthlessness, and wasted years. It was like all of the emotions I’ve felt were physically manifesting themselves as a cruel reminder, every time I look the mirror – looking back at me.

I was thinking about suicide…again…but I …

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Begging

October 22nd, 2014by California_Baby18

Maybe its just me begging for attention. But people don’t care about me. And the sad thing is.. They lie about it… They hardly bother to even check with me. To see if I’m okay… There goes our Relationship. Thank you for skrewing it up. But I guess that’s what I get for trusting a Lier/Thief.. They told me about you yet they’re befriending .. They’re gonna get hurt.

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What is your difficulty setting?

October 20th, 2014by charlieregal

Lets play a game. I am going to comment my difficulty setting and I want you to tell me yours then think of two things that could make it worse.

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I think I’m about done

October 19th, 2014by depressednihilist95

I think I’m done with people. I wish they’d at least give me a chance to die without having to suffer with this melancholic mind of mine, but people never fail to disappoint. A peaceful escape is just too much to ask for. I have no friends outside of the family, only feeling okay with my mother and brother. Each day, I feel like I am drifting further apart from them as well. I’m losing interest in talking to people as there is nothing to say. My connections are based on nothing more than materialism. People just can’t connect with me emotionally, philosophically, etc., or …

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My father murdered my mom I’m tired of living

October 17th, 2014by dana2c4me

Since I can remember at age 4 my father has physical abused my mother and about two years ago he disappeared her into a canal and took her life away he is now in jail and not ever coming out and my mom was found this summer to make the story short and well I’m here struggling with everything my little sister had to move in with me and I think my bf does not like her sometimes I think he does not like me either I have no friends I block everyone out of mylife I trust no one due to my life experiences …

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The white dress

October 16th, 2014by lissbabe

When you dream of you cutting your arms and their never going to stop bleeding and then you step into that bath filled with cold water wearing that white dress and dreaming that you will never belong in this world but in the end why is there so many people that care? Why is it that people feel the need to be there for you when you know your not worth it? Why is it that you feel like you can never let your self live a bit? Why is it that you want to let someone know your deepest secrets but your scared they …

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I love you. I hate you.

October 16th, 2014by NotAttentionSeeking

I love you.
My love for you is illogical like a person living two lives at the same point in time.
I go crazy thinking about you. Every minute of every day, from the moment I wake up until the moment I go to bed, you circle my mind over and over again.
I ache for you deeply but you know what they say ‘absense makes the heart grow fonder’.
And you know my heart yerns for you.

I hate you. I fucking hate you.
I hate you for tricking me into loving you.
Your social media commentary, the way you would pay extra attention to me –
I hate that you …

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To the dearly departed.

October 14th, 2014by bmb

Everything is normal. Going along as it does. Then I’m reminded all of the sudden. Your not here. You left us. You killed yourself. It comes with no warning. I can never pinpoint what triggers the blunt reminder. But it steals my breath away. Every time. You. Are. Not. Here. Then the anger comes. It rises, bubbling away under the surface till it reaches my hands. Clenching my fingers into fists. Rises further. Gritting my teeth. Fuck you. Your stupid impulsive decision has ruined our lives. I never thought anyone would be able to make me feel such rage, let alone you. You who were …

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Conflicted (Opinions Much Appreciated)

October 13th, 2014by crossingboundaries

This is my second post. My first is a life story of sorts. But the basics you need to know before you read the rest of this are: 1. I’ve struggled with severe mental illness for over half my life, and I’m young. I’ve made five very serious suicide attempts and have been psychiatrically institutionalized 11 times. So, I’m a very experienced mental patient. 2. As ironic as it is, I work in an acute care mental health facility. Most of our patients are either suicidal or have just been medically cleared and sent to us after attempting suicide. So I guess you

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Dear Counselor

October 13th, 2014by KissOfDeath

I watch you listen to me,
but do you really hear me?

You use that sweet tone of voice, I’m sure that everyone gets,
I want to trust you, but your eyes are full of judgment and pity.

I am seeking help, but I am sure this is going to doom me.
I have nothing to say, I am choking on my tears.

I am so desperately looking for the solution to fix this problem.

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An actor in a play

October 11th, 2014by DawnNeverComes

I feel so pathetic. My life hasn’t even been that bad. I’ve never been physically abused by anyone. Both my parents are alive, and my family isn’t poor…

So why do I feel so depressed… So empty? I feel so tired, but I’m only 13. Why?

Maybe it’s because I have to put on a mask whenever someone is around, after all it’s been that way since I was 9… I think I’m even starting to trick myself with my own mask.

I feel like an actor in a play I never auditioned for… My script is prewritten and made to deceive, my mask to convince. I can’t …

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Failure

October 9th, 2014by StarsShineInDarkness

The day he was born I no longer felt alone.

He was mine to protect.

I failed.

 

That night, he saw.

He saw my blood.

He saw my cuts.

He heard my tears.

 

My biggest failure of all: I failed him.

 

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Listen

October 9th, 2014by RoseDavidson

Okay, so few weeks ago I posted about my dad commiting suicide and lot of you were commenting about how you wish for your dads or family to be dead.
Let me tell you that before all this I wanted my dad gone as well. He had done horrible things to me and to my mother. He had been always drunk and had played hazard games, spending all his money. And I hated him, for all the pain he caused. But be careful what you wish for. Once your family is gone. There is no way back. And no matter how bad they are on …

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I do not want to live but I cannot commit suicide!

October 9th, 2014by NotAttentionSeeking

My life is a living nightmare. I want to die so badly but I can’t ever seem to follow though any plans to commit suicide. It isn’t about anything religious or some sort of moral dilemma. I guess half of reason I am unable to go through with it is the immense pain suicide may be. I mean let’s face it, jumping from a really tall building and having your bones crushed into a million pieces doesn’t seem very attractive as does jumping in front of a train. I have heard so many failed suicide attempts that I fear being in immense pain in a …

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My Suicide Note

October 8th, 2014by NotAttentionSeeking

Dear Mom,

I am very sorry for the hurt I am about to cause you and everyone who has loved me. You have been the best mother a daughter could ever hope for and I know I would not have lasted this long if it was not for you. You know I have been battling my depression for as long as I can remember.  The medication has evidently not been working and I just want the pain to end. I don’t belong in this world and I don’t see things changing anytime soon.  I just want you to know that it was never my intention to …

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Pills

October 8th, 2014by curlylion720

I am a 14 year old teenager, depressed and suicidal. I know this may sound stupid but does anyone know any pills that will make me pass out if I overdose? I am not exactly trying to kill myself, just a way of revealing my pain to my parent without having to actually talk to them, but let’s just say I wouldn’t care if I died overdosing.

I know I will receive lots of “don’t do this” “you don’t deserve life” and “you’re worth it” but I don’t believe any of that. I hate my life and myself so much, I don’t think anything or anyone …

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Hiding scars

October 8th, 2014by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times …

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