Archive for the 'Family & Friends Effects' Category

A Shattered Heart

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

If you are reading this, please listen with an open heart. My best friend committed suicide on March 14th. She had an account on this website that i just came across and she had posted asking about ways she could do it, and my already shattered heart broke a thousand times more as i read […]

HATING THE MORNINGS OF HER

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

I just hate her. She’s ruining a life and that is mines. Wait let me correct myself, I don’t have a life. I woke up this morning at 7 and she just p!ss me off. I always wake up at 5 or 6 a.m. in the morning and leave the house at 6:30 a.m. She […]

The reason we self-harm, is because we are not able to handle changes

Monday, April 14th, 2014

~ The reason we self-harm, is because we are not able to handle changes ~ This is a quote I wrote a few days ago. I was really thinking about a lot of things, when I came to the point I started to realize this. I’ll explain the quote. People self-harm for certain reasons, for […]

Kindoff Motivated

Monday, April 14th, 2014

Seems like my life is going worse than ever. I’ve flunked 3 subjects already throughout the year. I think its because I study at the no. 1 engineering school of the country that it is hard for me. My granny whose paying for my tuition fee and takes care of my needs just sent me […]

To all the “veteran” members of the SP community.

Monday, April 14th, 2014

I’m sorry about all the things I did in my “youth”. I made the stupid decision to push you away back when SP chat was so popular. I made a stupid comment saying I committed a grotesque thing that meant I would get banned from that community and sort of shunned. It was for the […]

Heartache|Heartbreak – Am I crazy in love?

Monday, April 14th, 2014

I cannot fathom the thought of love. There was a moment 2 years ago where I experienced intimate love for the very first time. At that point in time, I felt like I was on top of the world – but, when after almost 7 years, you’re world decides it wants to move on, you […]

My time is up.

Sunday, April 13th, 2014

I hate myself so much right now… I need to die, I can’t live with myself any more. My wrists red, my eyes red, blood red; is red the colour of death? I loved and cared for her so much it pushed her away, suffocated her, restricted her… When all I wanted was to be […]

“Mom”

Saturday, April 12th, 2014

I feel worthless enough already. My very first day of school, I felt ignored and lonely. This then created an alternate me. One who doesn’t think about herself but others, to feel and be included. They never asked how I was so I knew to keep it in, all these feelings of loneliness and fear. […]

Lost love is killing me

Saturday, April 12th, 2014

I’ve done everything to drown this hurt inside, But I can’t wash you off of my mind. It ain’t the whiskey. It ain’t the cigarettes. It ain’t the stuff I smoke. It’s all these things I can’t forget. It ain’t the hard times. It ain’t the all nights. It ain’t that easy, It ain’t the […]

I don’t know..?

Saturday, April 12th, 2014

I don’t know if anyone reads this, I hope so. I don’t know what I’m feeling, I’m empty. I’ve had a depression, It’s been gone, but now I think it’s coming back. Last time I had it was actually around christmas, I wouldn’t live anymore. It’s wierd you know, being happy about life,but then some […]