Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Sometimes, I think I hate everyone

August 21st, 2014by Engie

and I just get by by pretending that I don’t. Not inwardly, I mean on the outside. A mask of sanity. I’m a apathetic misanthrope portraying the character of a normal lovable person in a perpetual improv act.

I’m polite and sweet. I listen to people. I laugh at their jokes. I’m considerate. My mind is dissecting them. I’m dead inside.

I’m just not there.

I’m not depressed any more. I haven’t been for almost a year, but I no longer feel complex emotions of any kind. Some would call this a mixed blessing. There is nothing mixed about it. If I had to choose, I would trade …

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is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

August 21st, 2014by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & …

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The Rope

August 21st, 2014by KissOfDeath

I don’t understand what you’re expecting of me,

your needs a bottomless pit.

Just because you don’t understand these feelings,

doesn’t make me a misfit.

I don’t wish you to understand,

this mind, it’s my own personal hell.

I’m scribbling down my note written in my own twisted fate,

hoping no one remembers to tell.

The rope, hung ever so delicately,

my last and final hope.

The knocking on my door loudens,

as my body begins to mope. 

 

 

 

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Moving Stillness

August 21st, 2014by darkartist93

You stood there, stood there and start to slowly back away,

You said that those close to you didn’t think that speaking to me was healthy, that it had thrown your thoughts into disarray.

It’s not worth the trouble or the heartache they told you,

And somehow you decided that it was true.

“There is no reason to stay as she’ll never see things clearly.”

With this you pacified yourself, never seeing that it might cost you dearly.

 

I stood there, stood there forgotten and alone.

You had said that my stubbornness was something that you could no longer condone,

But stubbornness had never been the problem.

In order to reach you, I had …

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I don’t know

August 20th, 2014by hopeisontheway

I honestly believe I live a privileged life. My parents have wealthy paying jobs, and I am able to go to a very nice high school. Nothing awful besides the deaths of my loved ones, and regular crappy teenage drama has happened in my life. I’m lucky. I’ve never been abused or assaulted, but I’m still sad. I was briefly bullied in middle school, but who hasn’t been in their own way? No matter how many incredible things happen in my life, I somehow fall back into a dark place. I have periods where I am so happy, and then I have times where I …

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Questions

August 20th, 2014by KissOfDeath

What in life makes it so hard for you to stay?

 

What is your magic potion?

 

What has made you stay this long?

 

What’s the thing you’ll miss the most?

 

Who do you think will miss you the most?

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It’s Time to be Selfish.

August 20th, 2014by KissOfDeath

People call suicide “Selfish,”

Well I believe it’s time for me to be selfish.

All this world has done for me is drag me down,

it’s the weight that’s pulling me down to the bottom.

Why should I care about others feelings being hurt,

when they have done nothing to benefit mine.

We’re all going to die sometime,

so why not do it now?

Get it over with,

so the scars of grief caused by our deaths heal,

so our sorrow of being alive will end.

 

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Just Another Lousy Poem

August 20th, 2014by KissOfDeath

It’s  hard to pick yourself up,

after you fallen.

It’s hard to “cheer up,”

when you have felt this way for years.

It’s had to “move on”

when your life is a stop sign.

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Permanent Scars

August 20th, 2014by KissOfDeath

Our eyes met,

and for some reason I just couldn’t resist you,

I fell fast and so did you.

But then the sweet words you called me turned sour,

the touching wasn’t so gentle anymore,

you left bruises and scars,

but somehow it felt better to go through this pain with you,

than without.

I never believed in God,

but I started praying for death,

hoping some greater power could take me out of this misery.

Your mean words became my reality,

and my bruises you left on my body never healed,

they were permanent.

I left you, with swollen eyes and a heavy heart,

never knowing if I would find someone that would make me so miserably happy.

 

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Need Advice…Please???

August 19th, 2014by darkartist93

So, I have to write an application essay for a program at school, and it asked to chronically the force(s) the influenced my life direction and decision  apply in the first place. The issue is that those forces were having lived in a not always safe situation for most of my life, and kinda wanting to duck out early as a result of it.  The problem is I can’t mention that because of the type of program that this is will immediately reject me… and that’s with out knowing that I have had no idea how to consistently keep waking up in the morning for …

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Shadow

August 19th, 2014by KissOfDeath

During the day my smile hides my feelings,

at night they come out,

that dull, empty feeling,

consumes me.

The urges come back,

my mind wonders.

How can you be so sad,

when no one has a clue,

I’m the master of disguise,

My feelings are my shadow,

my black cape I hide behind.

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So Fucking Done

August 16th, 2014by teardownthewall

I’m so fucking done with this household and this “family”. I’m tired of being taken advantage of, of being the only one that works, the only one that keeps the fucking lights on, the only one that carries the fucking world on their shoulders and is still expected to do everything. I haven’t even gotten the chance to sleep today, fuck I’ve only gotten four hours to carry me the last 24 hours! But no, they still need me to do more and run all their god damn errands and run their welfare asses around like I’m their god damn taxi driver. They can all …

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My miserable life

August 16th, 2014by pasdespoir

I can’t make friends. I’ve tried my whole life to blend in, to be like everyone else. But I just can’t. I thought I finally could make it. But it wasn’t a real friendship. People just want me to be available when they need me. But no one listens to me when I need company. I’m spending my days crying my heart out. Why does it happen to me? Why is everyone I’ve ever cared for happy and enjoying their lives and achieving their goals. Whereas I can’t do it. I’m not meant to do it.
I was so desperate and so in pain that I …

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scars

scarsI don’t know what to do anymore.. I battle with severe anxiety, depression, insomnia and anger issues.I try my hardest to be what they want me to be.. the perfect daughter. Have the perfect grades, I was working 2 jobs but I just can’t cope any more. I’m lost. Dropped out of school at 15. […]

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am i that bad

August 15th, 2014by imjustmike

Hi. My name is mike. I’m only 22 and I have two sons. My life has been a train wreck. In had my second son with a woman who stole my heart. She is my everything. I messed up in the beginning of the relationship, talking to other girls online. She found out later after we got married. Yea we worked passed it but we had problems thru out the marriage. I was always drinking when I got emotional and down. I threatened to cut myself or not take my insulin. Things I should of never done. We would have problems an I would run …

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Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??

August 14th, 2014by niki

Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world …

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A Tribute to My Brother and to My Friend Kevin (Iamzero)

August 14th, 2014by jasonsbigsis

“And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depths until the hour of separation.”-Khalil Gibran

Today has been a heart-wrenching day. I woke up knowing it was the 2 month mark of when my little brother took his life. It has been a devastating loss that has shattered my world. He is a part of my soul and always has been and I feel tremendous loss.

And then I received an email this morning from a dear friend known here as Iamzero, stating that he was sorry but that he could not go on any longer and wished me thanks and love. Love …

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A sad time

August 13th, 2014by Hard Times

Probably one of the saddest moments in my life. On the way back home from school, one of my sisters got a phone call that my other sister intentionally swallowed a handful of pills. I was not told if she was alive or not. Bus stopped and I reached my door. Opened the door, and everybody was acting like nothing happened, my sister looked sad, but that was all. I didn’t want to ask what or why she did it, because I didn’t want her to suffer any more as it would be torture to bring back up the topic. I felt helpless. My sisters …

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Do I really want to be rich?

August 13th, 2014by Hard Times

Life is always balanced out like a scale. Take this, if I was a billionaire, sure I could buy everything I want. But if I was a billionaire, I wouldn’t be able to walk on the street normally like everyone else. I would also have to worry about my, and my family’s protection. I would have all that I want physically, but it would be a prison emotionally. PS. This is probably what Robin Williams felt. I would rather be average.

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I hate money , money sucks , money make people shallow & superficial !

August 12th, 2014by niki

I hate Money
because it makes people (& society , Humanity as a whole) very shallow & superficial these days / nowadays / today !

90% (or perhaps even more?) Majority / Most people nowadays / today seems to only think about how to make money, how to be rich (and famous), and all/everything of the notion of “success” is simply/only just measured by how much Money (or materials / materialistic stuff) you have.

Most people are so brainwashed by just that mere piece of papers, that they think almost EVERYTHING today/nowadays is & must being ‘ruled/controlled’ by that -ironically- human’s own invention !
Most people I see nowadays …