Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Four years ago today !!!!!

June 29th, 2016by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 …

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Is it my fate? (part 2)

June 27th, 2016by Gypsyguy93

In my last post I talked about my ex-fiancee (gay male) who committed suicide after we broke up four years ago, I think if he knew how much it would hurt those he loved and left behind he never would of done it, but then I also understand that the pain he was going through in his mind was intolerable to him and he just wanted the pain to end…

I didn’t know my ex was suicidal, we had been together for a couple of years, I know he had PTSD and Anxiety, but I never knew about the depression…. before we broke up he cheated …

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Life summed

June 26th, 2016by Kjay

My life in a nutshell currently. I live with my partners family they are muslim I converted to islam to stay here because I had a baby his family had more room at their house and support as his mum stays home so it seemed like the ideal place to be right. The thing that […]

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Horrible Thought

June 24th, 2016by AshCoveredAngel

I doubt anyone follows what I post on here, I’m new-ish and I don’t interact much.

Anyways I’ve mentioned before I’m pregnant.

Which means according to my own rules suicide it off limits. I have a rule “do no physical harm to another” I’m totally pro-choice and viability is a thing but I still have respect for *potential* life.

That doesn’t stop me from desiring to commit suicide or frequently thinking of death. It’s highly likely that I will not chose to make it through postpartum depression again. I’ve fought enough in this life to only face more misery. We’ll see I guess

I’d be …

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Lingering Hoplessness

June 24th, 2016by ColorlessBlur

I’m a 15 year old kid, and for the past 4 years or so I’ve noticed the deterioration of my happiness and overall satisfaction in life. I’ve also seen a new depression seep it’s way into my life. It’s always there, sometimes stronger than others, but it’s never really gone. The only way I’ve managed to ignore it is through my hobbies, video games, anime, and listening to music. Although these things have also been one of the main causes for me having to face my depression, because while I can ignore it for a time, when it comes back it hits hard. All these …

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Suicide article

June 22nd, 2016by mysteriousvisitor

http://www.madinamerica.com/2016/01/suicidal-tendencies-part-i-im-suicidal-because-im-mentally-ill-because-im-suicidal/

For those who didn’t get a chance to read this. Excellent points in this article.

I think this article is a good follow-up to the links I have posted concerning the unreliability of psychological autopsies and the confirmation bias that can creep into posthumous examinations of brain tissue. The author of this article even mentions the fact that people are sometimes diagnosed as mentally ill posthumously.

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Hope. Loss. Exhaustion.

June 18th, 2016by 121115

Hope is one of the cruelest feelings on earth. It tricks you into thinking that everything will get better, that the present isn’t as bad as it seems, and that those who made you feel like garbage have some redemption.

I really, really hate hope.

I thought my parents were beginning to understand me. I was more wrong about that than I have been about anything in my entire life.

My father wants the addresses of every single friend that I go see. He checks the mileage on my car to see how much I’ve been traveling and if it matches up with what I tell him. He …

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Its really happening

June 17th, 2016by kupo95

So tomorrow I will get my jewelry back and the past five years of my life will be a waste .

I just don’t understand my ex could really do this to me like he has no feeling for me at all which I  know is a lie because he did/dose ..but he just keeps listing to his evil mother .

Now I’m sitting looking like an ungrateful piece of shit who just wants to be up my mother and fathers ass when all I wanted was to be married and left alone . to wake up in PJ’s and drink coffee to live a …

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Hey everybody its been a while .

June 15th, 2016by kupo95

Sooo a lot happened since I last posted first off I’m divorced……so yup.

 

But before that my family found out that I was suicidal and got very mad can’t blame them tho know if must hurt them. But in between that time I was aguring with them them I not staying home and to leave me alone .

 

 

Then I opened up to my husband tell him all the pain I feel and sadness. Then he told me he been turning down opportunities to come back home for the past three months . so for some reason I  told him that I been cutting myself and were …

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The Night of the Gun

June 14th, 2016by OddBlueBoy

I really have had the chance to kill myself. When he handed me the gun, he said “take this, incase anything happen to you”. Little did he know, i wanted to be the one to cause my demise. One single bullet. Loaded. Pressed against my temple once, in my mouth the other. He had no clue… He was drunk and hype that he beat up moms ex. Wanted me to like him too. As soon as he left; i was at head with god. A single bullet between us. I was too chicken shit though. I was too scared of the afterlife. The possibility of burning …

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My suicide project.

June 14th, 2016by OddBlueBoy

Hey, they call me Odd. It’s nice to share my story with you.

First off, im not killing myself… Yet. I’m trying to push for another 10 months of living. I’ll be 18, in April. I’ve decided to tell my story now, just incase i jump the gun a little early.

Where do I start? This is kind of like a “my moment” type of thing. So, how can I personally catch your attention, long enough, to hear me out?

I’ll start by asking; “have you ever been sad?”

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Hello.

June 13th, 2016by 121115

I almost ended my life tonight.

I got into a huge argument with not only my parents, but my grandparents, who I believed understood me more than my parents did; I was also publicly humiliated in front of my friends, in a situation where my parents and grandparents ran out in front of my house, in front of the car my friends were in, all just to yell at me.

I had to tell my friends to leave immediately. My parents talked to me for two hours and tried to tell me that family is all I have. That they’re the only ones who will ever truly …

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People Are causing Me To suffer

June 13th, 2016by GerbzBaby

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(A mini drawing I drew to help calm my nasty thoughts :/ )

 

All my friends and family are unsupportive and them not being here for me is causing me to suffer. Day after day after day all I think about is suicide but.. I’m to much of a chicken to fucking do it. I want to live but then again I want to die.. In the least painful way.. I’ve been waiting for so long to find those friends who finally care.. The day my family finally realizes I have a problem and I need their …

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Fighting

June 13th, 2016by AshCoveredAngel

So I’ve calmly explained to my family that my child needs to eat all day.

And then they wonder why I’m suddenly screaming full bore about how they need to eat.

It’s day 3 of them not having an appetite. It’s a fact toddlers do this but mine absolutely CANNOT do this.

They have failure to thrive and we’re in the closing stages of a child services investigation. I’ve successfully brought them home from foster care but our battle isn’t over. The state is going to continue harassing us, even after the case is closed.

I can’t afford my child losing any kind of weight. …

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I’ve unblocked my posts

June 13th, 2016by LittleBead

I am convinced that I hold a very personal and unique legacy which is enclosed within the structure of my posts. By telling you about it, I want to inform you that I have unblocked all of my posts, if you were interested in things which had brought me to this website. They include, but are not limited to, the time before my suicide and the time when I was at the psychiatric hospital. I believe that my experience, sometimes positive experience, will help you deal with your own situations and personal issues. I found a few ways to go through my inner struggles and …

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No one can handle me.

June 13th, 2016by AshCoveredAngel

I can’t even handle me.

I need to have this baby.

Leave, run, or whatever.

End it.

I’m only creating more problems with my existence.

If I can’t deal with my mental illness how on earth can I ask anybody else to?

My significant others don’t deserve this, my family doesn’t deserve this, my friends don’t deserve this, and my kids ESPECIALLY don’t deserve this.

I need to end it before I fuck up more people. I’ve already hurt family, my ex spouse, and one child enough.

Enough is enough. I need to get out before more damage happens.

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June 13th, 2016by burdengirl

I am at my wits end in life. Normally I am able to pull through when things get tough but lately I am seriously considering killing myself. I understand that everyone goes through life drama but I don’t think I am strong enough to carry everything on my shoulders anymore. I am 18 and as of right now I feel alone. I was raped from the time I was 7 until I was 11 by my stepbrothers and their friends. I never said anything to anyone because (as a little girl) I believed what they told me .. That they would break up my family. …

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Standstill

June 12th, 2016by renegadeRaenbow

It’s been a while since I’ve been active here, and I mainly only come to post thoughts that I can just get down and easily forget.

I’ve been off my medications for about 3 months since trying to have a baby with my husband. It has been so hard though what with making the decision to quit the job I’ve been at for the past five years, starting a job I utterly despise, making the decision to quit the new job entirely (after having multiple anxiety attacks stemmed from it; I do have a backup plan though), and having our roommate situation wear and tear me …

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Seeing things better…

June 12th, 2016by Jax910

Had the world by the balls, successful career, opportunities galore, fell in love after the end of a very abusive marriage, with my best friend, we gave definition to the meaning… My older children don’t have anything to do with me, my own mother trash mouths me, my babies love me, and my best friend, she hurts and I can’t stand it anymore. I really was a good dad and good person, they didn’t see what went on behind closed doors, they don’t know, the hurt from that and the pain is relentless, people don’t stop, my wheels are turning so much and I’m broken, …

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Well, here I am.

June 11th, 2016by 121115

I’m not quite sure if becoming a user of this forum is a means of an end or a coping method. At this point, it really couldn’t matter less.

One day, perhaps, I will fully disclose the ‘origin story’ (this phrase is funny to me, as if comparing the origins of my condition to the origins of a superhero’s powers); the entire tale of my descent into severe depression, my incessant and quite honestly obsessive thoughts of suicide that had lasted every day for a year, and my journey through psychiatric hospitalization. At one point, I had felt that these points in my life were important and …