Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Am i crazy?

November 22nd, 2014by ArielCamille

That’s what ones close to me say. If they don’t say it i know that they think so. Everyone has a different definition of the word. Crazy is a word you use when you don’t understand something….In my opinion. I already know that they can’t or will never understand. No one understands. No one around here anyways. People are too quick to judge. I want them to spend a day in my shoes… see how long it would take for them to crack. I’ve held on this meaningless shit since i was 16. But hey, they say it’s just life, and it is.

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I Hate Fake Friends

November 22nd, 2014by Tara

*WARNING LONGEST STORY + RANT EVER ABOUT FIGHT WITH FAKE FRIENDS*
So once again I am taken advantage of and treated like shit for it. I try to be a good person and this is what I get. So I was friends with four girls, their initials are S,M,ME, and E, because i don’t want to use their real names. I was friends with them for almost a year and I noticed that even at lunch, M stopped talking to me. And a few days later, E told me M said “I need to talk to you about Tara, I am so done with her she …

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I miss deathdreamer

November 22nd, 2014by killswitchon

She just dropped off the face of the earth… I suppose she either is having a seriously rough time with her “health concerns” or she extracted herself from this unhealthy lifestyle of dwelling on pain with dysfunctional people surrounding her…either way it sucks and she was a great friend… COME BACK!!

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I drank last night…

November 21st, 2014by killswitchon

And I’m slightly hungover today… Although that’s not what’s on my mind. No. What’s on my mind is how no matter how much I try to convey what my mental experience is to so called professionals or people in my daily waking life I get no where and they’re left believing I’m just afraid of success or failure and that I don’t truly have a mental anamoly/condition/mindfuck that’s inhibiting and limiting my every attempt to advance my life and move forward. I’ve been making changes over the past few days to prep myself for the next stage in my life whether that is death or …

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Oh hi. New here.

November 21st, 2014by Nyx Lavery

I am a junior in high school at the moment. Female, 16 years old. It’s been almost over 2 years that I have been depressed and in and out of rehab. During that time, I have tried to kill myself more times than I can count. But when it came to that point – actually taking the leap and ending it – it’d be like a chain is holding me down and not letting me go. One of my worst moments was attempting overdose…throwing it up is worse than anything I could imagine. That was the last time I ever tried killing myself, because I …

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everyday is (still) like sunday…

November 20th, 2014by o nome dela era Maio

A verdade é que o meu coração há muito já estava cansado de tanto egoísmo. Eu te amei muito mas você foi a pessoa mais egoísta que eu já conheci, e o Pior é que você nem percebia isso — e quando eu tentava abrir os seus olhos, você discordava! Você não tem problema mental nenhum senão o seu próprio medo de si mesmo… esse seu medo doente e crônico que você esconde por trás de vários outros nomes. Esse medo que é a sua verdadeira depressão. é ele que é seu dono, e ninguém vai salvar você dele, pois apenas você pode fazer isso. …

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¿What should I do?

November 19th, 2014by hellblau

I have the words on the tip of my tongue, but somehow my coward heart will not let me speak them out.
It’s wasting life, dying slowly. I should love pain, cause he’s the meaning of it.

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Its been awhile

November 19th, 2014by suicidal_chick

I have no idea how long its been since i was last on here but i know its been awhile. I miss coming on the site everyday reading everyone’s stories, trying to help.

This week has been really rough for me. I have had 2 friends who tried killing themselves. Honestly i cant take this anymore. It hurts. I stayed up 2 nights in a row trying to talk one of them out. But it didn’t work…he tried and failed, thank god. I dont know what i would do without him in my life, he has talked me out of suicide a lot. theres something about …

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Help me Calm Down

November 19th, 2014by The Lost Girl

My Ex Best Friend and Mate are Dating and When I asked Him out He Answer was: “He Wasn’t Ready To Date” But it’s ok to Date My Ex Best Friend and Not Me Arghhhhhh Grrrrrrr That Makes Me sooooo Mad

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A ticket to freedom

November 18th, 2014by charlieregal

I sold everything I own and gave every last dime to US immigration services for them to process my paper work. Every last dime and I a still stuck in Jamaica. I did some things I am not proud of to get that paperwork going. Some really unclean things. Oh lord I wish I could wash my hands of those things. But I can’t. Stained. Scared. I really want to fly out but can’t afford that $250 ticket. The man that petitioned for me, he and I had a falling out. I hope he doesn’t go to immigration and get my green card revoked. Cause …

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Numb and indifferent

November 18th, 2014by LonelyGen

Its been a week since I’ve quit my job. My family is struggling to survive as is and yet here I am, at home for the past three days. I haven’t gone out and I haven’t even changed clothes. I feel like I’m wasting the data on my phone but I’m sure it will be cut sometime in the next few days anyway.

I managed to make everyone that mattered at work hate me. I guess partially it was my fault, partially it was Eva’s fault. She came out of nowhere a month ago and befriended my two good friends as well as took my …

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Two Lives..One end.

November 18th, 2014by BrokenDisaster

It was so much easier when i could take pills or cut but now there’s a life inside of me. Depending on me. I can’t take it anymore. I never want to hurt any child, especially mine. But i know me and I understand no one deserves someone as horrible as me. Each day is a struggle. A fight I’m losing. A fight almost……lost.

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My Parents Don’t Care

November 18th, 2014by addy

I’m an upper middle class perfectionist who has it all together on the outside. If anyone knew how much I hated myself I’m sure they’d be surprised. No, I’m not popular or the prettiest girl in school but I’m not an outcast, I’ve got a good friend group, I make straight A’s, I’m on the soccer team and track team, and I drive a nice car. But lots of little things put together have had me on a downward spiral for a while now. I suffer from severe depression. I have wanted to die. I have thought a lot about killing myself. I just want to die. …

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I Am Going Crazy Waiting

November 16th, 2014by SylviaPlathIsMyHero

He is imperfect. Short, freckled, quiet. Intelligent with stunning blue eyes. Depressed and anxious. Heart broken and ostracized.

To me he is perfect. But he has been gone for quite some time now, locked away in a mental hospital I know he abhors. I didn’t know how much he meant to me until he wasn’t there. My days became more dull, I stopped smiling as much. I became sensitive, I holed up in my room, dreaming impossible dreams of a life with him.

I began to forget his voice. His beautiful face. His small stature compared to my tall one. The notes we would write each other …

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Hope its time

November 16th, 2014by Destined_to_end_it

I took 4.5mg of synthroid a little over 2 hours ago, I sure hope this works but all I have noticed thus far is a headache. I sure hope it starts to do something soon because I don’t want anyone to witness my death. Really wanted it to be over already…

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Suicidal Thoughts

November 16th, 2014by Kristofery

No one seems to truly care. It all seems like they superficially care and love me, but no one wants to sacrifice their time to help me in this crazy fast and lost world. You talk about depression and every body is like “Just be happy” or wants to give you tough love, as if that would help! I need somebody to walk it out with me, in person!

And then the subject of suicide is brought up and almost everybody says those people are cowards.

Look for help and all they wanna do is give you medication. I dont want medication, I want true love, help …

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What is the matter?

November 14th, 2014by slambo511

I have everything I ever wanted,

No… seriously , I do. Yet it feels like nothing, I hurt all the time and just want to sleep, cry and sleep. The hardest part is that it just makes me hate myself even more, the doctors say “depression” and give me pills that don’t work, the friends say it’s because I work too hard and suggest a drink (like I need ANOTHER addiction in my life to battle, one that is socially acceptable, cheap and everywhere, and I thought heroine was hard to stay away from). The saddest part of all of this is that I see myself …

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Please.

November 12th, 2014by hellblau

Don’t go, I can’t do this on my own, save me from the ones that haunt me in the night I can’t live with myself, so stay with me tonight.

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I want to leave!

November 12th, 2014by fishintheseaa

I’m like so tired of being here. I am 16 still to young to leave this house. I just don’t belong here and I am such a bother to my family. Mostly everyone and I just want to leave…. Help me. Any tips?

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Is it Fair? By: KristinLewis

November 11th, 2014by yourgirlkrissy

At some point in life, you have to take a deep breath and think twice. You have to put aside all the things that made you cry, and look at the brighter things in life. Like going home to love and support, instead of going hold to a homeless shelter because you’re poor. But always be thankful for the life that you’re livin, because you could’ve been just another abortion. Sometimes we don’t see a reason for livin’, because we are raped, abused, and mistreated. So we cut, do drugs, and become suicidal , for some of us the voices in our head can make …

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