Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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My chance to love is destroyed

February 10th, 2016by Nowhere88

I’m not brand new to The forum… And I spoke here about my disgraceful life a couple times. I’ve been through depression since I can Remember… My father was a wife beater, alcoholic, and my brother and sister also abused me with violence when I was a kid.
I’ve been through almost everything a depressive person could. My teenage was also crap. And that’s how I entered my adult life too.
I started to take medication when I was 21. And I’m 30 now.
I spent The last decade switching between anti-depressant meds. taking breaks, starting again and so on…
I’ve been through sertralin, paroxetin, fluoxetin/Prozac(this one in particular …

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What is this so called “Family” and what is my Life.

February 8th, 2016by Runil

So i’ve been living throughout this suicide phase for so long, ever since elementary school. I’m less suicidal though, I’ve learned to have self-determination and to live by my own standards and goals. I’m very active now and try to do positive things that helps me ignore the negativity in my life. This thing so called “family” is a word I erased from my dictionary. Family was never there for me. (sorry and excuse me when I jump all over, my thought process is really fucked up so ill cut it into chunks that cut my thoughts)

My story goes like this, typical asian scenario where …

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Lost in A heartbreak

February 7th, 2016by IzzyThePsycho

My heart got broken this week. I was at a party tonight, and all I could think about was the one who broke my heart. I’m too slow right now to process anything, and I just feel like I can’t even function (more so than usual) here is something for that person, If they’re even listening to me here and now/ if they still love me at all. (No judging for the type of music I listen to. OK?)

 

 

here’s something else too.

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I don’t even know

February 5th, 2016by IzzyThePsycho

I wrote this rant thinggie that I can’t define.

WHY?

A Rant? by Isabel (last name removed to protect the not-so-innocent)

Why. It’s the simplest, yet most complicated question. Why are all of us subjected to a life that is already planned out for us, yet we’re told that we can do whatever we want? Why do people lie to us and then say that they’re only trying to protect us? Why are we taught to believe in something like “god” when we are burdened with questions like, “ if god exists, then why is there pain, suffering, loss, or hate”? Why people like me forced to take away …

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Back in the same spot.

February 5th, 2016by Dolphin

Been posting on here at least once every month, except for last month.

Haven’t been feeling good. Slowly slipping back into the state that I was in last year. It was around this time too. Not a coincidence.

I got into an argument recently. Rarely get into any sort of shitty drama, but someone had to come along and destroy that peace.

Must note this word that was used in the argument: complacent.

Complacent? Hah, that made me laugh. Dryly.

Not even close. The argument was silly, it came from a small misunderstanding which somehow made the person turn on me altogether. I was thinking that the person had suppressed …

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What is or happens in the afterlife

February 4th, 2016by Labrat007

Since I will be leaving this World real soon my only wondering at this point is the afterlife

What is it?

 

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Looking for someone from central Canada.

February 4th, 2016by ana

Looking for a friend, preferably a teenage male. No one around here understands me. They just pretend. Comment for details.

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No Reason to Stay Alive

February 3rd, 2016by MystiCal88

Finally found reasons to die…but not even one to keep staying alive.

This is such a f-cked up world.

In this page, I feel real freedom swirling around me. I can express whatever I want to say, and I know that I just often post or log in, like to be honest this is my second post since I joined last month. (It’s not as if I’m the only one). But oh well, doesn’t matter. Just found a reason to be online everyday. I’d probably be too noisy here than in the outside world, but who cares…nobody, of course.

I’ve had enough of everything. Literally, everything.

When I go …

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Awkward and Hating It

February 2nd, 2016by GerbzBaby

Everytime my friends call or try and talk to me I feel like I’m being awkward. I feel like that triggers my friends to jump on the friendship train with my sister more than me. That’s why they seem bored around me. How can I get rid of this awkwardness and freely talk and be funny without being offensive or mean..? I’m so troubled with this, I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m the only one who does this, to new friends or the same friends I have. I feel like there is something wrong with me..

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3

talk to me.

February 1st, 2016by eternalblissxx

I am feeling exceedingly lonely today. I mean, I’m lonely most every day but today is different. At some point after a long period of loneliness day after day, week after week, month after month, you start to forget you even exist. I’ve always been a good friend. I don’t know why the universe has chosen for me to live a friendless life.

If you’re friendless like I am, or even just want someone to talk to (we can comfort each other :P), email me at blissmexx@gmail(dot)com. We can exchange info and text (I have most texting apps). You don’t have to respond to this post lol

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The perfect world

January 31st, 2016by Deadinside59

The perfect world mine, yours, sighs it’s all in my head ill never get it there’s a story about a girl who’s husband committed suicide he suffered with addiction, depression and family problems from what i could tell so she killed his dad and wanted to kill herself this is a tragic story and bad but there’s some beauty in there to me he was in so much pain it drove him to kill herself which put her through so much pain she killed his father and wanted to kill herself just to be with him maybe those people are crazy or maybe i am …

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I WILL DIE TONIGHT (AVISGONE)

January 28th, 2016by avisgone

Tonight, I am planning to kill myself. I have planned many times to but I have held back because of what seemed like people who cared or the sacredness of what people would think if I failed. Tonight, however, ends all of this. To if you were my friend or you call yourself a friend of mine, I am sorry, but you should have known this was coming. To my family aside from my adoptive mom, I am sorry. To my teachers and other adults, why could not have done something. I know you guys have seen my cuts and scars. Some of you have …

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I Don’t Want To Be Alone Again

January 28th, 2016by GerbzBaby

It’s my senior year and I’m afraid of losing touch with my friends… That’s all I can think about and it scares me. I don’t want to let them go like some of my old friends. Please, how do I keep updated and in touch with them when I’m done with high school?

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A Daylight

January 26th, 2016by HeartLies

I woke up this morning seeing the bright light from the sun.It was 11:11 am,I must’ve drink too much alcohol last night that I feel a lil’bit tipsy this morning.I was talking to a friend in which I have lied about something,still,she can’t decide if she’s going to stay or not I think I deserve it anyway.I lied to people who cared and accepted me.Im a bullshit.She might stay or not,nothing will change I’m still going to be free on Feb 1,in the arms of death I’ll find comfort.

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The Countdown

January 26th, 2016by HeartLies

26th of January

They said suicide is the coward’s way out.It is the one big solution to a temporary problem.But what if  the problem is permanent,will suicide be an available solution?Today I’m starting my countdown,a countdown where it will all start and at the same time end.Nobody can stop me because even I cannot stop myself.So love me,care for me,stay with me,because the last days of  my life will soon be a tragic end.

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Love

January 25th, 2016by marz

You stopped the pain from carrying on

This is why I’m sitting here writing this song

You lied to me and ended it this way

Didn’t even have the guts to say it to my face

You’re just a coward a twit

All you do is is make my teeth grit

Fuck off back to your own life

I’ll just go back to my one true love the knife

 

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I know you love me infinitely. :-)

January 24th, 2016by Peace

Things aren’t good lately. But it’s going extremely well with my LuV.  :-)

She loves me infinitely. :-)
And I am so lucky to have her. :-)

She makes me smile in my hard times. :-)

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I Wanted to Jump

January 24th, 2016by OnePeacefulDisaster

Yesterday I went to a party with some close friends. The party ended up being at an apartment complex on the sixth floor. The night went on and things were fun for a while, but then it was like something inside me snapped, or changed. I couldn’t breathe, I felt warm, and I got blotchy and flushed. I went outside onto the balcony. Once I closed the sliding door, I felt so alone. I’m scared of heights, but for some reason I went and leaned over on the railing. Instead of panicking like I usually do when so high up, I stayed and looked down. …

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That night.

January 22nd, 2016by Bunny

When i was a freshman, so 14, i tried to commit suicide for the first time. I can’t really explain why. It’s two years later and it still feels like it was all a dream. Sometimes it hits me all at once. Out of nowhere.. like around Christmas, i went and saw my youngest sisters choir concert. I was watching, listening. My dad on one side, my brother on the other. And it hit me.. all at once. Without warning.. as those things tend to do. I looked up at the stage, seeing her sing. My throat got that horrible dry feeling and suddenly the …

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