Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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My battle with depression and suicide (Help)

March 3rd, 2015by HopelessAD

I have been dealing with suicidal depression for over a year now. I’m 18 I no longer live at home due to some family issues and am currently living with my sister who I split rent with. I have a full time job as a cashier, I go to college, and overall am a very busy person. I am actually adopted from a family of drug addicts. My birth dad left my mother when I was born and she did some drugs while pregnant. This caused me to have a form of high functioning Autism called Aspergers (AD) syndrome, ADHD, and OCD. Some of the …

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Is it true? Please Answer

March 2nd, 2015by Quiver

I’ve built my life on trust… confiding in people, caring for them, loving them. And today I’ve realised most, if not all, have broken my trust in the last few weeks, when I needed them most.  I’m doubting whether or not people are worth it… Is trust really not worth it?

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why?

March 2nd, 2015by drowningliquor

I don’t know why I’m like this. I have two jobs to keep myself busy because I hate being alone and that’s when I keep thinking crazy thoughts. I know I’m fucked up, my family tells me, my “fuck buddies” tell me, I’m a fucked up person. Last month I started talking to this guy off tinder, he was different; I told him shit I haven’t told anyone, but I still just used him. I’m 22 and indian, my parents thought I was the virgin queen. Honestly, I was raped when I was 19 (but I pretty much asked for it my fault), moved away …

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Do you ever think about

March 1st, 2015by Ascending

what happens after the end?

I have been suicidal since I can remember. The only thing that has stopped me from attempting (in recent years) is the fear of what will happen after I catch the bus. What if I am successful in my endeavor, only to end up in the same position again?

I have the means. I have the will. Now I just need the courage to take my final step.

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Caring and Kindness

February 28th, 2015by Streamers

I know people who are kind, and think they are never unkind. I know people who cars for some but not others. And it hurts.

My reading teacher asked yesterday, “Aren’t I the kindest teacher you’ve ever met?”

My answer was no. I even told her that she has hurt my feelings multiple times, but I didn’t tell her why. (She was shocked) I doubt she would understand.

Nearly everyone has hurt me. Because they just don’t care.

And without the caring and kindness of others, I’m lost. I try and be kind to others, but if no one cares, it sets a bad example.

I hate to say I’m …

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The Hopeless Child

February 27th, 2015by nobody special

Ever since I was born, I have always been a shy person. I would try to ignore my own feelings to help others. In fact, I was forced to at such a young age since my friends were all a few months younger than me. Therefore, since I was the eldest, I was the one who got reprimanded and to my young mind, did everything wrong. This idea was reinforced by my mother shouting at both me and my dad a lot. My dad and her yelled at each other every night. They tried to hide it from me, but I was a poor sleeper. …

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I can’t believe that this is what it has come to…..

February 27th, 2015by serenityseeker

I don’t have Internet connection on a regular basis so if I want to write a post for this site I have to pre-write it and save it fir when I do have Internet. This is a bummer in one way because if I don’t have my laptop the next time I get Internet I can’t post it or if I have it on my flash drive but only have my cell phone the next time I have Internet then I can’t post it either.
So, now that I have that all explained away, I suppose I will update those who care or are even …

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Loved him.

February 24th, 2015by hellblau

¿Why should I be sad? I have lost someone who didn’t love me. But He lost someone who loved him.

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So here we are…

February 24th, 2015by serenityseeker

…back at home. And tonight for what I believe is the third time in four daysI have had to call rhe local police department to aks them to check the area for this female that continues to come to our bedroom window at night and call out to my man. She calls him by name, taps on the window, flashes a light into our room and just pesters the fuck out of me if I’m in the room or does whatever it is she does with/to my man when I am not in the room. The difference between the last two times I have called …

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So it happened again tonight….

February 24th, 2015by serenityseeker

Will it ever end? Will it ever stop? I have so many questions and no answers for any of them. I have no idea what anyone else reality is but i can tell you for sure that mine is shit. I have absolutely nothing to stand on, no foundation or stable ground that I can always rely upon for safety or otherwise. Does anyone know what i am talking about?
I seem to chase away everyone that I love because I am so tired of hurting them all of the time. Every emotion that I have comes across as angry, even when I am hurt …

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It’s a funny question. I question myself if I am suicidal …  I’m diagnosed with major depression impulse control disorder and anxiety. But when I got discharged from the hospital again my second time I was okay…  But after a couple of weeks so many people weren’t there for me.. I feel no need to […]

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I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life

February 23rd, 2015by niki

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !

I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future

you see ,.. Reality / real world / real life …

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So many time since heard that people who cut are dumb emotion faggots…   Sick of it!  It makes my gut turn. I still do cut and it’s a pleasure…not for attention….  Well all heard this over and over what do I do?

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I feel  so many people abandon me… Thinking I want attention, but ever day I feel a little bit more certain to make the choice to kill myself . many people say….”you still have me” but they are never there for there word or me

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Pre-Suicide Notes

February 22nd, 2015by kinai

Dear Mom,

No, I am not yet trying to commit suicide. Just not yet. Not here. Not in this winter. If I do it, I’ll do it right. I’ll do it at home. Our home. Our real home. Not here. So, chill, I’m still alive. Isn’t that explained why this post is called pre-suicide notes? Hah. I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry for being a failure. I’m sorry to disappoint you. I’m sorry I’ve been so wasted in this world. I’m sorry that I’m being like this. No, you did nothing wrong, mom. You’ve been a great mom. Yes you are. It is just me. I’m thinking …

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Why?

February 20th, 2015by Lost_In_The_Darkness

I cant do this anymore….my friends tell me not to do it. And a minute later I get a call “I’m so sorry I tried to….” I cant stand here and know that my friends try and I can’t! They dont understand that I deal so useless when it happens that as I sit here and type this I’m about to cry. Keeping myself from doing anything…. I can only do this for so long….

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Futility remain unanswered and hope remains an ornamate.

February 18th, 2015by letmeusemyname

This could be a trigger so I ask people who have tendencies to skip this.

I would just like to ask for opinions, thoughts, anything. So if anyone would like to reply, please go ahead. This is not a post about hope but about suicide.

I am 21, I am far from being young and I am far from having what you would call a hard life. I have a degree from uni, I have a roof above my head and all that shit. Yet I still want to die, there is nothing for me to live for. i am a waste of space to everyone around …

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Is this what you want?

February 17th, 2015by RedSmile

Here, it’s his little brother and sister but it could be your mom, your dad, your friend, your husband or your wife. I know how hard life can be and how desesperate a person can be but what you’ve heard on this video is the reason why I’m still staying in this shitty world. A suicide is the most personal of all things and you don’t need to involve other peoples, peoples you love. I’m not trying to stop you but just remember that even if you’re dead, the world still spining and on it, you will be nothing but a dead body and I don’t think …

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so i didnt sleep last night and i feel kinda energized manic again i guess talked to my friend online from egypt all morning she’s fine she said just a agruement with her guy i heard sounded more like fighting to me but whatever. i’m sure whenever i lay down and be still i’ll go […]

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my theme song for this month

February 16th, 2015by Khaliladivine28

by: seasons after

cry little sister cover