Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Alone

December 3rd, 2016by anne33

i swear, i am tired. I’m tired of the stress, tired of the anxiety, tired of the loneliness….. the pain.

I’m tired of the same old routine with the same old people…. I’m tired of everything.

I’m tired of living. i swear, i am done.

i can’t do it,

I’m literally finished. when i say “i can’t” i mean it. I’ve skipped my extra curricular activities a lot lately, and i dont find joy in what i used to love. I’ve skipped some school too.

I’m breaking.

i am fucking breaking.

other people hurt and stay

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pain

December 2nd, 2016by anne33

i literally wake up every day in pain. i have ocd, depression and anxiety and no one seems to understand. my friends all joke about ocd and get involved in stigma and stereotypes while im here like STOP. no one knows. i hate talking about my problems to people because i feel like im “looking for attention” which i am not! i hate attention, hence the fact i got social anxiety :'(. I also ahve insomnia so i lay awake every night and cant get my thoughts to stop racing. i have almost killed myself maybe 10 times and im surprised it didnt even happen …

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December 2nd, 2016by cyantific

I’ve always felt weird but that never use to stop me from helping my father or my sister with an issue.  I worried about my brother constantly after my parents awkward divorce.  Fast forwarding to now… I’m always fast forwarding I’ll never heal .

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Feelings

December 2nd, 2016by BreannaIsAlone1245

Hello,

I am sort of new here but this is my second post and I’m still in the same situation but that’s okay, I feel this way everyday. However I have the good news of getting a phone today after school which is only about 5 hours away so that’s good, I suppose. The only thing that is bad about it is that I don’t have any numbers to put in the phone that isn’t my mother or little sister. I would have loved to have friends that stayed with me through these troubled times of the past year but I guess I didn’t need them.

I …

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Day 6

December 1st, 2016by Nico The Robot

Oh hey, it’s been a really long time. Nico here.

Just to tell you guys before I start, this post isn’t going to be as happy as my others. I’ll try to cheer up though soon.

My parents make me feel so useless and stupid.. This is the best that I’ve done in school and yet.. I was so proud of myself.. Haha.. It’s really useless isn’t it?.. No matter what I do.. They never appreciate it.. Guilt talking to make it seem like I’m the bad guy.. I’m done with them.. I know they care but I just.. I’m shattering under the pressure.. like a mirror.. …

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For those that need someone to talk to….

December 1st, 2016by HDs

Hello to all,

I don’t pretend to know anyone’s situation or desire to end their life. What I do know is that I have lost many close friends to suicide and that during several low points in my life I have tried to kill myself at least a half a dozen times.  These were not cries for help on my end, and I totally went for it with the most purpose driven determination possible.  One such attempt put me in a coma for several weeks.

So I can definitely offer advice, empathy, and even sympathy to anyone who may need someone to talk to.  I don’t and …

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I get it….

November 28th, 2016by WitheringHope

You told me you would always be there for me. You told me you were my best friend. Do you not realize you are my only friend? We haven’t spoken a meaningful word to each other in weeks, or was it months? I can’t remember anymore. The only thing I know is that it feels like the only person in my life, the person I live with, never seems to be anywhere close to me. I haven’t talked to anyone in a long time. No one wants to hear my boring pointless shit. I don’t blame you. I just can’t believe you rolled your eyes …

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I don’t know whats wrong with me.

November 26th, 2016by lulu1999

A lot of the reason I don’t get along with my parents I think is just the generation gap.  We were raised in very different times therefore we have different views and opinions on just about everything.  And some of the problems are because they are stubborn and up-tight, but I just had the realization that most of it is my fault.  I am a generally nice person.  I go out of my way to do things for others, i sacrifice for my friends and family, but when it comes to my parents, I feel I am a totally different person.  Almost every interaction I …

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I have seen my future and my childrens,childrens as well

November 26th, 2016by kupo95

 

I have realized that my whole existence is meaningless. but not only my life my family my friends my entire race.

I was born to be thief and liar for my entire life .so was my parents there parents and so forth .

The other day I realized the biggest dream anyone of my entire ethnicity is get married have a family and fancy cars and things . the value of said fancy things depends on who you marry .

All of the people I know kill them selfs for this dream and so did I when I was married and that’s it .

I saw my future getting …

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“You look happy, you can’t be dead inside.”

November 25th, 2016by Atrium

“There’s no way you are depressed, you look so active and talkative.”
“You’ve got a whole life ahead, you have a good life so I can’t find a reason why would you be in so much pain.”

These are the words that have been told by my parents for countless times.

I’m 22 years old girl in the eastern region who’s studying in the medical field. On the outside, I used to be a happy-go-lucky, active and energetic person, but deeply I knew that I worry a lot and have a turbulent mind. I always get easily surprised and overwhelmed and my heart races …

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Don’t know what else to do…

November 24th, 2016by justadepressedgirl

Everyday just gets worse. I feel like I have nobody to talk to. Not only do the people at school criticize me, even my parents continue to do so all the time. My mom, I’ve always known she has a passionate hate towards me. I can see it in her eyes when she talks affectionately towards my elder brother and gives me a wicked glance.
I try so hard to get her to like me. But all of my past academic accomplishments aren’t enough for her. Whether it’s my brother, a cousin or a random stranger, my mom HAS to compare me and point out my …

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Happy Thanksgiving, Mother Fuckers

November 24th, 2016by AKidWithAName

I am coughing up blood. I don’t know why or how, seeing as I haven’t even really attempted suicide in awhile, but here I am coughing and vomiting blood. It’s not that I ate too much; I hardly ate anything. Maybe my body is finally ready to die. I didn’t even have to do anything. If I had known that just giving my body time to really fuck itself over would fuck me up this bad, I would’ve stopped attempting suicide years ago. Hell, maybe there is a God. Well, as much as I’d love to tell my parents that I’m really fucked right now, …

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i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

November 23rd, 2016by niki

i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !

reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !

Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is better than reality …

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What Kind of Title Will Accurately Describe This Feeling I Have in the Pit of My Stomach?

November 22nd, 2016by LostandLonelySoul

There are literally no words to describe this god awful feeling I have in the pit of my stomach right now. It’s the kind of feeling that you don’t really know how to describe. Do I want to punch somebody in the face? Do I want to punch myself in the face? Do I want to cry? Do I want to go out on an “angry run”? Do I honestly just want to sit here for hours and stare at the wall and do nothing? Do I want to do anything productive? Who the hell knows. All I know is, I hate feeling like this.

I …

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I’m sorry.

November 21st, 2016by Gekonexx

My story is quite long, posting for the first time here, but been here for some time.

Hi. I am 19 y/o boy, straight, white, from a good house. Everyone in my family have good scientific degrees, my aunt is a scientist, my father is an engineer and mother is very important persona in cultural areas of my city’s culture. Why am I writing this? My whole life is a constant pressure from my parents and family, all of them had or have successful life, all of them  completed good schools and have very respected work positions (lawyer, scientist, engineer etc.). My family was constantly repeating …

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Competing

November 16th, 2016by Lawli

So I do Judo, I used to do it competitively but this year I stopped after my first international competition. Until then competing was a huge part of my life but I get extremely nervous months before a competition, which is part of why I stopped.

Recently I have been enjoying judo so much and feel I have gotten a lot better, I don’t know if it’s because I have stopped doing competition of something else but it makes me want to start competitions again. The only thing is I feel that if I start again I will lose the love I have right now for …

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An Aspirant Person

November 14th, 2016by away

Lately, I’ve been having more and more social difficulties, namely with names (no pun intended) and overall conviction.

Typically, in an interaction, saying a participant’s name will have to happen at least once, but I can’t do it. I can’t say nor even type a person’s name, and if someone does it to me, I become extremely uncomfortable. It would be so much easier to call people numbers or something, kind of like the fact that I use Emoji in place of names on my mobile phone.

Along with that, I also have issues with conviction, instead displaying uncertainty by involuntarily adding, “I think” or, “Or whatever” to …

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Selfish? Let’s talk about that

November 14th, 2016by mysteriousvisitor

Those who feel suicidal are often told how selfish they are, but it is equally selfish to expect someone to stick around and be in unbearable pain so that others don’t have to go through suffering a loss (which is a part of life, just like all other pain). Guilt trips just make a person feel worse and do nothing to help someone who is feeling suicidal.

Fact is, almost every single thing every human being does on Earth every single day is based on selfishness. Societies operate on selfishness. We even do things for others in hopes of some type of reward (whether it be …

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She remains lost in time

November 13th, 2016by FadingFlame

I’m sorry for losing who I was and killing the girl you loved…and I’m sorry that you miss her..she is gone and left all the broken parts of herself with me…I pick up the pieces one by one hoping I can put her back together…but just when I think I might have this puzzle of pieces worked out I look down to see more pieces than there were before…and realize that all my effort, sweat, and tears were for nothing but this hollow person I’ve become..alone and misunderstood…always wanting a man that loves a girl that I no longer know how to be. I will keep chasing her ghost…until I run out of breath and time..because I miss her just as much as you..

I’m sorry.

Living with jealousy of your past self is a true tragedy…chasing your past self is futile.. I realize that now..and I hate that my eyes have opened…where will I find my hope now?

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Tired…

November 8th, 2016by Madotsuki

I haven’t been sleeping well, or eating well.

This is normal for me now, but it’s affecting my grades.

But why should I care? My future doesn’t matter to me anymore.

My mom and dad always pressure me to study, to work hard, get good grades.

Numbers define me.

90%, 80%.

But what happens the day I fail?

Will you turn on me?

Why haven’t you bothered to ask what’s wrong?

I’m drowning.

Why won’t you swim out, in the sea of pressure, lies, everything-

Why won’t you come and at least try, try to save me?

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