Archive for the 'Family & Friends Effects' Category

My… Our first date…

Saturday, May 19th, 2012

I went on my first date with Jasmine. Although it took nearly forever to get to see her (about 2 hours), I got to see her and whatever deity or unknown force decided to fuck off today.  Alex, her brother was there too. He understands the situation now and so does my brother, I love [...]

no happy ending.

Saturday, May 19th, 2012

I’m 15. I’m a female. And here’s a story that really changed me. It was a sunny day. Me and my friend were excited so we went riding with our bikes around the block. Lame, I know. But we were only 10. Anyway, some of our classmates lived on that block. We were talking and [...]

past present && future

Friday, May 18th, 2012

as i sit here typing each word that pops into my mind, i feel so friken depressed. i think of my past present and future. my past was horrible my present is worse and my fututre might be hell or i might so something with my self. i havent talked to my father in forever [...]

I don’t know how to be

Friday, May 18th, 2012

I don’t like the person I am anymore. I’m okay on some levels, but in close relationships I become a cold bitch. I don’t know how to fix it, therapy hasn’t helped much with the issue. I’m stressed in general, but I guess I just get unhappy. My boyfriend and I just broke up for [...]

Urgent! Help!

Friday, May 18th, 2012

Help me, I’ve cut really deep, I don’t know what to do, it wont stop bleeding… What have I done, am I gonna die? Please help… :’(

what did i do to deserve this?

Thursday, May 17th, 2012

im the youngest of 5 kids. everyone expects sooo much from me. i just can’t take it anymore. my parents and my siblings expect me to be this perfect person. Smart, outgoing, fun, pretty. Well i can’t because they always fucking bring me down! You would expect a family to be supportive, but no. They [...]

Is Hiding the Answer?

Thursday, May 17th, 2012

I just wanna know if this is the right thing to do? I haven’t been to school for the last three days, I told my mum it was because I felt ill. I deliberatly made myself ill so that I wouldn’t have to go. The reason is, I get bullied really badly at school all [...]

The calling

Thursday, May 17th, 2012

It calls it does again and again Begging and pleading saying ”Let me come in” You feel it aproaching quickening its feet Bringing death and disaster to all it does meet Awake at midnight you feel it’s power Have the urge to end your hour A slip of the blade a drop of red Breath does [...]

Disaster

Wednesday, May 16th, 2012

turning my pain into something creative, and made a music video. watch please.

New here

Wednesday, May 16th, 2012

I want a way out, simply put, no sugar coating it. I have an average life, I know there are people worse off, call me selfish, I just want to end it all. I am 17, 18 in October. I hate the thoughts if waking up in the morning on weekends. I put on the [...]