Alright, friends, I’m very close now. I’m doing it tomorrow. I’ve tried writing different letters to my mom in order to make her feel less angry, shocked, but above all, guilty. I haven’t lived with her in many years, and I haven’t seen her in a year, as I live overseas. I known it will [...]

~ Polygon Window (Aphex Twin) – Quino-Phec ~ How countlessly they congregate O’er our tumultuous snow, Which flows in shapes as tall as trees When wintry winds do blow!– As if with keeness for our fate, Our faltering few steps on To white rest, and a place of rest Invisible at dawn,– And yet with neither [...]

i get so tired of wearing this fake mask hidding my feeling and pain inside making like im doing fine and im not depressed anymore but when i get alone i cry, cry because im in pain because im hurt and sometimes cry for nothin at all im just ready to say fuck it and [...]

some of yall may not know me but im hailey_baby. over my life time ive been through a lot.  Horrible father, abusive boyfriend, sisters that hate me and now i have a 3 year old niece to take care of. my life has not been easy but having my niece saved me. if it wasnt [...]

This life isn’t worth living, if you aren’t with me to share it. That is why I try so hard.. When you hug me, it heals me.. When you kiss me, i feel alive. I never thought I could fall in love again. But I did, I fell in love with you. If I die [...]

well now both my parents know i started cutting again. and i hate it… i dont want to talk to them about it.. i cant its too hard. but my mom doesnt understand this… i think my dad helped her to a little tho. becuz last nbight she said she didnt think it was nessesary [...]

personality keeps splintering, can’t choose a way to be, it’s tiring carrying on multiple faces. What am I talking about? Am I insane. I laughed when I read daniel radcliffe was drunk during a bunch of the harry potter scenes; i laughed to tears. Addicitve personalities man.. i started back drinking coffee again, appetites completely [...]

I have been in a juvie/ mental hospital thing forth past week. I cut myself a little to deep and went to the hospital again. They decided to do something this time. Now that I’m back home I found out I am moving again come April. My mom said I fell in with the wrong [...]

I feel fat. I weigh 130 and i am 53 and im 15… i dont knw what to do anymore.. i am not eating today because i have choosen that i am not skinny enough.. people tell me im skinny idk what to do anymore… Hopless feeling is back.. and i just want to throw [...]

I woke up wishing I lived in New York on one of those tall apartment buildings so I could jump off of it. I have to be @ work @ 330 and I’m thinking of ways I can kill myself before then. I hate this shit. I bitch here because I have to. Not because [...]