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this is so beautiful
it calms me right down
like a river with the water slipping over the rocks sparkling with sunlight in the water
just calms me down
For general topics related to the site.
this is so beautiful
it calms me right down
like a river with the water slipping over the rocks sparkling with sunlight in the water
just calms me down
…and loneliness is hell, too….
Does that mean Heaven is full of talking animals? If so, furries everywhere, rejoice!
One day I will get my happy ever after, but I am so tired of waiting for it to come. Â I wanna take everything in to my own hands and have the life that I know I deserve but of coarse I can’t and I wanna know why can’t I have it. Â I dated a guy for 10 years, I mean seriously you would think he would be my happy ever after but wrong. Â He decided that being a crackhead was more important and I just couldn’t do it anymore I was physically and mentally drained. Â 1 week after we break up he has a […]
Today, I explained my non-intervention policy to one of the people I tentatively (for lack of a better term) call a friend. (Being more concerned with what they perceive as my interests than the interests themselves, I don’t think they can be termed “allies” precisely. So I use the word “friend” rather loosely, although I suppose it would be more accurate to say “one of those people I hang about constantly whom I happen to know”.) I interfere (interact, I suppose) with people as little as possible and would appreciate if they showed the same consideration to me.
She confronted me with the question: What if […]
Has anyone else ever taken an Ambien? One pill knocks me out within 15 minutes. That’s not the interesting part. The interesting part is that it wipes out all memory for those few minutes leading up to unconsciousness.
I know it would take at least 1000 pills to kill me, so that’s not what I’m posting about. But something about those few minutes of blackout is interesting. People who have seen me on ambien say i just lie down and I’m out cold, no amout of noise or shaking can get through.
What if, for example, I were to take a dozen pills and then go swimming […]
i don’t even know why i’m on here. it’s not like people want to know about me anyways, but ohkay. i’m cat and i turn 15 in november. i’ve been suffering with OCD, depression, anxiety and body dysmorphic disorder (BDD). the body dysmorphic disorder is the worst because i got homeschooled because of it. i would sit there and stare at myself for hours and cry when i should be getting ready. i would punch myself in the face or wrists and pull my hair or skin. i started out just being constantly late to school, but now i’m so afraid of people seeing me […]
i dont know why, but lately ive cryed over the weirdest things. sometimes i start crying over seemingly stupid things, which makes me feel like a little spoiled brat crying over nothing, which makes me feel like no one would want to help me which makes me cry. school is awful. three days in and im so done.
if you’ve read my previous posts, you’ll know about the guy in my class. things have just been getting worse. i want to hate him. i want to hate him just so it would be easier. it wouldnt matter what he felt, because i would hate him and […]
Gone are the days when therapists believe in their patients. In their ability to survive – although often times as they struggle in the deepest darkest places inside themself. They know that we are cutters, have eating disorders, self medicate, and many other things but they forget that we are SURVIVORS. Our coping methods may not be the norm, but our lives aren’t either. It’s what we do to save ourselves.
Gone are the days when therapists remember that we are not ourself when we enter their office. We are wounded and afraid. We are depressed and angry. We have been living with these pains long […]
I feel like the reason I like the suicide project is because I can write my true feelings. Â Usually I keep them bottled up. Â I know my dad has advanced diabetes and my mom just lost her mom and then her little sister and she feels helpless so I cant really tell them “hey I have serious depression, I lay in the fetal position and cry and wish for it to be over” Â That doesnt help them. Â So I try to keep going and then what happens my sister starts a fight with me over shit that has nothing to do with me. Â So I […]
I have always wished
not to end up like this.
Alone, drinking away my life,
my sanity at the edge of a knife.
My mom went through this,
for far better reasons than I.
And then she O. D. ‘d.
Am I destined to die?
To pity myself when so many suffer,
is the prison I’ve made, like no other.
I drink to drink, and smoke to forget,
this life I live is full of regret.
Do with life what you can,
as you play with only one hand.
Say and feel what you please,
Heed my words and win with ease.
….I would greatly appreciate it. 😀
Ha.
If I communicate with anyone more before my craziness has subsided, it shall be using a telegraph and morse code. Much harder to act like a complete dumbass/asshole/moron/idiot or whatever else I may act like whilst insane that way.
I mean, unless someone wants to throw a brick at my head, in which case, sweet.
I wish I could give everyone who posts here a hug, validate that what each one of us is feeling is okay, and be there for each and every one to help you get through the day. Since I can’t do that individually and in person, I just wanted to let everyone know that there is someone in this world here who wants to. Sometimes just knowing that there is someone out there who cares, can be the extra push to get thorough the day. To all of you who need that extra someone, that extra push, that extra love and support, I care. I’m […]
Alright so, I may be young but I feel like I’ve gone through a lot. I feel tired of life. I’ve thought about commiting suicide so many times but I look into my future. I have a lot to go through. But anywho, the reason why I feel like this is because of my family, especially my mother. For a long time now, its turned into an everyday thing to argue. My mother makes me feel like im nothing. Wishing for me to not be her daughter, and regreting to have me. Im not good enough, I don’t do anything right. All I do is […]
I have lost the will to live it takes alot to make me smile and hardly anything to upset me. I have no energy anymore have lost intrest in my favirote things. I first started starveing myself around age 16 because i always felt fat, ugly and stupid comared to everyone eles. Ill go a couple days without eating then give in and consume a sick amount of food only to feel horrible afterwards. Food is an enemy i regret every meal i eat.
Self hatred has caused me to cut myself which turned into an everyday vice. Iv developed a blood lust waiting and […]
For a long time i have felt but a hollow shell and unwanted/loved. NO matter what the incident is I am the one who is to yell at. Feeling unloved by my parents is the worst, I have never lived up to my sisters, straight A students, went to college, got good jobs. Me i don’t even get a second look by my parents. Listening to all the accomplishments my sisters have is annoying. I had always showed my love towards my family but since birth i was hated. Locked outside to “play” while my sisters watched TV. Sent to my room where their was […]
It has come to my attention that a particular person has been cyber bullying young girls on this site, i have no way of knowing if it is particular disclosed to this site alone or not, but here- in it is a big issue on here. and there maybe a lot of people on here doing it, i have no way of knowing. so i am going to write this purely on the facts that i have accumulated over a set period of time. this said person be-friends these girls and convinces them to talk privately with him or to play online games with him, […]
I long to take my last breathe… but compared to before things have been better.
All my life I am left alone never friends with anyone for more than a year at most, they always leave…my family, i wouldnt even know where to start, they don’t love me they told me so
I keep expecting to wake up one morning and find everyone i love gone, telling me they never want to see me again, and I dont think I could handle it…not now when I need them most.
I wonder if I should just end it –Take my last breathe– before they hurt me first…
but I can’t…and […]
does anybody know that alone feeling ? that feeling of feeling worthless the feeling of wanting to cry all the time because you are lost you dont know where you belong. you try to smile and laugh try to pretend to be happy but deep down inside you are screaming out screaming to be heard for them to see that all you long for is a hug that will make you feel so safe. crying these tears for no apparent reason, i feel empty i am a walking dead soul i look in the mirror and i dont see who i am . i see […]
Is anyone here serious about ending their life?
It’s so much easier to do it with someone, not alone. Even enjoyable probably…
I’m just sick and tired of looking for excuses to not do it every day for many years…
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