I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.


Rest Stop: In Memoriam

Hello Fellow SPians. I slept for a little over two hours, and it’s looking like that is all the sleep I’m going to get out of tonight. So I was thinking, why not make a stop and pay tribute to those who’ve lost the good fight and have moved on to that place on the […]


I Feel Like Dreaming While I’m Awake, But Awake and Comfortable While Asleep… What is This?

I re-read this comment I made while replying to The Last Snorlax on another post, and suddenly realized how much sense it made. And just like that, Sala Samobójców (aka. Suicide Room, 2011) came to mind, not sure why. Can you help me reason this? I mean the lyrics and theme don’t really match my […]


Hello! New-ish here… Do You Ever Wonder?

Actually, I’ve been a lurker for the longest time. On and off. Never posted before though. I don’t think I’ve ever been actually the text book definition of suicidal, but I wonder about death (and life) a lot. The last time I had been on here was about 2 years ago. So today when I […]



December 3rd, 2016by anne33

i swear, i am tired. I’m tired of the stress, tired of the anxiety, tired of the loneliness….. the pain.

I’m tired of the same old routine with the same old people…. I’m tired of everything.

I’m tired of living. i swear, i am done.

i can’t do it,

I’m literally finished. when i say “i can’t” i mean it. I’ve skipped my extra curricular activities a lot lately, and i dont find joy in what i used to love. I’ve skipped some school too.

I’m breaking.

i am fucking breaking.

other people hurt and stay


Last Hope Vanished – I was Born, Shaped, and MOLDED by the DARK!!!

December 1st, 2016by silverComplex

I was doing Carbon Monoxide in a sealed tent underground… I was just passing out and I crawled out and realized looking at the sunset… I want to live as much as I want to die… In other words, when life gets fucking hard I want to die as much I want to fucking live!! I fucking screamed and broke down. Every muscle in me was aching was saying what’s the point? Every muscle in my fucking body was telling me to stop. Every in me was telling me to stop and give up. And I said I can fucking do it… I know there is …


For those that need someone to talk to….

December 1st, 2016by HDs

Hello to all,

I don’t pretend to know anyone’s situation or desire to end their life. What I do know is that I have lost many close friends to suicide and that during several low points in my life I have tried to kill myself at least a half a dozen times.  These were not cries for help on my end, and I totally went for it with the most purpose driven determination possible.  One such attempt put me in a coma for several weeks.

So I can definitely offer advice, empathy, and even sympathy to anyone who may need someone to talk to.  I don’t and …


i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

November 23rd, 2016by niki

i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !

reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !

Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is better than reality …


how do I get through this?

November 21st, 2016by daydreambeliever

im 21 years old and I don’t know what I feel anymore. When I was 12 I used to cut myself I was going through a tough time at home but I managed to sort out my head. Lately the past few months me and my boyfriend of two years haven’t been seeing eye to eye and me and my dad are constantly arguing. My job pays nothing and my family are always on my back to find something else but they don’t know how hard it is! I have five brothers and sisters so you can imagine the pressure of growing up and having …


I am alive because of you

November 13th, 2016by silent survivor

Hello, it has been 2 years since the last time I’ve been on here. Things have changed. I often find myself wondering if the same people who were here when i first started are still alive or if their lives have gotten better. I hope so. I hope that they’re enjoying life as much as they can like i am.

I want to be honest, the first time i came across this place i was  around 13-14 years old and googling suicide methods. Instead of finding ways to end my life this place helped me find ways to cope and keep on living. I am 18 years …


I’m weak, and I’m finally admitting it

November 3rd, 2016by orange-juice

I’m 17. I can hear too many things going on in my head but at the same time I feel blank. I love life but I hate life. Everything is so confusing and I feel a lump in my throat when I try to explain what I really want, so I thought I’d type it.

I don’t want the life that everyone is told to follow. Working behind a desk, getting large sums of money for rotting away in a grey, dull workplace and consistently working for a force that marginalises freedom. I want freedom. I just wish I could run through endless green fields that …


New beginning

November 3rd, 2016by wrathofgod

Its been about 3 years since the last time I’ve posted on here. Looking back at my posts I couldn’t believe what I used to do to myself. Hurting myself over a stupid boy? That once broke my heart into pieces, now wants me back. Pathetic. I am now 19. Over 2 years since Ive cut myself anywhere on my body. I couldn’t be more proud of myself. I am now in a happy healthy relationship. With a boy who actually cares about my feelings and my well being. We have been dating for almost 3 years and Ive never been happier in my relationship. …


I Cry In My Sleep

November 2nd, 2016by GerbzBaby

Lately I’ve realized I’ve been crying in my sleep. It happens at least once or twice a month. This is weird because it has never happened to me but suddenly this year it started up (about a few months back). I consciously know I’m doing it, but, I cannot stop myself or wake myself up. This may sound odd but it hurts when I cry in my sleep too. I can’t explain it but from what I can remember It hurts my head..

I really hope these won’t be frequent..


I hate reality ! reality is boring ! Doctor Strange , Marvel MCU , Avengers , Sword Art Online , Virtual Reality , games , movies , novels , anime manga , comics is better than reality !

October 29th, 2016by niki

I hate reality ! reality is boring !

Doctor Strange is better than reality !
Marvel MCU (Marvel Cinematic Universe) is better than reality !
Avengers is better than real world !
Sword Art Online is better than real life !
Virtual Reality is better than boring reality !
video games is better than reality real life real world !
movies is better than real-world real-life reality !
novels is better than real-life real-world reality !
anime manga is better than boring real life real world reality !
comics is better than boring real world real life reality !

Why Human’s Imagination is much better than reality ??
movies , games …


People let you down

October 27th, 2016by Sj2683

why is it when you feel low and down and ask your friends to meet you up no one meets but yet when they need you to talk to or meet up I’m always there. I’m sick of it being one way traffic all the time. I mean do I need to say please come meet me I feel like shit and I want to self destruct and you need to stop me. Seriously wtf!



October 27th, 2016by poetontheedge

My friend had to talk me out of suicide last night. This is the 4th time this month. I love him so much and I don’t want to hurt him. He have saved me so many times and if I left that would be wasted time for him. He lives in Arizona and I’m from Illinois and I really want to meet him, I need to.


Getting help?

October 27th, 2016by Jon1700

I’m feeling suicidal, idk what to do. I have no one to talk to. What should I do? Should I tough it out alone, I’m so sick of doing that. I need someone.


a message to my abuser

October 25th, 2016by paintinghorses

i have never uttered a single word to anyone about what happened. i’ve been depressed about this lately, thinking that it was my fault. i know that this isn’t the pandora project, but i feel like it will somewhat help if i let someone know how i’m feeling because of my inability to speak.

i don’t understand what i did to you, for you to cause me all this worrying and suffering. you made me think that it was okay and that it was just a game. i’m disgusted with you and myself as well for being in that situation.

i pity you because of the terrible …


Just sitting

October 25th, 2016by MOFIMS

I feel mum. Don’t even know what I’m thinking about or what it is on my mind thats got me so pensive. The job search is going OK, got two potential jobs lined up and just waiting for a call back. But I just can’t seem to get out of this empty mindset. I feel so lethargic everyday and just plain tired the minute I wake up. I’ve been thinking about death but not in a suicidal kind of way. Just what is it that awaits us. I used to meditate daily and astral project but that was a while ago when my mind was at …


I’m happy being this way but why doesn’t anybody likes me?

October 20th, 2016by MOFIMS

I don’t want to listen to your advice because what I’m doing is obviously better since its not working. Thanks for your suggestion but I rather not try anything new or different because I want to be able to knock it before I try it and I won’t give it a shot even though it might help me. I know what’s best for me and staying stuck in this cycle of depression is what works best. And while your suggestions fall on deaf ears, I’ll continue struggling with my depression by not putting up a fight, begging to die, and staying boring and complacent while wondering …


the reason why i’m here.

October 18th, 2016by ultraviolet1

i dont really know how to start my first post, but i guess this is going to be an introduction and the story of why am i here. well, i’m actually still young. i’m not gonna mention how old i am but once people know, they will say “wow, this is so hard for a kid your age.” i have this feeling for about 2-3 years. i took a lot of depression and anxiety test. i got 80% to 90% all the time. at first i dont want to believe, but i search up the symptoms of it and i guess i have one. when …