I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

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Hello?

May 24th, 2015by Arabella

As i’m sitting here, home alone, typing this, i’m feeling slightly hopeful for this website. I don’t know how many people are active here. I don’t even know if I really care. All I know is that I need a place to vent when I need to, and this place caught my eye. I would like to begin by just venting about my setting. I’m sitting here at a kitchen dining room table that’s littered with used kleenex-  15 of them, my OCD made me count-, a red face, and a wadded up suicide note. Kidding about the last thing. I have a need to …

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I honestly cant believe it……….

May 23rd, 2015by serenityseeker

I’m not really sure what my last post was cuz I am having to write these as they come to me on a word processor and then copy and paste them when I do have internet access. It has its ups and downs. I can’t get distracted by pop ups and the curiosity of social media and all of that meaningless mind wasting junk that it can be. I find that if I can get caught up in all of that it ends up becoming some sort of drama filled b.s. game and I’d rather sit back and and watch then participate in any …

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Him

May 22nd, 2015by persephone

He is the only thing keeping me going these days. He tells me I’m special and how much he cares for me, what I’m worth, he puts a real smile on my face (the only person who can)… Without out him I wouldn’t be writing this I wouldn’t be here right now. If it wasn’t for his daily words of encouragement I would have taken my life or my mother would have locked me in the insane asylum a long time ago… But thanks to the one person who took the time to understand the time to pay attention and listen. Thanks to him I …

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It’s hard to deal with this as a Christian. I feel so guilty…

May 21st, 2015by SilentScream

I know I’m supposed to forgive, or else I won’t be forgiven. I know I’m supposed to pray for those who hurt me, but it’s not always easy. I’m having flashbacks of things my parents said to my brother and I

  • No one will ever want you
  • When you move out, don’t come back
  • You’re trash
  • You’ll never be anything
  • You’re a motherfucking piece of shit, you know that?

And did

  • locking him in a closet
  • making him sit outside for hours as they kept the door locked
  • “Spanking” us until they saw blood

And more. I don’t want this to affect the rest of life, I want to forget, but I can’t . I …

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It’s been a while.

May 20th, 2015by lostsoulblanklife

Hello everybody.

In my other posts, I do not think I made myself as clear as I wanted to. To me it’s a miracle I’m still here. Still breathing. Still fighting. A couple of weeks ago, I lost my best friend. She said I was too sad for her well-being. How selfish can one be? How inconsiderate?

I’m not surprised I feel like this. I feel like I’m at the breaking point. I feel hopeless not only about my social life but also because of my skin condition. I haven’t mentioned this in the other posts. I have acne. Acne that I can cover up with makeup, …

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Faces, Masks and Ego

May 19th, 2015by freeshine

Today I came across a post of a someone who said he’s changed, he’s unhappy and says that he has to wear his old happy mask in front of others..

And I’ve come to the conclusion that, maybe accepting the new mask and wearing it, as different and somber as it may be; forming a new life (which is a collection of ideas and actions) around the new mask is key to rebuilding one’s life – as opposed to living

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Recently permanently disabled from suicide attempt

May 15th, 2015by sagishi

I’m so devastated. Every day is just sadness. I live in constant terrible regret. Because I was a coward and couldn’t kill myself the guranteed ways, i live in constant physical pain. I can’t walk and run, my right leg is paralysed and left is nerve damaged. I used to love running. Even though I have always hated myself and suffered from depression, i trained and had a body to be envied. Now, its like ive woken up inside a nightmare, life doesn’t even feel real. Im just so sad. And it’s all my fault. No one else, just me. Suffering. Seeing doctors, specialists but …

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Pulling The Pain Card

May 12th, 2015by Raymond

Life is pain. Pain is life. There is no escaping it. In this moment I’m overwhelmed by the moment and the emotion welling up inside of me. Tears are trying to squeeze out of my soul windows. Not going to happen. I’m stronger than this. I’m a fucking, man. This defibrilation of the mind is too much for one man to handle. Why is it people only take you seriously if you only make an attempt? Before that people just think you’re doing well and good and that you can take the pressure and circumstances!? I CAN”T TAKE THE GODDAMN PRESSURE!!!! I CANT FUCKING TAKE …

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How did you get better

May 11th, 2015by thebottoms

Im tired of medication and psychiatry sessions I’m slowly watching everything die around me or walk out of my life and i just want to get better but i cant save myself . How did it get better for any of you

Im a recent graduate and its hard not having structure. In order to feel any emotion or fill my boredom i have given in to impulse decisions,unsafe decisions and have alienated everyone important to me. I have watched my life fall to pieces in weeks. I just lost my bf of 5 years and im struggling to see the point. Im know people will …

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Don’t give up, there still is HOPE!

May 11th, 2015by Alina_memories

Hi I’m a 15-year-old girl and was very suicidal nearly the whole last year but I got over it and I want to tell my story to help those people who feel like I did some time ago.

It all started at primary school with some guys in my class bullying me. The bullying went on for almost 10 years in every class and school I went to because some of that bullies always where in the same class. Over that long time I became very insecure and also depressed. Depression really started when I was 12 or 13 and I started cutting and burning myself …

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Mother’s day

May 10th, 2015by justanothergirl09

Mother’s day. I don’t know……

I just gotta say you shouldn’t just appreciate your mom on mother’s day, you should appreciate her every single day. One day when she’s long gone you won’t be able to to tell her how much she means to you or how much you love her. One day she will be gone and you won’t get another.

I gotta admit, I wasn’t the best daughter. I always had some type of anger problems with her. Like sometimes, I have to say, and it hurts to say it, I would hit her. I would get mad and I would be rude. I wouldn’t …

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a Century of Loneliness

May 10th, 2015by RinisSkywalking

I’ve always pondered whether loneliness was a disease or if it were a momentary reflection of how another sees me. If I feel so alone in my own company, how could another possibly enjoy me?
I’ve been so miserable at times I pondered ending it, but then I always have a flash of the world, and I realize what I’d be throwing away if I gave up.

I’m a wanderer who’s passionately in love with life, and I would dread to envision the world as it is now when I could’ve changed it just by changing myself, but instead left it to the rest of people …

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You exist as you are; and that is enough

May 10th, 2015by RinisSkywalking

Someone very brave once said, “I must uphold my ideals, for perhaps the time will come when I shall be able to carry them out.” This someone was Anne Frank. She held an optimism for a greater world despite her own situation. Carry her optimism with you. When you are faced with an obstacle that seems impossible to overcome, know inside yourself that you can. It’s been done over and over by people; they had the ability to never give up on themselves. You have that ability.

Everyone has the same attribute of being unique in a different way, that includes you. There is no one …

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I want my past to not be my burden but my strength

May 9th, 2015by VioletRabbit911

I don’t know if I can handle this anymore… I’m tired of the way I’m living right now;  I have so much on my chest right now, I want to let it all out.

when I was 5, I went to a Christmas Eve party at my cousins house. I was very bored so my mother told me to go find my brother that was with my cousin  in his room. so I went over there and they were playing video games. I felt sleepy so I decided to go on the bed to rest. As I was laying down, I didn’t realized what my cousin would try …

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I feel my end nearing

May 8th, 2015by blargyness

Hello everyone who’s reading and thank you for taking the time. My name Blargyness, which is obviously pen name, I’m 25 from Manila, Philippines. I’ve been suffering depression since I was 16 so give or take 9 years. When I was 16 i first committed suicide and I think I never recovered. I have a psychiatrist but lately I feel my end is nearing…
I do not have the most understanding people around me about my condition. Depression is not something really “real” here in the Philippines. Well save one person, my boyfriend. I am trying so hard not to give in. I said and promise …

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Another Day: Done.

May 7th, 2015by Luxury-NiteMare

As of late, my parents seem to harass me more nd more. Im leaving to college pretty soon nd they’re only making my transition harder. I have good grades. I dnt drink. Dnt smoke. I stay away from all those who do drugs & all.

Im fighting & fighting. I promise I am.

Like Hanlet said,” whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer th

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Once upon a time…

May 7th, 2015by justanothergirl09

Well, I guess it’s time for my story. I have made some posts but I guess it’s time to say the real deal.

Ever since I was a kid my mom would spend most of the time at a hospital. I usually stayed with her best friend or someone that took care of me since I was a baby. Such a nice old lady. She was like the grandma I never had. So yeah, I went to a private Christian school and had a few close friends. Well there were times when the security guard would go looking for me telling me my mom was outside …

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My Suicide Note (if i where to write one)

May 5th, 2015by Astley

I am so sorry. I know I should not have done it, but I couldn’t live like this anymore. It’s nothing anybody did. It’s all my fault. I love you guys, I love everyone in my life, but the pain I’ve been going through is just to much and I can’t picture myself ever getting better or happy again. Thank you for everything you have done. It really did stick and it did mean something. I just can’t continue on living the way I was feeling. I love you all so much and I am so sorry, I really am. I have to do this, It’s

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This is what I thought.

May 3rd, 2015by Iamhere1999

I am a writer, as most are on this page. I came across this page completely by accident but I guess it wasn’t. I am 16 years old and way to young to be thinking about this topic to some. To me I think that at around this age you are trying to figure out where you belong and what people best suit you. I have been bullied which applys for a lot of people. A lot of people have left mentally and physically and there was and is nothing I can do about it. I thought that maybe I can make a difference with …

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