My mom just took her own life back in july and i am the one that found her. I dont know what to think of this. and i have a really difficult time understanding why. I am going to counseling and it helps.. I just feel down a lot of times. I have thought a [...]

Fact: There are three emotional things every person needs… 1.) To be loved. 2.) To love. 3.) Something to look forward to. Today I realized that I can’t kill myself. I can’t kill myself because there are people who actually need me. There are people who actually appreciate me and my presence. There are people [...]

                              I fucking live off coffee and cigarettes, to be honest i just don’t give a shit , thats deff another lie, affirmed by my predisposition to cry. I claim to be emotionless when really I’m overrun by it. You all [...]

Well as most of you know…I have been struggling with something rather big since I got here on my Dad’s birthday.  Did I forget to tell you during my many rants that my Daddy was my first and best hero?  Oh man…I am soooo raw right now…but it feels good for a change.  Sorry had [...]

Check out my blog of journal entries threw my struggles with depression anxiety along with heroin addiction to try and stop the pain. I keep my journal raw and for all to see . No one in this forum is alone !! Http://www.jlb462606.blogspot.com

i live no where. i am homeless i am using an apartments local computer to do this on. I’m constantly leaving. i live in a box. with my mom. brother other brother,sister and dad. its not a big box. everyone in my family has their own box. i call my box, my room. for me [...]

I’ve fought everyone for so long. No I don’t need help. No i don’t need help. I’m fine.  I can only fight for so long. I think it is time to give in. I told my friends. My friends told our teacher. My teacher told the counselor at school. The counselor at school told my [...]

a message to myself: i really wonder why i put myself through all this pain. is it all really worth it in the end? Yes. i’ve realised that whatever i do, even if i screw up and it goes all wrong, everything will be okay. no matter what happens things will always sort themselves out. [...]

Do you ever smile, just because you want to brighten someone else’s day? I do. I smile at random people at the grocery store. I smile at people in the halls at school. I smile at people I don’t even know all the time. And you know what, smiles are contagious. 99% of the time, [...]

A friend posted this on my Facebook page and I thought about all the pain expressed by people via the Suicide Project website who feel no one understands or cares. If you think you don’t matter, if you feel all alone, you’re not alone in spirit. You Matter. This isn’t a religious song; it’s a [...]