I Will Survive

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Their charade was the event of the season

January 29th, 2015by impossible_girl

Are there other people out there that aren’t fake? Is there actually a realistic chance of being able to actually be the person I am without fear of people walking away from me, of having friends without having to jump through metaphorical hoops just to keep people in my life? Why am I, the one with Borderline Personality Disorder, the most genuine person I know? Because I’m starting to have serious doubts about the existence of other real people.

I’m starting to wonder if you only get ahead in life by being a fraud. A liar. But I’m tired of being …

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January 25th, 2015by montie

weight 

Im 28 and have suffered with depression for the past 12 years,i can’t blame a shitty childhood or lack of family support because that would be lie.i have a good job and friends who try to be a there for me buts its getting harder and harder to live behind this maskmask and when people say what do you have to feel down about the mask gets pulled tighter. I’m being crushed by  the weight of my inability to get this monster out of my life.iv tryed all the usually stuff medication therapy not seems to work for longer than a few weeks,I’m now using …

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Think everyone here can relate to this song… The Bravery – “Believe”

January 25th, 2015by B

Not only is this a great song, but I’d imagine that these lyrics can be interpreted by everyone here on a much deeper level than even intended.

 

B

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“…six in the magazine, one in the chamber — I’m cocked, locked and ready to rock!”

January 25th, 2015by Shephard

It’s not everyday that a washed up has-been lands himself the type of woman he’d only ever seen in his dreams, but that is my reality at present. I don’t consider that luck or the work of the subterranean lizard folk — I see this (as I’ve always seen this) as the universe sending me the one and only opportunity to live life that I’ll ever have… and if that truly is what she’s been put into my life to facilitate; then boy, is she doing an outstanding job in doing so.

I’m still not without my demons and they’re still doing a good job …

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Rejuvenation.

January 24th, 2015by lostsoulblanklife

I’d like to reconsider my life. Find someone that I could speak to, someone that I could really pour my soul out to. I need someone that will care for me, caress me, hold me when I’m crying. Not a guidance councillor, not my parents or family, but someone.. A stranger. A stranger that understands. A stranger that will wipe away the drops of water rolling down my cheek. A stranger that will love me. A stranger that will not leave me stranded in a room full of depression. I need someone to look at me in the eyes, and tell me that I’m beautiful.

I am …

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how much is morally wrong to sell your body?

January 22nd, 2015by Wrath_Hurricane

At first it seemed like a joke. Like hell no I would do that, but… My teeth needs a shit ton of repairs, I barely found a freaking job in which in I’m being abused like a slave for ~240 EUR a month, working in dangerous conditions up high with no security hooks or anything, cos, they would get in the way.

I’m a MAN.

And I can’t get a better job since I have no skills to do so..

 

Apparently, my ugly face, that no girl finds attractive is actually a candy in a mans eyes… I just hope my muscular body is actually muscular and not …

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Strapped, Stocked, and Stark Naked

January 22nd, 2015by killswitchon

walls are closing in
absolve my walking sin
a smug smirk with a conceited grin
worship the inevitable
banish the incredible

walk on walk on walk on
to a land that knows no pain
a figment of reality all disdain
if you’re abel im cain
when im gone there’ll be nothing but a stain
life is no beauty its my bane

thinking of you tonight tropical flower
only you knew and saw through
your eyes welling with tears broke my power
a strong tower I am no more
beaten and battered to my core
walked all over your heart like a whore

take me to shore
capsize this boat the journey is over
lucks ran out I lost my four leaf clover
the …

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Friend.

January 21st, 2015by hellblau

If You had a friend who spoke to you in the same way you sometimes speak to yourself, ¿How long would you allow that person to be your friend?

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Where’s my damn Epiphone?!

January 20th, 2015by Shephard

There’s a place where it’s just you and me. In all honesty: it’s wherever you may be.

In your room.
Asleep within a field.
Overlooking the rainforest from the cliffs.
On the back of our property, practising weapons drills.
Stuck in the morning traffic.
…and even in our dreams.

No longer can we deny the connection we share, especially if the last three days were anything to go by. We’re tethered to each other in much the same manner that the forward assist had long since become an integral part of the AR-15 platform — if I ever produce a stoppage; you’ll be there to unjam …

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Closing the Book/Writing Our Next Adventure.

January 18th, 2015by Shephard

Hey team,

I owe y’all an apology for that appalling post I put up last night. See, I had those thoughts fermenting in my mind for a while now, and despite knowing that I ought to bring them to the attention of my Missus and ONLY my Missus… I decided to spill my guts in a post instead.
I say this from deep within my heart, so believe me when I say… I’m sorry. Apologies have never been a strong suit of mine, due to the fact that I’ve only ever believed that my pale, lifeless body is the only apology that my loved ones …

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An Unwelcome Guest

January 16th, 2015by Silverbird

A disclaimer to the world.

I really don’t belong. There’s no conceivable place on this planet where I belong.

The public is my enemy. If you put someone in front of me, I’ll do everything in my power to disregard them, including not-disregarding them. My mask is so genuine that it even deceives myself half the time, such is the cost of being able to blend into society, and avoid being a homeless bum the rest of my pitiful existence (of which will continue to be a pitiful existence, bum or not, however bums are publicly pitiful, which is why I’m willing to throw myself away most …

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Bored, depressed, alone and/or looking for a distraction…?

January 13th, 2015by killswitchon

http://tinychat.com/thewarmroom

Wacky waving inflatable arm flailing tube man!!! Alas, we do not have any more in stock but what we do have I give to you — and free!!
Come check out our tiny chat room. We usually have about 6-9 people in chat equally as fucked up as you and me so it’s always entertaining. Good times to be had by all. I guarantee it. Without further ado here is the link: http://tinychat.com/thewarmroom Cool people willing to help or just chat and be a slightly dysfunctional distraction from your life problems. No need for webcam either. If you just want to chill and hangout and type …

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Vulnerability

January 13th, 2015by cr-123456

Hello,

Thanks for taking the time to read this post. I have been thinking about shame and guilt. What I’ve noticed so far that I have done some terrible things in my life as a result of shame. I have intense suicidal thoughts due to shame. Shame, meaning I am a bad person and guilt meaning I have bad behaviors.

At times, I think people use shame and guilt interchangeably, which is detrimental to someone who struggles with mental illness. I have a lot of shame. I am shameful of my ethnic background, I am shameful of my behaviors and people I’ve hurt. There’s several things wrong …

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I’m Back, It Helped

January 12th, 2015by moonlitrose34

Soooo…first off, I wanted to thank all the people that gave me all of their encouraging comments on my last post, and in general. (which was about a week ago)

That was when I was hospitalized. I didn’t have my phone..and there were two computers to use the internet, which was crappy, but I think I would’ve thrown a red flag out there had I gotten on here, so I waited until I was out. Today I got discharged from the hospital, and I just wanted to talk about my experience.

So I was terrified when I first went there, I went voluntarily but I was still …

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One and counting.

January 12th, 2015by hellblau

First day and I still have to fight to not feel so fucking down when you’re not around. Your presence was what kept me alive. I miss you so much. Please come back ._.

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I won’t write you a love song (on purpose)

January 11th, 2015by impossible_girl

I’m not supposed to be that sort of woman, the one who has that mythical “other half”. Soul mates are supposed to be a joke, a laughably illogical lie that the deluded and overly romantic comfort themselves with: “If I just wait long enough, I will find my soul mate.” Yeah. Right. You and I know better. I’m experienced. I’ve been used and abused so often it’s old hat now. You’re nearly six years my junior and still running scared from letting yourself fall for anyone. Newsflash. Too late. We happened to each other before …

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I am MAD!!!

January 11th, 2015by Pretend Girl

I am mad! Mad at my depression that interrupted my life, caused heartache and hurts. Separated me from my family for my emotional safety. I am mad at the counseling I had that went no where because I didn’t understand my emotional state of mind, 20 years later!

Over the years I had counseling, but they said counseling wasn’t about dredging up your past, it’s about moving forward! But if the unresolved thoughts and feelings aren’t examined, it IS what I needed/need.

I tell you I am also mad about how many people are affected this way- family of origin does harm and leaves the child to heal …

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Love yourself and hold on

January 11th, 2015by Pretend Girl

I read the posts here and I feel so sad. So many people, so much sadness. I wish I could give each and every person a hug.

Let me say this… YOU are the most important person in your life. Please  provide yourself with loving words, loving actions and hold on.

Take great care of you.

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Each little thing helps!

January 6th, 2015by Pretend Girl

Thet is hard to imagine, in the thick of a depressive moment that emotions can lift and the depression can leave. After years and y,ears dealing with my depression, I find this is all too true! But we must remember, esp in the middle of an episode that it can change and it can lift!

This morning started out rough, last night’s depression continued to linger. I HAD to go to work, I wanted to go to work, but my heart was really back in the muck. So much so that when a lady asked me for a ride, I was mad. Oye. Not like me. …

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It just seems so hopeless

January 6th, 2015by tinipie

I just had a friend tell me that it takes on average 3-6 months for someone to get a new job.  I was fired on November 20th and have been on 11+ interviews with only one offer and it was for something I didn’t feel safe doing.  I’m not even having the suicidal car crash fantasies but I ache right now.  I see a therapist in about a week for an intake appointment and then maybe in a month I’d see a new psychiatrist for a med adjustment, but I know I need to go to the hospital.  I just promised my husband that I’d …

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