I Will Survive

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Oh, all hate

August 27th, 2015by flynnrenning

The world is sick.

There’s really nothing more profound to say than that, but I have a story to tell, it may be removed, rejected, have hate thrown at it, whatever, but when I’m going against the forces of the universe that are beyond my direct perception and control, that’s to be expected. I could go into every detail of how I know what I know and how I learned what I learned but no one wants to read about anything important, no, they don’t. So instead, here’s my story, with, an entertaining veil thrown over it to cover up all the “gruesome” details you don’t …

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Which way?

August 24th, 2015by YuTasogare

It’s the second time I write here today. I really thought things would take a turn for the better but It wasn’t the case. It makes some pretty good time since I got this bad. I just wanna cry but I simply can’t, maybe it’s because I don’the have the option to fail this time. Like my life would crumble if I did that, there was also one other thing that bothers me. My family have seen the pages I’ve been accessing and then they found out about suicideproject.org. No need to say they are very worried about me but even so they

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It’s been awhile.

August 24th, 2015by breakeven

Wow. I haven’t been writing for 3 months and now I’m back again. It’s funny cause I thought I was doing so well. Turns out, I’ve been lying to myself. Yes, people have it worse than me but does that mean my problems don’t matter? I’m about to start college soon after graduating early one whole year. The expectation of everyone is really weighing down on me. The stress of handling everything, every action that I take from now on is being carefully watched and judged. I’m trying to handle so many things in my life and I think I’m getting overwhelmed again. I know …

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Its been a while

August 24th, 2015by kurea

It’s been a while since I last logged in here. A long while. A few years. I don’t know what made me think of it now but I remembered it and how at the time, writing helped.

The depression is back. It never really left I guess, but after I was put on meds I was on those for about two years and became a semi functional member of society. Then I was taken back off them, and I had gotten myself to an okay place and kept trundling on living day by day doing anything to put a bit of sunshine into life. But it’s …

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Sadness on the way to…

August 23rd, 2015by YuTasogare

Well, I’m here and I will keep moving forward, yesterday I left my dad’s house, I plan on living with my mom from now on, don’t know for how long and don’t wanna think about it right now, my dad is kinda down, he suffers from “depression” (I think it’s like that, don’t know how to say it in English) so yeah… my departure made him feel very bad, and I keep blamming me for this, being responsible for someone’s sadness like that, that’s very heavy! I feel so… sellfish. I always cared for the others first but they can’t see or feel it and …

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Lost & Confused.

August 23rd, 2015by jazzyj

For the past four years I’ve struggled with PTSD, Anxiety & Depression, but the thing is I think I had anxiety and depression before I even figured out I had it…5 years ago I was 15,lost and confused.. To start off my first year of highschool was a fail and I pretty much quit the first week, I went to one class everyday for a week because all of it was over too whelming for me and I didn’t understand why I figured you know it’s highschool it’s probably over whelming for everyone, but I knew it was different for me when I started thinking …

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Im Here

August 21st, 2015by REIKOsan

Yeah guys, im still here
not happy, but im here
well…
im not saying that im all ok, im really tired
reaaaaaally tired, afraid of future, afraid of darkness

but i still here!
someone is here too?
im a little… lonely..
maybe i will post some drawings….
when someone dont have how make it emotions flow, its better make something about it
i aways draw when im depressed…
logic, all the drawings are… sad
but it comforts me

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Suffocating

August 15th, 2015by Yours, Forever and Always

I’m suffocating.

I don’t know any other word for it.

I’m slowly suffocating in this life and I’m dying inside.

My mother asked me today, “Would you mind if I smoke?”

She knows that I HATE when she smokes. I’ve tried to help her stop smoking for the past 13 years and it seems like every time I think she;s getting better, she’s just faking it.

She told me she hopes that I can forgive her.

But how can I forgive a hypocrite? When I started smoking, she almost threw me out of the house. When I

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“Emotional-Anorexia”

August 15th, 2015by Zigzag

Sorry in advance for the length.

I think for some people (like me) depression is a kind of “Emotional-Anorexia”. Here’s what I mean by that:

You could tell an Anorexic that they’re skinny until you’re blue in the face, but because of what goes on inside their head, they probably won’t believe you. They have a dysmorphic view of themselves, and believe with all their heart that they are fat even though they aren’t. This isn’t their fault.
I believe that certain forms of depression (but not all) involve a similar dysmorphia about them. This is no one’s fault either. About six months ago, you could’ve told me …

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Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?

August 14th, 2015by niki

Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, One …

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How Do I Become Mute?

August 12th, 2015by Thalia Grace

I want to become mute to everyone. Forever. But I don’t know how. I have friends and stuff, I just get really worried about saying the wrong thing all the time. My shitty life would be easier if I just stopped talking. I did this with my friends for a bit and they understood and it defenatly helped so if you have any advice on how to go mute to everyone,-teachers, parents etc, could you post a  comment? It would be really helpful, thanks. I’m just starting year 9, I don’t know if that makes things more difficult or not, I dunno. But anyway, thanks.

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Symptoms…. Of What? Asking for help.

August 12th, 2015by KissOfDeath

So, this is very different than any other of my posts,
but I have been experiencing some “feelings” and I cannot find a name to these symptoms.
I feel like I can communicate with an outer me, such as if I had a twin, it’s very strange, it started with mirrors, and now I feel like I am not alone, although I am sitting in my room alone, such as another person is her. (Another version of myself.)
I have experienced this before, but only when I have been exhausted, and/or when I go from being surrounded by people for a long/short period of time, to be …

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Hope

August 12th, 2015by Darvin K. Duro

Hi! I’m ‘Darvin’ and i wat to share with you my story.
I wanted to commit suicide this june . i was feeling depressed and unwanted. i was on my way to hang on a rope and then happens something that changed my heart. my dog Iva gets in my way, she starts playing around and kisses me . i never felt better in my life because someone liked me. that moment changed my life and now i dont want to kill myself anymore :) i even found my purpose!
Everyone do not give up because love and hope will allways find the way to you!
If everyone …

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I’m here to express what I feel.

August 11th, 2015by pikwangchu

I still haven’t moved on from that fight between me and a bunch of fake friends.

The pain in my head just makes everything worse.

Half-heartedly, I tried my best to look strong. But to no success.

Under the rain, I would be weeping as I kept thinking about it.

Rather than having a fun young life, I refused to do so. I am always at home.

The atmosphere between me and those backstabbers will be awkward on school days.

Sadly, I can’t avoid it as we are in the same class.

 

Now what do I feel? Put all the initials of every paragraph together.

IT HURTS

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Mysterious Misery

August 11th, 2015by KissOfDeath

It’s mysterious,
the day you change,
suddenly feelings are engulfed by darkness,
and it feels as if you’re carrying a darker shadow than usual.

You wonder if people notice,
but you don’t think they can,
until you get that one person who says “Why are you so different all the time now?”
and you realize that everyone has noticed,
they’ve just been too polite to say anything.

You curse yourself,
but how could this be your fault?
This isn’t something you wanted,
this isn’t something you can change.
You swallow down the pills,
that numb your brain, feelings,
yourself.
To please you parents, your family, your significant other.

You hate this feeling,
but you …

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#SuckMyFuckDepression

August 10th, 2015by MaybeImAlreadyGone

Just a few things on my mind and I may seem harsh but reading some of these comments are making me ill. Your all encouraging each other to take your life’s? Giving each other options for easy ways out? I have been  in the exact same situation as many of you&it does get better. We don’t need to encourage each other to take the easy way out. We need to be sharing some fucking hope! So if I come across as harsh, it’s because I generally care.

First of all, I don’t give a shit what anyone says; There is no reason why  you should take …

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My Life Story

August 7th, 2015by Chloe-Jessica

Well it started in primary I was 4 when I started getting bullied I begged my parents to let me move school and they kept shouting at me and telling me no but when I told them they just shouted at me even more and told me they didn’t believe me, that was them on good days…

As I grew up it got worse in year 6 I started getting abused by people at school but I didn’t understand depression then, it came summer holidays I left primary and then it was high school

I thought I’d have a fresh start with new people from different schools, …

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This shouldn’t be here

August 6th, 2015by Rayman

Why shouldn’t it be here? Because compared to other people and other stories on this page i have absolutely 0 things to complain about. But the fact of the matter is that i need to get it out. I need to spew it anywhere possible,  and if not here, where then.. i wanna write about my life, summ it up, to make my head clear again, now it’s full of clouds and incoherent thoughs.. It will probably be to long to read and full of mistakes because English isn’t my first language but anyway…

I was bullied through all of the 9 grades of elementary school. …

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moonshot and mental after-walks from a before-life

August 4th, 2015by kills

from the depths of despair I wander
but not all who wander are lost
yet I am both
a wandering vagabond in search of answers i’ll never seem to find outside of my rib cage
my animal pen that keeps my true rage locked inside until it’s time to feed
hidden and looked over have I been for far too long

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.44 magnum for voice box full of ammunition that’s begging to be fired
whoever gets in the way is irrelevant; the bullets are meant to kill
cause I’m killz and I was born in darkness
birthed in hopelessness and death themselves
i have seen the face of the reaper
and shes a pretty bitch

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sour stares …

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i am still here

August 4th, 2015by kristink

when i was here last it was my birthday and i was quite certain that it was my last day . a lot has happened since then that i think you all may find at least interesting if not useful. i was quite determined to kill myself-had the means, a location(not going to mess up my own home), wrote instructions as to what i wanted for a funeral, gotten my affairs in order etc. i wrote here, told everyone what i was going to do, then left the house. got to my location, sat down and wrote in my journal, called my (then) therapist leaving …

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