I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

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Fueling This

July 26th, 2016by yohne

My first post on here and it’s on a somewhat uplifting note. Circumstances are under par, yes, I’m drinking shitty wheat vodka in a (near) stranger’s basement, alone, and I don’t know if things will ever be truly good again. I’m homeless, my anxiety is getting worse, money is running out. But, but, but: my head, always repeating positives. Probably leftovers from therapy, a nagging voice I tried desperately to build into my head (suggested by my psychologist, I thought it useless then but tried nonetheless) and it seems to have worked. Homeless, BUT: at least I have a place to stay tonight. There’s food in …

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Reasons Why I have no plans of getting married in the next 10 years

July 23rd, 2016by BrokenAngel8

The way my parents act towards each other. My dad trying to be in charge of the finances in the house. When he barley makes any him self. He doesnt even have a job just sits on his bloody ass on his computer about 98% of the time in his office. he does photography for a living. But he only does like 1 maybe 2 paid gigs a year. If lucky. If me and my sister ever need something like for school. were usually on our own or have to go beg for the money off of our grandmother or our mom. I work part …

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Abused, broken , and confused

July 19th, 2016by unknownnnbbbb

i-act-like-i-dont-care-but-deep-inside-it-hurts-sad-quoteI’ve been sad for years! It started the summer before my ninth grade year. That summer I realized my parents true colors. I was a daddy’s girl before that summer and that’s what really broke me inside because I put all my trust into my dad. Anyways that day my dad had said some hurtful stuff and I got mad and he tried to make it up by giving me money and I said “money can’t buy love” he gave a crazy look and left the room he came back with a belt and beat the shit …

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Life after Hell is possible

July 18th, 2016by pinkcoconut

Hi all.
Just remembered about this place in a melancholy moment.
I’m doing ok. Was very suicidal for a few hellish months a year and a half ago.
I’m not suicidal now. I think about self harm occasionally, but I manage it – I don’t act on it – I do something else, like arrange to see a friend. That used to sound stupid or unthinkably difficult, but I’ve done lots of training of myself to get to a place where I’ve got habits.
My life is not perfect and I did have a shitty start in some ways, but in others, my world is amazing and I’m incredibly …

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Feeling depressed and not worth living? Then you have been lied to… (Part 1)

July 16th, 2016by beyourself

Let me first tell you a bit of my story and how I found this website – I was searching for methods to commit suicide. Why? I do not feel suicidal at all and I do not want to die at all. However, I may not have any other option. The reason for this is that there are some criminal people treating to do horrible things to me and my family, presumably because I was the cause for their significant financial losses (we are talking millions “supposedly”). While I can accept being killed I do not want my family to be affected. Therefore, my only …

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eXHAUSTEd

July 14th, 2016by CARLOSPEJUAN

I feel tired. And it’s no loner a lethargic exhaustion. It is no longer a physical over exhertion due to the lack of calories. I just am tired of everything. I am tired of being the wierdo in my family, friends, at work, and everywhere I go. I am tired of trying to make everyone laugh and happy, and then being called annoying and a fag. I am tired of doing things for people that have and will never be retured. I am tired of people hating me, for being slower than them. I am tired of not being able to unlock my full potential …

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fRIENDS?

fRIENDS?

July 13th, 2016by CARLOSPEJUAN

Everyone around me, who calls themselves my friend never feels like they are being true. I always doubt the verity of such a word and thus i save them for those who truly earn it. I always fear the people who smile at you face and stab you in the back. I do not believe that someone who is that easily persuaded against my will regardless of how petty this may be, someone who will insult me and side easily with someone who I JUST literally JUST like five seconds ago introduced them to. Or the most painful recent experience. Some fucktard whose name was …

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Isn’t it ironic?

July 8th, 2016by ThisIsNoDemocracy

You hate being lonely because you don’t have anyone to share your life with. But you want to be alone because all you have ever known is bad, and you know damn well that no matter how many times you try it’ll always turn out in the same end- you get let down, they get let down, or you let yourself down.

 

So you stay alone. No matter how hard it is. It’s okay though, you’re strong. You can do this. You don’t need anyone. All you can rely on is yourself.

That doesn’t change that you still long for something more.

 

You see, I don’t want love. …

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It finally arrived

July 4th, 2016by kamidaka

I feel so alive, so happy, so grateful for the existence of that thing. I’m crying of joy, of happiness, my heart feels full again. Earlier, I was doubting that this would make me feel anything, but IT DID and I’m so happy.

Everything was worth it, my mind put all the pain and reality aside to just enjoy what I had waited for so long. It was everything I had expected and more, because I was surrounded by beautiful people. I can’t stop crying.

It was beautiful, so so beautiful. And the best part is that it is real. It is real!

I can get used to …

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Four years ago today !!!!!

June 29th, 2016by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 …

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Is it my fate? (part 2)

June 27th, 2016by Gypsyguy93

In my last post I talked about my ex-fiancee (gay male) who committed suicide after we broke up four years ago, I think if he knew how much it would hurt those he loved and left behind he never would of done it, but then I also understand that the pain he was going through in his mind was intolerable to him and he just wanted the pain to end…

I didn’t know my ex was suicidal, we had been together for a couple of years, I know he had PTSD and Anxiety, but I never knew about the depression…. before we broke up he cheated …

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Coming Back As Awkward As Ever (but hi I love you)

June 22nd, 2016by haileewantstobehappy

Happy Wednesday morning, everyone. I went through the effort to check my phone and see what day it is just so I could say happy Wednesday, see, I care that much about wishing everyone a happy day, you can say a lot of shit about me, but you can’t say I don’t care. If you were bored enough to read this and don’t know me, my name is Hailee, hi. If you were bored enough to read this and do know me, hi. Sorry I can’t think of anything more creative to say, and I have been wanting ever so slightly to post on here …

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Seeing the Demons

June 18th, 2016by xmwdhx

This is my story to tell and the story you should know.

Janaury of 2013, I was a suicidal trans male. I suffered depression almost 3 1/2 years. It’s very long time than you all expected. I was hurt, scared, tired, lost, abandoned, and many words I should describe myself of being sad. Every day during my middle school year and the year of my 7th grade, people treated me like an animal or a beast. I was beaten up by bunch of kids especially middle and high school boys. I was known as a freak, emo freak, tranny freak, or boy freak. I couldn’t stand …

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I’ve unblocked my posts

June 13th, 2016by LittleBead

I am convinced that I hold a very personal and unique legacy which is enclosed within the structure of my posts. By telling you about it, I want to inform you that I have unblocked all of my posts, if you were interested in things which had brought me to this website. They include, but are not limited to, the time before my suicide and the time when I was at the psychiatric hospital. I believe that my experience, sometimes positive experience, will help you deal with your own situations and personal issues. I found a few ways to go through my inner struggles and …

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Standstill

June 12th, 2016by renegadeRaenbow

It’s been a while since I’ve been active here, and I mainly only come to post thoughts that I can just get down and easily forget.

I’ve been off my medications for about 3 months since trying to have a baby with my husband. It has been so hard though what with making the decision to quit the job I’ve been at for the past five years, starting a job I utterly despise, making the decision to quit the new job entirely (after having multiple anxiety attacks stemmed from it; I do have a backup plan though), and having our roommate situation wear and tear me …

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@Tristeza

June 9th, 2016by HERE4UOK

 

Para Tristeza:
Você deve permitirnos para comentar seus posts.
Seu post intitulado “Um Grande Final” foi ótimo. Parabéns por seu livro!
Mas, principalmente, parabéns para a superação tanto em sua vida!
Eu sei. Nós sabemos. Há muito mais para a esquerda para caminhar, mas a estrada é interessante, se olharmos para ver além dos nossos egos.
Obrigado por compartilhar suas histórias aqui.

suesyd . nomore @ gmail . com
Kik: H4UOK

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“You’re So Much Better Than That.” —Cassie, Suicide Survivor

June 7th, 2016by HERE4UOK

 

Please reconsider. If you can’t find motivation, it’s not because there aren’t reasons out there, out here. It’s because your state of mind blocks your view and your spirit from seeing ahead. And it’s ok, remember: IT’S OK TO NOT BE OK, as long as you ask for help.

I, unfortunately, am no genie. But like most of us here, I have my past. I have my experiences, and with all due respect, unless you’re terminally ill, you have every chance at witnessing how things really DO get better, but you need to do your part too. Help others help you.

Things most likely didn’t get bad …

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What Are Your Reasons To Stay Alive?

June 6th, 2016by They Call Me Amy

Today I had a breakdown again, and I decided to do a list of things that I really enjoy and I’ll miss if I kill myself, because I will be… uhm… dead. So these are 16 things that can help me get through this day, and maybe tomorrow, and next week.

There is nothing very special here, but these are the things that bring some joy to my life, and they are my reasons to stay alive and not kill myself. I will read them every morning so they can help me battle my urges. Tell me about yours too! 🙂

1. My Parents
2. My Boyfriend
3. The …

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“I Didn’t Want To Die, But I Felt That I Had To…” —Kevin Hines, Suicide Survivor

  SeeSmith on another post here on SP said it well: “You are the LEAST qualified person to judge yourself [when you are in an ill state of mind]”. Don’t make the mistake of thinking for others, don’t assume you’re a burden or that others are just too “busy with their own lives” to care […]

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Don’t Be Sorry for Struggling. We All Do at Some Point. It’s NOT Wrong Asking for Help, Not Doing So Is..!

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