I Will Survive

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Is it my fate?

May 3rd, 2016by Gypsyguy93

Hello, this is my first time writing on here, I became aware of this site last year when I had a severe depression and anxiety relapse and after I had tried to end my life more than once, had I not been discovered when I had been I would not be here right now. Just knowing that there are people out there who aren’t judgemental, oblivious or unable to understand has just such a great comfort to me since then.

I can remember a life without anxiety or depression, Before 2012.

In 2012 my ex fiancée ( I am a gay male) ended his life after we broke …

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Lost Boys Like Me Are Free

May 2nd, 2016by DexQuietlyBreaking

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Confused and frustrated

April 30th, 2016by halfdead66

I have fully  recovered from my recent attempt, physically speaking. I had an epiphany during this experience, that my life does matter, that I matter; but that feeling of inner strength blew out so quickly and too easily. I’m left here feeling hopeless and empty again, and that’s why I’m frustrated. I’m either feeling numb, sad, mildly euphoric, or feeling too energetic and irritable (mixed episode). Currently, I’m not suicidal, but I do feel self-destructive at least once a day, if not more often, and when those feelings and emotions become irritating or overwhelming, I turn to alcohol, again. All though, I’m feeling slightly proud …

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Letting Other People Sabatoge Your Happiness

April 28th, 2016by HakunaMatata

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For almost 2 years, I’ve felt this way because I live beside toxic neighbours and my uncle doesn’t listen to me to be careful of being taken advantage of. How? Simple. They threaten to sue us, get us fine and arrested for “Distribing The Peace” from the back up alarm installed on my uncle’s car. People sue for almost anything now a days no matter how ridiculous it may seem. There are various type of prices for back up alarm sold online and in-stores. Intially, it was installed for safety purposes of warning pedestrian to move out of the way when the vechile is shift into reverse. This generation, people attached to their electronic devices and rarely pay attention to where they are going. Nevertheless, my family kept telling me to ignore them and not fret about this matter. My family always count on the police to come give warnings beforehand if there is noise complaints.

Knowing my neighbours, they have been peeping toms secretly recording / collecting evidence to use against us – I had a feeling their intentions were not good. The other disgusting part is that they say that we are intentionally using noise as a form of harassment. I try to restrain from using foul language but these people kids who go to kindergarten mouth are foul enough to be washed out with soap. Long story short, depression hit me when I realize what I’ve been trying so, hard to protect doesn’t really matter in preventing these jerks from damaging our property. I was afraid that we might somehow get suddenly arrested when we get summoned to court and mad that my uncle gave them the upper hand to become obnoxious / cocky enough to disrespect him and his property. We clearly draw a line for them to park on their own driveway but they would intentionally block us from reversing once in awhile. To be, they are wolve’s dressed in sheep clothing. I know my uncle always remind me to forget and forgive people but there is another quote that says “don’t let anyone have the pleasure to disrespect you.” Ironically, instead of keeping pedestrian safe, the back up alarm attracted financial leeches. Trying to stay positive and get my motivation back for school. I lost hope and was very disappointed in the possibility for these people to manipulate the situation.

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What Do You Think “Aerials” Lyrics Talk About? (Any SOAD Fans?) \m/ ^0^ \m/

April 27th, 2016by HERE4UOK

System of a Down
Aerials
Life is a waterfall,
We’re one in the river,
And one again after the fall.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we find it all?

Cause we are the ones that wanna play,
Always wanna go,
But you never wanna stay,

And we are the ones that wanna choose,
Always wanna play,
But you never wanna lose.

Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.

Life is a waterfall,
We drink from the river,
Then we turn around and put up our walls.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we

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morning from the UK!

April 27th, 2016by brighteyes77

I didnt wake up feeling so down about the fact theres another day ahead of me, in fact the first thing I did when I woke up was think of you lot and see what new things you’ve posted! I know im only new and haven’t interacted with many of you but I want to let you all know the impact you’ve all had on me, to see we’re not alone and how kind hearted we all are to go out of our way to support one another. No one makes us listen or read what we have to say, we do it because we’re …

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I think..

April 26th, 2016by brighteyes77

This is only my second post on here, my first post I wrote exactly how I feel and while doing this just desperately wishing I’d be blessed with a child and start a family with my boyfriend. But after one persons comment, I realised im not the only person whos feeling the way I am, upset about the things im upset about and feel helpless. Ive spoken to friends an they all have their own problems too, but what kept me down about myself is im the only person I knew of with my sort of issues and feelings. I hated it, but knowing someone …

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Words Cannot Describe :’)

April 25th, 2016by GerbzBaby

Words cannot describe how much appreciation I feel for the feedback on my last post. It almost left me in a pool of tears. A very big thank you to those who left those comments! I really doubted myself a lot with my artistic skills almost to the point were I stopped. Drawing is all the talent I have left and I almost lost it because I mope around wondering if I’ll get anywhere in my life. Seeing your comments inspired me to peruse my talent, to get me up off my lazy a**. You have my thanks and gratitude. I wish I could have

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1 Email

April 25th, 2016by InTheShadow

Dear all,

I got the first email which someone had asked for help. Someone cannot take Depression anymore and wished to erase herself from existence. Due to privacy, I will not disclose the name. I wasn’t sure of what happened but I have replied the email, hoping to hear from the person soon. I am neither a psychologist nor a psychiatrist; I do not have the expertise in medication or knowledge of how to deal with Negativeness and by that, Depression or any of the problems that many are facing. I can only be a reader and/or a listener of your problems and challenges faced, be it created …

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Catch Up ?

April 25th, 2016by PrincessX_xPoptart

Well hey lovely people of suicide Project. I haven’t been here in awhile if you have noticed if any of you know who I am.

So awhile back I made a post about I Dye my hair. Its my self distraction from self harm. People seemed to like that so I think I’m going to make a journal hopefully everyday or maybe a cpl days or once a week in not sure yet. But I’m here for all of you. I wont judge because everyone needs a friend and you shouldn’t feel alone. So if I make a journal for you guys it’ll be self distractions …

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I tried to show you a way out

April 24th, 2016by Salt

There has been a tangible regime change at suicideproject. Maybe it’s for the better, but it’s no longer for people like me. About a week ago, I found the way out of hell. For my old friends here (I’m talking 3-4 years ago when I first crash landed on this site under another name… before re-registering as Salt because I didn’t want to upset a beautiful person in my life who didn’t need to know how much I was suffering), I left my final post which I had put a lot of effort into wording with just enough cryptic references to literature, Latin, and scriptures …

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Thank you

April 21st, 2016by king nothing

Just a post to say thank you to the awesome dudes/girls who replied to my first post and helped me out.  I am truly grateful that you cared enough to reply and offer me support and sympathy.  And especially for not preaching the feel good bullshit that is on 99% of help sites online.

I kind of feel as if I’ve hit a point in life, as if I am waking up to who I really am.  It is terrifying but I have to be me.  No matter how I am on the outside, my soul and brain are still me.  It’s time for me to …

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Emotional And Financial Leeches

April 18th, 2016by HakunaMatata

Malicious neighbour who always try to put us down and got away with their petty revenge in the past threaten to sue my family over our car Back Up Alarm. They mock and taunt us that my family can get a heavy fine, arrested, and owe them compensation money in return. The worst case scenario is that we live in between them and their in-law family down the street who kids are just as bad. They are like ping pong balls bouncing back and forth leaving the mess behind on our driveway.

Basically, they have been openly overconfident and obnoxious ever since they snapped …

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Acoustic – Jenny – Nothing More

April 15th, 2016by NeverFitting

Beautiful <3

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“Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.”

April 14th, 2016by HakunaMatata

Throughout life there will be ups and downs, joys and tears. Normally, I try to ignore negativity coming from my neighbours and refrain myself from using foul language but words can’t express how I stronfly feel about these emotional and financial leeches. My neighbour are the type of people who are like this quote “counts other people sins/mistakes” to try to make themselves look like “saints”.

In my opinion, they are truly despicable and are like peeping Tom’s who have a problem minding their own business. I made nicknames for them as flies, paparazzi, or anti-fan. I made it clear to them that I would appreciate …

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Tired Of Being Tired

April 10th, 2016by HakunaMatata

From Canada, living beside toxic neighbours has drained me emotionally and I feel tired of keeping up with their negativity. Over the past few months, I’ve been dealing with anxiety to depression, losing sleep because of them due to littering, vandalism and etc. I want to catch them in the act but now they pretend to be all innocent on the outside.

I’m tired of feeling the need to protect my family and watch over my home from these malicious type of people who intend to do harm/damage/provoke us with their remarks. They simply don’t flick off easily even after putting up a “NO TRESPASSING” and “NO …

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Depression is a bitch

April 9th, 2016by Sui the Bunny

images (13) The demons are trying to fight their way to bring me down and for once I’m actually fighting them back 🙂

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AN OPEN LETTER FOR EVERYONE

April 8th, 2016by missanonymous

I know some of you might be into deep holes right now and some were at the point of their life when all they want to do is to break down and cry, or even die. Yes, I do understand because even I myself can’t do this anymore.. but I’m still trying as long as I can. That’s why I am here not to tell you that ‘everything is gonna be fine’,’get up and it will get better soon’ or ‘put yourself together don’t be weak’ because even I can’t believe that it’s all gonna be alright. I’m not going to tell you the words …

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A Pact of Lies

April 7th, 2016by SevenQueensFall

I’ve seemed to stumble into a place where everyone tells lies to me. Those I love, those I am of service to, those I call family, my society, my government, my country, my species, and even myself. If that is not a hard concept to grasp, or even handle, I don’t know what is. We are all living in a place where it is rewarded to lie, but the moment you are caught, you pay colossal penalties. Not only does it feel like everyone is against everyone, we have decided that, as a whole, “all for one” was the best way to achieve greatness; unknowingly …

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Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing

April 7th, 2016by HakunaMatata

 

I’ve suffer from anxiety and depression for months after my relative just keep telling me “not to worry and let karma do the rest” about my neighbour from hell next door. Things didn’t get better but escalate for the worst. He never listened to me to be about being careful about those people trying to harm us/seek revenge and it is always better to stay safe than to be sorry. I tried very hard to stay positive and always strive to protect my home from these sort of jerks that try to provoke us with their words, kids playing on our driveway, and petty revenge

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