I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

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Confessions to an Old Friend

March 5th, 2015by Sammi6xoxo

“But sometimes, I can see myself sinking so far down. Getting so desperate for some sort of tangible stability or peace. I can see myself getting a gun and swallowing the barrel.. I can’t See myself ever pulling the trigger, but I can almost hear the defining silence that comes after the blast. And I just wonder. Is there anything after this? If so, could it be better? I just want to be stable. I want to be okay. I can picture this landscape. Tall grass and a weeping willow in the middle of the field. Mountains are barely visible against the cool summer sky. …

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First post!!

March 2nd, 2015by dead_angel831

Im female, I’m 14 and have been self harming for 3yrs now. I was raped 5 times all by different people, beat by my step mom, ignored by my father, and I have tried to kill myself countless times. I have a few close friends that know what I’ve gone through and I have a girlfriend who is completely oblivious to the shit I’ve gone through… I just wanted to put a brief summary of my story out there so people know that sometimes it could be worst. Try and stay strong

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it hurts

March 1st, 2015by psychopath

lately my mental health hasn’t been too well.

i feel like i’m wearing a mask.

i am the happy and energetic person with my friends, but when i get home it’s like i’m a totally different person.

i always feel so unhappy and  i feel like there’s something missing.

it took me a lot of courage to actually type this out.

i’ve started self-harming

i’m surprised no one has noticed all the scratches on my wrist, but i’ve been trying to hide it.

i’ve gone from scratching myself with fingers and biting myself

to pazors and compass points

but i want something more

i want to cut, but

i don’t want to see the blood

see all …

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I’m trying to be positive

February 24th, 2015by outinthedark

so I decided that I’m going to try to turn over a new leaf and make myself see the positive in my life. I came extremely close the other day to trying to make an end I realized I didn’t want, that I shouldn’t want. I was wondering if any of you had any suggestions on ways to take little steps to help me see the happy and positive things in my life?

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stupid kids

February 23rd, 2015by youwillneverknowme

so today some retarded emo kid my own age goes up to me and tells me that i’ll never be “scene enough” and then proceeds to talk about her goth anime shit.
i’m assuming that’s some stupid emo thing that stupid emo kids say, i dunno. but it makes me wanna amputate my head with a guillotine.

btw i’m not goth or emo or any type of attention whore creature.

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I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life

February 23rd, 2015by niki

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !

I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future

you see ,.. Reality / real world / real life …

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Look to the skies

February 22nd, 2015by dreamyskies

Some of my earliest memories are of my mother giving me up for adoption ( I was classified as a ‘child in need’). As I child, I didn’t realize she had given me up, I merely thought I was staying with family for a while. I remember two different families I stayed with for some time. The first family I stayed with, the V’s, I can barely remember. The V’s were nice, but were more interested the other child there than they were with me. The one I remember the most, lets call them the ‘D’s’, were my second family. I loved the …

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inescapable “depression”

February 16th, 2015by Voidt

Do you agree with this view: “Depression is the illness of civilization, without civilization, we’d be happy: We’d be happy without depression. Without depression we would not have the beautiful arts: novels, plays, paintings. If we were happy we wouldn’t need the arts. Without our depression happiness as a concept would not exist”.

https://todayistblogger.wordpress.com/2015/02/17/depression/

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so i didnt sleep last night and i feel kinda energized manic again i guess talked to my friend online from egypt all morning she’s fine she said just a agruement with her guy i heard sounded more like fighting to me but whatever. i’m sure whenever i lay down and be still i’ll go […]

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my theme song for this month

February 16th, 2015by Khaliladivine28

by: seasons after

cry little sister cover

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An explanation.

February 15th, 2015by lostinblue

My main point is, I don’t actually want to die. I don’t think anyone actually wants to die, for that matter. Even if they say that they do.

However, the thought of death does bring solace, I have to admit.

I think we just want to reach out for help. Finding every means of help, comfort and recovery possible. To get rid of these awful feelings, these negative thoughts and our miserable state. Maybe that’s not true for everyone, but it is for me.

I just want to get back to how I was before. Even if it means being a socially anxious recluse again. I’ve come a …

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100 Reasons to Live

February 14th, 2015by Ryder

And here are 100 reasons to keep going.
A few might be similar to each other, but nothing’s perfect.

You should live:
1. Because you care about the world.
2. There’s a lot to live for.
3. You have dreams to fulfill.
4. Life eventually gets better.
5. You’re afraid of death.
6. Because you can flip your life around.
7. Because people need you to live.
8. Because someone out there loves you.
9. For religion.
10. To help someone worse off than you.
11. To find the perfect job or career.
12. To fall in love.
13. Because there’s a reason we’re on this planet.
14. You want to experience future music, movies, games, technology,

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HELP HELP HELP

February 13th, 2015by The-Star-Of-Jupiter

i’m 17, in high school. The doctors told me i have depression but i still don’t believe its real. It’s unbearable sometimes. Humans have glass hearts meaning we are so easily emotionally crippled. I just ripped two of my stitches out ( I DONT …

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Thanks for the words; eject

February 12th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

In a rough way right now… Think I’m going to admit myself to hospital. I should kill myself but I never quit… Fuck me right. Oh and fuck you Minerva. You only know one side of the goddamn story. You don’t know the sleepless nights I had with her telling me she was going to kill herself. Fuck you, you don’t know shit so shut your fucking mouth. You don’t know me or my heart for people.

Anyway, I don’t know what to do. I’d love to chat with someone but cell reception and Internet is horrendous here…
Eject!

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Should I?

February 11th, 2015by EmoGirl2250

Ive thought about it long and hard! I have this plan running away!!  killing myself!! Should i? let me explain!

Age 9-I was taken away from my dad and moved to Ohio

House 1- My mom sister(Aunt) It was horrid..My cousin took a knife to my throut and i got beat for it, that was the last day i was there.

House 2- was my other aunts house and we got in a huge fight and she moved out.. we sleft on the floor all through christmas and for my 10 birthday

House 3- An apartment with just me and my mom,  i was left home alot, she worked …

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A Secretly Sweet, Salacious Serenade For Your Sanctimoniously Severed, Sojourning Soul (Spoken)

February 8th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

Aeris Gainsborough: Everything’s fine now.
Cloud Strife: Yeah. I’m not alone. Not anymore. — Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children

A Secretly Sweet, Salacious Serenade For Your Sanctimoniously Severed, Sojourning Soul

A vicariously vexed vagabond whom vivaciously, voraciously chases ventures unknown?

Or am I a delapidated demonic deceiver discovering a deep seated desire for destructive denouements?

Tell me.

Enlighten me.

Show me.

Now hear me.

Unveil your unkempt undulating unseen unsung heart, hidden underneath the unfairly, uncouth unabashedly unrelentingly unsinkable manic misery.

I played your spirit’s strings like a well-tuned violent violin while listlessly listening to the melodramatic melody of vilifying vitriol.

Let me vanish in vane after I vanquish the needle in vein, oh so …

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Erroneous Regrets

February 7th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

Em X20s and some minor vocals and bit of D

Em D
Seething rage manifests in snarls and growls
Em D
Refuted and respected by …

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This moon..

February 7th, 2015by helenabeat

Now I’m staring at the moon wondering why the bottom fell out , I’ve been searching for answers and there’s questions I’ve found. I’m feeling sad and alone.. again. And i’m losing control, i’m not ready to drown. I feel like I’m just too fucking bruise to keep fighting. I wrote this letter to my family saying ”I’m calm and feeling warm”.

And this bad feeling is coming for me, my eyes have been closed to the world. I can’t do it again. I need to be strong but I just I can’t.. I’m crying all alone in this empty room..again FUCK I hate this, fucking tired …

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fuck reality , fuck real life , fuck real world , because reality / real-world / real-life is boring ! Imagination /dreams / fantasy is better than reality / real-world / real-life !

February 5th, 2015by niki

I think (some) people would agree that our everyday’s reality / real life / real world life is boring, mundane, repetitive routines, jobs, to make money, and even the ‘fun’ stuff like party, sex, dance, etc in the end still can’t beat our wildest dreams / imagination / fantasy .

Movies , video games , comics , books , novels , anime , manga often are a HUNDRED times much more interesting than this mundane, dull, LIMITED / LIMITING, boring reality / boring reallife / boring realworld !
eg: Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, X-Men, Marvel heroes / comics , Star Wars, Star Trek, TRON, …

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Adeus, finalmente.

February 4th, 2015by Tristeza

On this website, I’ve met three different types of people. I’ve seen pain and sadness; angst and love; every type of love. And I’ve grown so much, so much since my first post.
I know this will be a long ride — I’ll always be a victim of sexual abuse and my chronic pelvic pain is here to stay… but I don’t care anymore. I stayed in the darkest depths for too long — I wanna live now.
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I stayed away for such a long time that whenever I stumble upon this place, I’m reminded of how we humans can suffer to the point of feeling …