i have thought about why i am still living. and i came up with; i am here for my baby brother. i never had a reason to be happy. but now i do. i spend all my time with him, we are always with eachother. i dont wanna let him suffer. so i shall stay [...]

So I don’t want a wake or funeral.  I want absolutely zero fuss made about my death.  But I feel bad killing myself and taking all these healthy organs with me… so I think, I know, I will donate them.  So I had this idea to do it in winter on a snowy day, so [...]

So, I’m going to be on therapy soon. For years I’ve been trying to cope with my past psychological traumas with heavy alcohol and drug use, had various sex partners I barely knew, nearly got killed several times, got injured heavily and got myself even more psychological traumas and now it seems they have reached [...]

Yes im crazy, have issues but I dont need ni mother fucking doctors in pysco hospitals telling me what to.do, dont need therepist talking likebthey know me and I sure dont need help all I need is somev alcholo and a plan…im pist, stress,lonely and depress that explains it all >:O

Well like the title said, Im about to celebrate one month on my anti depressants. I feel better, and my friends are noticing a difference. Its a relief. I honestly never thought I could start to feel this much better. I dont remember being able to laugh and smile so much. Its just wonderful. If I [...]

Life is funny for some of us.  As long as we keep toiling and hanging on the moments of joy and peace are fleeting and teasing like a contest at a county fair or a playful friend. And then one decides on ones own demise.  One makes final preparations and gets the methiods ready. One [...]

My race I have run and my time is done.  Have traveled this mortal coil for several decades and found nothing worth me living for.  Add some abuse and a couple of bouts of non self caused disease to that and you have a nice little going away party. Then again maybe my programming was [...]

Its been heating up nicely in Pennsylvania. Had some ugly (obvious self harm) scars on my arm since last November. 5 of them, they made me sick. I was so fucked up (drunk) when I did them it was hazey to remember. I used a steak knife because I didn’t have a razor. Really tore [...]

I just keep on going, but I’m so very tired of it. My family loves me, my girlfriend loves me, none of them want me to give up and go. But it’s all I can do to just brush my teeth or eat something. I lost my job a month ago. It was my first [...]

Even though the history books are not 100% correct one can still glean from them the idea that many past societies had little or no conveniences.  Things we accept as normal like running water, plentiful food, protection of children from slavery/chil labor, decent medical care, decent housing and transport.  Some places still lack some of [...]