I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

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Thank you

July 23rd, 2014by Ashley

I haven’t been on here in maybe a year? I would like to say that i was goin through the worst part in my life thus far, and last month my Dr. took me off ALL my medication. That’s right people, no more horsepills, iron pills, or steroids for this girl! I get depressed still from time to time, but it’s much more controllable. This site has helped me vent everything I couldn’t say before. My weight came back, my boobs came back, all the steroid acne went away and i am back to being the blonde that everyone checked out. My self confidence has …

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My story

July 23rd, 2014by mav123

The truth is she’s a mess. Once so well put together. Once was that happy girl that smiled twenty four- seven. The girl that had great friends and was nice to everyone. She was complete with joy. That girl faded. That girl doesn’t exist anymore. A gloomy depressed girl now exists. Battling for her life every day. Battling with life. She went from going out with friends to staying up all night crying. She shut down. No words spoken. But she woke up the next day and painted that smile on her face. Look in her eyes and you will see a world filled with …

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¿?

July 22nd, 2014by hellblau

But does anyone notice? 
But does anyone care? 
And if I had the guts to put this to the head…
And would anything matter?
And now should I be shocked by the last thing you said? 
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
And there’s no room in this hell,
There’s no room in the next,…

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good day

July 20th, 2014by thelostgirl1499

Today’s been a good day.

I went round my boyfriends house..we fucked and cuddled a lot. I even ate some junk food with him,last year I wouldn’t have dreamed of doing that.

I even had a bit of anxiety and he just held me and played with my hair

Yeah I fucked up the other night,but I recovered.

Ladies and gentlemen,there’s always hope.

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Kill the monster inside me.

July 19th, 2014by aimsxox

I dont really know where to start with this… some peoples stories start off with them being abused or something but i can’t really pinpoint as to how i ever felt like this. I was bullied when i was 10 and up until secondary school for various things but i thought i had coped with all that. When i was 13 i first self harmed, and I’ve told my story so many times and it still sounds stupid every single time. I remember the very first time I hurt myself and my oh my it felt so good. I won’t go into details as to …

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Yeah hi, I’ll take the large anxiety and panic combo to go

July 19th, 2014by killswitchon

welp, let me start the DJing off this wonderful morn in SP with this great tune. Call me DJ PattyD. #guidolyfe #GTL guns trips lisps.

Oh, and don’t forget to hit like and subscribe and of course share your tips, tricks and experiences you’ve had with intense anxiety. had it past few days and can’t shake it. *aaarrggghh* this song among many others helps calm the nerves. Some drink chamomile tea, I listen to the weeknd.

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KillDrakeOn–>>> I’m Drakin’ right now!! I’m Drakin’!!

July 18th, 2014by killswitchon

One of our many prestigiously proud Canadian exports–I present to you drake. Home grown in Toronto, Ontario, Canada! The motto is YONO. You only Nembutal once. braapt braapt.

….my only question to this day is: who the fuck is uncle Luke AND where can I find this elusively legendary character??

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I Am My Feet

July 17th, 2014by RealTalk30

I am my feet, and my ways. Guided by peace to this day. I need my needs, cause I am sand. So I will slip in to your hands, and beyond your reach.
I speak the words holding me, like clashing these bricks and these swords, cutting deep through my soul. I reap the rewards for good seeds and still retain some sort of piece to myself.
I am my feet, no, not my name. Guided by hate through this game. I need release from this place and the chains still draining me until this day.
I am my search and my sins. Guided by truth from …

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KSO’s Cockpit: directed by M. Night Shyamalan

July 17th, 2014by killswitchon

just like they have in fighter jets–situation and engagement is compromised and no longer safe to dogfight–EJECT! BOOM get shot 30 feet out of my body and mind softly parachuting back to sanity, stability and consistency being planet earth. back to a civilian life where there are no rules of engagement or hard deck, where my mind doesn’t dictate my mood, relationships ergo my life. I’m not talkin’ a Goose scenario but a Maverick turn of events where he follows his story arc–mourns the loss of his best friend(his mind) and flies back to the dangerzone with the girl of his dreams in the cockpit …

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Living with a demon.

July 17th, 2014by rekotsmarb

Certainly not the spiritual kind, just an emotionally and physically abusive, narcissistic and controlling human woman.

It feels like only one of us will make it out of this war alive. On nights like tonight I often think about taking the situation into my own hands and exiting this war on my own terms. I’m tired and I’m dreary.

Then I’m reminded that I fight back harder every single time. Tonight, when physical abuse came at me, I did not allow it. I fought back, I defended myself physically. That was my first time.

There must be something in that, I wouldn’t be fighting so hard if I …

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Trade My Oblivion For Your Abyss

July 16th, 2014by killswitchon

it’s days like today where I’m thrust into the valley of decision. where do I go from here? where can I go? am I just a lost boy in search of some sense of salvation or absolution or am I a broken man that can’t figure out right from his left or up from down. I’ve always taken pride in my ability to carry on despite the cost and despite the gargantuan overwhelming pain I’ve been in for the past 6 years–but days like today, reality hits hard. I’ve been fighting a mental malignant cancer for what’s felt like an eternity–it’s felt like forever! I …

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Liar Liar Pants on Fire!!!

July 15th, 2014by RealTalk30

“I love you with all of my heart and soul”
“We are always going to be together forever”
“You are my soul mate, my one and only, my true love”
“I never want to be without you, I can’t even imagine my life without you”
“I want to make you proud of me”
“I want to do what’s right”
“Please don’t leave me, I’m trying..really I am”
“You’ve always been my better half”
“Sometimes things are just meant to be”
“You always know what to say”
“I’m sorry I’m so closed off”
“You make me so happy, I don’t have words to explain”
“I need you in my life so bad”
“I can’t do this with out you”
“Please…don’t …

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I love him

July 14th, 2014by hellblau

I loved him I loved him I loved him. I still love him. I love him.

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Justice, Meet Her Captor

July 14th, 2014by killswitchon

Cheer up tired eyes
We’re not saying any goodbyes
New beginnings are blossoming fresh and untainted–no tear filled cries
The bruises on your arm and the sting on your face will fade
So too shall the hurt in your heart
If the sun shows no mercy we will fight in the shade
You are resilience herself, do not waiver or be afraid of your prison guard’s tirades
Fate’s uncanny web she weaved has relinquished control; no more pain–she whispered–she forbade
She can’t keep your beauty imprisoned forever
Your captors claws and clutches–her hold on you I shall sever
Maybe a little luck, a few chances peppered in for good measure
Watch me liberate you from …

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My Story

July 14th, 2014by TheAngelWithBrokenWings

Okay so here it goes…

So, I’m Angel and I absolutely hate my life..
My entire life, my parents would get into huge fights and let’s just say a lot of cops knew my name and where I lived. My older sister would always scream at me and punch me and just constantly make my life miserable, and even today (she’s 18 and has a baby) she continues to do just that. In fact it has probably gotten worse.

Even though I am the youngest, I am ANYTHING but spoiled. I have to clean the house everyday while my sister goes shopping

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I’m alive and free. (For everyone who saw my post yesterday)

July 12th, 2014by SeasOfBlue

I’m alive.

And I’m free.

I’ve never been more free in my life.
It feels so good.

 

I suppose I should explain what happened when I stopped posting yesterday. Basically, the pills were making me really tired and weak. I was dying, basically. It was getting really hard to type, because the simple movements were taking all of my energy. So, I said goodbye to all of you, and I fell asleep. I’m pretty sure it was closer to dying rather then sleeping, but I didn’t know at the time; I was too weak. Anyway, I never moved my laptop from on top of me, because the movement would’ve …

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Lost & Found

July 12th, 2014by RealTalk30

I’ve been stolen
And I know I can’t be found
To which these eyes can’t understand
Life’s been destroyed
And am I now
Without regards to who I’ve been
Treasured times have taken me
Far beyond the whispered willow tree
Ideologies
And simple needs that burden me
Will rest here in this place
Where was I going
I never figured out
I couldn’t wait
I want it now
That’s my testimony
It’s all I had to show for myself
Cause I’ve been stolen
And can’t be found
To which these arms keep reaching out
Can’t fill a void when all is lost and alone
But I keep trying
I might have to leave my life
And my family behind
But I keep trying till finally …

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Nothing Went Wrong

July 12th, 2014by xanadu

I think I’m going to develop epilepsy at any moment to offset the strangeness of this situation.

I have a job, finally. It seems weird I’m still posting here, to be honest, but it’s familiar, and I now have to deal with the constant projection-attacks from the rest of my derelict family (I presume because I’m working now and they’re still heroin addicts, intent on corroding every fiber of sanity they can get their claws into). So there’s that. Nothing a new cell and different number can’t remedy, I suppose, but that’s still at least a few weeks away.

Now all I have to do …

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Stabilizing Self

July 10th, 2014by RealTalk30

Hey, thanks for everyone who commented and talked to me on my last post. I’ve really come to some solid realizations that I need to start appreciating my life more and the things I love to do in this world. I need to find myself without the crutch of having some one else there to fill a void that needs no filling in the first place. That pursuit is not achievable! I’m not gonna pretend that I’m a whole person, because I haven’t found myself yet..I’m not secure with who I am yet. And I’m not gonna let that kill me, or drive me insane …

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Goodbye Polyp; Hello Larynx

July 9th, 2014by killswitchon

Site is always chalk full of negativity so I thought I’d post about some damn good news and unleash this excitement. Tomorrow is the day of all days. Tomorrow, I welcome destiny with open arms and throat. Tomorrow I welcome my deep, masculine singing voice back with a celebration of epic proportions. I will walk out of that ENT doc’s office a new man singing a new tune. Finally, I shall be able to sing again after 9 fucking arduous months of a vacuum devoid of music and vocal expression. Yeah! Fuck! Yeah! So pumped to be able to play my bongos AND sing! it’s …

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