I Will Survive

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Life is not fair / unfair. there is always winners & losers. I’m a loser, so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?

December 17th, 2014by niki

Life is not fair.
Life is unfair.

there is always winners & losers.
there will always be winner & loser.
so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?
rather than they keep living chasing & fixing all their way too many losses, which is probably too late anyway too.
and usually losers can’t win / can never win against winners anyway .. even the “start” is already too late!!

This is the harsh truth / fact / reality .

Reality / Real life / Real world is very LIMITING / LIMITED in what we can & can’t do !
We are limited by money (rich and poor), resources, …

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A new way

December 15th, 2014by Akiira

I don’t know if this will work, i just know that i’m done with everything, I feel so tired and anger, I know it’s my fault, I just don’t know how to start feeling good again… I’m sick of myself… This is new, share something that is to hard to say, I don’t know if I can keep doing this anymore.

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My “stash”

December 14th, 2014by username12345

Just a description of my collection…I’m not set on using it but it’s nice to know I have it just in case. I’ve heard so many stories of failed attempts leading to permanent damage and huge medical bills so I’ve never attempted suicide this method. Based on what I have, what are your thoughts?

Don’t have the bottles with me now, so I don’t know the dosages for most of them

  • Restoril: 20 pills- 15mg each
  • Effexor: 180 pills, 75mg each
  • Wellbutrin: 60 pills
  • Remeron: 60 pills
  • Hydrocodone: 30 pills
  • Adderrall: 30 pills
  • Adderral XR: 30 pills

 

 

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Beautiful Pain ..

December 8th, 2014by Lupe Hernandez

I Can Feel The Heat Rising ..
Everything Is On Fire ..
Today’s A Painful Reminder Of Why ..
We Can Only Get Brighter ..
The Further You Put It Behind You ..
And Right Now I’m On The Inside ..
Looking Out, Cuz ..

I’m Standing In The Flames ..
And It’s A Beautiful Kind Of Pain ..
Setting Fire To Yesterday ..
It’s So Hard Trying To Find A Light ..

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TO BE

December 8th, 2014by mushroom

Hi, I live in Asia and currently a 23 years old male

I feel that my entire life is in constant loops of suffering. I do not have a normal family, and I am an illegitimate child. Yet, i always do not let my identity define myself. Apart fron that, i was always bullied in school, with people constantly calling me names. Because of that, I had a very low self esteem and always tried to avoid people. I did not participate in any activities, and always went home straight if there was no make up classes. I had a really bad 5 years in my …

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Wreckage on bed sheets.

December 7th, 2014by Deathy058

NOTE: This is my personal story.  Thoughts about antidepressants were from a slanted point of view of life at the time, and actually I’ve gained a little knowledge in how they actually help people.  Trigger warning: this details pretty explicitly my first foray into self injury, as well as fragmented memories as they came about during this time of my life.  I don’t appreciate glorifying suicide, and I intend to keep writing my experience on here as a hopeful path to something better than the urge to end it all.  It’s disjointed, but it gets my point across how I want it to be.

In Vitro–2007

Ice …

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Lost

December 7th, 2014by afakasiangel

This is my first time posting here and I’m not really sure whether I’m on the right track regarding what this site is about…

For the past 3 years I have had reoccurring suicidal thoughts and a couple of failed attempts. The idea of being free from this life is so inviting! In a way, I’m ashamed and I know that I don’t want to hurt my family. I’m trying to remove these thoughts from my head but the battle is tough. The only thing stopping me is knowing that I don’t want my younger siblings to ever suffer as I am.

My self esteem is pitiful. …

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5th Dec 2014

December 4th, 2014by CursedTouch

Hey, been awhile SP.
Never did go flying, had some fun camping there with some “friends” though.

I am not afraid of death, but i don’t seek it either, not anymore anyway.
Whether i go or not couldn’t bother me less, it’s just once my dad’s gone i have nothing holding me back.
We managed to mend things finally which sucks,,, cause now i don’t want him to leave.
Things work like that though i guess.
When he passes on, i’m going native for a bit, if that doesn’t kill me, might still have a chance to get employed,
maybe even do some traveling who knows?
But i have no motivation, having an eating disorder, …

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Just my thinkin

December 3rd, 2014by daonenonly

Should I live or die tonight? Whats the point in living? What’s the point in stayin alive when u know nothin good is going to happen.  What’s the point in stayin here in this world. I’m just sick and tired of having to live like this..but I’ll believe that one day something will change my
life. I’ll wait until I can’t wait no more.

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Not suggesting anyone self medicate, but

December 3rd, 2014by lost

…if you’re self-medicating already, don’t miss this great homemade version of Bailey’s Irish Cream (found here):

drink your medicine!

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Can I Escape?

December 3rd, 2014by shatteredsoul1350

Was life meant to be painful
I thought i was a precious gift from your parents
Its suppose to be joyful
Happy
Pure
Exciting
But its actually a living nightmare
I didn’t know i could despise people so much
Even the ones i love
Im letting them down
Including myself
I just want to get better
Thats all
I don’t want to fall in this massive abyss of sadness
But it feels like i’ve been tumbling
I want to change
But can i escape this depression?

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Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality , boring Reality / boring real life / boring real world / boring life !

December 2nd, 2014by niki

Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality ,
Virtual Reality is the escape from Reality ,
this boring Reality (Reality is boring ) !
this boring real life (real life is boring ) !
this boring real world (real world is boring ) !
boring life ( life is boring) !

Seriously, when Reality is boring & mundane (even real Science is boring & mundane too, science fiction (sci-fi) is better than boring science real ! ) , Virtual Reality is the only TRUE / REAL progress for humanity / mankind / our human species !
with Virtual Reality (VR) technology , we can enter into UNLIMITED possibilities, …

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hey everyone,

December 1st, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

happy

Today i am feeling happy and its been hard lately, but i want to share my happiness with all of you because every single person deserves and has the right to be HAPPY! You are strong and you are worth it, keep fighting <3

***Spread the happiness***

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Out on bond….the ones we really love. the woman in our lives

November 30th, 2014by johnwhogivesashit

I’m out on 100,000 dollar bail right now. I’m facing a home invasion charge in Illinois which is a class x felony. The punishment if convicted is a minimum 6 to 30 years in the department of corrections. I am facing a death sentence. These alleged charges are total bullshit but regardless of the outcome I will come out the other side 10,000 dollars in debt from lawyers. I am 22 years old. For all intents and purposes This situation is going to cost me 6-30 years of my life. The courts are a mockery of justice in illinois. they are courts of conviction not …

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Help.

November 29th, 2014by Danny26

Let me just start by saying I don’t know if I would actually take my own life, however I have been having suicidal thoughts for a while now. They’ve only gotten worse over time, and I’m honestly in a point in my life where I don’t know where to go next. I don’t think of myself as a bad person, yet I’ve done some things I’m not proud of. Throughout the past year, I’ve been going through a period where I’ve been remembering mistakes from the past, and even if I felt anxious about them at first, I have done what’s necessary to fix those …

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science is boring ! science fiction is better than science fact ! sci-fi is better than science fact ! real science is boring !

November 29th, 2014by niki

science is boring !
science fiction is better than science fact !
sci-fi is better than science fact !
real science is boring !

Reality is boring ! Reality sucks !
Real life is boring ! Real life sucks !
Real world is boring ! Real world sucks !

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
I HATE MONEY !! and I HATE …

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Quote

November 27th, 2014by L4Y

 

Very true – but they can be slain as well  ;)

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Overcoming Incest

November 25th, 2014by honeyblood

It took 18 years to remember

You want five to forget

 

Forget about it.

I never thought I could survive to college. I never saw myself in a dorm. I never saw friends.

 

But I did. I didn’t live in a dorm. I rented a two-bedroom house with a fenced yard for my two adopted dogs. I went to class. It’s my fifth year in school, and yeah my past caught up to me, and yeah I had a few slip-ups, but I am going to graduate in May with honors- a GPA above 3.0.

So why?

Why do I want to die now?

Of all times, places, people, memories, why now?

 

I …

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