It is not going to get better.  It is actually going to get better and worse.   It is going to fluctuate like the temperature does during the year.  Or the grades of a collection of students.  Or the color of sky at dusk and dawn.  There are no guarantees.  There is not a happily ever [...]

The old me held on to hatred The new me holds on to love The old me would hurt others on a whim The new me tries to help others whenever possible The old me hated the world The new me loves the world The old me embraced the Darkness The new me embraces the [...]

Born missing something in your brain.  That piece that makes many crave attention and affection.  When these things are offered you cringe in confusion.  Knowing that others readily accept them but they seem rather uncomfortable.  And you force yourself to act like you enjoy them because it makes others smile.  One thing does touch you.  [...]

All I ask of anyone reading this is to at least put some thought into my words. You will never understand what I am going through, and that goes for me to you as well. From reading this you may at least have some understanding. I’ve never been through anything this hard in my entire [...]

I cried for the first time in almost 10 years. It was only like 2 or 3 drops, but for someone like me who thought his tear ducts dried out years ago, it was a real relief. I have been contemplating suicide for years now. But only recently have i reached my breaking point. I [...]

Today I was braver than I have been in a long time. Last year I began starving and throwing up to lose weight. It became a major problem but I made sure no one told. It got better for a few weeks, then took a plunge in December. Coaches, teachers, and friends grew extremely concerned, [...]

I feel a deep love for Jasmine, a longing to show her I love her. I have gone past the sexual thoughts and I just want to hold her and kiss her. I was reading a sex story based on the Naruto show and how he pleased the women he seduced by treating them well. [...]

For that one second, that short, little one second I manage to forget, set my mind free from worry, fear, hate That second, that second, I’m unaware of the world But once I’m back, aware of the world again, the feelings come back All the hate, worry, and fear, so I take this little blade, [...]

Never once before had the thought occurred to me that getting help was so scary. Everyone says it’ll be okay, but it really never will be. Something’s always going to be wrong, life isn’t going to be perfect, if it could be perfect just for one day, I would be fine, but eventually I’d have [...]

Why is it everyday I find myself hideing it all, putting on a fake smile, acting like there’s nothing wrong? How do i do it? I find myself covering the blood red cuts, brand new, before school, after school, making them at anytime I feel this way. Thinking there’s no way out,telling myself help wouldn’t [...]