I did this, you can too.
As Three Days Grace says, “I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all.”
I agree. Not just physical pain, but it seems as if I hurt myself emotionally with intent. For about three years now, my depression’s been going on and off, wavering. Sometimes I’ll feel incredibly ecstatic, and other times I’ll be locked up in my room, cutting away with my frenemy, X-Acto. But most of the time? The feeling of nothing. Tabula rasa. Now that I think about it, it’s kind of psychopathic. No empathy, no warmth, just… nothing.
I have tried calling the suicide hotline, only when I’m home alone, which isn’t for long. […]