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In the end the heart gives out

March 25th, 2015by dwink

Mama said to hold on to the most basic emotion, love

Love, failed me over and over as I bled from all the cuts,

Cuts, done by unseen sharps as she again let me down,

Down, further in hole than the last one,

I can not be undone, but I am broken,

And none see those hopeless moments

They see the iron-will in me and its all false

In the end it shows, they see as I rot

Can’t hold on for long, I tried

Play the song “When I’m gone” when I’m gone

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No Time For Letters; Send Me A Postcard

March 24th, 2015by killswitchon

Do you think it’s possible to love multiple people? I do. I think it’s very possible. Love is always different. I’ve never felt the same love for each individual love. It was somehow different each and every woman. Love is transient. At least for me. Fleeting. I long for new love. New, new, new experiences. Something to suck me out of my mind. Something to bring me out of darkness for a moment at least. One moment is all I need. It doesn’t happen though.

My real estate agent told me today that he doesn’t think it’s going to be easy finding a place with …

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Shared Stories

March 23rd, 2015by imlosingit

I hope you read this and know you’re not alone
That the pain in these words you realize as your own
when you look at your scars bleeding red
know that I have them too
That I just wanted to feel something other than alone
I thought I deserved it
I truly did
As I shaped jagged lines I would scold myself for not being better
for being such a waste of life
but the pain always came back
No amounts of cuts changed that
So stop
now
I’ve been on that ledge
I know how much it hurts right now
I can’t promise you life will get better
it just won’t
but I can promise you one thing:
you will get …

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To Quit

March 23rd, 2015by meepmeep

I’m very, very tired. I can’t live every day debating whether I should live or not – if I continue living, it’ll stay like this. If I die, I don’t have to deal with this. I know you say it’ll get better, maybe it will, I won’t live long enough to find out. For some reason, I can’t feel happy, even though there’s been cheerful people in the atmosphere. I’m very, very tired. Shall I go about eternal slumber?

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Dx — Suicide

March 21st, 2015by killswitchon

The rifts of our fire left behind ashes unimaginable
Bursting and exploding with a subtlety unknown
Passion paralyzes the corpse of who I left behind
Apathy assaults every vein and vessel
Nothing left but black tar
Heaving out a sigh strangled by suicide
Time won’t tell what becomes of me, us
I’ve already left
No place to turn, but i’ll make sure you burn
The nights spent dancing under the star bright star lights
I won’t forget
Oh wait, they never happened?
All in my head
Instead I’ll sweep you off your feet to bed
Travel to Alaska
Aurora Borealis has got nothin’ on you
Who are you
You are me
Who I was
Waving goodbye to all that I could have been
Scorched and …

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rant then poem & art

March 19th, 2015by Stereotype

I had 4 public speaking engagements in three days, I taught a class and then went to a kick off for a charity walk.  No classes this week – spring break.  I still have a shitload of homework to do but I am about to leave for Niagara Falls to gamble for a 3 day vacation.  I am on the Deans list with honors 4 semesters in a row but I think this class I’m taking is going to drop my GPA.  So I joined a couple honor societies while I still have the GPA to be invited to these things.  I need something to …

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Found My Anchor

March 19th, 2015by killswitchon

Go Nautical; Or Go Home

Go Nautical; Or Go Home

Fresh ink. I wanted more but the shop I went to overcharged hardcore. Asshole really. Just get me anchored and get the fuck out. I wanted it higher on neck but he said it was impossible. I don’t mind the placement now. Going with a naval theme across my body possibly. Whatever the fuck I want is what I’ll get. I’m focusing on my chest and upper body. No limbs. Opposed to popular belief I don’t want people to see these during my day to …

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Talks With The Devil

March 9th, 2015by dwink

The end justifies the beginning,

“Take a step to oblivious, “he says.

“We came a long way to give up

You’re at cliff’s edge, one more simple step.”

“Embrace the fall,” he continuous

“Gently let go of the sorrow,

In the end I’ll well welcome you with open arms,

We’ll even sing one of His psalms.”

“Take my hand,” he says.

“There are no holes in my palms.”

I snap back, thought rang, “This is deadlier than reality.”

I smile and say, “let’s try this tomorrow.”

“The loneliness almost had me,

Somehow you came thru with that calming devilish voice,

At least someone to talk to when no one is.”

As far as answering the call, hold on

I’m not ready to …

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Soul Pain

Soul Pain

March 6th, 2015by NothingsPurpose

I don’t fall slow like I used to, I fall straight down. To live only to die, to exist only to wish no existence. Jealousy, envy, hatred, embarrassment, depression, fear. I feel a blend of all within me. My stomach is tight, my face is stuck. My personality is killed. My mind is against me. I have no friends anymore. Every thought is I, I, I, I. I can’t connect. I can’t understand. I thread the needle. I tear the fabric of heart. I do it. I,I,I. My only experience is misery. I feed off the pain I was fated with. The more I grow, …

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0

it hurts

March 1st, 2015by psychopath

lately my mental health hasn’t been too well.

i feel like i’m wearing a mask.

i am the happy and energetic person with my friends, but when i get home it’s like i’m a totally different person.

i always feel so unhappy and  i feel like there’s something missing.

it took me a lot of courage to actually type this out.

i’ve started self-harming

i’m surprised no one has noticed all the scratches on my wrist, but i’ve been trying to hide it.

i’ve gone from scratching myself with fingers and biting myself

to pazors and compass points

but i want something more

i want to cut, but

i don’t want to see the blood

see all …

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that moment

March 1st, 2015by Valentine Sugar

My treacherous mind lives in the hope of a new world while outside I become an insensitive monster.

The part of me that still feels shout in agony locked in a world full of bullshit waiting for the moment when we both get free. The moment of my death.

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So long

February 26th, 2015by apathyismine

night

a never ending night rains down

darkening all things mortal

nothing else can be seen

but farewell whispers

curling into the night

fogging the air

everything will

disappear

misappear

contorted in appearance

with little interference

nothing to turn back to

but a darkness only night can consume

consume your soul

why stop it now?

slip into the trenches

and drown in sorrow

there is nothing left to lose

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Love song for a friend

February 24th, 2015by killswitchon

my male friend asked me to write him a love song apologizing to his ex girlfriend. this is the last favor i will probably do for him. he confessed he loved me romantically last night. i think i’m bi too. but it just pushed me away. im not sure what my sexuality is. maybe bi curious. i just love connection in general i suppose. i dont know. i never did anything with a guy since i was a super young kid and explore as kids do… i think kids just like to get naked. i know i did when i was a kid. anyway, off …

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The long road

February 23rd, 2015by deathisbliss

I walk out my door.

Out into the cold…the dark.

No goal, no point, just to walk and yearn.

Away from guilt, from hurt, from pain.

No more.

Just into the dark black cold I walk.

I had before walked off the pain,

In urban jungles, and european plains.

All these years I have offered myself,

But no one came to claim.

So I offer myself to the deep plains night,

And wonder if the coyotes will come to play.

But even they pass me by,

So home I go, and in pain I lie.

But dawn comes, and I dream again,

that life will turn, and hopes will win.

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I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life

February 23rd, 2015by niki

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !

I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future

you see ,.. Reality / real world / real life …

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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleadingSo sick and tired of all the needless beatingBut baby when they knock you down and outIt’s where you ought to stayWell after all the blood that you still oweAnother dollar’s just another blowSo fix your eyes and get upBetter get up while you can, whoa whoaWhen you go […]

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From Port side to Starboard With Love

February 22nd, 2015by killswitchon

Feelings crash and caress my worry wounded heart
Replacing moments that kill serenity with a gravity magnetic
Her emanating beauty radiates into the membranes of my every cell
Illuminating every shameful crevice hidden within my existential guilt

Pursuing her relentlessly isn’t a choice but a mandate
Recklessly throwing myself into her calm swells and happily sinking
Let me drown in her turbulent tides for eyes
An island girl she is no more, for I have built this bridge

Let me love the pain away with nothing asked in return
An agape energy of sorts overflowing and capsizing my self control
Should I go down with the ship like the captain is expected
Or swim for the …

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Let us not.

February 19th, 2015by letmeusemyname

My dear family, let us not pretend

that this is not a relief

My dear friends, let us not pretend

that this is not a relief

because I am too tired to pretend

that I’m still going to live

Good Riddance.

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Futility remain unanswered and hope remains an ornamate.

February 18th, 2015by letmeusemyname

This could be a trigger so I ask people who have tendencies to skip this.

I would just like to ask for opinions, thoughts, anything. So if anyone would like to reply, please go ahead. This is not a post about hope but about suicide.

I am 21, I am far from being young and I am far from having what you would call a hard life. I have a degree from uni, I have a roof above my head and all that shit. Yet I still want to die, there is nothing for me to live for. i am a waste of space to everyone around …

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inescapable “depression”

February 16th, 2015by Voidt

Do you agree with this view: “Depression is the illness of civilization, without civilization, we’d be happy: We’d be happy without depression. Without depression we would not have the beautiful arts: novels, plays, paintings. If we were happy we wouldn’t need the arts. Without our depression happiness as a concept would not exist”.

https://todayistblogger.wordpress.com/2015/02/17/depression/