Dear Holly, Yeah. Hi, long time no see, huh? It’s been a while since I saw you. Miss you. Things have been working out, so far. Lets not jinx it huh? I remember how sad you were. I still get depressed at times when I think about everything. Like ya’ know everything. I am not [...]

Two daggers pierced through my heart and tore up my soul;    My heart bleeds;    My body lay still;    Numbness consumes me,   Yet I continue to breathe mindlessly.    It is a battle between life and death.    I ask myself Why?   I faint voice inside of me whispers to me [...]

Sometimes I love so truly and deeply that I forget about myself.    The person I am with becomes everything to me. I put them first in everything I do. However, I never have this love returned to me. So I question whether it is right for me to love this way. The price I [...]

I am not a doll; I am not so pretty.  I am not your love;  And I never will be.    In silence I weep, for I am lost,  Because I gave you my all.    Lost forever I shall be, until I die.   

I stare in the mirror and see my reflection.  The girl standing there isn’t beautiful.  Beautiful is what I want to be,  Even if it is only in the eyes of the one I love.    But beautiful I will never be for my love sees me through my eyes.    Tears fun down my [...]

Sometimes I feel like The world closes in on me Even as I take steps out into the deep blue I can see walls falling in Roofs floating down; And even as this chaos suronds me I am calm, For in my heart I already know That this world is not real– Its all in [...]

I’ve felt a change in my emotions lately A realization Or Maybe I’m just remembering. Coming down from my dillusion Back into reality. But more lucid this time around. Bitterness does not form Yet happiness is still ages away Basically a myth now. These moments when every emotion Has disappeared completely by reaching its peak [...]

                              I fucking live off coffee and cigarettes, to be honest i just don’t give a shit , thats deff another lie, affirmed by my predisposition to cry. I claim to be emotionless when really I’m overrun by it. You all [...]

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We say we have bad days, but this week I learned something. There is no such thing if your feet touch the ground and you are breathing. An innocent, smart, kind, caring woman died of cancer. She loved life. Just a thought.