For your poems.
Inside my soul lives a monster
I don’t know when it came to live there
I just know that no matter how much I want
To stop feeling like dying
It won’t let me.
For your poems.
Inside my soul lives a monster
I don’t know when it came to live there
I just know that no matter how much I want
To stop feeling like dying
It won’t let me.
If in the end it all falls apart
What’s the point of a story’s start
Nothing but grey sky’s and teary eyes wait for us
When our skin turns cold to the touch
If there’s no god above us then what awaits us
But the end of consciousness
Peace at last, laid to rest
A long and tired soul drifts off to sleep for eternity
If all we are remembered by is the day on which we die
A number on a stone past the cemetery gates
Then I ask what’s the point in life anyway?
To writhe, to hate, to wonder…
If every day passed by without a sign
Something to believe in, even if its just […]
Kesha-tik tok
Wake up in the morning
Feel’in Totally Shitty
got my Glock, I’m out the door
I’m not gonna make it pretty.
But before I leave, I’ll act all sweet and leave letters of hate
Cause when I leave for the night–I ain’t coming back!
I love you.
Gay or straight.
Woman or man.
Black or white or blue.
I love you.Â
And don’t you ever forget that.
The darkness is tangible,
I can feel it pressing all around me.
It feels like torturous pain,
it’s loneliness and despair,
it’s suffering and despite
it’s physical, i can feel it
I’m alone and yet I’m not
My family is downstairs,
my wife’s in the next room,
yet I’m the only person
in my reality.
I look through a pain of glass
at the world surrounding me.
I see life, I hear life, I sense life
Yet I have none.
It passes me by,
leaves me still and dead
I feel the cold of the grave
I long for that cold
to envelope me
I want no more of […]
At the moment I’ve got my music blasting and I am doing art work im totally distracted From thinking about my troubles but I’m worried that as soon as I go to bed ill start thinking again or that ill have a anxiety attack again. I probably won’t be able to sleep tonight. Does anyone suffer from anxiety and if yes what is it personally like for you?
20 minutes ago I tried to get some sleep then all of a sudden I felt really worried I was that worried I felt sick then I felt really scared worried and empty all at the same time I thought I was going to pass out or something. I have never experienced anything like this. I won’t be able to sleep tonight I still feel a little scared.
Ok I’m going to just get straight into this because I’ve had all of this bottled in and I can’t find the will to tell anyone face to face which I need to learn to do. Anyway my dad has recently passed away because of cancer, it was horrible and terribly sad that in his last few months I got to see the good side of him then I had to just see him crumble away being in pain. I’ve had to say goodbye and go to his funeral. A mistake I made was when I was hurting I kept all the hurt inside I […]
Play this song and read my story.
Take your time reading, preferably out loud and make pauses. I encourage you to listen to the rest of the song, even though the story ends early.
The girl walked in the cold. She didn’t care all too much, she had much bigger things to worry about. And she needed to get them done as soon as possible. Have closure.
She walked down the street, even though the snow made it feel like it had been longer. Her hands felt icy, like the coldest things she had ever touched. At least in temperature.
Memories raced through her head, though […]
I cant stop shaking as the thunder rolls on, i try to breath but i feel like my throats closing my eyes are on fire as i try to keep my self from crying as i count to 10.
My past races threw my mind and i try to fight the memories i hold my hands over my head “im sorry im sorry” i scream “no more no more” The kids in class are staring but i dont care anymore, im no longer in class . I’m in my brothers room, he presses his hands agaist my chest and kisses my face, i whimper begging him to stop. […]
I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.
But when I see a mother with her child;
A girl with her lover;
Or best friends with their laughter;
I realize that even though I like being alone,
I don’t fancy being lonely.
Eenie meeine minine moe
to a better place i go
with a slash to my wrist
and the blood down the drain
Five more seconds will end the
pain.
If I’m online on here, I’ll message you back quickly.
scarsonherwrists@live.com
Some music:
CAUTION: MAY BE A TRIGGER.
(Play the song and read my story)Â 7 Pounds – Ennio Morricone – The Crisis
The snow falls
quietly,
slowly.
I wish you were here to see it.
Pure white,
soft
like cotton balls.
I drag my feet through it,
trace your name in it.
God, I miss you.
Maybe you’ll see it from here,
where I am so small?
The breeze catches the back of my neck.
Is that you?
breathing?
Telling me
You’re okay?
Do you miss me?
My hands are cold
like death.
like yours
When I held it for that last time.
Are you happy?
My tears freeze halfway down my face
Shivering,
I wonder,
Is this a good enough
goodbye?
7 Pounds – Ennio Morricone – The Crisis
I am 13. I don’t have a really sad story about being raped or having drug addict parents. which makes me feel like i honestly dont have a reason to feel depressed. but here i am. I dont know how it all started. but i remember a year ago when i started in a team for my favourite sport. i’m not going to say what it is because along with my name, it is very uncommon and i feel like that someone who knows me might read this. anyways, you might think, oh wow thats a really good thing! but only a few people did […]
If you only knew
How bad it hurts that you need me
How much I don’t want to leave
But how much it hurts to stay
Why can’t you just forget about me?
I am just skin
 and bones
and blood
and dirt.
Why care about where I go?
I’m already dead inside.
There’s no love left for me.
I’m not going to be someone else.
I will always be me.
You can’t change that. No matter how hard you try.
You will always scare me.
Don’t force me to be what you want.
I won’t change for you.
I’d much rather be alone.
Mornings are the hardest.
I wake up and all of my thoughts hit me at once.
This is all in my head, right?
My arms and my legs are completely seperated by my will, my want, to move foreward.
Move foreward? Right. Move foreward….. Right??
The room matches my mind, and I used to break this. All of it.
The light is now on. The room is completely lit up. But for some reason, I still can not see. Not even through my lids.
Do I still even want to be? Be here? I don’t want to be here.
What? Why?
With a matter of 7 hours of sleep, I’m numb. Not loved.
Wait… I’m […]
i can feel myself gaining weight
i can feel the escalating urges to self mutilate
i can feel the loss of sanity
of minor happiness
i feel the pain that shouldn’t exist
i’m weak
too weak to kill myself
but too weak to give no fucks and live
this aching is tearing at my wounds
these thoughts drowning me
i’m suffocating by the sorrow that surrounds me
alone i’m feeling all of this
yet, alone, i feel nothing
… because i’m worthless.
I WISH I HAD CONTROL!!
I never remember it.. Ever…
I WISH I HAD CONTROL…
I wish I hadn’t done it but I have..
I WANT CONTROL!!
I Â know I shouldn’t.. That it’s bad….
I WANT CONTROL…
I don’t think I can stop.. Never…
I ‘M LOST AND LONELY!!
I’m all alone in this dark abyss..
I’M LOST AND LONELY…
My Escape, Â for I have no other Wish…
When I do it, it’s sweet and painful..
The only pain left for me that I feel.
One of the few […]
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