For your poems.
I am not here.
I am not important.
I am not special.
I am not here.
I am not lovable.
I am useless.
I am not here.
I am nothing.
but being nothing, I am everything,
and being nowhere, I am everywhere
For your poems.
I am not here.
I am not important.
I am not special.
I am not here.
I am not lovable.
I am useless.
I am not here.
I am nothing.
but being nothing, I am everything,
and being nowhere, I am everywhere
You’re already living. You hate it but you ARE living. You are here and you have stayed. That is for sure. And nothing else, not a fucking thing besides the fact that at this moment you are breathing and wanting to die or just reading stuff and thinking how miserable your life is.
Trying to understand the complexities of your existence.
You take the trying to understand and the complexities away – what’s left? Existence. All there’s left is existence. Stop trying to understand something you’re not able to. You can’t fucking _know_ Anything about this world. Earth is a fucking ball hanging in the air in […]
i was thinking of leaving for good, but then as i thought of it i had then realised people did care but may not have showed it as much as other people do. i have many reasons now on why i should stay; the two main reasons are my baby brother and my best friend/my everything and he is the guy i have known for a long time, who is now the guy im with. i still get depresssed but i talk to my bf about everything anytime, doesnt matter if its the middle of the night and i woke him up, he stays up […]
cancer, you have finally won as this is my goodbyes to all you wounderful people on sp. i have written notes to my family saying goodbye and now all is left is to the people of sp. thankyou for trying to help but its my time to go im sorry. all i can say is that cancer wins this fight it wins my life.
is there anybody that needs help before i die? i would really like to help someone, as please coment if you do, it may make my life last a little longer.
dont be sad ba happy you deserve it i will always care […]
life has beaten me, you win i loose you stay i go.
cancer has won i will die only to get away from the pain.
what do i do, im a mess, im in the middle of a breakdown it hurts, it hurts so much please help me before its too late.
It was the middle of winter, she left in the cold
Taking nothing but her ring and my pride
Now it’s winter again, I’m still here
There’s an empty bottle with me inside
I’m holding up a lamppost with my one good arm
The blood there on the floor must be mine
And I would be alright now
I’d be alright, but these memories are killing me
When promises break, they shatter like glass
The rainbow never gives you the gold
Old love letters left out in the rain
The summertime always brings the cold
All things must pass; both good and bad
Day is always […]
hello, well as you all know my life is a complete down buzz. if you dont well heres y… i have leukemia (cancer)
i get seriously bullied and no one cares about me. i have not told a living sole but i am planning my death and i need help…
i am seriously ugly now i have no hair and im always purpley blueish like a giant bruise. do you think if i was to dink half a bottle or more of bleech will it kill me i might even add in the meds i take. i wanna give up but then again i want help, what […]
i’ve been cutting again, my mum found out and guess what she said! i have no reason to do it im just calling out for attention… that’s what she said to me. how the hell do i not have a reason to do it! i’m dieing litterally heres y i do it…
im in pain
i have cancer!
no one cares about me
my lifes stuffed up
i get bullied
and im worthless
maybe i should end it right now, maybe i should stop fighting for my life. why should i have to suffer while no one cares about me.. am i left here to rott in this stupid hospital with a […]
I’m ugly I’m really ugly. 3rd time of chemo and I’m already really sick, ive lost over half my hair and its terrifying i’m scared I’m really scared. this is causing even more pain. should i kill myself now or carry on suffering in pain? cancer is to hard its awful and i dont see how im going to survive! ive been getting messages that im worthless, ugly, useless, good for nothing and that i should go kill myself. the hurtful things people have said to me its to hard to cope,…. how much longer can i last??? i feel really weak and helpless last night […]
I wrote this song a year ago in hopes of saving some lives. I wrote it in loving memory of a friend who committed suicide for being gay. This is for you, Asher Brown.
Every story I have read left me in disarray
I wonder what I could say to you to make it all go away
I know your days are getting darker and colder
But someday, I’ll regret never being able to help you as I grow older
I’m trying to get you on the telephone
Just so you know you’re not alone
Chorus:
Hold on even when you feel like falling away
Give […]
I am rounded
like letters formed
by a fading pen
with a loopy hand
that indulges itself
because circles
are without jagged edges
or at least they pretend to be
but if you look closely at those letters
you may notice that
(like me)
the edges are perhaps
not as smooth and circular
as they pretend
to be.
Sorry.
today i found out i have cancer (leukemia) i dont know what to do, i dont have long to live, ive always wanted to die but now its coming im scared, the sad thing is i will never get married, have a family of my own and never have sex.
ive been crying most of the day and i still am, ie cut my wrists about 50 times deep and shallow and i feel nothing. im scared im really really scared, i was going to end my life in a week but now i know i have leukemia i am really really scared. im in a […]
Burning pain in the pit of my heart
Try so hard to push it away but the inferno keeps burning despite all that I do. Sticks and stones ya they break bones but words they hurt my soul. You break me down till I’m but a shattered remnant of who I once was. Your words they cut like knives ripping the heart from my chest I lie bleeding on your floor. You smile and kick me some more. Why do I love? All it brings me is pain, what do you want from me? My heart? It is in your hands, beating, burning, bleeding for […]
I’m always trying to make everybody proud
But theirs this voice in back of my mind that is loud
Telling me “you’re worthless , you’re nothing, you can never be someone”
So I focus on the negatives, not knowing how amazing I’ve become.
I try to do my best everyday
But why can’t this voice just drift away?
The more I hear “you can’t do it”
I start to believe it
So the bottom of the Hole I hit.
I can’t find my way out
Nobody can hear me pleading when I begin to shout
“oh god help me please,
Give me the power to be released” […]
I love you, and i would die for you because… please tick
a) You’re the most kindest person ever
b) You’re so inspiring
c) Your beauty is incomparable to anything or anyone
d) Your presence gives me pins and needles in my neck
e) My heart speeds up when i see you
f) My mouth loses the ability to swallow or produce interesting sentences when I’m around you, yet you still put up with me
g) You always seem like you’re looking up at people and you show respect to people even though you’re far more superior than anyone in the whole world
h) Your wacky and weird in a wonderful way
k) […]
Raining on Webs
I’m vulnerable, out without a jacket,
And it’s about to pour.
My heater, protection from the storm,
Won’t even look my way.
This web of hurt our love’s become
Is straining in the winds.
I don’t know what’s coming beyond the cloud layer.
Signed up unknowingly,
I report in early tomorrow
To throw myself off the edge
And fall along with the rain
Until I shatter and splash
Like a drop.
A celebration of eleven
Is all that keeps my sane,
Jacketed arms that I can cling to
When the downpour comes;
And another fragile heart,
I’ll protect when the burning sun returns.
My Perfect Poison
We cried and screamed together
But not a word was spoken.
Dancing in one ear and out the other,
Our conversation disappears from your mind.
But instead of floating away like nothing,
These words surround me,
Slicing and suffocating
Until all I know is the sound of my own despair.
It’s everywhere.
This memory of what we were
And could still be
Is haunting in its sadness
And its beauty.
First above the rest, but somehow always last.
And yet the heart in me
Clings to its own demise,
Those poisoned lips baiting me for another kiss.
And I accept,
Hurt and beaten by your love
And left too crippled to ever let you go.
Perhaps I’ll make it
Alone
Perhaps…
Another day, another night, another sigh
Perhaps I’ll make it
I’m doing all this for you
I care when no one else will
I’m not a passing fad
I’m not a fan, I’m there when they’re all gone
I’m not there when they’re all here
I connect with you when others may lie
I’m real
And I’m sorry I was not your ideal
I’ve been browsing here for some time now and I have to say each one of your personal stories have always helped me in some way so much obliged I strongly believe that expressing how you feel can assist you in finding a way to continue if it may only be for a few extra moments. Let me first say you can just call me Chance is a name I’ve aquired over the years for all the triumphs I’ve overcome over the past 10 years or so. I’m like everyone else I’ve loved I’ve lost overcome miscarriages with past relationships, […]
so i just found out one of my close friends and also my crush, ran away due to bullying and his depression and then commited suicide. cut his wrist 6 times and then hang himself. i will miss him so much. my heart breaks each day. he was my inpersation and my help. we made sure we both ate and that we didnt self harm. thanks to him i had survived from suicide and i started eating but now that he has gone i have lost my hope. i wish i had seen this coming so i could save him. i loved him i now […]
Please log in to report posts