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again

September 5th, 2015by God666

Happened again, caffeine this time would have had more but visitors came so I had to stop, close though. I seem to be lacking a sense of fear now even when my heart hit 200bpm I was not scared. The world seemed to come I’m overwhelming waves of euphoria as well as caffeine I added some oxy, tramadol and seroquel probably evened it  out too much. I cannot stop thinking  I have never stopped thinking and I always remember I hate it but it’s me I hide it for so long but then I break and I will again it seems an inevitability of me.

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How Did I Fuck Up So Bad?

September 5th, 2015by i_cant_think_of_a_name

The only reason why I haven’t killed myself yet is my mother. She’d be crushed, and I don’t want to hurt anyone because of me killing myself.. I’m probably just going through a “phase”.. Well that’s what I hope… It sucks, I feel like I have a pretty bright future ahead of me: good grades, great Offensive Tackle, But I have basically 3 friends, and one of them is just done with me, and I don’t know how I fucked up so bad.. But some things are too much, my stepdad having stage 3 kidney cancer.. And earlier tonight, my “friend” had just said that …

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Fuel is Running Low

September 4th, 2015by maybeishouldgo

Every action takes all the ounces of energy within me. It takes all my effort to smile.

I’m tired mentally and physically.

The friends I used to talk to every day don’t look my way. My principal is making me an example for anyone who tries to stand up for themselves when being bullied. I don’t enjoy learning or being around others anymore. The guy I love can’t stand the sight of me.

My scars are ugly. They’ll never go away.

My actions are unforgivable. There’s no such thing as a “second chance”.

There was never a second chance.

All I do is hurt everyone, no matter how much I try …

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Hello again

September 3rd, 2015by i_cant_think_of_a_name

I’m back. It’s been awhile, though little has gotten better.. School is stressing me out, one of my close friends has gone distant, and the cherry on top: my stepdad (the only father I’ve ever had in my life) has Kidney cancer… I tried to tell my friend about it, and she flat out says “I don’t want any bad news.” And I’m dumbfounded, so I apologize.. For trying to tell her something important, what’s wrong with me? And how could a friend be so ignorant to another friend’s problem… Especially one as bad as a family member having cancer. Heh.. It’s easier to tell …

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on epiphanies

September 3rd, 2015by internova

it’s kind of strange how and when you realize there’s something wrong with you. i haven’t really thought there’s anything wrong with thinking about death – i’ve been thinking about it for, what, the last three years now? it was almost like an unconscious epiphany that hadn’t hit me until, a few months ago, i stopped and just thought about it: what classifies as depression? what classifies as suicidal?

and for the longest time, i did not only believe, but i was convinced that i’m completely alright.

sometimes, i’d be trying to sleep at night, and i would think of how it would feel to hang myself. …

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Final Post: punk in drublic, and suicide as a pre and postmortem message

September 2nd, 2015by Disposable Human

Through separation and divorce I have lost everything other than court appointed contact with my family: the ex-wife/best friend, my son, my 2 dogs. It feels like the work I’ve done to try and make this all come together as a family was for nothing. And it was.

Two weeks ago, I shot .375 grams of pure crystal meth into my arm and gave myself tachycardia but died slowly enough for the doctors to save me.

Monday, my legal benzo analogues came in the mail. They’re like xanax on steroids. I took a couple handfuls (that stopped my heart) and then woke up today with no memory …

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Girl

September 2nd, 2015by flyingnorth

A few years ago I discovered that I liked girls as much as I liked boys. It was kind of earth shattering at the time because I was part of a family that was completely against the “gay agenda” as they called it. I know it’s the same old song and dance. My family doesn’t  understand me- blah blah blah. I was really worried about telling any of them. I figured I would tell them if I actually had a girlfriend or something. No big deal.

I did meet someone that very year. The first girl I was really interested in. She ended up making some …

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Think I’m gonna hit reset

September 2nd, 2015by Deadinside59

So I’m thinking about it hitting the reset this means packing up and going somewhere new with no body from my old life being able to contact me ive got a bag packed with clothes and my guns I’ve burned anything that could lead someone to believe i was here it’ll only take a week to set it up so no one from the area could contact me but i don’t know if it’s what i want

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I won’t drag them down with me

September 2nd, 2015by Deadinside59

So guys honestly I’ve realized something to anyone reading this please try to understand and not criticize but honestly ive gotten into some trouble recently and one person i know haven’t really talked to came up to me today and said stop it and i said what are you talking about she grabbed me and said i need to know how you’re doing because you don’t deserve to die you don’t need to die by your own hands i know everything about you she then grabbed my chest where i cut and said right here you have a scar thats a smile she pointed to …

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Going for a change

September 1st, 2015by YuTasogare

Things lately have been pretty hard for me, going to my mom’s house and therefore leaving my dad’s house. My parentes breakup was something that really has affected me, before that I can’t remember a single thing in my life that isn’t perfect. I know my memory may be deceiving me but if it’s how you remember it, being real or not, for you it really happened. Memories can be so deceiving, but I know a perfect life or time doesn’t exist, life isn’t something this easy but I guess if it was there would be no fun in it, right?

Well, my father has depression …

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Just a rant

September 1st, 2015by mato42

Why do I keep messing things up? I keep getting second chances for no reason, even when I don’t deserve them at all. Yesterday I got a HUGE THIRD chance and it went well, far better than expected. Even when it shouldn’t have. I have accepted other people’s advice that I should pick up my ass and do something about it, to make a plan. I even had promised myself to finally seek a doctor, so he can clear my f****d up mind. I don’t even care about taking pills for it anymore. Finally I stop thinking about killing myself, something I’ve been doing for years …

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Giving Up

August 31st, 2015by maybeishouldgo

Tell me how it’s okay to tell someone to kill themselves.

But tell me how it’s not okay to stand up for yourself.

Tell me how it’s okay for grown “adults” to let their kids tell depressed peers to kill themselves.

But tell me how it’s not okay for the parents of the oppressed to stand up.

Tell me how it’s okay to ruin something beautiful between two people.

But tell me how it’s not okay to make things work.

Tell me how it’s okay to isolate someone from their friends.

But tell me how it’s not okay to forgive and get rid of bad blood.

It seems as when I make a …

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I Give Those Upper Classmen On My Bus My Thanks Sarcasitically!!! (Rants)

August 31st, 2015by LittleMissPurrfection

Are the people of society today kidding me? Like what is wrong with them all? Is it really funny to throw grapes at people while they’re talking to someone and it is none of their business to do anything like that?

A long while back earlier on the bus ride home from my high school I was pelted with grapes. There were no more than three, that hit but obviously were aimed at me and they were laughing about it! Is it really so funny to you to pick on people smaller and younger than you? For your information, and if I could snap my fingers I …

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I’m done!!!

August 31st, 2015by disgusting

This is the last fucking straw! I can’t get a known slum lord to rent to me because of my credit and my name change from a female name to a male name is surely the trigger that set him off, but he had already decided against renting to me before he even got my application. He didn’t look at anything. He just knew he didn’t want some freak there.

I’m too fat and ugly to ever be loved, laid, or even be accepted as a roommate. I’m destined to be homeless and alone and no one has any fucking idea what it’s like to be …

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Fuck you fairy tales

August 31st, 2015by Deadinside59

So tonight was eventful for me my best friend had his daughter and my sister went into labor with my now new niece right as i got back from taking him and his to the hospital so after it was all said and done i came home to my empty house and realized im kinda jealous I’ll never have my own children or fall in love when realistically that’s all I’ve ever wanted out of this world through all the abuse I’ve been through and all the addictions and relapses and all this fucking pain blood sweat and tears see thats the funny thing though …

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Reality.

August 31st, 2015by whereismyescape

I really hate the word reality. I hate when my mom storms in to my room and tells me that lying in bed and taking naps all the time isn’t reality. She tells me I have to get up and sometimes I feel like I can’t. I don’t want to and it would be heaven if I could stay in my bedroom forever. It’s my safe place and I feel like no one can hurt me here. Today my mom came in to my room and she told me I had to start working on my summer reading project for school. School is probably the biggest source of anxiety for me. Last year I couldn’t go to the last two weeks of school because I was so afraid. And that book and its assignment are a symbol of school so of course I didn’t want to do it. I couldn’t do it.

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My friends forced relationship (rant)

August 30th, 2015by GerbzBaby

You don’t have to read this, I’m not forcing anyone to. But I felt the need to talk about my friends forceful relationship with her partner. So here goes nothin…

I’ve know my friend (we are going to call her L because I feel the need to keep her identity secret) L since me and her where in the fifth grade together. We both had a deep passion for drawing and art, that’s probably one of the reasons why we became friends. She was always happy and outgoing towards me and the new people she had met. She always wanted to learn new things especially …

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Don’t belong here

August 29th, 2015by whereismyescape

I genuinely believe that some people don’t belong in this world. This atmosphere is just too much for us and we need an escape. I am one of those people that just isn’t meant for this environment. I need a different way and I think heaven would be so great. I know it would be great. I just wish I had the courage and strength to go there.

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just venting

August 29th, 2015by darkwillow

“I feel that I’m an awful person.. For having sex with a girl in my dream…”
“Did you know the girl?”
“No.”
“Then don’t sweat it. You can’t control your dreams.”
“I would say the same, only, the dream was lucid…”

I’ve been crying over this.

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Hello.

August 28th, 2015by lovelyrain

Hello, everyone.

I am a miserable person, I hate my life. I know nothing will ever be perfect for me. Pointless. I am nothing more than a catfish, ugly on the outside and ugly on the inside.

I can’t go anywhere, I can’t see anyone, I can’t do anything. I am so tired of being so despised.

Sometimes I think I can do this, I can live like a normal person, but I can’t.

Happiness is so fleeting.

I long for that little rush of adrenaline that comes from someone loving you, but when they find out who I am they always leave me. Even if I tell you too …

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