Rants

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Doesn’t Feel Right

March 31st, 2015by NewGuy

I really don’t feel right posting to something like this. I’ve been in a mood like this many times before, and it’s always completely unsolicited. I have no reason to be depressed – it just happens. I’ve considered reaching out for help or something like that but every time I search up something like this, I see all these stories about people who have serious issues in their lives – child abuse and horrible things like that. I don’t have anything like that at all. The only “circumstantial” reason for my depression is loneliness, which is completely caused by myself. I think I’ve recently gotten to …

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Should I stay or should I go…

Should I stay or should I go…

March 31st, 2015by rian

I have been thinking about ending my life for a while now. I guess I have been too much of a chicken to finally do it. My mom told me that is a cowardly thing to do and that if something like that were to happen, it will break her heart. I love my family above everything and everyone. They are all I have.

If end up doing it, I know I will make them sad…but I guess this is my last selfish wish.

Usually, thinking about my family keeps me going. But I managed to destroy that one thing.

I am an awful being. I am a tired. …

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The Impossible Fuck-up

March 29th, 2015by impossible_girl

Once again, I fucked up. Once again, I didn’t take your sage advice and roll with it, because I’m the broken one in school with my 3.85 GPA and my volunteer work, and you’re the wise, functioning one who just lost your first job in over a year after less than two weeks. Once again I’m the horrible human being. I should just learn to shut up and accept that nothing changes, that you’re the only constant in my life anyway.

Bloody fucking rotten time to be out of booze and money.

He won’t give me my knife back. He’s still protecting me, …

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Cycle

March 29th, 2015by RainbowsnPuppies

I have this cycle. I am okay. Or at least I have myself almost convinced I am okay. And then I am less okay. And less okay. Until I am in this pit where nothing but my darkness exists. And I’ve been trying to cut out the darkness. Hoping precisely made incisions will help with all this pain. Maybe if I slit open the right spot it won’t hurt this much. But it does. I always fall back into this hole. And I don’t want to do it anymore.

The other day I wrapped up all my loose ends and went to sleep praying to a …

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Just Ranting

March 29th, 2015by acanthi

You know, depression is one frustrating thing. After you’ve been so good for such a long time you start to think you’ve beaten it and that’s that.
Like a cold that had finally decided it was time to leave.
But when you finally let your guard down and try to forget about all those depressed time, it decides to come back and feed on your positive life force.
Can I just have the cold instead please? Haha

I just don’t understand why it has to hide in my shadow, acting like molasses and weighing me down when I try to move forward. “Oh, hey there depression. You know, you …

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Humdrum Humbug

March 28th, 2015by One Million Masks

Here I am- again. Oh woe.

…. You know, it isn’t even that I really want to die anymore, or that I don’t want to be here, or that I’m thoroughly sick of it all yet again. It isn’t that I’m done with life or trapped in despair or mired in the worry I like to pull from molehills; it isn’t anything, really.
I’m…. just kind of tired. At this point, after everything, it isn’t that living doesn’t seem at least a little worth it. It doesn’t seem impossible, hopeless, or crushing, it seems doable and enjoyable and maybe something that I could manage to be happy …

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0

Our Kind of Love

March 28th, 2015by ghost187

You fill my stomach with uncontrollable butterflies.
You make my heart pound faster than drums being played in a march.
You are the oxygen in my lungs. The blood in my veins. The smile on my face.
Just the thought of you can make my day.

But my problem is that I want you at such a great extent and
I need to convince myself that I don’t.
I have you already. Yes.
But not in the way I’d also like.
What will it take for me to be the one that you want?

I lie here at night starring up in the dark
trying to sleep, but my nights become sleepless.
You constantly run …

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i tried to live

March 28th, 2015by Lesswill

I just can’t explain how f**** up I feel right now. I actually recovered from this thoughts, went out, fell in love and got treated like crap. I ll never forget my shitty life. I cannot find taste in any food and my website is left unupdated. Feeling sick already with a serious headache. I just don’t know why I fell in love again, I just don’t know why I left the suicide project. I never even felt this bad wen I WS in here. Rocketmanpls do say something. I ve know you for a long time as a shoulder, pls do let me lean …

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I just

March 27th, 2015by confused

I just want to rant/vent

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I don’t want to go back

March 26th, 2015by Streamers

Not back to the hospital.

I’ll cover my arms.

I don’t have anything else.

It stings, this was my first time with a blade.

It didn’t hurt, does that make me broken?

I don’t have any therapy until Monday.

I didn’t do my homework.

I’m a failure.

But I don’t want to go back.

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I was 9….

March 25th, 2015by deathisbliss

I should have died then….my appendix burst…..I really should have died.

But I didn’t….and since then I think I am being tested over and over again.

Because I want to die….I wanted to at 10….

I have been a great talent, but failed, I have been brilliant but failed…Basically I am the classic I am in hell story.  I wonder if I SHOULD HAVE died at 9?

I get hateful feedback and other crap….I don’t even care but I also have failed commercially. Makes more sense as a punishment than as anything else I know I am good! Not about ego…I just know. That I have failed over and …

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Kill Me Before I kill Myself

March 25th, 2015by CutOnMe

I find it odd that I’m unhappy with my life and that I feal useless. I have a place to live, a family l, and a girlfriend that I love. Why do I feal like this? I just doesn’t match up maybe its just the pills talking or the razor….not like I would know. I cant take it much longer…. My girlfriend shes messed up like me she has a special friend made of metal and so do I. We got into this argument yesterday about it I pulled out mine a told her if she continues to call herself things that arnt her ill …

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This is gonna be a rough one, but it has to happen

March 25th, 2015by serenityseeker

okay, so i was just writing a post that gave everyone all the information that could possibly need and then some about any reason I may have for feeling blue. I had to stop myself mid way because I realized it wasn’t even helping me out. I was boring myself! Instead, what I am going to try to do here is just blurt it all out. Say what I’m feeling, maybe add a reason or two, and then move on to the next whatever comes to mind. I’m hoping this does at least a little something for someone if not for me.
3………………3………………….2………………………………….2……………………………………2……………………………..1…………..GO!

worthless. I …

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No Time For Letters; Send Me A Postcard

March 24th, 2015by killswitchon

Do you think it’s possible to love multiple people? I do. I think it’s very possible. Love is always different. I’ve never felt the same love for each individual love. It was somehow different each and every woman. Love is transient. At least for me. Fleeting. I long for new love. New, new, new experiences. Something to suck me out of my mind. Something to bring me out of darkness for a moment at least. One moment is all I need. It doesn’t happen though.

My real estate agent told me today that he doesn’t think it’s going to be easy finding a place with …

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I Can’t do This.

March 23rd, 2015by eab4395

My life has slowly come to a stand still. I am stuck, my depression has taken over and I feel like no one loves me anymore. I have had so many people tell me that love is love, but what if there was no love in the first place? I’m tired of falling apart everyday, I am sick of suffering. I don’t want to be here anymore so what is the point. My family tries their best to understand me and relate but it doesn’t work. I have pushed them away and now they are angry. I am not sure why, but I bet it …

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1 Over 7 Billion

March 23rd, 2015by Ryder

There are over seven billion people living on Earth, and I am just one person. I did some math and realized that one person makes up less than 0.0000000143 (one hundred forty-three ten billionths) of a percent of the entire population. One percent of 7 billion is 70 million. That’s 70 million people with names, feelings, personalities, beliefs, moms, dads, and problems. If they all just died, then the world would’ve only just lost one percent of its entire population. I don’t know more than a handful of people. Really just looking at the numbers you can see that a life isn’t worth much. What’s …

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suicide?

March 23rd, 2015by daikirai

what would seriously be the chance of surviving a car hitting you?

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so many questions….

March 23rd, 2015by daikirai

it seems everything i do now is just for attention, however i can’t tell. Am i just lying to myself and others? Am i making things up and actually fooling myself? am i really doing everything i have done for her? do i really love her? could i ask the same about my past relationships? was it my fault they ended? did i do something wrong? am i the reason my best friend is so suicidal and depressed, who is now losing her life slowly because she overdosed? is it me? or others? why does life and nature have such a cruel yet realistic cycle …

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Depressed Brother

March 22nd, 2015by Skeleton100

What to do about a depressed 10 year old? Family’s in chaos, inconsistency. Divorce pending, mom in hospital, dad drifting away to girlfriend. This 10 year old has random meltdowns where he can’t stop crying and eventually storms off. No one can approach him. Sometimes he refuses to talk to anyone. He’s all right at school, I think, but home is miserable. It’s snowing right now and he doesn’t have any distractions.

I’m worried because I see some streaks in him similar to myself. He feels misused, shut-up, abandoned, unloved, etc.

I don’t know what to do. With my dad working nights we’re at home alone a lot, …

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