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Life is Hell

October 30th, 2014by FreedomIsAMyth

Life is Hell. I was raised Christian, and actually believe there is an entity out there who created all, yet I struggle to come to any other conclusion.

What’s the saying? “Life sucks, and then you die.” No, life sucks, and then your dog dies, you accrue a mountain of debt, struggle to improve your career, lose your job, spouse leaves you for someone more ‘interesting,’  get cancer, accrue more debt, break a hip, suffer the hate from people for being “old,” then you, at long last, die and remain at peace for all eternity.

To add insult to the injury of this hellish life, we are …

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My story…in a sea of other sad ones

October 29th, 2014by dreamsinwhichimdying

My name is Zach, I’m 15 years old, and I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tried to kill myself, because I lost count. I know that what I’ve been through is nothing compared to what others have been through, but I feel that doesn’t make it any less valid or painful. My parents got separated Christmas of 2010. Before you explode with the injustice of that date, don’t worry, I’m not Christian, so it wasn’t THAT bad. However, it was the first time something actually went wrong for me. A year passed, and I didn’t really get over it. I started thinking about …

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spiraling down

October 29th, 2014by jnswa

The ‘no harm in trying’ spell no longer works to motivate me. I think of my failures, how it became almost constant, and I just lose faith in any light of hope.
Now, there is ‘no point in trying’ at all. Everything isn’t worth it anymore.
Living in a country in which the majority of its people has very little, if any, empathy on ‘suicide’, I really don’t think killing myself is gonna change anything. People do not care.
I’m stuck. So badly. I just can’t go on.

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Hey :3

October 28th, 2014by Blake SinBad

Well well…seems like every time I take a trip down memory lane to this site, there’s oodles of new people and none of my old friends left…I wonder if they ever visit? Anyway, hey guys. Name’s Blake SinBad and I thought I’d let you know that I’m always open to talk or vent to if you need a hand or someone to listen to you. Totally free from judgement of any sort. I promise.

email: frejashinepaws@gmail.com
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Tumblr: just click on my link and use my ask box
Phone: HAHAHAAHAHHAHA no.

Sometimes I find that strangers are the best form of medicine…

I promise I’m not a creepy 40 year …

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my body, my choice

October 28th, 2014by hangingonbyathread

i wish everyone could see it that way…my body, my choice. if you were trapped in a hellish world wouldnt you want out?? why do i have to suffer so you dont have to? i hate myself, i hate everything about me. i am sick. i have legitimate diagnosis. why must i have to deal with them for the rest of my life?

yes there are ups and downs, but my downs are so bad and last so long the ups arent worth the pain of the downs. its my body, my choice. i should choose if i want to live or die. my life will …

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Control

October 28th, 2014by hangingonbyathread

i always have this plan in the back of my head. a way out when things get too much. i have attempted in the past (tomorrow is my one year out of the psych ward! which is a huge accomplishment because i cannot tell you when the last time i made it a full year without some sort of admission). my plan is simple. find a favorite spot on a beautiful sunny cool day. find a bench or a place on the grass. drink the water bottle that i would have previously opened capsules of meds and dissolved in the water. and fade away in …

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Happiness

October 28th, 2014by fallenstars101

I know you aren’t to bring religion onto this site, but it’s important in order to understand why this is hurting me.

I grew up in a strong Christian family. We always go to church and pray and follow the Bible. But that’s the problem. My family had their minds set on what was wrong and right, and they weren’t going to change what they thought. According to the Bible, two people of the same gender are not to be together. But that’s what depressed me.

I met this girl and to me, she was everything that I’ve ever wanted. But again, I was from a “Christian” …

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i need rest

October 27th, 2014by toxicluminoth

I am so tired. My method so easy. It’s just so unfair how easy, painless, and certain it will be.

I keep coming to the same two doorways. Both lead me here.

Behind one is that I am right and I am in fact good for nothing but working day in and day out. That I’m worth no more than what could be traded for money and in the long run, a comfortable place to enjoy loneliness in a body with genes that nobody would prefer to pass onto their least favorite kind of mushrooms.

Behind the second is that I am wrong and in fact crazy. That …

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November isn’t likely

October 27th, 2014by brokenpottery

I think the saddest part isn’t that a year ago at this time I thought I had it all figured out. The saddest part isn’t that the girl I love more than anything stopped waiting for me to find a way to get back to the same town so we could be together. I don’t even think the saddest part is that in the year I had to get things on the right track that few if any things worked in my favor. No, the saddest part is that I will be having a birthday in a few weeks, and that I will be 27 …

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Collapse.

October 27th, 2014by Deathy058

I wanted to thank people at this site who have been so kind to me.

I have been diagnosed, at least in the past, with recurrent major depression.  What makes it worse are the moments when I’m flying high, and I feel like I can accomplish all this stuff.  Then I get anxious, and the anxiety transforms into a deep depression.

I have made it out of bed once today.  No one can save me, and no one can even tell me what is wrong.  I’m an adult, but I cannot seem to function like one.  Actually, I can’t even function much like a human being anymore. …

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What’s happening

October 26th, 2014by RealTalk30

I don’t want to kill myself..I want to live my life and be happy. I’m trying so hard to hold it together but I’m fucking it all up. I have so much to live for it shouldn’t be this fucking hard to stand confident.
I finally met this beautiful girl that likes me and wants to spend time and she’s already catching on to my depression. I’ve shown enough good parts of myself to make her see I’m a great guy but I literally can’t control the way I feel when I’m all alone. I’m fucking this all up. No, No this can’t be me..it …

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I need help

October 26th, 2014by TheVoidInside

I see all of these beautiful poems that make me cry, inspiring posts, pieces of art written on a webpage, and I can’t come up with anything useful to say because I know I am dull and unimportant. Did you know belts can be a substitute for a noose? Found out in 5th grade, too bad the shelf broke. Left a red mark on my neck the whole week. I cut myself on some wood yesterday, I found out I like pain. Maybe I will start cutting now. I’m just so tired of life. Just so tired, and want to sleep. Fall into an eternal …

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Purgatory In Paradise

October 25th, 2014by charlieregal

Damn. It’s Hot. I hate this island. Nothing ever makes sense here. Everyone is smoking and drinking and killing cursing and…is happy. Why do buses filled with white people come here? Who in their right mind would want to come here? Avoid the groid! It’s so hot! Is this hell? Because everyone torments me with their jubilee while I am just devastated. I thought that If I preserved my memories they preserve me but they are just a mental horror movie. My childhood wasted. The real me Lost somewhere in between the beatings and loneliness and alienation. Why here!? Haha. Maybe I should run to …

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anger…

October 25th, 2014by kateralia

I had a surprising bout of anger, nearing a temper-tantrum, this morning. And what was it over? My missing hairbrush. Yeah thats low.

Its about the only thing I keep in the bathroom, it even has my name sharpied on it. I know it was there yesterday,when I didnt need it,  but it isnt there today when needed it.

Thats my life. Things are there when I don’t need them & gone when they’re needed. Mostly that’s because other people use my stuff, even though it has my name written all over it, & they dont care & they dont replace. Its not like I can replace …

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Caught

October 24th, 2014by marz

Just like I presumed life seriously did mess me right up again. Life just seems to be a gamble nowadays. Once again I got caught with my boyfriend….really is it that bad to have a boyfriend I mean I am 18 just leave me be. Ok I know it goes against my religious beliefs and all but I just don’t know what to do any more. On one side my parents are telling me to get married now, but we have nothing to live off and are still students ourselves…and on the other side I have his side who don’t mind me getting married to …

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From the other side of the desk…

October 23rd, 2014by Leaf

Help me.

I need to get this off my chest.

I think of suicide.

I’m not old but not young and I work as a suicide/crisis counselor. I deal each and every day with people who are hurting, alone and pain-ridden. People who need. And all of them want help. Want peace. Want someone to tell them they will be okay. That the day gets brighter. Just like me. I see as many as 18 separate people a day. I see snapshots of people’s worlds and realities. Of short comings, of emotional issues, of pain they’ve caused themselves or others have caused them. When you speak to someone …

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and days like this…

October 23rd, 2014by kateralia

And its days like this where I feel completely alone & unwanted. Theyre all upstairs laughing & cheering each other over a game on their ipads.

I just went up to go to the toilet & he looked up & his face told me to fuck off. Quite literally.

I had so many dreams & aspirations… I just wish my body hadnt betrayed me.

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Setting in…

October 22nd, 2014by Deathy058

I am not certain what to type here.

A few years ago these tendencies, these thoughts, would feel foreign to me.  To put it mildly, life was pretty good.  I had a significant other who wanted to marry me, I was a straight A college student, and I had a broad pick of graduate programs to further my degree.

Now?

Enter the cliche story; she left me for a friend, college ended into a dead end midnight job, and graduate school did not work out.  After diving in the deep end into jobs just to stay afloat for the past year, I am now left jobless(at 26), and I had …

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When considering suicide, make sure you don’t get sent to a psychiatric hospital.

October 22nd, 2014by NotAttentionSeeking

I attempted to commit suicide a few days ago. Unfortunately I got caught and was sent to hospital. I have to say staying in public psychiatric hospital has got to be the most degrading experience of my life. Here is my story of stay in a psychiatric ward:

On the 20th October 2014, I had the unfortunate experience of dealing with the nurses on morning duty at the Adult Acute Ward. Just before the morning meeting, I had noticed that I got my menstrual cycle because my pants had blood stains on the crotch area. I asked one of the nurses if I could take a …

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