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It never fully seems to go away…

April 19th, 2015by misssK88

I’ve had two serious suicide attempts:

The first time I tried to kill myself (around age 14) was after my best friend had done the same a week prior and I couldn’t stand living without him. I chose to hang myself, but the beam I used to tie the rope on ended up snapping. I fell, hit my head and was knocked unconscious. My mother heard me fall and found me up in the attic and then called the EMS. I had a huge lump on my head, which ended up being a mild concussion and my throat was all sore and messed up afterwards. I …

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Ranting Time

April 19th, 2015by prosser6

So I’ve been alone for a long time, practically all my life. And this recent suicidal phase I’ve gone thru hasn’t helped that at all. Scarred myself up good I did. Even slicing my arm open on a hacksaw by accident one day. I’ve grown a loving for the color black and everything about. In color theory, it’s either the presence of every color or the absence. I like to think every color is present.

 

But anyway, I’ve made plans and I’ve screwed it into my head that I’m probably going to end up dying alone in my old age. And I think I’m prepared for …

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That makes it

April 18th, 2015by sgfire1234

In Man of Steel with Henry Cavill, Kevin Costner plays Superman’s father, and he goes back into a tornado to save the family dog trapped in the car after Clark and Mom get away. Costner knows he’s going to die and deliberately tells Clark not to save him. So Costner was depressed? Having chemicals mixed up in his brain? Oh, for some reason, his feelings at that moment were valid but when normal people who never raised Superman and aren’t trying to save their dog deliberately end their life it’s because their feelings are not valid? It’s like we are told to read the DSM …

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Dialogue

April 17th, 2015by Good Adjective

From a certain light I can imagine the numbness – the nothingness – as being peaceful. Relaxing almost. But in reality that’s not the case, you all know that’s not the case. Because when you’re in that state of mind, you are trapped between 4 walls that are closing in around you. At least that’s how it feels. Time passes and soon enough you’ll have to leave the (dis)comfort of your own bed, and go to work, school or university and pretend to be a civilised human being. Pretend that you aren’t entertaining those darker thoughts during every pause or break in your day. Pretend …

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After reconciling my husband left me again

April 16th, 2015by jenn1983

He reconciled with me went for counselling with me while his restraining order was still on. He broke that and also moved in with me. He asked me to lie in the court so he could not have a record. I did that and the day judgment came out: all charges withdrawn, he left me.

So distraught over this. What am i suppose to do?

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Why does it so hard to understand?

April 16th, 2015by applefox

Firstly. I need love. I have loads of them, but I don’t feel that people wants it from me… I think I don’t fit their standards. And I’m afraid to approach them. Like you know.. being approached by someone you don’t want to is irritating, and I don’t want them to feel that way. I can’t expressed it. And it’s so hurting me. Seriously though. Guys, do you wait for girls to react?

I need your opinion.. I can’t stand this idleness no more. Please please reply…

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Tired of life

April 15th, 2015by WhiteSpirit

I’m tired of life. Tired of obligations, tired of this world with its rules, its human society. I made a lot of mistakes in my life. And wasted a lot of chances to become successful or to fulfill my dreams. I regret a lot. Yea, if only I could revert time back, while keeping my current memory, lol.

Sure, reverting time would be great. But I don’t really care about all this now. The only things that keep me going these days are my hobbies. And my mom. She did really a lot for me. But I’m tired, I really am.

Almost every night I go to …

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Suicide plan

April 15th, 2015by spiltmilk1

Hey there, Basically I’m 18 dropped out of school. Ive been facing mental health problems since i was 15 and tried to take my own life. I was hospitalised this year for 9 weeks and then a day patient for 6 weeks after. Im no better and I’ve the doctors have decided to stop treating me as they don’t know whats wrong. anyhow due to this fact that i can’t be helped and my lack of future and many many other things I’ve decided that tonight I’m going to take my own life.

does anybody have any tips on like is there anyway i can make …

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moving on…

April 14th, 2015by munckin

Wondering starting to date again… I like one girl more then the others she is cute and sweet. She is originally from the country that I moved too 6 years ago. But also lived in the east and southern of Europe.

She is 8 years older then me. I don’t mind. I actually quite like it as I would like children and I think she would want them too. I wonder though if it is a wise step.. in the longer run for my happiness if that path were to happen….

we click really well so I do not really for see problems in that …

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The Earth

April 13th, 2015by anon emuss

The Earth is a beautiful place made to be walked by beautiful creatures. All around me I see ugliness, myself included. Laws should be introduced banning the ugly from showing their faces in public places. Separate areas should be made for ugly people and beautiful people, seperate schools, separate shops, separate bars. Ugly people should be banned from having children so that in future generations the ugly genes may be eliminated.

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April 13th, 2015by anon emuss

Hello fellow humanoids,
I am new here, this is my first post, feedback is appreciated.
Recently while delving into the depths of internet suicide material, I came accross a few mentions of how suicide is a very selfish way to die. This rather annoyed me as, on the contrary, I find it a very unselfish, noble way to die. Surely one has a right to be selfish with ones own life? Surely it is those who preach this that are being selfish? They ask us to remain trapped in these useless lives, suffering everyday, just so they dont have to deal with our deaths.
I would appreciate …

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I hope someone can please reply to me, I feel so lonely

April 13th, 2015by Marychan

I am a girl in high school. I don’t have a lot of friends and recently I quarreled with my so-called best friend. I used to have lunch and go back home with her every day. Now that we have had a fight, we no longer talk. I need to ask someone else to go back home and have lunch with me every single day. I feel like I am bringing troubles to people. I feel like they are just too nice so they wouldn’t refuse me even though they really think that I am annoying. I don’t dare talking to my so-called friends about …

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Decisions, Decisions.

April 13th, 2015by avidore421857

I will start out with saying that I am only alive today out of spite. I have had family and friends who have tried to destroy me, and failed. I have fought to stay alive, and I have had nothing handed to me. I learned how to program, how to make more money in a month than many people see in a year, graduated high school, and survived multiple hospitalizations for various things, none of them being psychiatric. I have only lived this long because I had decided that everyone who had tried to hurt me had been my enemies, and that the greatest suffering …

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Is suicide really selfish?

April 12th, 2015by lostinblue

You’ve probably heard this many times… I just thought to share this story with everyone anyway.

So… I was listening to a discussion between some friends and the topic was about suicide.

Most of the argument was: ‘Suicide is selfish. It’s inconsiderate, it hurts the ones that are close to them, they don’t really think about how the people they’re leaving behind feel. They only consider themselves.’ Another point that was made by a person who believed that suicide is cowardly and is not the way out. Then the debate brought in religion.

I beg to differ.

Suicidal people DO think of the consequences. It could be one of …

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Gee I wonder

April 11th, 2015by One Million Masks

I have a sweet tooth.
Days can pass and I won’t be hungry, won’t eat, but the second someone offers me something sweet- or if I find it myself- the fast is broken; it can be an apple, a piece of candy, grapes, ice cream. Anything.

But why? Who cares?

The reason is old and sad (or pathetic, if that’s how you want to see it).

We’re not rich. We usually don’t have a lot of food.
When I was younger, we still didn’t have much to eat, but we rarely got anything sugary (or fruits, because parents just went and bought fast food for the starving masses).
One day, when …

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fucking depression man ????

April 11th, 2015by angel little

Depression has literally ruined my life. My mom doesn’t accept me because of my behavior so I got moved away for my only biological family (my sister) and moved to my dads, which his girlfriend doesn’t accept me because of my behavior and the fact that my dad goes out of his way to help benefit me so that I don’t jump off his balcony. I was a straight A B C student till around 7th grade I lost all motivation but somehow made it to 9th grade and completely failed because I stayed in the bathroom due to the fact that I hated going …

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Rant 101

April 11th, 2015by zeddy

Gosh, this feels weird. My first time openly admitting to my depression albeit it being anonymous… it’s a start right? I am going to rant about a lot of things. It’s your chance to runaway and I’ve  never done this before so please pardon me if it’s wrong in any way.

Carying on, what has led you to this may you ask? Well, good fellow, I had a break down today. Being hit with the gobsmacking truth of my morality and my complete utter hatred for life was a fine combination for a mental breakdown. I absolutely positively despise the people around me. Family for one …

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Unsure of feelings

April 9th, 2015by Umbonn

This isn’t exactly a story about an attempted suicide or a failed suicide attempt. I have not experiences none of them but I’m in current fear that I might e sharing my own story of a failed attempt soon – or not.

I have never been diagnosed with depression but I started to self harm 2 years ago. I stopped last year because I told my family (a stupid mistake if I have to be honest) but sine November, I began to feel a bit bad and sad and yeah. By January, I had written that I was suicidal and that I hated life.

I mean, I …

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A horrible person

April 9th, 2015by yellow36012

Hi.  I am new to posting on here but have been reading this website for a while now. I am planning on taking my life and wanted to share the reason why.

I truly am an awful, despicable person who does not deserve to live. I lie through my teeth to get what I want. I stole over 5 thousand pounds from the company which I worked for who always treated me with the greatest respect and when they found out they should have called the police and have me arrested for stealing and fraud but instead they only dismissed me.

I ruined the greatest relationship in …

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The End.

April 9th, 2015by SnowyBeawr

You know, it’s kind of sick how I predicted my own death.
I knew this year would be the end of me.
Acceptance letters already went out and rejection letters are just starting to come out.

I haven’t received one acceptance letter.

I know the program I applied to ran out of space.
I already know what the generic email will say.
I know it’s all over.

I’ve already come to terms with death. And yes, I know how selfish this all is. I know some depend on me. I know I have responsibilities.

But my suicide is long overdue. I held on to hope, and I have failed myself either way. I …

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