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Woah o.o

October 1st, 2014by life_isnt_for_me

Wow I haven’t been on here for awhile probably because it wasn’t helping much but it felt good to let my thoughts out haha…..anyswirls I’m still suicidal….thinking of committing suicide today actually. Not sure if I am going to though, I can see myself doing it but I’m not really sure if I can you know? I mean it’s not like everyone wants to die , it’s just I get to the point of where it feels like I do. Hmm I don’t make sense. But anyswirls it’s been …a tough week I guess. The guy I like ( oh god no not a …

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Im lost.

September 30th, 2014by Thetypicalsuicidalteenager

So I’m new on here, but Weirdly enough I find it easier to vent to people I dont know rather than people I do know. I guess cause usually the people I do know end up judging me and leaving. Surprise, surprise.

So my family is really messed up, and I’ve been self harming for almost 2 years now. I’ve attempted suicide 9 times and, well, obviously, got nowhere with that. I’m also anorexic.

I just feel like I’m in a fish tank. I can’t move, can’t breathe, and no one can hear or understand me. I’m trapped in my own emotions and hurt. And day by …

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Girl, I Feel It In My Heart. You’re the One For Me. <3

September 28th, 2014by TwistedSpace

So there’s this woman I *REALLY* like. We have a ton of things in common, too. It only sucks that I met her a month and a half ago. I feel like I’ve been there through her entire life — I wish I had been there though her life. It would make how I feel about her a bit more rational.

Ugh, I feel weird about liking her. I as I said, it’s only been a month since I met her. I saw this picture of her, and I swear to the gods above it was love at first sight for me. I wanted to know …

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suicide is my unattainable fantasy.

September 28th, 2014by emwhy

I feel tired. And emotionless. If I can’t feel joy, fine, I’ll choose pain as a close second. Most times I have to smoke or drink in order to feel that pain. It’s almost cathartic.

I go about my days wondering why the fuck I’m still here. The way I think, the way I do things just never seem to match up with how the world works. My personality isn’t exactly the most pleasant which holds me back in almost everything, including job opportunities and relationships. It scares me. I’m not doing anything, not contributing anything… not enjoying any part of this fucked up sedentary lifestyle. Let’s …

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Painless suicide

September 27th, 2014by B

I know there are endless threads on this topic but I can’t seem to find a consistent answer. Does anyone know of a painless way to commit suicide (either from research or from a painless past overdose)? I do not know if I will get a response and if I do receive one I am not looking for some form of moral support. I understand that there is much to take out of life and that, as the 15 year old I am, I have not yet experienced many of the joys life has to offer, but I have suffered for too long. Medications and …

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Life is complicated, and I hate it.

September 26th, 2014by EvilKitten

Feels like eons since I’ve been on this site, but in “reality” it has only been a few weeks. I moved 4 hours away from my previous home, got a job at walmart making a pittance to run around like a headless chicken. Stressing to the max about money. And still wanting to kill myself.

I found a super awesome guy who’s letting me rent his room and is understanding about me not having the rent money until I get paid in 2-4 weeks. And he has a really cool 15 year old daughter who stays with him part time. I love teenagers. They’re so much …

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why can’t you let me sleep!!

September 26th, 2014by kateralia

Yet another day I am woken early. Why this time?  I don’t have a friggin clue!  No kids to watch, no food to watch, no doors to be left unlocked & I dont need to go anywhere. Not that I can cos the only key I have is the garage door remote & they stopped working & cannot be moved manually.

So here I am, finally having a good sleep, when my friend wakes me up, to inform me that they are leaving. I dont remember agreeing to go anywhere today,  & the kids are dressed & not playing xbox & she has a key to …

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Raw emotion

September 26th, 2014by StayingAnonymous

It’s been such a long time. Just by being back here I feel all the hidden pain come rushing to the surface. It’s fimilar, almost comforting.

I’m ashamed to be here. Understanding my depression, and facing it head on, was my greatest downfall in life. Yet somehow, I tamed the beast. I lived two years of happiness. Oh god, it was purely amazing. Looking back, it was remarkable, something I’d never thought possible. I cannot say that I’m angry it’s over, there’s no self pity here. I am grateful for the time I was given. I always knew in the back of my mind, that my …

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Nothing’s wrong… go back to sleep.

September 25th, 2014by depressednihilist95

I really worry that nothing could be wrong with me. Unlike most people, I don’t experience typical signs of depression. I don’t feel inferior to others or feel sad all day. I just feel like there is no point to life, and therefore, I want to end it because I am going to die sooner or later, and nothing I accomplish has any inherent value. I have a generally negative outlook on life, but I also believe I am more aware of global issues than my family. My stepfather is a hotheaded, homophobic racist. My mother is quite the average see-what-I-want-to-see Christian. She’s wearing rose-tinted …

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inconsiderate. ..

September 24th, 2014by kateralia

Why are ppl so inconsiderate? ! A prime example of shit that happens to me… I WAS asleep. I was actually having the best sleep I’ve had in 2 weeks. She sends her kids downstairs to be away from her & they play on the xbox. Noe the xbox is right next to my “room”, with just a curtain dividing.

Do of course, kids being kids, they start yelling & making sound effects & the boy kept calling to me, reminding me that I had to show him something.  She knows that I cannot shut kids voices out, like she, their mother, can.

So of course I …

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im too much of a coward to actually kill myself

September 22nd, 2014by Bobbybeetee

Ive been wanting to kill myself for quite some time now and every time I want to and I’m about too i always pussy out. I feel nothing but depression in my life, My father doesn’t care about me, I get bullied for being overweight, and I really wanna end it. I just wish their was SOME way to get the courage to just cut my wrist and end up.

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Life is Hell…

September 22nd, 2014by deathisbliss

Most people who say such a thing are being allegorical.

I believe that Hell is an honest truth of life in this reality.

Life IS a punishment….we are faced with death, dislike, hate, and every other real world judgment of our core being.

They hate or judge us for what we are…..our bodies, our personality, our intelligence, our stupidity…

Every weakness comes with a person to make us feel useless, pointless, hated, and meaningless.

None of us matter to any of these beings, because they are not real….they are like the whip in the hands of the torturer.

I wish I understood WHY we deserve to be punished….tortured….but that is beyond …

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Like a Flower in the Sun

September 22nd, 2014by RinisSkywalking

We are dying everyday;

 

Some of us wake up just to do the same routine, some of us try to change it up a bit, and some of us don’t wake up. I get frustrated when I go to do something and then I find it to be futile just because I think about it to hard and realize, what does it matter? I’m going to die anyway; be that in the next five years or the next five minutes. People always go on to say, “Oh life isnt fair,” but it is, what isn’t fair is that we think life owes us something. “Life is …

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Suicide > Website

September 22nd, 2014by DayDreamer6

This website isn’t helping. I’m at my lowest, I need help, yet no one helps. Thanks.

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TommyGun

September 21st, 2014by DayDreamer6

Why do you play with my emotions?

You actually asked me how I felt.

You already have someone so why do you want me?

I felt something new with you today that actually gave me hope.

You’re such an asshole.

Why do I miss you so much when we’re apart?

Do you miss me?

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If a bar tender is at fault for a intoxicated driver crashing into other cars .. Then why aren’t bullies responsible for the death of another innocent child.

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Black Hole

September 21st, 2014by lifehateshappy

I cant swim. Everything consumes me. I take every comment or action against me as a declaration of dislike. I dead end myself trying to get over anything.  The grief and helplessness is a salve to my conscious.  I see right through people. Their lives so empty.  Doing such superficial things. I dont know how to involve myself in anything superficial.  I cant be meaningless.  I therefore don’t do anything and hate myself for it. My family loves me. But where I want to go they will never support.  They are the only people in my life. The girl I love. I keep doubting myself …

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whats my purpose…

September 19th, 2014by mrlopez1415

This feeling of, ‘wanting to just die’ has last for about 4 years now.  I’ve tried hanging myself multiple times, but I always fail…  I use to walk down the road hoping a car would hit me.  I’ve had close near death experiences from drugs and alcohol, but wonder why I hadn’t died?  That raises the question to what is my purpose on this planet.  Nowadays, I have no urge to kill myself, but just hopes that something would just end me instantly. So now I try to hope everyday, that a miracle (that I think in the back of my mind won’t happen) would …

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Trying this out. Hoping someone is out there?

Trying this out. Hoping someone is out there?

September 17th, 2014by Autumn Jane Sky

Hi. I found this site last February by accident and have been popping in once and a while to check out posts. Today I decided to register. Why so? I’m not exactly sure. All I know is that I’ve tried two ways now to die, both have failed on numerous attempts. I’m seeing a psychologist and I’m on medication to control my anxiety problems and depression. I’m 4’2″ living with a type of dwarfism known as achondroplasia. I absolutely hate my body and luv carving it with pretty red sketches. There are voices inside my head and they aren’t all that pleasant. So Yeh, I’m …