Rants

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How do you guys feel about your families?

July 23rd, 2016by hopeisafourletterword

For some people, their family is the reason why they don’t commit suicide. For others, it’s the reason why they want to so desperately.

Personally I hate the idea of belonging to a family. I’ve hated it for a long time. Everything was fine when I was a kid but now my mom resents me for not wanting to live with her anymore. She thinks she understands me but she really doesn’t. She doesn’t want to take responsibility for her actions and claims that bringing me into this world was out of her control. She’s a nice person but frankly she deserves what she says she …

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Pissed as hell

July 23rd, 2016by disgusting

Tired of going over this. I’ve been paying $640 a month on an $1125 rent which split 3 ways (as there are 3 adults living here) would be $375 per person and all utilities are included in rent. Why the fuck should I be paying more than half when I only work part time and struggle and honestly can’t pay my taxes or student loans because of one person’s selfish fucking greed in not wanting to pay their part of only $375 per month???! It adds up to $265 per month I’ve overpaid and $2385 overpayment since I’ve been staying here. I STARVE and go without …

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Placebo, memories, and a empty house.

July 21st, 2016by stillwishingforparis

I decided to look up bands I’m currently listening to tour dates. Placebo is on a 20 year anniversary tour, not promoting a new album but a world tour celebrating its fans so they have hinted to even playing songs that have been retired from their set list for 10 years like Nacncy Boy and Pure Morning. Due to my mothers taste in music and pushing her interest onto me which is the few positives I can look back to and proudly appreciate, I’ve been a fan since the days of owning ‘Without You I’m Nothinh’ on cassette.

After touring Europe they will make their way …

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Long time no post here…

July 20th, 2016by pikwangchu

Tell me…

Am I useful to this world?

I mean, from what I see, i’m useless.

So I’m here to rant about myself.

I’m unaccepted, i was never able to be super comfortable in a group of friends.

I’m troublesome, i’ve always caused my parents a lot of trouble. It’s to the point where i blame myself about my father’s heart attack about one and a half year from now.

I’m an accident, my parents never planned me out. i almost killed my mother when i was born. i’ve been called ‘adopted’ a million of times throughout my short time of living.

I’m mentally suicidal, if that made any sense at all, …

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Abused, broken , and confused

July 19th, 2016by unknownnnbbbb

i-act-like-i-dont-care-but-deep-inside-it-hurts-sad-quoteI’ve been sad for years! It started the summer before my ninth grade year. That summer I realized my parents true colors. I was a daddy’s girl before that summer and that’s what really broke me inside because I put all my trust into my dad. Anyways that day my dad had said some hurtful stuff and I got mad and he tried to make it up by giving me money and I said “money can’t buy love” he gave a crazy look and left the room he came back with a belt and beat the shit …

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I wouldn’t be missed :/

July 18th, 2016by potato

WARNING LONG RANT POST INCOMING!!
My parents are currently divorcing, my dad has pretty much abandoned me in favour of his ‘replacement family’ (he cheated basically). I’m not a minor so anybody in their right mind would pack their bags and move out. Though for me there’s several problems that are keeping me from doing so…

I have no money cause my dad took it to pay some bills (he has also made us bankrupt). I have a summer job which should help keep us afloat until I go back to university; but both my uni and workplace are an hour and a half train journey away and …

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well, shit

July 18th, 2016by mranony

Fucking up again. Fucking up again. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

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Denied everything in life

July 16th, 2016by Denied00

So all my life I’ve been abused and isolated. I’ve always been mocked, belittled, verbally and even physically abused my whole life. Every time I leave the house someone has to say something to me, threaten me etc etc. I get it everywhere I go. I come to expect it because I can’t even walk to the nearest shop without being harassed. It’s always been this way. On top of that I’m a loner, never dated, never had a job, mostly housebound because of this constant never ending abuse from people I’ve never met in my life. Apparently I’ m just supposed to keep on …

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My bf and the many female friends he has..

July 16th, 2016by LostOne.95

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? Honestly..seeing this broke me..I love him a lot but he has so many female friends..I don’t know what to do..I use to find myself crying..feeling like I’m just not good enough…just ugly af..he says he loves me but take a look at the pic it’s not of me and him..it’s some other girl he says that’s his friend..when I first seen this I cried and did something I regret..I cut myself I felt weird after I haven’t done it in so long but seeing how close they both are in this pic just broke …
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This is depressing.

July 16th, 2016by Lawli

My parents make me depressed, that’s why I stay in my room because every time I have a conversation with them, hang out with them, or when they talk to me I want to kill myself afterwards. They don’t do anything mean to me or anything, we don’t even argue much, I can’t ague with them, maybe it because i’m scared of them, or I know I just owe them to much but I can’t argue with them. I guess I feel kinda like I have been locked in a cage around them, I don’t feel comfortable at all and I can’t be myself. I …

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Day 30

July 16th, 2016by jpeg11

You’re right..

Loving you is killing me. I want to stop, but you know that once you start, it’s gonna be hard to quit.

This applies to everything – good or bad.. Like drugs, smoking, alcohol and love.

God, I wish I had the guts to tell you this but you understand that everything that has to do with me,, is complicated.

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I think I’m going under…

July 15th, 2016by xashlerzx

I need help… I need to feel something again other than pain and sadness and heavy hearted. I’m falling apart and no one notices anymore because apparently I’ve been become too good at hiding. Ironic really that the only thing I’m good at anymore is hiding how I really feel. 22 years of doing it though, I better be fucking good at SOMETHING.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me… Why can’t I ever enter into a relationship where I’m not used, betrayed, or abused? Why can’t I feel happiness again, but REALLY feel it? I smile at my loved ones, I

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Hypocrisy

July 15th, 2016by mysteriousvisitor

I wonder how often my behavior contradicts what I say or believe and I don’t even catch myself doing it.

I constantly see people complaining about prejudice, while showing extreme prejudice against other groups.

I see people complaining about others causing them suffering by being selfish, while they themselves are not only acting selfish but openly encouraging other people to be selfish as well.

I see people complaining about government interference in their lives while fully and enthusiastically supporting government interference in other people’s lives.

While we humans cannot control everything that happens to us, I wonder how often we contribute to our own problems without realizing or acknowledging …

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eXHAUSTEd

July 14th, 2016by CARLOSPEJUAN

I feel tired. And it’s no loner a lethargic exhaustion. It is no longer a physical over exhertion due to the lack of calories. I just am tired of everything. I am tired of being the wierdo in my family, friends, at work, and everywhere I go. I am tired of trying to make everyone laugh and happy, and then being called annoying and a fag. I am tired of doing things for people that have and will never be retured. I am tired of people hating me, for being slower than them. I am tired of not being able to unlock my full potential …

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Just why

July 14th, 2016by noimnotokay

Why? Why is this happening? Why am  I here? If I want here none of this would have happened. Im a mistake. They will forget about me. Its not gonna hurt anyone if I leave. Maybe I should.

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I cant I cant I cant

July 14th, 2016by noimnotokay

I really cant do this anymore. Im done with all of the fake people the fake smiles. Im done with all of the crap that people do. I seriously am done with everything. I want to float away

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I can’t keep doing this

July 14th, 2016by Snowy

I was raised by my nina (godmother) since i was five months old. You could say we have a strong bond, she just turned 79 years old this year. And shes starting to have a lot of health issues. She had to be put in a nursing home and shes not eating properly. She can’t keep anything down and it seems like the nurses can only give her something for her stomach if she asks for it. She forgets and doesn’t ask, and she can’t eat and is losing weight. She has suffered from strokes, and currently has parkinson’s disease, and dementia. I love her so …

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fRIENDS?

fRIENDS?

July 13th, 2016by CARLOSPEJUAN

Everyone around me, who calls themselves my friend never feels like they are being true. I always doubt the verity of such a word and thus i save them for those who truly earn it. I always fear the people who smile at you face and stab you in the back. I do not believe that someone who is that easily persuaded against my will regardless of how petty this may be, someone who will insult me and side easily with someone who I JUST literally JUST like five seconds ago introduced them to. Or the most painful recent experience. Some fucktard whose name was …

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Ever had a type 2 false awakening?

July 12th, 2016by Elcyc

A false awakening is a dream where you dream that you wake up and believe that you are truly awake. Type 2 false awakening is a special false awakening: according to wikipedia, German psychopathologist Karl Jaspers wrote as follows:

Patients feel uncanny and that there is something suspicious afoot. Everything gets a new meaning. The environment is somehow different—not to a gross degree—perception is unaltered in itself but there is some change which envelops everything with a subtle, pervasive and strangely uncertain light.[…] Something seems in the air which the patient cannot account for, a distrustful, uncomfortable, uncanny tension invades him.

 

Anyone else has had experiences with these type 2 false awakenings? …

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Please let it be Monday

July 10th, 2016by kamidaka

I saw the white prince today, as beautiful as ever, as graceful as ever. He was alone this time, and early as well, because it’s not Monday yet.

He had such expression, and just by seeing his expression I now feel so sad. I need to keep working but I can’t stop crying. Why does he have to suffer? He’s beautiful in every sense, and is also the kindest soul I encountered in my life. This is not fair.

Please let him be happy. He needs to realize who his soulmate is so he can have the strength he needs now.

I wish both of them the best …

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