Rants

2

Sorry.

May 3rd, 2016by AKidWithAName

I’m really sorry to anyone who wastes their time reading this, so I’ll try to make it short.

I am not a necessity, nor a nicety, so why do I continue to roam this bloody earth in hopes of finally being wanted. I’m not wanted now, I wasn’t wanted in the past, and I can’t help but think that I won’t be wanted in the future. I’ m a liar, an accident, an attention whore, a know-it-all, and just an all-around piece of shit. Why am I even still alive?

If it’s not a problem for anyone reading this, would you …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
1

Senior Project Stress

May 3rd, 2016by GerbzBaby

image

Senior Projects are ruining me. I could be outside but no I’m stuck inside finishing it because I lost my schedule and forgot the day I was supposed to go. I really hope my teacher gives me more time to do it because the deadline is to close and I’m so far from finishing.

But aside from my rambling I managed to finish the pin I made for U.S History. Inked, colored, ready to go. Sorry if I irritate you with uploading this in full color. I kinda felt proud of this one ;-;

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
1

Not Really Sure What To Do…

May 3rd, 2016by lostguy

Not really sure what to do anymore. Just let go of my antidepressants about 3 weeks ago after a 13 month period. Didn’t make me feel much better and the side effects were bad so I quit. Suffering now from discontinuation syndrome which is terrible. Brain zaps, sweats, aches you name it. I can feel myself slipping back into the same dark pit I was in before I started taking them. Feeling hollow/empty inside again, pretty much feeling like a waste of space and unmotivated to do much. Got that view of life again. The one where everyone seems to have succeeded and I failed. …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
0

not doing so great,

May 3rd, 2016by quietcheep

i’ve been having a very difficult time lately. i have a lot of health issues both mental and physical and they’re finally catching up to me. it’s been very difficult holding on, but even more so now than before because my family is now explicitly honest about how they feel about my condition.

my health issues have gotten to the point where i can’t work. i can’t function on my own anymore. i am a burden. i’ve been in the gray area of suicide since the age of nine and i’ve only been open about it in the last two years. it’s gotten worse. everything has gotten worse …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
2

Is it my fate?

May 3rd, 2016by Gypsyguy93

Hello, this is my first time writing on here, I became aware of this site last year when I had a severe depression and anxiety relapse and after I had tried to end my life more than once, had I not been discovered when I had been I would not be here right now. Just knowing that there are people out there who aren’t judgemental, oblivious or unable to understand has just such a great comfort to me since then.

I can remember a life without anxiety or depression, Before 2012.

In 2012 my ex fiancée ( I am a gay male) ended his life after we broke …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
2

This is a mess

May 3rd, 2016by thelifeofabean

Hi

I don’t really understand what all this is and what i’m doing here but this is all i have i guess

I’ll start this by saying my life is a quiet mess

I’m a 21 year old trans person (im agender, im not male or female) and I live with my shitty mom

now i’m not saying she’s shitty just because I don’t like her, she really is a cruel person. She’s left me in this weird limbo where i can’t tell what is and isn’t abuse anymore and she’s neglected me, mostly emotionally, that i don’t know what to do. She only knows I can like anyone …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.

Almost Hopeless

May 2nd, 2016by Tristeza

This filthy world has nothing but blood stains on its past — we’ve brutally murdered and slaved different ethnic groups, fought against other countries for money and power, created and recreated a cycle of pain and suffering, not to mention that now this new generation seems less caring to the suffering of other sentient beings and people. I’ve felt this myself since I had to live with a pedo monster as a stepfather. A sex predator.
I often question myself WHY does it have to be this way? I’m far from being perfect, but this isn’t right at any level. The worst part of it all …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.

Desabafo I

May 2nd, 2016by Tristeza

Esse mundo é mesmo louco. Depois que eu me afiliei ao peta (as pessoas estão tão enganadas sobre o PETA, é realmente triste!), percebi como isso incomoda muita gente. Que babaquice, honestamente. Você nunca se preocupou com minha alimentação até agora, então qual o problema de eu não comer ovos, carne e leite? Ainda mais comendo bem como eu como, de forma saudável. Eu cansei de ser uma boa menina o tempo todo, e apesar dessa ser minha natureza, essa gente merece um foda-se e pronto.
O que vem me tirando da depressão é meter minha cara a tapa e lutar pelos meus IDEAIS. Sim, é …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
14

Friends.. What Are They Good For?

May 1st, 2016by GerbzBaby

image

I literally did nothing over this weekend, no one contacted me asking how I was or nothin.. I hang out with the same person all the time and in all honesty I get sick of it. All we do is nothing when we hang out.. I need to find a new crowd to be in..

Even though I didn’t do anything here is a birb (hawk)  I drew for my U.S History class. Enjoy.

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
0

Memories

May 1st, 2016by Deadinside59

Now I’m alone no one left its almost weird (this might be long btw so thanks for reading if anyone reads) but anyway it’s almost weird how I’ve masked such a beautiful tragedy all my friends are gone i could make new ones easily but part of me doesn’t want to i can’t replace these people I’ve known them for a very long time and it’s just weird how I’ve always wanted to be alone because i felt that i never really fit in and now that I’m alone i realize what i thought i wanted was just in reality my whole world falling apart …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
2

i’m tired

May 1st, 2016by dizaster

i mean we all are tired, i’m not special.

i’m alone. lot’s of people are, i’m not special.

I’m angry

I want to trust again, to be able to open myself up.

one of my 40 “friends” on facebook noticed i left and it took 8 weeks for him to do so.

my housemate is a deadbeat and i always cover his part of the rent.

i havent spoken to my mom in at least a decade.

the only people that would miss me are those that just use me for my income anyway.

i’m a social nightmare, so i dont make friends. never speak first. never intrude…..  its not that i don’t …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
19

I have to stop putting make up on

April 28th, 2016by kupo95

So like every time I put on make up I end up crying it all off. Why am I crying today well it started off ok. The house was fliped the girl I live with refuses to clean the bathroom properly but whatever. Im crying because it my fucking husband mother fucking birthday and I have barely any money to buy him somthing . but keep in mind I the spouse that makes money. He buys me somthing with  my money in his pocket. Or he brought what ever it is on a credit card which I pay …won it at the casino my

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
0

Letting Other People Sabatoge Your Happiness

April 28th, 2016by HakunaMatata

FB_IMG_1461826406992

For almost 2 years, I’ve felt this way because I live beside toxic neighbours and my uncle doesn’t listen to me to be careful of being taken advantage of. How? Simple. They threaten to sue us, get us fine and arrested for “Distribing The Peace” from the back up alarm installed on my uncle’s car. People sue for almost anything now a days no matter how ridiculous it may seem. There are various type of prices for back up alarm sold online and in-stores. Intially, it was installed for safety purposes of warning pedestrian to move out of the way when the vechile is shift into reverse. This generation, people attached to their electronic devices and rarely pay attention to where they are going. Nevertheless, my family kept telling me to ignore them and not fret about this matter. My family always count on the police to come give warnings beforehand if there is noise complaints.

Knowing my neighbours, they have been peeping toms secretly recording / collecting evidence to use against us – I had a feeling their intentions were not good. The other disgusting part is that they say that we are intentionally using noise as a form of harassment. I try to restrain from using foul language but these people kids who go to kindergarten mouth are foul enough to be washed out with soap. Long story short, depression hit me when I realize what I’ve been trying so, hard to protect doesn’t really matter in preventing these jerks from damaging our property. I was afraid that we might somehow get suddenly arrested when we get summoned to court and mad that my uncle gave them the upper hand to become obnoxious / cocky enough to disrespect him and his property. We clearly draw a line for them to park on their own driveway but they would intentionally block us from reversing once in awhile. To be, they are wolve’s dressed in sheep clothing. I know my uncle always remind me to forget and forgive people but there is another quote that says “don’t let anyone have the pleasure to disrespect you.” Ironically, instead of keeping pedestrian safe, the back up alarm attracted financial leeches. Trying to stay positive and get my motivation back for school. I lost hope and was very disappointed in the possibility for these people to manipulate the situation.

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
1

Confused;

April 28th, 2016by invisiblesoul19

So I just found this place and I decided to just let everything all out here soo yea. Anyway can anyone pleaaase help me? I have been thinking of pretty much leaving this world already but every time I attempt to do it I always end up not doing it and it feels like even though I’m fully prepared for it, there’s something that’s stopping me or holding me back but I have srsly NO idea what. Can you help me with this?

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
2

Echos

April 28th, 2016by Deadinside59

“Its red vs red and blue vs blue its i against i and me against you violets are blue roses are red living like this we were already dead” she killed herself (no one on this site close friend) she killed herself and she had to put my fucking name in the note saying she loved me knowing i was the last thing that went through her head a curse of the highest honor i loved her too but now she’ll never know at least now i know I’ll have a friend shall i choose to go down that path i was so obsessed on …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
5

Self loathing

April 27th, 2016by aspie

My parents are invasive and I can’t get my hands on any chemicals, sharp objects or flames (can’t blame them honestly)

So I self loathed and jack off…
Both are highly frowned upon by our culture.
But luckily I’m very good at keeping secrets well at least I used to be so its works

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
5

Checkmate

April 27th, 2016by InhalingAnxiety

(Maybe this is an official “I’m back” post? We’ll see if my mind can keep on track. Good luck following my thoughts.)

I thought I was set for life because I had it planned out until retirement. Graduate high school, go to college and get my degree in accounting, get a job and earn promotions for the next 40 years of my life, retire and move to someplace beautiful and expensive, then wait to die. And I thought no more about it other than just a basic, simple, normal life. That was when I was in 9th grade when I made that plan. I have gone through my life up to (almost) age 21 so far based on 14 year old me’s life plans and just never changed/adjusted them.

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
3

Pushed to the edge

April 26th, 2016by Deadinside59

Tomorrow has to go better because i made a deal with myself the next time life physically brings me to my knees im grabbing my. 44 and I’m staying the fuck down FUCK why is it so fucking hard to get a job THAT ISN’T FAST FOOD the ONE job that wasnt fast food actually agreed to interview me and for a split second i was happy until they sent over the address FUCK ME it’s an hour and half away and that’s with NO CARS on the road FUCK YOU LIFE fuck this place and FUCK THESE PEOPLE i have bullets loaded in …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
1

how do I love myself?

April 26th, 2016by brighteyes77

My depression use to consume me, lately I just get days where ill hide away hopeless and miserable, other days ill feel ok and get on with life depending on how im distracting myself. Sometimes I question if im depressed or mentally ill, I do things people dont ordinarily do and hear voices. Im trying to be more positive for my boyfriend as he’s put up with so much for no reason other than he loves me, I want to change and be what he deserves, but its so hard trying to be happy and stay positive when things are happening to you that you …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.
1

I feel another lie coming into the works

April 26th, 2016by kupo95

my husband asked me last night if I wanna go home ….when I said yes he did something really shocking and said OK he will talk to his mother and he will try to go home …good right …BUT…..wait for it………I will have to see what mom says  OH MY FUCKING GOODNESS he can’t just tell hiss mother were going home after his birthday can’t do it….OHHHH and here’s another good one we might have to go back to FLORIDA because his car is there and its a hassle to get a shipper what dose he wan’t to do drive home in his two person …

Processing your request, Please wait....
Do not report posts older than 1 week old,
because we will not take action on them.
In other words -- check the date before wasting your time and ours.
Also, please do not use this form as a comment reply -- it is not.