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Life is not important

February 13th, 2016by wasd2333

This month, I was a victim of abuse. Twice. No, not “use (something) to bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse”, it’s “treat with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly”. I’ve been abused many times now, but I think this month is the worst.

Abuse story 1:

So, one day I was in class, didn’t finish my work, so I was supposed to stay back for recess, but I didn’t want to. The teacher dragged my collar (I was about 3-5 meters away from the class when this happened) all the way to the classroom door, and threw me. I hit something, so I got …

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What is Depression?

February 12th, 2016by zacsai5

Hey guys. I’m new to this place but I thought I might share something I wrote a couple weeks back. I read someone’s post online saying he was going to commit suicide that day, and I felt this rush of empathetic love toward him. It led me to write a passage about depression.

A very short background about me: I’m a junior in college. Five years ago, I went through a two-year-long period of depression. I attempted suicide in the summer going into my sophomore year of high school. Since then, life has gotten increasingly better each year and I’m eternally grateful that I didn’t succeed …

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I’m so fucking dumb

February 12th, 2016by Rayman

This is a rant about how stupid an individual can be..it probably doesn’t belong on a site about suicide but i can’t just post this on Facebook can i..and i need to get it out of my fucking head..
I realised that I’m a total idiot. As i was walking out of a class i met s girl that i have talked to a couple of times before. We both had some time before the next class so we decided to grab some coffee. As we were sitting in the cafeteria and chatting i noticed that she won’t stop looking at me. I didn’t pay any …

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Another note to throw away

February 11th, 2016by Monster

Im sorry. I’m not strong. I’m lost and stuck and broke and i can’t take it. The world is falling into darkness, a darkness that consumes it so completely that we’re trapped. The waves of despair rise and fall on us all, dragging us down. Many make it above the waves, but those of us who don’t drown in our own self hatred and loathing, our depression so immense and heavy we cannot pull away in time… Some can, but they are filled so intensely with the craving of death. Others are free to do as they please however they want, yet those who allow …

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I Need Help, Advice? Someone to Talk to? (Teen Pregnancy, Suicidal Thoughts and Bad Childhood)

February 10th, 2016by SmilingfacesxSadfeelings

So I’m going to start off by saying hello and I will be cursing in this. I’m 19, I’m not going to say my name but you can call me LC. I have a three year old son. Yes, if you do the math right, I was 16 when I had him. He’s truly a blessing in my life and happens to have autism. If anyone here knows someone that has a child or does have a child or sibling with autism then you can understand how hard it is. I’m writing because I know I need help. I really want it, too. But I’ll …

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Memories

February 10th, 2016by Deadinside59

Well i hear people say growing up sucks and they wish they could go back to being kids well fuck that when i was kid I’d have to worry about my dad coming home pissed off and beating the shit out of me and my sister and growing up it got worse but then it got better now i don’t get hit as much just yelled at but it’s better i just wish i could look back and feel the same way other people do when they look back and get a little happy feeling i just look back and think thank god its almost …

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I Hurt

February 10th, 2016by HarleyMoon

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I have to

February 9th, 2016by Deadinside59

I have to leave this place i here these people so much i think one of my family members knows i plan on leaving and not ever coming back well actually i know that person knows because that person has confronted me on it i think they understand though if i don’t leave I’ll kill these people who’ve abused me for 18 years if i don’t leave I’ll either kill them or myself there’s gotta be something better than this I’m sick and tired of being woken up called useless and that i stay up all night and sleep all day no you fuck sticks …

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The pain never ends.

February 9th, 2016by spooniegirl1

3 years ago, i started having really bad stomach aches. i was stuck in the house for 5 months, and my best friend moved away. i had tons of tests, but the doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong. by the end of that summer, i was extremely depressed and started cutting myself. when that school year started, i forced myself to play a sport (which i became very good at) and the pain kind of dissipated. i lost about 20 pounds, and I’m already tiny as it is, so i was down to about 85 pounds. when the physical pain sort of stopped, the …

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My Story (mothers suicide, mental disorders & much more)

February 8th, 2016by Magik

I’ve lived anything but a normal life & I just turned 20. My parents were both abused. My dad was physically beaten by his father. My mother was raped many times during her childhood by her step dad. My parents hooked up (drunk) at a party & 9 months later I was born. I am a bastard. My parents got married when I was 3. My mom was addicted to crack until I was in kindergarten. My dad physically & emotionally abused her until she left him (moved out) when I was in 7th grade. My mom stayed with him that long because she wanted …

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What is this so called “Family” and what is my Life.

February 8th, 2016by Runil

So i’ve been living throughout this suicide phase for so long, ever since elementary school. I’m less suicidal though, I’ve learned to have self-determination and to live by my own standards and goals. I’m very active now and try to do positive things that helps me ignore the negativity in my life. This thing so called “family” is a word I erased from my dictionary. Family was never there for me. (sorry and excuse me when I jump all over, my thought process is really fucked up so ill cut it into chunks that cut my thoughts)

My story goes like this, typical asian scenario where …

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I Don’t Want To See A New Day

February 7th, 2016by A Bullet Through My Head For The Words I Fail To Say

I can’t do anything. I’m a waste of space and a burden. No one cares and I’m always ignored. I hate how everyday I just get worse and worse and no one sees. But then again, apart of me doesn’t want anyone to know. I hate how I always contradict myself everytime. I want to be happy but then I feel like I don’t deserve it. I want to be more open with people, get help but then I don’t. I just can’t do anything. I’ve gotten to the point in my life where I almost can’t find happiness in anything and all I want …

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Stupid body

February 6th, 2016by Deadinside59

I’m young and my body is shitting out on me my back hurts and my stupid legs hurt if i sit still i need to exercise on more areas rather than upper body maybe that would help idk sometimes at night i can just hear my heartbeat it keeps me up I’ve put my body through so much torture sometimes i almost feel bad for myself all those cuts the energy drinks the drugs the cigarettes sometimes i wonder how am i not dead if i ever find my true love and have a family i guess maybe it’s best i never get that I’d …

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I don’t even know

February 5th, 2016by IzzyThePsycho

I wrote this rant thinggie that I can’t define.

WHY?

A Rant? by Isabel (last name removed to protect the not-so-innocent)

Why. It’s the simplest, yet most complicated question. Why are all of us subjected to a life that is already planned out for us, yet we’re told that we can do whatever we want? Why do people lie to us and then say that they’re only trying to protect us? Why are we taught to believe in something like “god” when we are burdened with questions like, “ if god exists, then why is there pain, suffering, loss, or hate”? Why people like me forced to take away …

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Back in the same spot.

February 5th, 2016by Dolphin

Been posting on here at least once every month, except for last month.

Haven’t been feeling good. Slowly slipping back into the state that I was in last year. It was around this time too. Not a coincidence.

I got into an argument recently. Rarely get into any sort of shitty drama, but someone had to come along and destroy that peace.

Must note this word that was used in the argument: complacent.

Complacent? Hah, that made me laugh. Dryly.

Not even close. The argument was silly, it came from a small misunderstanding which somehow made the person turn on me altogether. I was thinking that the person had suppressed …

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To my fellow dog lover(s)

February 5th, 2016by Deadinside59

Hey hopefully you read this i can’t remember your username and i wanted to write this down before i forgot, this also applies to any dog lovers hey i know this shits depressing but hopefully you consider getting a pup when your dog dies and here’s why I’m going to tell you a story 6-9th grade i had no friends so id come home and play with our puppies as i started going deeper into my depression 10th grade id come home yell scream punch grab a loaded gun and just hold it to my head my dogs didn’t know what i was doing or …

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Looking for someone from central Canada.

February 4th, 2016by ana

Looking for a friend, preferably a teenage male. No one around here understands me. They just pretend. Comment for details.

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First my mind, now my body.

February 4th, 2016by IzzyThePsycho

I’m sick right now. First my mind tells me to give up, (Internally feeling like crap), and now that I have the flu or some other shit, My body is telling me to give up too, (Externally feeling like crap). My body literally refuses to let me get any sleep, so I’m just sitting in my bed watching Youtube and posting/reading SP. Now feel as shitty on the outside as I do on the inside. Thanks life, I hate you.

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I don’t care anymore

February 4th, 2016by Deadinside59

I don’t care anymore I’m a broken adult i still have a fucked up personality people keep saying you should be glad you have your family or friends to love well fuck that and fuck you it’s easy to say love your family and love your friends when you’re hyped up on anti depressants shouldn’t have dated you in the first place you tried to convince me to talk to my first love after we broke up i hate hearing that from everyone who asks about my love life my sister my ex no i will not love my family i hate my family i …

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I’ve already lost

February 3rd, 2016by mindlessgamer619

I’ve lost whatever motivation I may have had a year ago..

Why did I sign back up for classes when I knew that it wasn’t going to work out? Why was I forced to sign up and take another loan to add to my growing student loans? Why am I at this university at all? I went to the beach yesterday and hung out with one of my few close friends irl, and I actually felt okay.. I broke the cycle for one day…

Now, I just can’t take this anymore. I just want to go back to bed and stay there.. What else could I possibly …

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