Rants

5

That awful word to hear

November 26th, 2014by alice123

Suddenly i realized that it is not my nightmares i am afraid of, or the monster that hides inside me, nor the ghosts that hide in the corners or the darkness inside my mind.. i realize that what I’m actually afraid of is being alone.. “alone” that awful word to hear.

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Am I self-harming??

November 26th, 2014by Nyx Lavery

I have a past of self-harming – usually just to bring me pain, not to kill myself. This past year I have pierced myself 16 times. 14 ear piercings and at the moment I am getting Dahlia piercings. I noticed that during the times I’d go into my bathroom and puncture my skin, I would be extremely upset.

Am I self-harming?

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5

Overcoming Incest

November 25th, 2014by honeyblood

It took 18 years to remember

You want five to forget

 

Forget about it.

I never thought I could survive to college. I never saw myself in a dorm. I never saw friends.

 

But I did. I didn’t live in a dorm. I rented a two-bedroom house with a fenced yard for my two adopted dogs. I went to class. It’s my fifth year in school, and yeah my past caught up to me, and yeah I had a few slip-ups, but I am going to graduate in May with honors- a GPA above 3.0.

So why?

Why do I want to die now?

Of all times, places, people, memories, why now?

 

I …

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if I could do it right now…..

November 25th, 2014by serenityseeker

If I could just do it right now, it would be very little planning, as few “tools” as possible and I would REALLY enjoy feeling physically amazing just before starting.
I would want to do something quick, like a little slit of the wrists, thighs,and then carotid and jugular veins / arteries. Either that our I’d eat a bullet. Quick, precise, and thorough.
The only reason I can’t do it right
this moment is because I have so much shit to wrap up so that I know that I will be absolutely no more burden to anyone. , Plus, if I were to go now, …

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November 24th, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

just need someone to talk to right now… please

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why i want to die( LONG, tl;dr)

November 24th, 2014by lostgirl020

Honestly i just feel like theres no cure to being me. Despite all my good points i feel like my personality is hollow and empty. Because it was pain and trauma that developed, that shaped who i am completely, to the point its all there is inside me. I was molested as a child, abused and harassed for being anorexic or self harming, dealt with poverty and a severely mentally ill mother often by myself when my father was basically out of the picture, grew up isolated (no school, no friends), i’ve been homeless and just so much shit (some i dont want to get …

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2

Just done

November 23rd, 2014by krush

I don’t know what I’m doing.  People always say “there is reason for living, there is reason to stay alive” but I don’t see that.  What’s my reason?  My 3 best friends of 3.5 years that stopped talking to me two days before my birthday?  My dad that left when I was two weeks old?

A friend of mine once said to me (before his girlfriend blocked me on his account) “You can’t say no one else has any reason for living.” but what I was trying to say to him was, why are any of us alive?  What is the point of life?  We aren’t …

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9

We can help each other

November 23rd, 2014by charlieregal

Lets do it. Lets start a trust fund. We all sell some pf our things then put it in a trust and agree to all meet someplace and use the tust money to pay the fair for who ever wants to come. Then we buy a bomb and just hold hands and sing a prayer or a hymn or something and just wait for it to us all up. Don’t you see that this is your chance!? Stop procastinating! We can do this together don’t you see! we can help each other. We’re all in the same boat so lets just punch a hole in …

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5

Current State

November 23rd, 2014by extraordinarilyOrdinary

Just a glimpse into my ordinary life…I was at work just like every other day and decided to check my personal email on my phone during lunch. A funny yet perverted friend of mine found a craigslist ad and receive various semi-nude and nude photos from the person and he sent them to me. This is nothing new but in the pictures, the background items seemed familiar. I ask him to forward the email chain to me and I pulled the metadata from the pictures and they were taken at the same time as my wife was at a friend’s house out-of-state and the make …

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5

Always the nihilist

November 23rd, 2014by GalaxyEyesXx

I have felt so distant lately even though I know my isolation could ruin the few relationships I have, I can’t stop myself. Do they really care? I hope not. So many times I have heard people say that they only want to be loved but all I ever wanted was to be forgotten COMPLETELY. Not in this stagnant state of conditional love. It would make the transcendence so much easier. I linger in the shadows so that I am overlooked and I won’t have to answer questions or ask them. I inquired for help in a moment of weakness, of fear. I have come …

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i’m kind of messed up

November 23rd, 2014by heyimlost

I want to share with you a story, or something like that.

I was in 7th grade and it was close to midnight. We had this Chinese test the next day and though the subject was only worth 0.5 of our general average, it was huge thing. I don’t remember why I felt “sad” that night, usually I would just ignore the thoughts, but my chest started hurting and breathing was becoming more and more difficult, so I took up the courage to send a text to my friend.

This friend and I weren’t best friends or anything, but she was the most sensitive of all …

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5

confused

November 23rd, 2014by lost_girl_

I dont understand :(
I feel like im useless, all i want is to be successful.. People say that if you work hard enough and invest yourself fully in what you want that you will be successful but what about the hobo on the corner? He wanted to be an artist and spent all his money on his art and droped out of school to proceed his pasion.. He failed.. And he gave it his all.. How do i know that wont be me?

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0

Do you remember?

Do you remember?

November 22nd, 2014by secretz180

Do you remember when your breaking point was. When you finally couldn’t take all the darkness that you felt around you. The moment you let yourself down.. The moment when you didn’t give a shit if you died or lived. I remember it and I have the evidence for the rest of my existing life. I only cut myself on the left side of my wrist. Why ruin your other wrist. Just put the pain all in one spot at a time. Just look at your artwork of scars. I remember when the breaking point was. I promised my self I would never harm myself, …

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defective

November 22nd, 2014by bakedgoodz

I consider my depression a terminal illness. Some of us battling this illness, we know we will terminate our lives one day. We are basically just waiting to die, because we can’t be saved. The darkness inside will always be there, waiting to resurface . It won’t let us be normal. It won’t let us be happy. It’s like we are slaves to this darkness. We basically sign our lives away by taking all the medication, because once you’re on antidepressants, you can’t stop taking them or else you’ll really be fucked in the …

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3

I Hate People

November 22nd, 2014by Tara

*WARNING LONGEST STORY + RANT EVER ABOUT FIGHT WITH FAKE FRIENDS*
So once again I am taken advantage of and treated like shit for it. I try to be a good person and this is what I get. So I was friends with four girls, their initials are S,M,ME, and E, because i don’t want to use their real names. I was friends with them for almost a year and I noticed that even at lunch, M stopped talking to me. And a few days later, E told me M said “I need to talk to you about Tara, I am so done with her she …

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I miss deathdreamer

November 22nd, 2014by killswitchon

She just dropped off the face of the earth… I suppose she either is having a seriously rough time with her “health concerns” or she extracted herself from this unhealthy lifestyle of dwelling on pain with dysfunctional people surrounding her…either way it sucks and she was a great friend… COME BACK!!

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A new beginning

November 22nd, 2014by secretz180

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Last year on December 9th I lost my virginty, to a guy I thought really liked me. We where talking over the summer and he was always busy. After many tries we finally saw each other. The place where we going to go was closed so he said lets just go to the park. He asked if I had any smokes, I told him no. So we went across the street and he made me pay for the cigs. As we got to the park it started to rain. I was very nervous no other guy …

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I drank last night…

November 21st, 2014by killswitchon

And I’m slightly hungover today… Although that’s not what’s on my mind. No. What’s on my mind is how no matter how much I try to convey what my mental experience is to so called professionals or people in my daily waking life I get no where and they’re left believing I’m just afraid of success or failure and that I don’t truly have a mental anamoly/condition/mindfuck that’s inhibiting and limiting my every attempt to advance my life and move forward. I’ve been making changes over the past few days to prep myself for the next stage in my life whether that is death or …

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2

Why try?

November 21st, 2014by AnotherBreath

Giving up is a terrifying thought. Naturally, you don’t want to give in and give up. But, once you start giving up, it’s the most liberating feeling in the world.

I know I should fight, be determined but I’m tired. Tired of everyone and everything tearing me down, so why not give up? Whats the point anyhow? Life is a goddamn contradictory lie so, why try to live it?

Giving up is terrifying, I know I shouldn’t, but damn does it feel good.

I just don’t know anymore….

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Songs and When They Happen

November 21st, 2014by Nyx Lavery

Dirty Paws when I am at peace.

Any Other Name when I am gone.

King and Lionheart when I love.

Cannot Pretend when I am not loved.

Born to Die from beginning to end.

Stolen Dance when I am remembered.

Eyes On Fire when I destroyed.

Apologize when I regretted destroying.

Like Real People Do when it almost seemed real.

Broadripple Is Burning at my final hour.

Sex and Candy when it was just fun and games.

Reptilia at my best.

Blackout Days when you’re absent.

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