Do not hate someone because they are not you. Do not hate yourself because you can only be unique, original, individual You. Stop hatin’. Just a suggestion. Rock on.
http://m.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-22026044
Do not hate someone because they are not you. Do not hate yourself because you can only be unique, original, individual You. Stop hatin’. Just a suggestion. Rock on.
http://m.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-22026044
My mom is such a fucking *****, I’ve had it up to here!! I can’t stand her shit any fucking more, last week on Thursday, she fucking ruined my plans because one Wednesday she thought I was going to beat up my sister because I complained about her touching my things. She made this HUGE scene on the phone, in the party she was in and at home. She is fucking STUPID, all she fucking does is think lowly of me and I’ve had ENOUGH. So on Thursday, she RUINED my plans because  she says I MISBEHAVED on Wednesday, so I got SUPER FUCKING PISSED, […]
life really just makes no sense to me. it’s a never ending circle of hypocrisy, people motivated by there own person agendas with no consideration for how what there doing affects the rest of society. It’s not just politicians or business persons but it’s just about everyone who is willing to sacrifice everything and destroy everyone that has the potential to stand in there way. It’s the bullies in school, the teachers who don’t understand you, the parents who think “it’s just a phase” or don’t even care.
I realize my rant is slightly of the topic this site is intended for but it’s these […]
The worst fear to have is a fear of ones self, you can’t run or hide from yourself, when scared you cannot stop yourself. I am terrified of myself everyday..i can hurt me more then anyone else. I have lived with this fear for a long time, but yet again the fear has grown. The fear grows when my emotions get stronger and sadder, when i feel empty and comatose’d. I cannot run or hide or stop myself anymore. I have no one or nothing to hold back the frightful me from hurting the scared me. I am a monster….just not of my own making.. […]
Life, why do you hate me? What did i ever do to you? Oh, that’s right. I exist. If life’s a b*tch then whats death? Is it our freedom? Wanna know what i think? I think that even if life is seriously f*ck*d up, death is only an easy way out. Doesnt mean it will stop me from wanting to die…
Life. Many people love life, others hate it. Death. Many people hate it, a few wish for it to come sooner rather than later. Dont you?
Life is a beautiful lie, while Death is the Painful Truth.
I understand when people want death to come, because sometimes I want […]
It’s redundant.
I believe living life is redundant.
Many have done it before, many have lived,
but for me, I feel like it doesn’t matter if we all die in the end anyway.
Why should I stay alive?
For your loved ones of course.
“If you can’t find a reason, stay alive for someone else,” they say.
Why should I stay alive, if not for myself?
It already hurts too much to stay alive.
I smile because I have to.
I study because I’m told to.
I pray because if I don’t I won’t be happy in the afterlife.
What about now? I’m not happy […]
I’ve been depressed for 3 and a half years  , I’m bi-polar and,  i’m on a lot of medication.
I have friends , but i never see them anymore , and i feel so alone all the time. I don’t have what i used to have , and i thought things would get better by now. I have nobody to call when i’m upset , nobody to see everyday in school and talk to , nobody to talk to in the hallway with , or go to class with , and nobody to spend what’s left of my free time. I just want everything to go back to normal. or […]
I started online school this year back in sectmber. I dident notice then but slowly my friends started to dissaper. Now, only 1 of my former friends will talk to me, all the rest pretty much ignore me.  I started feeling sadder in october, and spent more time alone. Now I spend 95% of the day in my room, the rest of the day is spent at school taking band art and chorus. in december I was diagnosed with dyslexia, and I felt that I was an idiot. I was never an A student,  but now i just break down whenever i see me test scores, or overall […]
I swear to God I’m trying. When I say I don’t know, I really honestly and truly don’t know. Yesterday we talked about me being crazy, and you seemed ok with that. Well why not today? I’m no more or less crazy today. The demons that haunted then still haunt me now. Everything’s piling up but I swear I’m getting rid of it, maybe not on anyone’s schedule, but I am getting rid of it.
Why is it that when you’re feeling even remotely happy or good about yourself something or someone has to knock you down?
I was so proud of myself for making it almost a whole 24 hours without cutting, and for me that was quiet an achievement, but them when I told a close friend (and the only person other then those on this site) about this achievement she proceeded to tell me about how pathetic it was to be happy about this, that normal people don’t count the days or hours that they haven’t cut, because there not stupid like me and don’t cut. I thought […]
What if in the end ill never get better?
Everyone says i will but im not sure.
How can you believe in me when i cant believe in myself.
My heart is broken.
My mind a prison.
As much as i want to die
I also want to get better.
I want someone to save me from myself.
But what if no one ever comes?
What if im destined to be alone.
My heart hurts so much i just want to turn it all off.
I wander in a trance and those are my best moments.
As much as i dont want to say it.
Im afraid to die.
I’ve been feeling depressed for a while now, basically for the last 10 years or so. Really the one person who has kept me from thinking about suicide, and who got me to stop cutting has been my girlfriend for the last four years. A couple days ago she tried to tell me that things weren’t really working out, and basically she thought it would be best if we took a break from being in a relationship. At the time she made a convincing argument, basically saying neither of us has time, effort, or financial stability to deal with a relationship. I’m under the impression […]
It really surprises me how my mood can go from being OK (I wasn’t entirely happy) to  me feeling like utter scum. I started talking more in lunch and fifth period and I usually don’t talk so whenever I do I feel like people just look at me like “why do you even open?” because of the looks they give me, but that doesn’t bother me that much compared to talking to the people you like because it feels like “am I annoying to you?”  I don’t know maybe school’s just another trigger for me but I feel like “look at all these people probably […]
I just came out to my Dad tonight. I did not plan that at all. Came up totally unexpected. He came to talk to me because he noticed I was depressed and struggling and eventually things led to wanting to come out to him. I was so scared. I knew it was something I needed to do though. It took me so long to get it out. He’s a super conservative Catholic…so you can see why I would be scared shitless. He took it surprisingly calmly. But I don’t feel the relief I wish I had felt. I still feel like he doesn’t fully accept […]
A have you ever gotten that feeling you know the one that nothing is quiet right and that nothing will ever be right? Let’s operate that you do know this delight because you googled “suicide stories. That formentioned feeling is how my life’s been running in for awhile and to be honest I don’t care much nW. there’s a deep gutting feeling to all my crickets now ranging from joke telling to hanigning out with my best friends. It’s as if I wasn’t suicide to tell this joker hanging out here cause I’mdeeded somewhere else or rathe rnor needed but suppose to be and that […]
I need ways to die within the next 45 mins please help!I know what im doing im not going to miss out on anything just please give me ways to die asap! Email me at darkerimagery@gmail.com
This morning I woke up and I was so happy (NOT-.-) because it was Easter. I was half awake looked out the windows when I was downstairs and I saw snow. Snow?? No that’s not possible. I mean snow is already a miracle in The Netherlands if we have it in the winter, but on 31 march?? No, not possible. Somebody was joking on me, with a machine that makes snow, but when i saw that it was also high in the air slowly falling down I realized this was no joke. When I realized that, I got totally crazy, because I thought I was […]
My life has fallen apart, i lost guy i wanted to spend my life with. I told my parents i need help they just said you’ll be fine here is a news flash i’m not fine…oh and hey i don’t even own a fucking cat think it through..I mean i want people to help me but i shut myself off and say i’m fine but how do i tell someone i’m not fine..And if they ask whats wrong oh hey i just want to kill myself they wouldn’t understand…Also i was thinking when is it a good time in a relationship to tell the person […]
I have missed three psychiatry appointments because I don’t want someone to tell me I’m depressed nor do I want to believe in the existence of depression. (Which is a damn contradiction cause I’m a psych major and I know it does). I don’t want pills. I don’t want to talk about how I feel. The furthest I ever got to getting help was to the door of my psychiatrist’s office. I freaked out and left. I’m doing a half-ass job in everything. My GPA went down wayyy low. Money, my biggest motivator doesn’t even wake me up in the morning for work anymore. Guess […]
I’m relatively new to this site, but thought I’d take my turn to publish a post. The reason I’m on here tonight is because I am really struggling at the moment. I am really having strong urges to end my life. I don’t want to kill myself, yet I don’t want to continue living this life that I have created for myself. Very contradicting sentence, isn’t it? I just feel so alone. And I know isolation plays a big part in it, but even with people I still feel incredibly alone. I hate myself so much. I hate my body and my mind. I wish […]
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