I’ve done it before, I’ll do it again.
“Just empty the bottle.” I tell myself.
I cut and try to OD all in the same night, Can I just be sucsesfull with something, Or someone.
I’ve done it before, I’ll do it again.
“Just empty the bottle.” I tell myself.
I cut and try to OD all in the same night, Can I just be sucsesfull with something, Or someone.
So been labled by Dc. that im depressed and bipolar. Awesome. Idgaf, I just wanna die, Im not sad, or crying, I just wanna go. But heres the thing, I cant kill myself. And it feels like everywhere i motherfuckin search, everyones like, nooo go to church, no do something with your life. *****, there are a kazillion more people out in the world my life aint gonna mean anything. So Im motherfuckin helpless. I live in Virginia Beach and Im just thinking about jumpin off the downtown roof to the parking garage. What can I say, Im gettin desperate. Right now Im more pissed […]
Dear Travis,
I really wanted to tell you some stuff… mostly that i miss you like crazy. I think about you all the time. about what you and i always did. Remember the day i took the bus home with you and we made love to each other for the first time? I do. Part of me wishes that we could go back to that day. it was a wonderful day, and there was magic everywhere! i could never forget, or regret that day… ever. I remember every detail…
Anyways, i also wanted to tell you that i am really jealous of Morgan. She’s lucky to be […]
nothings the same.
nothings the way it used to be.
the way it should be.
everythings falling apart. each day that grown near grows harder. i cant go 2 days without cutting anymore. the thought of death is more comforting then the thought of life.
when they ask me if i want to live i have to think long and hard about it and even then i have no answer. im not as strong as they all make me out to be. i try and i try to be strong enogh but im not. im weak.
i cant pretend anymore. i dont want to wait for death to come but […]
I’m a 3.3 gpa student in High School, 17 years old living in the USA. I am in 2 AP classes (Physics B and Economics). I have a horrible family life also. I’m a very idiotic, messed up person so bear with me please.
I’m tired of life, I know it could be worse but I can’t take it anymore. I’m tired of living as a certain race. I wish I was born Asian or White… (Mostly Asian) My race is not respected in human society because most of my race does not know how to act like normal human beings. I wont say what race […]
I get upset if nobody understands me, but I get irritated when they try to understand. Because they never get it right. They only mean well. So the question is, do I want their help? I confuse the shit out of myself.
Though I’m not suicidal, for some reason I registered. But, that is not the point.
I suffer from migraines. Anxiety. Abusive family. Depression. Bullies. (used to get bullied) Possible back problems, and some other things. And guess what? It appears I have a mask stuck to my head and can only express my true feelings for the world via Internet. Why? The feeling of annomynouity  (sp?). Though it may not really be that hidden, it is all I need to get these feelings out into the open.
So basically, the top of my emotions is: Trapped. By death and time. (yet I don’t believe in time, just […]
These Past Few Days…
It seems as though I can only have one or two days of “happiness” or “hope”. Now I feel constant agony. I’ve been researching suicide for a while now. That doesn’t mean I’m gonna try. I mean sure, I’ve had my moments. Standing on the sidewalk, considering that leap into traffic. Been in my basement, trying to stop myself from downing the bottle of bleach next to the washer. But I’ve overcome those difficulties. I had my moment at the bridge. Wondering what it would feel like to just have a moment of pure peace. Just to feel something other than this crushing bull of un-diagnosed depression. […]
Please, someone understand me. I am 22 years old. I lost my father one year ago. I am so soo attached to him and I miss him a lot. I have been through depression and just when I thought I am feeling OK, I knew everything is wrong with me.
I have no confidence in me. I try a lot but I fail. I get scared even for the simplest things in life. Without self confidence, I struggle with myself everyday. I have no such good friends. Perhaps they find me weird. I cry all nights, thinking to change myself, but I DONT. I feel I’m […]
For around 4 years now, I have been dealing with depression, lacking trust and I dont know what more. I have been dealing for a while, it sometimes got better, after a while just worse, but it seemed to just hit a point where I felt a little depressed, and that just stopped, and after a while things got a little better again. But since recently, things just got worse and worse, and I dont see a reason why I should live anymore. I am not really thinking about suicide, like how I should do it and stuff, but I cant help myself from the […]
So i found the hand gun i knew the old man had. im not into guns cause i have morals against them so i dont work them well but i know it well enough to shoot. so i cocked the gun and couldnt figure out how to fix it without shooting it so i had to take it outside and shoot it. powerful little thing. crush my skull good! so ive been really thinking about using it to end my life soon. but i guess im scared to do it. i dont know why. i cant find anything worth staying alive for. being dead sounds […]
I’m 17 years old and my mom is getting remarried for the 3rd time in 3 days. I hardly know the guy. He’s moving into our home and i’m  not thrilled. step parents always try and act like they’re your own parents and it’s bullshit. My dad is the only one who understands me. ONLY one.  He’s on drugs as always, who knows where.  I’ve had depression and wanted to kill myself ever since summer after 5th grade. I still don’t know what caused it. Probably just the manic depression,anxiety and bipolar that runs in both sides of my family finally kicked in my system. […]
I’m so over this! I can’t believe the things you say sometimes. I thought we were friends before this week, I even liked you most of the time unlike everyone else. Every time everyone else would be talking about how annoying you are and how much they hated you I never joined in, because I thought we were ok. I tried so Damn hard to be friends with you, and to answer your questions about religion but apparently nothing I did matters at all! I hate you so much right now! When you say things like, “Aspen and Makell are the ones that helped me the most,” […]
How do I write a letter to a teacher without sounding like I am suicidal (which I am). How do I tell her about my life in one page so that she can get to know me? Why is god shitting on my life!?!? I have no idea what to do this time. I have no idea waht to do most of the time. I need someone but teachers don’t have the best track record. Because verytime I tell a teacher something in confidence it somehow gets back to my mother! Why am I even writing this? I am just falling apart, my life is […]
Is life worth living, knowing you wont get better? Ive been depressed for 6 years. In those 6 years, I’ve attempted suicide 9 times. I’ve been hospitalized, and I’vs seen doctors. I refuse to go back. Everyone who has tried to help me, I push away. I would rather be alone and then die, then get help, because I don’t know how to be happy anymore. I am not sure if I ever knew how to be. Maybe its for the best.
I’m terrible when it comes to time. I get so lost and distracted, I can barely tell when significant portions of time have past. I don’s know where the time goes, but I lose hours of it. Before i realize it, time has changed everything. Nothing is as it once was, and its all my fault. After each attempt for suicide, time becomes even more foreign to me. After 9 times, I just stoppped caring. Now, I barely get through the day. Its like being frozen in time knowing everyone else is moving foreward in life, and all I can do is sit there, and hope that one day […]
I’m only thirteen and have tried to kill myself more than 3 times… Some people say its ***** that I didn’t but I couldn’t.. I would feel guilty, my family an friends, idk how they would deal with it.. Sometimes I want to tell my mom that in depressed but I don’t want her to feel bad, I don’t want to be treated differently and I’m just one of those people that Hates even crying in front of my parents.. Right now I’m not suicidal but I don’t really wanna live? Idkk … Night😘
hi everyone, for the past month ive been in hospital. you may of read the other posts but if you didnt then ill explain, when i tried to commit suicide my mum found me and i was only just concious, i told her to write on here and say sorry to all of you wonderful people. the things i did to try make this work was, poison, overdose and cutting my wrists and it would of worked if mym mother didnt come in my room. i left her and my family a letter explaining further details of this website and told her it was important. […]
The biggest piece of bullshit I have ever heard, is when someone tries to comfort me. I know that sounds weird, but maybe oddly true. Only one person on the world has ever been able to make me feel not alone, but she doesn’t know I am in love with her. But that is besides the point. Everyone else, when they comfort me, seems to have ulterior motives. Maybe they feel obligated. Maybe they are trying to stroke their own ego. Maybe …….
The point being is that They have their own ulterior motive, They don’t really care about me, or you. Though why should They? […]
Dear Reader,
I will hang myself in a few minutes. I know it’s selfish and harmful to my family, friends and people I know. I know I can continue my life somehow but I feel depressed and anxious all the time. I don’t feel like I can function successfully in society for more than a few weeks or month. As shown by my failing in my 3rd first semester of university, despite getting good grades initially. Maybe staying home and relying on someone else for the rest of my life is an option for me, yet I can’t do that. It’s embarrassing and pathetic.
There are things […]
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