Stories of Hope

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I honestly cant believe it……….

May 23rd, 2015by serenityseeker

I’m not really sure what my last post was cuz I am having to write these as they come to me on a word processor and then copy and paste them when I do have internet access. It has its ups and downs. I can’t get distracted by pop ups and the curiosity of social media and all of that meaningless mind wasting junk that it can be. I find that if I can get caught up in all of that it ends up becoming some sort of drama filled b.s. game and I’d rather sit back and and watch then participate in any …

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Him

May 22nd, 2015by persephone

He is the only thing keeping me going these days. He tells me I’m special and how much he cares for me, what I’m worth, he puts a real smile on my face (the only person who can)… Without out him I wouldn’t be writing this I wouldn’t be here right now. If it wasn’t for his daily words of encouragement I would have taken my life or my mother would have locked me in the insane asylum a long time ago… But thanks to the one person who took the time to understand the time to pay attention and listen. Thanks to him I …

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the United States Marine Corps

May 20th, 2015by sadsadist

The only thing that meant to me before I met my love and my life quickly became complete nothingness and complete shit i wait everyday for that chance to prove myself and become one of the few the proud and before I know it I will maybe thats what keeps me going everyone could use some reason some motivation

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Suicide of friends/family

May 20th, 2015by RadiantLight

A friend of mine just committed suicide 4 days ago and everyone in my community is totally shocked.

I was wondering what experiences you may have had with a suicide of a friend or family – whomever – and how you dealt with it.

He was a very smart student was best in his school year and an extremely intelligent and good person. He left a note that said noone should feel guilty with all his bank accounts and formal stuff. Then he left and jumped from a 10 story building. Before he has been fighting depression for one year and had medication ( I’m not sure …

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Recently permanently disabled from suicide attempt

May 15th, 2015by sagishi

I’m so devastated. Every day is just sadness. I live in constant terrible regret. Because I was a coward and couldn’t kill myself the guranteed ways, i live in constant physical pain. I can’t walk and run, my right leg is paralysed and left is nerve damaged. I used to love running. Even though I have always hated myself and suffered from depression, i trained and had a body to be envied. Now, its like ive woken up inside a nightmare, life doesn’t even feel real. Im just so sad. And it’s all my fault. No one else, just me. Suffering. Seeing doctors, specialists but …

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Ending this farce.

May 12th, 2015by Racle

Time is fleeting, and I am still here. For how long, I cannot say. It seems that I cannot put a time on anything arranged for the future anymore. I just live by each day that comes.

I recently confided my thoughts and feelings to a friend. She is aware of the existence of this website, and the account that I use. Thankfully, she is a lot more understanding than I thought, and I hope that keeps up. She is generally sensitive towards issues like these, so I felt more comfortable talking to her about it.

Also… An update about a post that I made not long …

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Can’t it Jst Be Over.??

Can’t it Jst Be Over.??

May 12th, 2015by Luxury-NiteMare

Why do we have deal with these issues.??

None of us shld wanna die. Yet I do. It’s definitely an easy escape bt also it’s  like a cowardly way out. Shld I face my pain.?? I wld hate to bt maybe I shld jst do it. I failed & cut myself again. I feel like crap. The few pple I’ve gone to for help make it worse..

they insult me & make fun of me for being ‘Emo’. Why cnt they understand tht going thru self harm is a tough thing on anyone.?? Why can’t they see tht I trusted them enough to let them into my …

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How did you get better

May 11th, 2015by thebottoms

Im tired of medication and psychiatry sessions I’m slowly watching everything die around me or walk out of my life and i just want to get better but i cant save myself . How did it get better for any of you

Im a recent graduate and its hard not having structure. In order to feel any emotion or fill my boredom i have given in to impulse decisions,unsafe decisions and have alienated everyone important to me. I have watched my life fall to pieces in weeks. I just lost my bf of 5 years and im struggling to see the point. Im know people will …

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Don’t give up, there still is HOPE!

May 11th, 2015by Alina_memories

Hi I’m a 15-year-old girl and was very suicidal nearly the whole last year but I got over it and I want to tell my story to help those people who feel like I did some time ago.

It all started at primary school with some guys in my class bullying me. The bullying went on for almost 10 years in every class and school I went to because some of that bullies always where in the same class. Over that long time I became very insecure and also depressed. Depression really started when I was 12 or 13 and I started cutting and burning myself …

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Mother’s day

May 10th, 2015by justanothergirl09

Mother’s day. I don’t know……

I just gotta say you shouldn’t just appreciate your mom on mother’s day, you should appreciate her every single day. One day when she’s long gone you won’t be able to to tell her how much she means to you or how much you love her. One day she will be gone and you won’t get another.

I gotta admit, I wasn’t the best daughter. I always had some type of anger problems with her. Like sometimes, I have to say, and it hurts to say it, I would hit her. I would get mad and I would be rude. I wouldn’t …

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a Century of Loneliness

May 10th, 2015by RinisSkywalking

I’ve always pondered whether loneliness was a disease or if it were a momentary reflection of how another sees me. If I feel so alone in my own company, how could another possibly enjoy me?
I’ve been so miserable at times I pondered ending it, but then I always have a flash of the world, and I realize what I’d be throwing away if I gave up.

I’m a wanderer who’s passionately in love with life, and I would dread to envision the world as it is now when I could’ve changed it just by changing myself, but instead left it to the rest of people …

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You exist as you are; and that is enough

May 10th, 2015by RinisSkywalking

Someone very brave once said, “I must uphold my ideals, for perhaps the time will come when I shall be able to carry them out.” This someone was Anne Frank. She held an optimism for a greater world despite her own situation. Carry her optimism with you. When you are faced with an obstacle that seems impossible to overcome, know inside yourself that you can. It’s been done over and over by people; they had the ability to never give up on themselves. You have that ability.

Everyone has the same attribute of being unique in a different way, that includes you. There is no one …

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I want my past to not be my burden but my strength

May 9th, 2015by VioletRabbit911

I don’t know if I can handle this anymore… I’m tired of the way I’m living right now;  I have so much on my chest right now, I want to let it all out.

when I was 5, I went to a Christmas Eve party at my cousins house. I was very bored so my mother told me to go find my brother that was with my cousin  in his room. so I went over there and they were playing video games. I felt sleepy so I decided to go on the bed to rest. As I was laying down, I didn’t realized what my cousin would try …

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help me my love

May 4th, 2015by sadsadist

I wish she could tell me that I can die id die a million deaths for her that statement would be met quickly with my death then she could go on with her horrible boyfriend and have a family I’d stop hurting and annoying people my thoughts and actions are unforgivable even if she left him my future with her wouldn’t be good enough I’d hold her back all I ever wanted in my life was the marines to die in battle she changed that but I’m not certified for shit I have no intention going to college I’ll just hold her back she deserves …

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Hello everyone! <3

May 2nd, 2015by kalmahavak

Hi everybody! You may have seen me posting comments giving you my email and KIK name. (My email is andrewholstein1@gmail.com and my KIK is Kalmahavak if you want to talk to me and be friends :)) I’m a senior in high school that is absolutely TERRIFIED of the future. I have been for years not understanding what my purpose in life is, and just worried about the future. That is, until recently. Anyways, here’s my story.

I think it all started after 6th grade when my parents first put me into public school after homeschooling me all my life. I was bullied a lot for no …

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My inner turmoil

May 1st, 2015by Benjamin2004

I could commit suicide. I know what it would do to my family. Sometimes that is enough but the probability of future despair and current pain. If I have no hope it will get better, why bother.

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im trying to be strong

April 30th, 2015by mak1shimayuusuke

but its just so hard….. I suffer from manic depression and existential anxiety. two days ago, I stood by a main road and contemplated jumping in front of a car. my mind told me that I wanted to die, but it also told me that I might die, and I was afraid. my father ran to me and pulled me away. my mom is mainly the reason… she hits me and tells me im worthless. I don’t tell the authorities because every time I try my mom says that she know how to hit me in ways that wont leave a mark and that they …

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I don’t want to live anymore

April 29th, 2015by yorkie2805

I’m 23 with a 5 & a half year old daughter. I met my fiancée when my daughter turned 1 and I fell head over heals in love with him. We moved quickly & he proposed. A year after proposing he finished with me saying he was unhappy etc. For a year after this we met up every week as there was still so much love there. Eventually after a year of secretly being together, we made it official & became a couple again. In this time he had joined the army (something I’ve always supported him with) and he proposed to me again in …

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Nostalgia: azul e doce

April 28th, 2015by Tristeza

Mid 2013
I remember my first post on sp, one that I felt like I had to delete months ago. I was hiding in my room, scared because my ex step dad had tried to touch me again. He was a monster. A rapist. A demon wearing the mask of a good, loving religious man. My mom had already made it clear that she would stay with him and that I was the only liar at their house; calling me the devil and trying to kick me out when I had nowhere to go. My story is too long and not the point right now, but …

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