Stories of Hope

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whats my purpose…

September 19th, 2014by mrlopez1415

This feeling of, ‘wanting to just die’ has last for about 4 years now.  I’ve tried hanging myself multiple times, but I always fail…  I use to walk down the road hoping a car would hit me.  I’ve had close near death experiences from drugs and alcohol, but wonder why I hadn’t died?  That raises the question to what is my purpose on this planet.  Nowadays, I have no urge to kill myself, but just hopes that something would just end me instantly. So now I try to hope everyday, that a miracle (that I think in the back of my mind won’t happen) would …

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Twenty two Twenty two seconds you consumed my heart Twenty two minutes my fortress of solitude fell apart Twenty two hours I knew you were mine from the start Twenty two days your merciless death grip shot through my chest Twenty two months I’ll give you my life and until we’re together I won’t rest […]

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Happiness

September 17th, 2014by shatteredsoul1350

It may look like we have everything
Everything should be perfect so you can live the best life….
Wrong
Sometimes all you need is support and happiness
I can tell for some people, they have all that
As for me
I just want to be happy…

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Wow ep. 3

September 16th, 2014by 5 seconds of stendarr

One quaint morning in a humble land populated by those that ritually humped donkeys every 4 years or whenever a ceremony appointing someone to lead them into the next phase of unrest occurred someone named Michael drove up a hill. Michael was invariably retarded with fluctuating phases of mental psychosis, the symptoms of his latter condition expressed through wearing cowboy boots in a fashion identical to grown men that genuinely had the IQ of a sack of shit. Michael himself had an IQ of a sack of shit but those around him inflated his ego deceivingly by telling him he only had the IQ of …

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What happens when you put the phone down on a crisis call?

September 15th, 2014by pinkcoconut

The police turn up at your house. Even when they don’t know where you live.

I called an urgent mental care health line trying to get some help with not hurting myself. The nurse quizzed me on my address because it might affect where I have my CBT. I felt like he wasn’t trying to talk sense into me and was instead just trying to fill out a form. I shouted at him asking him whether he was going to help me right now or not, and he said he needed my address for my long term care. I put the phone down on him. …

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Thoughts & Advice for Suicide or Survival – Suicidals Please Read

September 15th, 2014by coconut

I found this site last night when I was in a bad state. I haven’t been suicidal since I was 19 and am now 22, but came here looking for a supportive voice because even though I’ve escaped my battles I still feel the after effects (details in my earlier post). After reading some posts I’m concerned. Remember I have been there and I know how it is. I am being very honest and my comments on how to go, how to not go, motivation and survival preparation are towards the end.

Suicide:

1. If you want to kill yourself that is your choice. Please keep in mind though, death …

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why do i do this to myself?

September 15th, 2014by copelessness

I wish I didn’t have hope. I have this stupid, delusional hope that something wonderful could happen to me but I know it couldn’t happen. Things like that don’t happen to me. Hope like that only ever crashes down on me.
Why do I torment myself like this? Why do I hope for something that won’t happen? Why do I feel things I shouldn’t feel?
I know in my heart, that painful, empty place inside my chest, that there is no hope, yet I choose to believe it anyway. I wish on a star and reach for her knowing full well …

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fuck Reality ! Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks ! Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring ! movies, novels books, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!

September 14th, 2014by niki

fuck Reality ! fuck real life ! fuck real world !
Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks !
Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring !
movies, novels, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
there is no MAGIC, no SUPERPOWER , no ‘cool, magical’ SUPERHERO / SUPERHEROES like in those movie , novel , comics , game / games , manga / anime , etc etc !
FUCKING BORING real world / real life / reality !!!

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and …

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SP, you are cordially invited

September 13th, 2014by lost

This is a slightly edited version of a comment I left on someone else’s post, but I wanted to extend this invitation to the SP community:

Would any of you guys be interested in keeping in touch in some capacity on Facebook? I created a Facebook account specifically for this purpose, and if you wanted to do that, we could keep in touch while protecting our anonymity.

I’ve realized that one of the things I miss the most about the friendship I recently lost was that, most days, we’d touch base here and there throughout the day (we live in different cities). And this didn’t necessarily mean …

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There is always someone who cares!!!!

September 12th, 2014by livelifemaybe

There is always someone in this world who cares about you..

Just because you don’t think there is doesn’t mean your correct..

I know that I have no idea who you are or what you look like but I CARE!

If I didn’t care then I wouldn’t be here..

I know what you’re going through I have scars running up and down my arm..

I feel so lonely sometimes and I cry myself to sleep almost every night..

I really do know how you feel I promise..

You’re so beautiful/handsome inside and out

I love you

You don’t deserve to end everything like this you deserve much better!

I may cut but I’ll never end …

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The Past …

September 11th, 2014by Dawg

To get over the past, you first have to accept that the past is over. No matter how many times you revisit it, analyse it, regret it or swear/curse it ... it's OVER. It can hurt you no more. And you cannot CHANGE the PAST … the endless stress, worrying, beating yourself up and regrets DO NOTHING except wear you down, eat away at your sanity and immune system and waste time. Learn from it and move on … tomorrow is another day and another chance to do something fun and great … live …
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Overlapping Circle

September 11th, 2014by grimlynotperfect

The goals achieved.

The hopes desired.

Last goodbyes.

New starts.

Eyes are tired.

Soon they wont remember me,

Soon words will be rarely exchanged.

Soon they will have a family with children with exotic names.

Soon ill be a memory to them, soon I will not even cross their mind.

It will all take place over time

 

I feel so alone, and each time I wish to scream “Don’t Go”.

But they will leave me even though i love them to the pit of my soul.

I know how it works, it happens each time.

But it just makes me want to desperately rewind.

I know how it works, it happens every time.

Even though i wish to rewind.

rewind.

rewind.

rewind.

 

I know …

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Reasons not.

September 7th, 2014by InbetwixtLives

Yes, I want to crawl in a hole an die sometimes.

Yes, I want to slash my wrists.

Yes, sometimes blood is on my hands.

But no, that does not mean I’m never happy. Chocolate makes me happy. Lana Del Rey makes me happy. Music makes me happy. Learning how to play the piano makes me happy. Words make me happy.

When you smile at a stranger and they smile back, it’s moments like those that make me happy. And I know, this is sappy. Somedays, I will post deathly dark stuff on here that is, at best, cringe-worthy. But you know what? It’s different today. Hopeful.

Here’s to being …

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My feelings on why we feel depressed and suicidal

September 4th, 2014by LoveIsEverything

I have and still feel extremely depressed and at times suicidal – a helplessness, a feeling that no one really cares and deeply loves, that people are only concerned with their tasks in their busy-ness – in their own business.  Even people that are not suicidal and are adjusted to society, still feel emptiness in their hearts, I believe. I think very few people are genuinely happy and feel love and connection to life.

I think we become suicidal because we feel a terrible emptiness in life, and this emptiness we feel is because we don’t feel deeply connected to others. We get abused, screamed and …

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Inspiration, Hope and Determination

September 4th, 2014by Unlov3d

Well, I sure did put my 2.5 cents in today on many comments. I was inspired, for lack of a better word.

Whew. Apparently, a muse somewhere struck me with the writing bug this morning. Or, y’know, too much caffeine to know what to do with myself.

I will be gone for a few days. My mother’s memorial service is tomorrow, and I’m taking the rest of the weekend to remember and honor her. I’m sad she died, but I’m relieved she’s not suffering anymore. I know without a doubt she’s responsible for the events in the past two days. It’s my mother’s undying love …

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I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

September 4th, 2014by sometimes.its.ok

I used to have suicidal thoughts as a younger teen.  My mother had a rough childhood in China and would accidentally try to force me into her ideal life.  But my mom also would call me a lazy bitch or fat pig (i used to be quite the chubster).  I just want to say that it would have been helpful to know someone loved me out there.  I felt deprived of the affection i deserved.  I understand if you don’t give a bit but i just want all of you to know I LOVE YOU more then you could ever imagine.  All of you no …

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Starting Fresh

September 3rd, 2014by usedgirl

Today has been one of the toughest day of my life. I block all those people who have hurt me. Why bother keeping in touch with them, why bother letting them know that I’m dying, they won’t care. Like today I lost a friendship today. I spoke the truth, but he either didn’t care or just to worry about his past that he didn’t want another problem. Or maybe I was blabbing my mouth just to get him out my life. But I’ve realized that it was a sign. Him and the others weren’t worth my attention because they never wanted it in the first …

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My Mom’s Divine Intervention and an Unexpected Gift

September 3rd, 2014by Unlov3d

Mom's Final Gift

    Yesterday, I got a package in the mail, but it was delivered to my aunt’s house. I went to her house, and when I saw the handwriting on the package, my knees buckled and the tears started to pour out my eyes.

    It was my mother’s handwriting. My aunt explained before my mom died last week, she sent the package to my aunt because she knew she didn’t have much time left. It was postmarked 25 August 2014, two days before she passed away.

    I opened the package, and it was three feet long,

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No Friends

September 3rd, 2014by usedgirl

In my recent story I told people that I was used, but in reality I was using them to feel pleasure, but when it came to having feelings for them, they turned me down. Karma does come around quick. I’ve been out of college for almost 8 months. I didn’t get a job after for what I majored on, instead I worked seasonal at Target. I’ve met cool people. After those 90 days passed, I feel like there’s no point to live. I feel all alone. People don’t bother texting, and if they do is because a guy is horny and wants to have sex. …