Stories of Hope

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Good Day

February 8th, 2016by whiskered-fish

Most of today was spent being really positive and cheery and productive. It was pleasantly peculiar, and very welcome.

Sure, the good mood has since faded, and once again I’m lulling myself to sleep with the sweet thought of death, death, death.. but for now, I’m thankful for the progress I’ve made. Even if it’s just a little bit.

You know what they say about the journey of a thousand miles.

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What is this so called “Family” and what is my Life.

February 8th, 2016by Runil

So i’ve been living throughout this suicide phase for so long, ever since elementary school. I’m less suicidal though, I’ve learned to have self-determination and to live by my own standards and goals. I’m very active now and try to do positive things that helps me ignore the negativity in my life. This thing so called “family” is a word I erased from my dictionary. Family was never there for me. (sorry and excuse me when I jump all over, my thought process is really fucked up so ill cut it into chunks that cut my thoughts)

My story goes like this, typical asian scenario where …

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your_eyes_Mkna_thme (day two)

January 26th, 2016by youwillneverknowme

unabridged

the morning starts off good, and will probably continue to be good as nothing has obstructed us recently. she looks beautiful today (by beautiful i mean she looks the same as every other day), somewhere in the back of my head a phrase pops up but i can’t place out where: “we buy balloons, we let them go”. where could this have possibly come from? i feel like this phrase is a piece of art that has been left dormant.

“hello, i’m wearing something new, bruh” i awkwardly quavered. this ruins my confidence and i want to go into a shell.
“hi,” she smiles, making me happy …

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12

My faith

January 25th, 2016by teresa45

I tried to kill myself last Tuesday.  I don’t remember anything except waking up in the hospital.  This was my third attempt.  How do I keep surviving?  I pray so much that my prayers are me actually begging God to help me.  Still no answers.  Am I here to be punished?  People speak of a hell after we die.  Does it really exist or is this really hell and there is nothing after this.  I want to believe so bad there is something good after this hell i’m in on this earth.

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I know you love me infinitely. :-)

January 24th, 2016by Peace

Things aren’t good lately. But it’s going extremely well with my LuV.  :-)

She loves me infinitely. :-)
And I am so lucky to have her. :-)

She makes me smile in my hard times. :-)

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innocence_Mkna_thme

January 23rd, 2016by youwillneverknowme

under the stars, alone with you,
until now, i didn’t actually know you.
you provide something new,
you set aside something distant.

you know you’re detached,
i know you would relocate, and that’s okay.
it’s either your hopes or my dreams,
let’s not worry about it.

together we saw a shooting star,
it didn’t go far.
it suddenly stopped,
hours have passed within seconds.

your pupils are tiny,
and your eyes are so shiny.
i smiled when i looked into your eyes,
as you stated that you wished we could fly.

now here we are,
somewhere up here.
flying and soaring,
it’s not getting boring.

we’re like two shooting stars,
and when you leave, everything stops.
hours pass within seconds,
until i see you again.

– – – …

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tempt…

January 22nd, 2016by nonexistingsoul

Yesterday I was at the condo unit of my friend with some blockmates. We decided to hang out there. They have 3 doubled deck. I lay down on the top bed near the window. I tried opening the window but they were mad at me. Maybe they know that I might jump out of the window. They know how crazy and mad I am. But I told them I wouldn’t jump. Not yet. And they let me open it but they were guarding me. I opened it and took my feet out. I looked down. I was very tempted to jump. It’s like I can …

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Maybe..

January 21st, 2016by nonexistingsoul

I finally finished reading My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga. After reading it, it makes me rethink about suiciding. It makes me think that maybe I can be fixed back again. That maybe I can recover. That maybe I can still be saved. But I think what I’m feeling right now is just temporary. I know tomorrow I’ll be depress all over again. But I know somewhere deep inside me, I’m begging to be saved from this black hole.

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How Ironically Hopeful and beautiful It Is ?

January 13th, 2016by Peace

For me : My love cares for me alot, alot.

But before she came, I also used to think that no one cares which lot of you guys think and feel.

And I know this for certain that we(SP) care. We(SP) care when any member of our family feel low or go thru any horrible situation. So don’t ever think that no one cares.

How ironically hopeful and beautiful,  it is ? :-)

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Feeling better

January 5th, 2016by Elizabeth

Today I thought would be like any other but it was better than normal

I didn’t want to die as much today then normal

I didn’t hate my friends

I wasnt feeling hopeless for once after a long time of sadness

But tomarrow will probaly be sad again

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Dear Bully ..

January 3rd, 2016by Lupe

You Wont Break Me ..
Cuz You Just Made Me …
Stronger Than I Was ..

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coping

December 31st, 2015by idontknowwhattodohelp

a few days ago I wrote what i thought would be my goodbye note, and this is still on my mind and whilst the idea of suicide is still dominant in my mind I’ve found ways of coping, they’re not healthy but at least they’re better (in some peoples minds) than killing myself, they’re still unhealthy, i know that is is not the right way to deal with things but right not I’ve been cutting a lot, i don’t want to be told this is wrong because i know it is, but someone here to speak to would be very helpful, the pain and adrenaline …

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Reasons to Live #1: Copper

December 23rd, 2015by whiskered-fish

I decided to start forcing myself to write posts about the many reasons I have to live. They won’t be in any particular order or anything; I’m just going to write them as I think of them.

So here goes my first reason: My cat, Copper.

He’s sleeping beside me as I write this, flicking his tail every so often. Probably having very sweet dreams.

We took him in around August, I believe. That’s how the story starts. He was only eight months old, then. My aunt had found him lingering around outside her house, visibly emaciated and begging very loudly for food. She has two cats herself, …

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X-sighting

X-sighting

December 17th, 2015by SeeSmith

Some info about X, the artist formerly known as freeroma.

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My Story

December 17th, 2015by _.twelfth._

This year I was diagnosed with a metabolic disorder towards my eyes. And my diet changed completely.

Then around May time this year I started to feel depressed, suicidal and I had anxiety. And I started cutting.

Then I promised my best friend I would stop cutting. I broke that promise twice. This time I promised and he made me swear on his life:(

A month ago I found out my dietitian thinks I need Physchologist, she thinks something’s wrong with me.

About a week ago I had surgery. And then about 2days ago I did the most stupidest move in the world and it could’ve ruined my …

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My story: A missing puzzle piece.

December 15th, 2015by cland32

Everybody has their own life, their own background, their own story. A little piece to my big puzzle of life was reshaped last year, January 7, 2015, at 2:47 when I was in the shower, listening to “What hurts the most” by Rascal Flatts, my song stopped. Though my phone had just died, but it did not. I was getting texts, and phone calls. Right when I step out of the shower I look down, and I had multiple missed calls from Jaydan. I call back, not thinking it would be any bad news, just thinking she wanted to hang out, and the words came …

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.awkward

December 10th, 2015by hydrastrikes

I have a huge crush on one guy from school for, like, forever now.. New country and new school was a rough start for me, but when I saw him for the first time, everything slowed down, my heart stopped and my brain freeze. His eyes are pale gray and when he looks at me I feel as if he is burning through my soul right out. It hurts my bones to see him, for a moment each time I see him I get a strange stabbing sensation all over my body. I am a pain addict in general, I don’t like self harm, but …

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I’m okay

December 7th, 2015by Within Evanescence

I’m (feeling) okay.

Nothing happened, I just feel better.

I go to a psychologist every Tuesday and I guess it helps. I haven’t really told her about my suicidal urges, but I have said that ‘death sometimes crosses my mind,’

I’m moving my stuff around the house because I am making one of the small rooms of the house into my own game-room. Actually doing this is a sign that I’m feeling better.

I’ve still had thoughts of suicide, but not that often very bad ones. I’ve still got all the letters and all the ‘materials’, but I think that if I’d attempt suicide that I’m going to rewrite …

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The best two months I’ve had in years

December 7th, 2015by ismedyl

its been a while since I’ve posted on SP mainly because I’ve been pretty happy lately. About 2 months ago I had a big fight with my mom and I told her to shove it and that I would rather live in my car than live with her so that’s what I did. Yeah I had the balls to do it so I did I slept in my car for 2 weeks and I was extremely bored but happier than I was at home and then I told my ex girlfriend and her parents took me in because they always liked me only one was …

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Go to bed wanting to die, wake up wanting to die

December 4th, 2015by rayonhousefly

That’s how it goes. I’m not looking for sympathy or empathy or anything really, just felt like finally posting something after being registered for such a long while and not doing anything with it.

My stories the same as most, severe depression since I was young, when my mom got injured at work and I basically lost her, at least in my mind how it felt. She was a single mom so with no one else there to help us, it was up to me to take care of everything. That wasn’t so bad really, I liked the responsibility.

Fast forward a few years, I’m 12 or …

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