Stories of Hope

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I went to a psychiatric ward

February 27th, 2015by GlumPenguin

I went to a psychiatric ward after I tried to kill myself about a month ago. My first two days I wanted nothing to do with the place. I didn’t get out of my bed I just laid there not doing anything but sleeping. But after about two days I got up and went to one of the psych education class/support group they had in the unit. We sat down and did a collage of anything that made us happy/helped us cope with our conditions. Up until this point I had already gave up on living, I didn’t want to go on. I felt like …

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i dont know what is out there

February 27th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

RIP Psych$in AKA Killswitchon AKA Pat

RIP Psych$in AKA Killswitchon AKA Pat

but if something or somebody is listening. im sorry. im sorry for existing… i must be getting tortured for somethign i did. this must be some sort of back lash. maybe im just evil. maybe im just not meant to be here. maybe im just finished. dear god, or whatever the fuck is out there. angel, know that i have no hope. im tired. exhausted. destroyed and in shambles. no hope. no sanity. no peace. no life. broken beyond repair. im crying right …

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forever ain’t forever and ever; but you got time darling

February 25th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

I won’t say I didn’t truly feel something for you. I don’t really feel it as much now of course after everything that has transpired. And let’s be honest, my emotions are kinda like the wind — fickle. Very fickle. I can love somebody in one moment and the next, gone! Emotions all gone. I almost feel bad because I lead people on because of it. You and I are very similar. I see why you said those things. I see why you do it. I see why you seek love. I see why. I don’t blame you really. I hate your treatment of me …

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Love song for a friend

February 24th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

my male friend asked me to write him a love song apologizing to his ex girlfriend. this is the last favor i will probably do for him. he confessed he loved me romantically last night. i think i’m bi too. but it just pushed me away. im not sure what my sexuality is. maybe bi curious. i just love connection in general i suppose. i dont know. i never did anything with a guy since i was a super young kid and explore as kids do… i think kids just like to get naked. i know i did when i was a kid. anyway, off …

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So it happened again tonight….

February 24th, 2015by serenityseeker

Will it ever end? Will it ever stop? I have so many questions and no answers for any of them. I have no idea what anyone else reality is but i can tell you for sure that mine is shit. I have absolutely nothing to stand on, no foundation or stable ground that I can always rely upon for safety or otherwise. Does anyone know what i am talking about?
I seem to chase away everyone that I love because I am so tired of hurting them all of the time. Every emotion that I have comes across as angry, even when I am hurt …

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I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life

February 23rd, 2015by niki

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !

I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future

you see ,.. Reality / real world / real life …

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Look to the skies

February 22nd, 2015by dreamyskies

Some of my earliest memories are of my mother giving me up for adoption ( I was classified as a ‘child in need’). As I child, I didn’t realize she had given me up, I merely thought I was staying with family for a while. I remember two different families I stayed with for some time. The first family I stayed with, the V’s, I can barely remember. The V’s were nice, but were more interested the other child there than they were with me. The one I remember the most, lets call them the ‘D’s’, were my second family. I loved the …

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What made your day?

February 22nd, 2015by Silverbird

If not today, the last day something ‘made your day’?

What was it?

(a positive post from me, for once…)

I had my day made today, just now, and it wasn’t even ‘today’ because today’s already over, whatever…but…it was finding a ‘pink lemonade’ flavoured jolly-rancher-lollipop in the cheap bag of valentines candy I got for half off a couple days ago…fuckin best flavor ever!

I will legit mail these fuckin things out if they’d make anyone else’s day, so you’d better say if you want one! lol

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inescapable “depression”

February 16th, 2015by Voidt

Do you agree with this view: “Depression is the illness of civilization, without civilization, we’d be happy: We’d be happy without depression. Without depression we would not have the beautiful arts: novels, plays, paintings. If we were happy we wouldn’t need the arts. Without our depression happiness as a concept would not exist”.

https://todayistblogger.wordpress.com/2015/02/17/depression/

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so i didnt sleep last night and i feel kinda energized manic again i guess talked to my friend online from egypt all morning she’s fine she said just a agruement with her guy i heard sounded more like fighting to me but whatever. i’m sure whenever i lay down and be still i’ll go […]

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my theme song for this month

February 16th, 2015by Khaliladivine28

by: seasons after

cry little sister cover

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100 Reasons to Live

February 14th, 2015by Ryder

And here are 100 reasons to keep going.
A few might be similar to each other, but nothing’s perfect.

You should live:
1. Because you care about the world.
2. There’s a lot to live for.
3. You have dreams to fulfill.
4. Life eventually gets better.
5. You’re afraid of death.
6. Because you can flip your life around.
7. Because people need you to live.
8. Because someone out there loves you.
9. For religion.
10. To help someone worse off than you.
11. To find the perfect job or career.
12. To fall in love.
13. Because there’s a reason we’re on this planet.
14. You want to experience future music, movies, games, technology,

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It gets better.

February 11th, 2015by Danny26

So, I’m just updating here to say that I think things have gotten better for me. Extremely better, and all in the course of 24 hours. That’s right…. just one day. Basically I told someone that I was planning to kill myself and right after that I felt a massive weight was lifted off my shoulders. I’ve been able to control my overthinking more in the past few hours than I ever have before (I’m actually starting to realize when I overthink!), and I can also tell that I will not be contemplating suicide again anytime soon. I’ve never felt so good in my life, and I …

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A Secretly Sweet, Salacious Serenade For Your Sanctimoniously Severed, Sojourning Soul (Spoken)

February 8th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

Aeris Gainsborough: Everything’s fine now.
Cloud Strife: Yeah. I’m not alone. Not anymore. — Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children

A Secretly Sweet, Salacious Serenade For Your Sanctimoniously Severed, Sojourning Soul

A vicariously vexed vagabond whom vivaciously, voraciously chases ventures unknown?

Or am I a delapidated demonic deceiver discovering a deep seated desire for destructive denouements?

Tell me.

Enlighten me.

Show me.

Now hear me.

Unveil your unkempt undulating unseen unsung heart, hidden underneath the unfairly, uncouth unabashedly unrelentingly unsinkable manic misery.

I played your spirit’s strings like a well-tuned violent violin while listlessly listening to the melodramatic melody of vilifying vitriol.

Let me vanish in vane after I vanquish the needle in vein, oh so …

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Erroneous Regrets

February 7th, 2015by Psych$in (kills)

Em X20s and some minor vocals and bit of D

Em D
Seething rage manifests in snarls and growls
Em D
Refuted and respected by …

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fuck reality , fuck real life , fuck real world , because reality / real-world / real-life is boring ! Imagination /dreams / fantasy is better than reality / real-world / real-life !

February 5th, 2015by niki

I think (some) people would agree that our everyday’s reality / real life / real world life is boring, mundane, repetitive routines, jobs, to make money, and even the ‘fun’ stuff like party, sex, dance, etc in the end still can’t beat our wildest dreams / imagination / fantasy .

Movies , video games , comics , books , novels , anime , manga often are a HUNDRED times much more interesting than this mundane, dull, LIMITED / LIMITING, boring reality / boring reallife / boring realworld !
eg: Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, X-Men, Marvel heroes / comics , Star Wars, Star Trek, TRON, …

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Virtual Reality is escape from boring reality sucks , Virtual Reality is escape from boring real world sucks , Virtual Reality is escape from boring real life suck !

January 30th, 2015by niki

Virtual Reality is escape from boring reality suck ,
Virtual Reality is escape from boring real world suck ,
Virtual Reality is escape from boring real life sucks !

We all know that this Reality / Real-world / Real-life is very LIMITED / LIMITING !
everyday we do the same routines , chores , go make money , make money / profits , go to boring shitty jobs because of money , and then we go have fun, party, sex, entertainment etc etc , and then it repeats again !
What’s so interesting about that ??
I’ve observed that most people who actually LOVE all those boring things …

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January 29th, 2015by Pretend Girl

I was encouraged by impefertluck to write tonight.

There are so many people hurting and so much pain. Know you can get through your personal struggle and hurts. It can often seem like you can’t. Feelings lie. Maybe that sounds pretentious. Feelings lead us to conclude things we never would have if the feelings hadn’t been so strong.

I have dealt with my depression for over 20 years. I had counseling but no one listened to me when I talked about the pain of my family life so many years before. So, instead of understanding that the depression came from a situation I had no control over, …

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The Otherside

January 29th, 2015by imperfectluck

During my darkest times in life, I had nothing to resort to but pain and misery, on the brink of ending it all looking down at the depths of it all and seeing peace and happiness once and for all. I thought I could never be saved and nearly killed myself 3 times but somehow I just wouldn’t die. I’ve been to an asylum, etc. talked to various shrinks but at the end of the day, none of it could help, only I could. That was 4 years ago during my junior year of high school when I was displaced from everything I knew of. …

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My (shortend) story: Self-Mutilation, Anorexia, Bipolar Disorder, Major Anxiety, and more

January 26th, 2015by Thesomebodytoknow2

I don’t know what the f**k I did to deserve this, I just made one mistake. It all started in 4th grade. I was the very quiet one, a lot of stuff was going around in my mind. I told this one person I was bisexual, I mean, after all she did ask. The next thing I knew, everyone asked me “is it true? Is it true?” I didn’t know what they meant. They explained, the secret was out. For the next 3 years, it was harassment, verbal abuse, physical violence, you. FUCKING. NAME. IT. My life was $#lT. I was a mess. I got …