Stories of Hope

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Lost of Enjoyment

August 24th, 2014by fallenstar23

As I breathe deep and clear, even though you’re there I feel alone. I stand waiting as I’m here wandering capturing the capacity of everyone’s joy and laughter.

Though the key to myself is lost. I can’t live as before, where it was easy to become a friend to someone.

As I open my eyes I’m slowly becoming tortured by the way I feel with myself. How do I stop becoming this way I ask.

One day though it will become better as for all of us.

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awake and dreaming: grey unto light

August 24th, 2014by copelessness

I often see the world as grey and without color or definition. This isn’t how I actually see the world of course. It’s more how I feel it to be.
In this world, I see this array of grey, these objects and structures and beings. As part of it, I am just as grey as they are, yet somehow different in a way that eludes me. I interact with them in my own subdued way and treat them kindly, hoping to be treated as such in return. Many are kind back, some are indifferent, and some are suspicious or …

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I dream

August 21st, 2014by thecount

I have suffered from depression for decades along with addictions etc. In the early 90′s, at my last re-hab
without any warning I began to write poetry. It just came to me. It seemed effortless. Fast forward to Robin Williams suicide, the medias response, such as what did he have to be depressed about? That is such a selfish act, prompted me to jump into the fray. I KNOW what the feeling is like that killing yourself is the only way to stop the unbearable pain. So I posted one of my poems on Facebook. Last night I spoke with my sister, who told me that …

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is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

August 21st, 2014by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & …

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Falling from the Nest

August 20th, 2014by hopeisontheway

Do you every feel like a baby bird?

A baby bird is helpless when it first hatches.

They do not know how to fly, and they do not know how to survive without their mothers.

There’s always that one baby bird that gets everything right.

It doesn’t plummet to its death when it tries to fly; it soars, and it is able to go on with its life independently.

And then there’s you.

You’re the one that can’t get up.

You’re the one that gets left behind when the rest of your siblings go out for something useful.

You’re the one left to freeze to death as the rest fly to hibernation.

You can’t …

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the world is not beautiful, not right now

August 20th, 2014by trapped_taco

hi, first post. Suicide’s been in the news for the first time in a while, it seems..

I’ve been thinking about suicide and how the idea that it is bad, conflicts with several messages society sends. the idea that it is acceptable conflicts with other societal messages, and the idea it’s good obviously conflicts with many messages.

but just sort of thinking about life, society, humanity as a whole…. for anyone who tends to think logically on a macro (to the point where it’s difficult to form emotional attachments to real people in your close surroundings), why do people send out black-and-white messages to people? Whether it’s …

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Questions

August 20th, 2014by KissOfDeath

What in life makes it so hard for you to stay?

 

What is your magic potion?

 

What has made you stay this long?

 

What’s the thing you’ll miss the most?

 

Who do you think will miss you the most?

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Should you commit suicide?

Should you commit suicide?

August 14th, 2014by TheLastHope

I am heartbroken by how many lives suffer daily. Abused, tortured, bullied… I often just want to leave the earth and take man kind along with me, but I can’t.

I am making this post to say to all people, non matter where you are, if you have mixed feelings if you should kill yourself. Then speak to me.

I used to be suicidal myself. My life was luckily good. I had education, middle class, but my head. My head killed me constantly. Causing me to injure myself to get it to stop. I am better. Kinda, and I decided that I want to spend my time …

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my story, briefly

August 14th, 2014by indububly

I looked through some old stuff of mine today. It seems like the past three weeks have been about understanding around when hell began. I found a diary from when I was 13, seven years ago. As I read it I’ve noticed some minor symptoms of depression, so, the illness actually existed a long time before I knew it, but it definitely reached its peak two years ago.

I just joined the army then, and lasted four days. It was the purest hell I couldn’t imagine. Pain, all over. Not that physical, tolerable pain. Emotional pain. Nothing seemed important anymore. Not my family, not my life. Then, on the …

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Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??

August 14th, 2014by niki

Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world …

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A Tribute to My Brother and to My Friend Kevin (Iamzero)

August 14th, 2014by jasonsbigsis

“And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depths until the hour of separation.”-Khalil Gibran

Today has been a heart-wrenching day. I woke up knowing it was the 2 month mark of when my little brother took his life. It has been a devastating loss that has shattered my world. He is a part of my soul and always has been and I feel tremendous loss.

And then I received an email this morning from a dear friend known here as Iamzero, stating that he was sorry but that he could not go on any longer and wished me thanks and love. Love …

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A Momentary Lapse of Reason

August 13th, 2014by teardownthewall

Beautifully Fitting Music

I would like to share with you all a moment in my life where I felt the value of living.

I am a big fan of comic books. When I was younger I would consume manga (Japanese comics) which led to my later love in life of American graphic novels and great American literature in general. My favorite graphic novelist is Alan Moore. If you’ve never heard of him I’m sure you’ve heard of some of his works. He’s the mind behind the League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, V for Vendetta, From Hell, Lost Girls, the Killing Joke, and Watchmen. He’s a wonderful man …

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I hate money , money sucks , money make people shallow & superficial !

August 12th, 2014by niki

I hate Money
because it makes people (& society , Humanity as a whole) very shallow & superficial these days / nowadays / today !

90% (or perhaps even more?) Majority / Most people nowadays / today seems to only think about how to make money, how to be rich (and famous), and all/everything of the notion of “success” is simply/only just measured by how much Money (or materials / materialistic stuff) you have.

Most people are so brainwashed by just that mere piece of papers, that they think almost EVERYTHING today/nowadays is & must being ‘ruled/controlled’ by that -ironically- human’s own invention !
Most people I see nowadays …

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I Just Want to Help

August 11th, 2014by Beans10796

Hello Everyone!

This is my first post on this site and I just want to start off saying that I am 17 years old. I am just here because I can’t understand exactly how your pain is but I can tell you how mine was/is and how I got through it. There is people out there that when you tell them that you have been thinking about suicide they say, Oh I know how you feel. No you don’t…

The first thoughts of suicide came when I was around 13 or 14 years old.

Through all of the people that I have known, having it be Real Life …

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Fuck Jesus; Querida Take The Wheel

August 7th, 2014by killswitchon

I don’t even mind if we hit a few sidewalks on the way. I’m done driving us to liquor stores and almost getting us killed with my recklessness. Last name may be Villeneuve but I have no relation to Jacques the Formula 1 driver. So you drive. Take us to a cachoeira where we can drown our worries in a pool of nothing but our deepest hopes for each other. <3
MCR–Demolition Lovers (Piano Cover) — Not my best and ain't my worst but it's ok for a thoughtful thursday.

FOR C4 as promised: I expect this to rev my SP street cred back up to …

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Everything Happens for a Reason

August 7th, 2014by flamingo152

“I guess everything happens for a reason. With love, goodbye.” These are the last lines found in the suicide note of my close friend Melissa Cameron who died nearly five years ago. Melissa and I were close friends in high school with a common struggle, we both suffered with extreme depression and thoughts of suicide, and although our friendship was originally formed on much lighter principals, it quickly turned into a relationship based on secrecy and what we considered to be “support.” Due to our suicidal tendencies, sharing ideas on different ways to kill ourselves became normal conversation, and we eventually made an agreement that …

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It’s not okay, and that’s okay.

August 6th, 2014by iamsamijo

One year ago today I was faced with the most difficult task I’ve ever had to do in my 21 years. With the help of amazing men in my life, I checked myself into the hospital for 8 days where I was diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 Depression. Following those days, I began a long road of outpatient therapy. I learned to value myself, to care for others in ways that would no longer hurt me, and to believe in what I have. I made some incredible friends along the way. This adorable kid we call “Ducky” gave me hope when I walked into the …

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Forever and Always–Nunca Adeus, Olá Sempre<3

August 5th, 2014by killswitchon

minha querida <3 my little chuchu. I love you so much and I want this song to be a testament of my heart for you. Let the melody say everything I'm unable to express in any language–even the most romantic one being Portuguese (;. If Pegasus flew as he should, without stopping to sight see that is, my package will be arriving in your jungle city by this evening–this is not a euphemism you sick SP fucks. >_<

Você é o amor da minha vida. Eu nunca duvidei que a partir do momento …

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four.

August 4th, 2014by emwhy

My last attempt at “100 days of happiness” is laughable. I got to day two before saying ‘fuck it’, so now I’m back to good old fashioned venting posts.. hence the numbering “four”. I guess I’m not cut out for that gimmicky bullshit. But I get a pat on the back for trying.

So today, it finally dawned on me that I need to lay off the carbs and sugar. I seriously feel like complete shit. Aside from the expected bloating, lack of physical energy, gain of ~6 pounds in the past month, constant breakouts… I’ve been feeling mentally slow, sluggish, lackluster. I woke up at …

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Wear a condom before you fuck my mind

August 4th, 2014by killswitchon

My Canadian George St. Pierre "GSP" Fight Face

My Canadian George St. Pierre “GSP” Fight Face

Fair warning this is a rant. Just sayin’.
What the flying fuck eh? Sometimes I just don’t understand what the issue is. I try and try and try to no avail. I put in so much effort whether its seen or unseen remains to be revealed–but i do try. I try so fuckin’ hard. When it comes to life and the plethora of issues I MMA octagon fight in the ring I train hard. I fight hard. I play hard. …

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