Stories of Hope

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life for me

March 31st, 2015by kate21guns

my past is bad i was sexually abused and beat. My real dad died when i was two of a car wreck.Ive attempted suicide three times in my life and the last time i almost ended it. I still self harm and its how i cope with all the things that i go through.

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When you feel at the end of your limit, set a new limit

March 26th, 2015by Pretend Girl

I have had some rough days and nights. One night I came to my limit! I was worn out, exhausted at dealing with all my depression, anxiety, fears, anger…etc by MYSELF! I called my crisis line and got a guy that when I talk to him, I do not feel comfort. I decide, as he answers, I will tell him I only needed to tell someone how sad I was, how worn out I was and that was all. He goes into a speech trying to give me advice and I tell him, I am not looking for advice, I just want to share that feeling so …

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How I Didn’t Commit Suicide in a Theater

March 24th, 2015by Riolkin

I stood on the railing in complete darkness. The glow tape on the stage below gave me an idea of the distance I would be falling. It wouldn’t be enough on it’s own, I’d have to dive head first in order to finish the job. The warmth of the upper level of the theater was comforting in what I thought were my final moments. My balance shifted, causing the thin cuts above my knee to reopen, my blood mixing with the nervous sweat I was covered in.

From this vantage point I could see all parts of the stage. I often came to this very spot …

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To Those Who May Have Lost Hope

March 19th, 2015by katie_bear12

I am going to tell my life story up to today. There is a point to this, so just bear through all of this. I promise, it may be worth reading. I’ve been familiar with sad things for my whole life. When I was five, my mom kicked my dad out because he was an alcoholic and a drug user; he also treated her very badly. I remember seeing him occasionally after that. I didn’t realize what my dad was into until I was much older, where I grew up watching him drink and abuse his girlfriend. In 2nd grade, a man moved in with …

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rant then poem & art

March 19th, 2015by Stereotype

I had 4 public speaking engagements in three days, I taught a class and then went to a kick off for a charity walk.  No classes this week – spring break.  I still have a shitload of homework to do but I am about to leave for Niagara Falls to gamble for a 3 day vacation.  I am on the Deans list with honors 4 semesters in a row but I think this class I’m taking is going to drop my GPA.  So I joined a couple honor societies while I still have the GPA to be invited to these things.  I need something to …

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It’s the fear, Dear Heart

March 13th, 2015by Pretend Girl

Last night as I started to go to sleep I felt fear. It was odd because I had spent an hour on the phone with a good friend. I think the contrast of my talk with her and my empty apt and life was too much for me. I finally journaled about it and that helped some. But it was late and I was still awake- again for the umpteen time.

Finally I realized something. I was fighting control. Control of my emotions, control of sleeplessness. Fighting the feeling I am not whole, never will be. And maybe half dozen other active fears. :-< As I …

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Where I come from.

March 11th, 2015by maybeoneday1213123

I was born in Surrey, British Columbia on an early spring morning. My mother, being accompanied by only her parents was resting from the harsh birth just hours prior. My mother was married just weeks prior to her admittance into the hospital and with some surprise, my father entered the room with another woman. He wasn’t one to stay with the same woman for long before he’d discard the relationship to move on. The first two years were hell, I was abandoned in my crib for elongated hours with nothing more than a sippy cup of apple juice. My biological parents were incapable of

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My Story Part 1

March 10th, 2015by whatawaist2000

At age 6 I was raped. I covered it up, pretended to be happy. Pretended it didn’t happen. I was extremely shy and scared of people. He told me he would kill me if I told anyone.

When I was 7 my family moved. Leaving the man who raped me behind. I still miss the country side, my brother and I would go into the woods and catch animals. We had 2 begals, my dad traded them for a pig. He slautered it.

When school started I wasn’t very popular, and people bullied me. Calling me crack hills when I bent over, shoving me in the hall, …

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Truth of life.

March 2nd, 2015by deathisbliss

I wait….I linger…

I want truth I yearn for an answer.

But truth is not a reality offered by the do it yourself god salesmen.

I WANT to believe but I am not dumb enough to buy the well it has no influence on reality or the ohhh it has nothing to do with reality people.

The truth is NOT religion is basically a BS I will believe personal rant….

NONE of that has ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING….

Unless God is standing back stay ohhh yeah hah hah hah that is stupid….I don’t care about how much CRAP people do in my name….roflmao…..yeah……unless god is a teenage moron.  He/she does …

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First post!!

March 2nd, 2015by dead_angel831

Im female, I’m 14 and have been self harming for 3yrs now. I was raped 5 times all by different people, beat by my step mom, ignored by my father, and I have tried to kill myself countless times. I have a few close friends that know what I’ve gone through and I have a girlfriend who is completely oblivious to the shit I’ve gone through… I just wanted to put a brief summary of my story out there so people know that sometimes it could be worst. Try and stay strong

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I went to a psychiatric ward

February 27th, 2015by GlumPenguin

I went to a psychiatric ward after I tried to kill myself about a month ago. My first two days I wanted nothing to do with the place. I didn’t get out of my bed I just laid there not doing anything but sleeping. But after about two days I got up and went to one of the psych education class/support group they had in the unit. We sat down and did a collage of anything that made us happy/helped us cope with our conditions. Up until this point I had already gave up on living, I didn’t want to go on. I felt like …

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i dont know what is out there

February 27th, 2015by killswitchon

RIP Psych$in AKA Killswitchon AKA Pat

RIP Psych$in AKA Killswitchon AKA Pat

but if something or somebody is listening. im sorry. im sorry for existing… i must be getting tortured for somethign i did. this must be some sort of back lash. maybe im just evil. maybe im just not meant to be here. maybe im just finished. dear god, or whatever the fuck is out there. angel, know that i have no hope. im tired. exhausted. destroyed and in shambles. no hope. no sanity. no peace. no life. broken beyond repair. im crying right …

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forever ain’t forever and ever; but you got time darling

February 25th, 2015by killswitchon

I won’t say I didn’t truly feel something for you. I don’t really feel it as much now of course after everything that has transpired. And let’s be honest, my emotions are kinda like the wind — fickle. Very fickle. I can love somebody in one moment and the next, gone! Emotions all gone. I almost feel bad because I lead people on because of it. You and I are very similar. I see why you said those things. I see why you do it. I see why you seek love. I see why. I don’t blame you really. I hate your treatment of me …

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Love song for a friend

February 24th, 2015by killswitchon

my male friend asked me to write him a love song apologizing to his ex girlfriend. this is the last favor i will probably do for him. he confessed he loved me romantically last night. i think i’m bi too. but it just pushed me away. im not sure what my sexuality is. maybe bi curious. i just love connection in general i suppose. i dont know. i never did anything with a guy since i was a super young kid and explore as kids do… i think kids just like to get naked. i know i did when i was a kid. anyway, off …

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So it happened again tonight….

February 24th, 2015by serenityseeker

Will it ever end? Will it ever stop? I have so many questions and no answers for any of them. I have no idea what anyone else reality is but i can tell you for sure that mine is shit. I have absolutely nothing to stand on, no foundation or stable ground that I can always rely upon for safety or otherwise. Does anyone know what i am talking about?
I seem to chase away everyone that I love because I am so tired of hurting them all of the time. Every emotion that I have comes across as angry, even when I am hurt …

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I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life

February 23rd, 2015by niki

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !

I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future

you see ,.. Reality / real world / real life …

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Look to the skies

February 22nd, 2015by dreamyskies

Some of my earliest memories are of my mother giving me up for adoption ( I was classified as a ‘child in need’). As I child, I didn’t realize she had given me up, I merely thought I was staying with family for a while. I remember two different families I stayed with for some time. The first family I stayed with, the V’s, I can barely remember. The V’s were nice, but were more interested the other child there than they were with me. The one I remember the most, lets call them the ‘D’s’, were my second family. I loved the …

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What made your day?

February 22nd, 2015by Silverbird

If not today, the last day something ‘made your day’?

What was it?

(a positive post from me, for once…)

I had my day made today, just now, and it wasn’t even ‘today’ because today’s already over, whatever…but…it was finding a ‘pink lemonade’ flavoured jolly-rancher-lollipop in the cheap bag of valentines candy I got for half off a couple days ago…fuckin best flavor ever!

I will legit mail these fuckin things out if they’d make anyone else’s day, so you’d better say if you want one! lol

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inescapable “depression”

February 16th, 2015by Voidt

Do you agree with this view: “Depression is the illness of civilization, without civilization, we’d be happy: We’d be happy without depression. Without depression we would not have the beautiful arts: novels, plays, paintings. If we were happy we wouldn’t need the arts. Without our depression happiness as a concept would not exist”.

https://todayistblogger.wordpress.com/2015/02/17/depression/

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