Stories of Hope

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An actor’s suicide

September 30th, 2014by LuxuriousBunny

Hi, im Bunny and i like to meet new people, would you guys be my friends? ah, nice to know.

 

Well, about me? I like to act, to sing, i love going to the gym ! Friends?  I dont know… looks like im a popular boy, everyone wants to go bed with me… ops, bed? i meant everyone cares for me. Oh quite the hypocrisy, no one cares to anyone, they just wanna bed you, you’re a mere toll, was I? Oh yeah… rape me please, as you do again and again.

 

Oh Isaque, your skin seems so pretty, can I touch it? Sure you can milady.

Which moisturizer …

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Just another “how to die” post…

September 27th, 2014by ShellOfAGirlThatWas

I just turned 18 about a month ago… But for a long time I’ve suffered from suicidal thoughts.. I’ve attempted it before, but failed and ended up in a hospital to be watched.. They released me in two days… I tried to come back from it, and nearly succeeded… But now, I just don’t want to continue this battle anymore…

When I was younger… I was left in a foster home… I got physically abused, and verbally. I was sexually harassed, and yet… I struggled on… I thought of running away so often I nearly did it… But I was afraid… Then someone “saved” me… Turns …

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It Needs To Stop

September 23rd, 2014by hooded_girl

1 became 2, then 2 to 4. 1 cut every time my heart fell to the floor.
4 became 5, then 5 to 8. 1 cut every time I’ve experienced self-hate.
8 became 9, then 9 to 11. 1 cut every time I wish I was in Heaven.
11 became 12, then 12 to 16. 1 cut every time they were ever mean.
16 became 17, then 17 to 21. 1 last cut before my life was done.
1 cut, 2 cut, 3 cut, 4.
Loss of blood, my mind began to flood, as my life went on no more.
Self-Harm is like a drug to some, addictive and sweet.
To feel something, …

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Suicide > Website

September 22nd, 2014by DayDreamer6

This website isn’t helping. I’m at my lowest, I need help, yet no one helps. Thanks.

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whats my purpose…

September 19th, 2014by mrlopez1415

This feeling of, ‘wanting to just die’ has last for about 4 years now.  I’ve tried hanging myself multiple times, but I always fail…  I use to walk down the road hoping a car would hit me.  I’ve had close near death experiences from drugs and alcohol, but wonder why I hadn’t died?  That raises the question to what is my purpose on this planet.  Nowadays, I have no urge to kill myself, but just hopes that something would just end me instantly. So now I try to hope everyday, that a miracle (that I think in the back of my mind won’t happen) would …

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Twenty two Twenty two seconds you consumed my heart Twenty two minutes my fortress of solitude fell apart Twenty two hours I knew you were mine from the start Twenty two days your merciless death grip shot through my chest Twenty two months I’ll give you my life and until we’re together I won’t rest […]

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Happiness

September 17th, 2014by shatteredsoul1350

It may look like we have everything
Everything should be perfect so you can live the best life….
Wrong
Sometimes all you need is support and happiness
I can tell for some people, they have all that
As for me
I just want to be happy…

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Wow ep. 3

September 16th, 2014by 5 seconds of stendarr

One quaint morning in a humble land populated by those that ritually humped donkeys every 4 years or whenever a ceremony appointing someone to lead them into the next phase of unrest occurred someone named Michael drove up a hill. Michael was invariably retarded with fluctuating phases of mental psychosis, the symptoms of his latter condition expressed through wearing cowboy boots in a fashion identical to grown men that genuinely had the IQ of a sack of shit. Michael himself had an IQ of a sack of shit but those around him inflated his ego deceivingly by telling him he only had the IQ of …

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What happens when you put the phone down on a crisis call?

September 15th, 2014by pinkcoconut

The police turn up at your house. Even when they don’t know where you live.

I called an urgent mental care health line trying to get some help with not hurting myself. The nurse quizzed me on my address because it might affect where I have my CBT. I felt like he wasn’t trying to talk sense into me and was instead just trying to fill out a form. I shouted at him asking him whether he was going to help me right now or not, and he said he needed my address for my long term care. I put the phone down on him. …

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Thoughts & Advice for Suicide or Survival – Suicidals Please Read

September 15th, 2014by coconut

I found this site last night when I was in a bad state. I haven’t been suicidal since I was 19 and am now 22, but came here looking for a supportive voice because even though I’ve escaped my battles I still feel the after effects (details in my earlier post). After reading some posts I’m concerned. Remember I have been there and I know how it is. I am being very honest and my comments on how to go, how to not go, motivation and survival preparation are towards the end.

Suicide:

1. If you want to kill yourself that is your choice. Please keep in mind though, death …

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why do i do this to myself?

September 15th, 2014by copelessness

I wish I didn’t have hope. I have this stupid, delusional hope that something wonderful could happen to me but I know it couldn’t happen. Things like that don’t happen to me. Hope like that only ever crashes down on me.
Why do I torment myself like this? Why do I hope for something that won’t happen? Why do I feel things I shouldn’t feel?
I know in my heart, that painful, empty place inside my chest, that there is no hope, yet I choose to believe it anyway. I wish on a star and reach for her knowing full well …

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fuck Reality ! Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks ! Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring ! movies, novels books, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!

September 14th, 2014by niki

fuck Reality ! fuck real life ! fuck real world !
Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks !
Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring !
movies, novels, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
there is no MAGIC, no SUPERPOWER , no ‘cool, magical’ SUPERHERO / SUPERHEROES like in those movie , novel , comics , game / games , manga / anime , etc etc !
FUCKING BORING real world / real life / reality !!!

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and …

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SP, you are cordially invited

September 13th, 2014by lost

This is a slightly edited version of a comment I left on someone else’s post, but I wanted to extend this invitation to the SP community:

Would any of you guys be interested in keeping in touch in some capacity on Facebook? I created a Facebook account specifically for this purpose, and if you wanted to do that, we could keep in touch while protecting our anonymity.

I’ve realized that one of the things I miss the most about the friendship I recently lost was that, most days, we’d touch base here and there throughout the day (we live in different cities). And this didn’t necessarily mean …

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There is always someone who cares!!!!

September 12th, 2014by livelifemaybe

There is always someone in this world who cares about you..

Just because you don’t think there is doesn’t mean your correct..

I know that I have no idea who you are or what you look like but I CARE!

If I didn’t care then I wouldn’t be here..

I know what you’re going through I have scars running up and down my arm..

I feel so lonely sometimes and I cry myself to sleep almost every night..

I really do know how you feel I promise..

You’re so beautiful/handsome inside and out

I love you

You don’t deserve to end everything like this you deserve much better!

I may cut but I’ll never end …

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The Past …

September 11th, 2014by Dawg

To get over the past, you first have to accept that the past is over. No matter how many times you revisit it, analyse it, regret it or swear/curse it ... it's OVER. It can hurt you no more. And you cannot CHANGE the PAST … the endless stress, worrying, beating yourself up and regrets DO NOTHING except wear you down, eat away at your sanity and immune system and waste time. Learn from it and move on … tomorrow is another day and another chance to do something fun and great … live …
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Overlapping Circle

September 11th, 2014by grimlynotperfect

The goals achieved.

The hopes desired.

Last goodbyes.

New starts.

Eyes are tired.

Soon they wont remember me,

Soon words will be rarely exchanged.

Soon they will have a family with children with exotic names.

Soon ill be a memory to them, soon I will not even cross their mind.

It will all take place over time

 

I feel so alone, and each time I wish to scream “Don’t Go”.

But they will leave me even though i love them to the pit of my soul.

I know how it works, it happens each time.

But it just makes me want to desperately rewind.

I know how it works, it happens every time.

Even though i wish to rewind.

rewind.

rewind.

rewind.

 

I know …

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Reasons not.

September 7th, 2014by InbetwixtLives

Yes, I want to crawl in a hole an die sometimes.

Yes, I want to slash my wrists.

Yes, sometimes blood is on my hands.

But no, that does not mean I’m never happy. Chocolate makes me happy. Lana Del Rey makes me happy. Music makes me happy. Learning how to play the piano makes me happy. Words make me happy.

When you smile at a stranger and they smile back, it’s moments like those that make me happy. And I know, this is sappy. Somedays, I will post deathly dark stuff on here that is, at best, cringe-worthy. But you know what? It’s different today. Hopeful.

Here’s to being …

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My feelings on why we feel depressed and suicidal

September 4th, 2014by LoveIsEverything

I have and still feel extremely depressed and at times suicidal – a helplessness, a feeling that no one really cares and deeply loves, that people are only concerned with their tasks in their busy-ness – in their own business.  Even people that are not suicidal and are adjusted to society, still feel emptiness in their hearts, I believe. I think very few people are genuinely happy and feel love and connection to life.

I think we become suicidal because we feel a terrible emptiness in life, and this emptiness we feel is because we don’t feel deeply connected to others. We get abused, screamed and …

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Inspiration, Hope and Determination

September 4th, 2014by Unlov3d

Well, I sure did put my 2.5 cents in today on many comments. I was inspired, for lack of a better word.

Whew. Apparently, a muse somewhere struck me with the writing bug this morning. Or, y’know, too much caffeine to know what to do with myself.

I will be gone for a few days. My mother’s memorial service is tomorrow, and I’m taking the rest of the weekend to remember and honor her. I’m sad she died, but I’m relieved she’s not suffering anymore. I know without a doubt she’s responsible for the events in the past two days. It’s my mother’s undying love …