Stories of Hope

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Life is not fair / unfair. there is always winners & losers. I’m a loser, so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?

December 17th, 2014by niki

Life is not fair.
Life is unfair.

there is always winners & losers.
there will always be winner & loser.
so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?
rather than they keep living chasing & fixing all their way too many losses, which is probably too late anyway too.
and usually losers can’t win / can never win against winners anyway .. even the “start” is already too late!!

This is the harsh truth / fact / reality .

Reality / Real life / Real world is very LIMITING / LIMITED in what we can & can’t do !
We are limited by money (rich and poor), resources, …

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We’re all fighting the same battle.

December 17th, 2014by livinginthepast

Coming on this site has made me realize how many of us around the world have stories that teach us we are not alone in the hurt and suffering. Maybe in some solemn sort of way we are all one note away from playing the same song. Perhaps this site shall be our choir and our songs shall live on…

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Tired

December 15th, 2014by briannasucks

One day i just wanna stop being the girl that everyone uses as a bad example like “you can either go with her or Brianna” “Ewww naw man her ugly self “ i just want to be the girl that  a guy at least looks at out of amazement and not disgust.

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Wreckage on bed sheets.

December 7th, 2014by Deathy058

NOTE: This is my personal story.  Thoughts about antidepressants were from a slanted point of view of life at the time, and actually I’ve gained a little knowledge in how they actually help people.  Trigger warning: this details pretty explicitly my first foray into self injury, as well as fragmented memories as they came about during this time of my life.  I don’t appreciate glorifying suicide, and I intend to keep writing my experience on here as a hopeful path to something better than the urge to end it all.  It’s disjointed, but it gets my point across how I want it to be.

In Vitro–2007

Ice …

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Lost

December 7th, 2014by afakasiangel

This is my first time posting here and I’m not really sure whether I’m on the right track regarding what this site is about…

For the past 3 years I have had reoccurring suicidal thoughts and a couple of failed attempts. The idea of being free from this life is so inviting! In a way, I’m ashamed and I know that I don’t want to hurt my family. I’m trying to remove these thoughts from my head but the battle is tough. The only thing stopping me is knowing that I don’t want my younger siblings to ever suffer as I am.

My self esteem is pitiful. …

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Is college even worth it

December 6th, 2014by snailynini

What are your thoughts?

Im still in highschool but im wondering if i should go or not go because its so much money and more time spent in school. And once I graduate Its not that easy to find a job, and I don’t know.

I’m freaking out a bit

I don’t want to go to college but I also don’t want to wake up and hate my life and regret not going to college. I honestly thought about killing myself right after highschool just so I don’t have to deal with my future.

But I know that’s not the way to go its just a thought

Im also not …

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Just my thinkin

December 3rd, 2014by daonenonly

Should I live or die tonight? Whats the point in living? What’s the point in stayin alive when u know nothin good is going to happen.  What’s the point in stayin here in this world. I’m just sick and tired of having to live like this..but I’ll believe that one day something will change my
life. I’ll wait until I can’t wait no more.

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Not suggesting anyone self medicate, but

December 3rd, 2014by lost

…if you’re self-medicating already, don’t miss this great homemade version of Bailey’s Irish Cream (found here):

drink your medicine!

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Can I Escape?

December 3rd, 2014by shatteredsoul1350

Was life meant to be painful
I thought i was a precious gift from your parents
Its suppose to be joyful
Happy
Pure
Exciting
But its actually a living nightmare
I didn’t know i could despise people so much
Even the ones i love
Im letting them down
Including myself
I just want to get better
Thats all
I don’t want to fall in this massive abyss of sadness
But it feels like i’ve been tumbling
I want to change
But can i escape this depression?

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Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality , boring Reality / boring real life / boring real world / boring life !

December 2nd, 2014by niki

Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality ,
Virtual Reality is the escape from Reality ,
this boring Reality (Reality is boring ) !
this boring real life (real life is boring ) !
this boring real world (real world is boring ) !
boring life ( life is boring) !

Seriously, when Reality is boring & mundane (even real Science is boring & mundane too, science fiction (sci-fi) is better than boring science real ! ) , Virtual Reality is the only TRUE / REAL progress for humanity / mankind / our human species !
with Virtual Reality (VR) technology , we can enter into UNLIMITED possibilities, …

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hey everyone,

December 1st, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

happy

Today i am feeling happy and its been hard lately, but i want to share my happiness with all of you because every single person deserves and has the right to be HAPPY! You are strong and you are worth it, keep fighting <3

***Spread the happiness***

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Out on bond….the ones we really love. the woman in our lives

November 30th, 2014by johnwhogivesashit

I’m out on 100,000 dollar bail right now. I’m facing a home invasion charge in Illinois which is a class x felony. The punishment if convicted is a minimum 6 to 30 years in the department of corrections. I am facing a death sentence. These alleged charges are total bullshit but regardless of the outcome I will come out the other side 10,000 dollars in debt from lawyers. I am 22 years old. For all intents and purposes This situation is going to cost me 6-30 years of my life. The courts are a mockery of justice in illinois. they are courts of conviction not …

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science is boring ! science fiction is better than science fact ! sci-fi is better than science fact ! real science is boring !

November 29th, 2014by niki

science is boring !
science fiction is better than science fact !
sci-fi is better than science fact !
real science is boring !

Reality is boring ! Reality sucks !
Real life is boring ! Real life sucks !
Real world is boring ! Real world sucks !

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
I HATE MONEY !! and I HATE …

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oops…

November 28th, 2014by lost

Man Accidentally Kills Self While Threatening To Shoot Wife’s Dog

http://bit.ly/1tzq1Bv

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My Suicide Journals (2010)

November 25th, 2014by L4Y

In 2010, after over a decade of severe depression and several years of suicidal feelings, I made the decision to finally end things. To this day, it is the only time I have ever made concrete plans to take my life.

I kept a journal documenting my decision and feelings before and leading up to my planned suicide. Below are excerpts from two of those journal entries (the second being parts of a private message sent to someone from my past I had reconnected with. It was written as my end date was approaching).

Perhaps there are some people who will find comfort in reading these things …

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Vacancies in the Afterlife?

November 25th, 2014by GalaxyEyesXx

For so long, what kept me from doing myself in was the fear. Would I go to Hell assuming that there is one? Or would I simply disappear into nothingness? But perhaps one of my biggest fears was becoming a ghost because being damned for all eternity to stay on this Earth was one of the worst hells I could imagine. This was before I realized I was the Phantasm, of course, already a ghost in this life. Now I am no longer afraid and I have made peace with my fear. I have asked the higher power for forgiveness for my wrongs as well. …

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My life, join me together we can make change, only we can take care of each other as one another becuase only we know the true pain and tragedy we have live though

November 24th, 2014by SickMindZ

What’s on your mind this computer asks me? I tell it sickness. I’m the regular happy boy that changed his whole life around without noticing that my mistakes where to not talk to anyone who could help me. I want to share my story with those who have serious doubts thiers a bit of a chance of surviving the cuts and bruises that you have done to yourself or others have done towards you. We’ll idk how to start but I’m already starting to swell n tear just going through my haunting memories pasts. I started off living the good life, always happy anywhere anytime …

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got jumped

November 24th, 2014by 5 seconds of stendarr

by some garden hoes yesterday keep an eye on your local hoes everyone

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We can help each other

November 23rd, 2014by charlieregal

Lets do it. Lets start a trust fund. We all sell some pf our things then put it in a trust and agree to all meet someplace and use the tust money to pay the fair for who ever wants to come. Then we buy a bomb and just hold hands and sing a prayer or a hymn or something and just wait for it to us all up. Don’t you see that this is your chance!? Stop procastinating! We can do this together don’t you see! we can help each other. We’re all in the same boat so lets just punch a hole in …

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