Stories of Hope

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Last night, I got a long hug. And someone listened to me.

October 22nd, 2014by AmIStuckNow

Someone really helped me. It’s long, but I want to put it into words and share.

Yesterday I felt extremely lonely. Devoid of all emotion. I just…couldn’t feel anything at all.

Almost anything. Just when I looked in the mirror and saw age spots and gray hair on someone so young it just showed the fighting I’ve been doing and stress of my life. At that moment I felt anger, worthlessness, and wasted years. It was like all of the emotions I’ve felt were physically manifesting themselves as a cruel reminder, every time I look the mirror – looking back at me.

I was thinking about suicide…again…but I …

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The Broken Chain

October 21st, 2014by Maddie

” We little knew the day that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn’t go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories.
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you
You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken
and nothing seems the same,
but as God calls us one by one
the chain will link again. ”

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What is your difficulty setting?

October 20th, 2014by charlieregal

Lets play a game. I am going to comment my difficulty setting and I want you to tell me yours then think of two things that could make it worse.

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Off Topic again, oops

October 19th, 2014by Alex

I just looked around a bit more and I’m like “Holy shit, I just saw their suicide notes, I don’t know what to do, what if they go through with their plan? I didn’t speak up, I’m a little piece of shit.” So yeah. o-o I really hope none of you guys go through with your plans of ending life because ya know. *points to new route* There’s a whole new adventure waiting for you in a few years, months or even days.

Lul. I’m such a hypocrite. Telling people to keep holding on when I’m about to just end it all. >.> But hey. You …

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The Day I Tried

October 18th, 2014by That_One_Idiot

I read through some of the stories and decided I could post my own story.
Hi. I’m 13 and I have tried. You may be thinking ‘What does a 13 year old know about suicide?’

Well.

If you’re still reading thank you. It all started when I was 7. I was an ordinary kid. Only thing was that my parents were barely in my life. I clung to my grandfather. My grandfather did everything my parents neglected to do. When I was 7 he died of a blood clot in his leg that ultimately returned to his heart. I was devastated. He was my best friend. He was …

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I’m just a fucked up girl

October 17th, 2014by Maddie

I’m just a fucked up girl living in a fucked up life in a fucked up world. Welcome to where being me is- *Never Enough*-
Just because her eyes don’t tear doesn’t mean her heart doesn’t cry. And just because she comes off strong doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong.
You don’t understand me and never will. So don’t start that shit ‘bout knowin’ how I feel.
My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams. I’m hoping things will look up, and right when they do, there’s always something to fuck it up, and we’re back at square one.
Do you know what its like to be me? …

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Can i just die?

October 17th, 2014by Maddie

Can i please just die. No one cares about me. Everyone is always saying ” You’re only 13 you’re just acting depressed attention whore ” I am not trying to get attention. In reality i’m trying to stay away from people. I’m atheist. I’m bisexual. I’m suicidal. I’m emo. Apparently i should just fucking die. I don’t see any reason as to why i have to live anymore when no one wants me around. I’m done with life no one cares. Can i just die?

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of lost and found

October 17th, 2014by copelessness

Where I find hope, I also find you.
Where I find light, I also find you.
Where I find kindness, strength, calm, and a reason not to give up, I know you will be there…
I hope that when you find those things, that you also find me…
And I hope that even when we feel at our most lost, that we will always find each other…
We need only remember where to look.

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My tragic story…

October 16th, 2014by Maddie

Hello my name is Maddie and I’m 13. I bet some of you are probably thinking ” what would a 13 year old know about being depressed ” well i know alot. It started when i was 5. When i was 5 my mom died in a car accident. I don’t really remember her and it sucks :(. When i was 8 my dad put me up for adoption so i would have a better life. Since i was 8 i’ve been getting bullied because i’m either too fat or too ugly or too short. People just have so much fun judging me. So from …

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Dear Counselor

October 13th, 2014by KissOfDeath

I watch you listen to me,
but do you really hear me?

You use that sweet tone of voice, I’m sure that everyone gets,
I want to trust you, but your eyes are full of judgment and pity.

I am seeking help, but I am sure this is going to doom me.
I have nothing to say, I am choking on my tears.

I am so desperately looking for the solution to fix this problem.

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Life update

October 13th, 2014by faith099

Last time I posted on here I was 16 now I’m 19. I still struggle with depression and anxiety I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and panic disorder. I have been to a psych ward and everything. I have overcome my self harm. And now I have a wonderful fiance. I guess I just had to wait for things to come to me. No I’m not 100% okay but I’m not on the same state of mind I used to be. I still have the scars from my 16 year old self to remind myself what it was like before. It is better …

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Enough

October 13th, 2014by bchrisst

Why is it so hard to be happy with your life?

People always say you should be happy and blessed that you’re even alive. Really?

I find my life to be so stressful and horrible. I find it so hard to be happy. I always worry about my future. Then I consider suicide and it makes me feel better. Like I don’t have to deal with anything or anyone anymore. I would go into my life details, but there’s no point really.

I guess I can say the only reason I want to live is for other people, but is that how it should be?

How can I make …

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Just a question? Please, if you can (:

October 13th, 2014by vaaaaanna

So I’m currently writing an assignment for my mental health and well-being paper. The aim of this assignment is to examine the different pathways in which a well-being of an individual is enhanced.

Now, this may seem super random because compared to my other posts. I’ve never really done this. But I was wondering, if anyone, and I mean ANYONE would like to contribute.

What I really wanted to know is, when you think of that one happy moment..just that ONE HAPPY moment, what do you feel? & What is it that makes you feel that way?

Another is forgiveness. Has anyone ever taken the courage to forgive …

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Pills

October 8th, 2014by curlylion720

I am a 14 year old teenager, depressed and suicidal. I know this may sound stupid but does anyone know any pills that will make me pass out if I overdose? I am not exactly trying to kill myself, just a way of revealing my pain to my parent without having to actually talk to them, but let’s just say I wouldn’t care if I died overdosing.

I know I will receive lots of “don’t do this” “you don’t deserve life” and “you’re worth it” but I don’t believe any of that. I hate my life and myself so much, I don’t think anything or anyone …

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Hiding scars

October 8th, 2014by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times …

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to be happy or die trying

October 7th, 2014by copelessness

I met her here but sometimes I wonder if she’s real. I feel like she is an illusion sometimes, like a hope I shouldn’t have, but she is very real.
When it’s day where she is, the stars are overhead and I know the brightest one up there is her looking down on me. She is my star, but she’s so far away and circumstances in our lives (ones I do not want to go into) do not permit us to be together. Still I find myself selling stuff I care about in hopes that someday we can be together and then I …

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It’s Been Two Years…

October 7th, 2014by thefailure

I’m still alive. For now, anyway.

My wonderful adventures with DCFS are over-not only did we get the kids home, we blew the lid off some serious corruption in the courts, too. And my asshole in-laws will never, ever be allowed to foster another child. They’ll never see my kids again-we ended up going no contact with my husband’s entire family a little over a year ago, and our lives have gotten progressively better ever since. Amazing how things improve when you stop surrounding yourself with assholes.

I also cut off my relatives. All of them. I finally realized that they’ll never change, and I don’t have …

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hopeless tomorrow

October 7th, 2014by Angeleyes42

Well tomorrow is Tuesday and i have class for 13 hours. I have a quiz that I can’t study for but with the right thing i know I can ace it . Tomorrow, I will try to become independent but well see how that goes. I am trying to accept that my grades don’t really matter unless its general ed. I can’t wait to leave this school and go someplace I belong.

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Pray for the broken, no one could fix us..

October 7th, 2014by synthaxe

“In the end it’s not about what you have.
In the end it’s all about where you want to go
And the roads you take to help you get there.
Cause you’ve only got one life to lead.
So don’t take for granted those little things.
Those little things are all that we have.”

i know we’re all going thru our own shit, and if you’re like me these thoughts could pop up and disappear on your mind constantly. just an hour ago i was ready to go, but my friend asked me to eat out, and we talked, and it did feel good. sometimes i feel the world is against …

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Suicide Fail

October 6th, 2014by flipnflap

So I posted before on another account that I would attempt the dehydration suicide method. I said I would check in a hotel on my forth day of drinking and eating nothing. I did but it was on the 6th day. I took some things with me in a backpack like clothes my toothbrush mouthwash moisturizer  and my note in a sealed envelope. I was feeling very weak already I had to raise my voice a little because I couldn’t hear myself and no one could, I was just confused the whole time. The people who saw me I guess they thought I’ve always been …

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