Stories of Hope

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My Story

July 31st, 2015by maggimi

Hello everyone,

This is my first post. Although I have read through much of this website for the past few weeks, I have simply relegated my involvement to that of backseat viewer. I have now decided to share with you a little about who I am and why I browse this website to pass the time.

First, a little bit about me. I have read the sources of many people’s depression and suicidal thoughts and I regret to say that exteriorly, I may represent an unorthodox example of a someone who is plagued with the issue of suicide. I am 19 years old, an excellent student, good looking, …

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cried

July 31st, 2015by death bunny

cried this morning for the first time in almost a year. felt nice and weird. i hope i’ll get to cry sooner than that next time..

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I need to know

July 29th, 2015by hopeisafourletterword

Are there any Jehovah’s Witnesses here or am I the only one? I’m not here to debate and i refuse to debate with anyone who disagrees with my beliefs or hates JWs, I just want to know that I’m not completely alone here…

Please let me know you’re here… if you’re reading this please log on and talk to me… I need you. More than anything right now, I need to know I’m not alone.

please share your feelings with me…do you feel as conflicted as I do? … do you feel like you’re the lone sad face in a sea full of happy faces? … do you …

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My life is like hell

July 25th, 2015by Mirna

I’m in pain, pain of love and pain of everything, i want to die as soon as possible, my life is like so fuckin hell, i don’t know why is my family  treating me so bad like that, i feel like I’m a devil or someone that should be killed, i think everyone hate me so much, please someone tell me anything, how to die, everyday i’m crying, everynight, i’m so tired right now, and i want to die to have the best rest without anyone… Please someone help me, i’m in hell. I fucking wish if i have a great life, maybe to be …

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Empaths. a Blessing or a Curse. a Gift or a Burden.

July 21st, 2015by Nova

I consider myself to be an Empath. You might be one too.  It’s been extremely difficult to live and function in a society where people don’t really have empathy so it’s hard for them to really feel what somebody else is going through. And that’s why so many people are ruthless and cutthroat, you know. Being and Empath is like having a finely tuned ‘Bullshit’ Lie-Detector.  It’s really strange to have the ability to really feel what other people are feeling because I don’t know how to handle and cope with it. Now, staying away from strangers is easy enough; I just don’t go outside …

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umm.. a little announcement?

July 21st, 2015by anotherfailure

Ever since this early year, i have this goal to inspire people and be inspired. I want to help people as many as i can, because i know how it feels like to be helpless. I want to emphatise for them, and it is also strangely a way for me to cope with my problems.

I found this website and i thought, hey this is perfect for me, i can safely tell my insecurities and what a major fucked up i am, and i can support people although they may not notice.

I want to inspire people and clearly that goal has not been reached yet, afterall …

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my story. my success.

July 21st, 2015by thistooshallpass

I used to think that the tears would never stop, the urges would never cease, and the thoughts of suicide would only grow stronger. I am here, two years suicide-thought free to tell each and everyone of you, this too shall pass. It takes time, so much time. I was lucky to be able to say “I need help” and I got it.

I never looked in the mirror and thought of something that I liked about myself. Never. I began thinking that this was how I would always feel. Never pretty, or skinny, or good enough. I was feeling this way and just assumed it was …

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a poem that helps me

July 15th, 2015by Dorothy Gale

The slam poetry scene in my state has been a veritable haven when I can actually get myself to attend an open mic/slam feature night. I hope this poem can help at least one person like it did for me.

Kait Rokowski – “A Good Day”
http://youtu.be/TjjaIwVxfTw (to see her recite it)

Yesterday, I spent 60 dollars on groceries,
took the bus home,
carried both bags with two good arms back to my studio apartment
and cooked myself dinner.
You and I may have different definitions of a good day.
This week, I paid my rent and my credit card bill,
worked 60 hours between my two jobs,
only saw the sun on …

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So many beautiful souls here

July 15th, 2015by Dorothy Gale

and it’s so painful to see you in such despair.

That this must be our cross to bear, what brings us together as perfect strangers. The black dog on our shoulder. Wish it could be anything else for all of us.

I spent all night last night reading through posts and comments. When I came in I was crying for myself, hoping not to feel the end of my rope once more. I went to bed crying for others, hoping they can somehow find their way back up their rope, and if not, that they can find in death the peace they so crave and deserve. I …

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Salt

July 14th, 2015by flyingnorth

I’ve just discovered this one called Salt.

It seems he has a whole fan base.

So I went and read some of his posts.

I get it now

He’s definitely amazing

He’s really made me think.

So I indirectly thank you, Salt.

I hope, on some level, you understand how great you truly are.

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Letting It All Go

July 14th, 2015by kills

I figured since this is where we met that it’s only fitting that I write you something beautiful here. Everything comes full circle and I pray that as I let you go – you will come back to me at the right time. I do love you but you are in love with someone else. You say you still love me but your heart is in his hands right now. I hold onto you in an unhealthy way right now. I hold onto parts of my past for comfort and security instead of setting my sights on the limitless possibilities ahead of me. My horizon …

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Just came here to vent

July 13th, 2015by nut

Hey.

I know that everyone is here for a reason and whatever cliche shit we’ve been listening to forever.

Right now, my life has no purpose. I don’t even know why I opened this site. But whatever. It has always been hard for me to find people to talk to. My parents are kinda supportive, but if you know anything about being Indian it is that your parents exercise complete and absolute control on your life. My parents don’t let me outside the house, except for school. Not even tutions, parties, nothing. Indians are conservative and rather, well, religious. But on days like these I find myself …

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The “perks” of being Malcolm

July 13th, 2015by ThePerksOfBeingMe

So here I am, an eighteen year old boy on a website designed for sad teenage girls and I’m expected to talk about the “perks” of being me? Okay fine if it will keep her happy and I’ll be able to come out more often then FINE I’ll write! Hm some perks? Well, I had a milkshake last night so that’s cool or whatever. Man I don’t think I can sit here and pretend there are perks to being myself. I can’t even be myself! I’m 18 and a boy and I’m trapped in a woman’s body, let me tell you going to the bathroom …

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Always

July 13th, 2015by KissOfDeath

I’ve always wanted to submerge myself into something that would help numb these feelings,
I’ve always wanted to experience that complete lostness you see in someone deep into their work,
I’ve always envied that.
I’ve tried to lose myself in alcohol,
but these feelings make is seem as if I’m drinking poison.
I’ve tried to lose myself in drugs,
but these feelings make the strongest “uppers” into downers.
I knew these weren’t positive things to lose myself in,
but I didn’t care,
I was so desperate.
I’ve always wanted to be a great writer,
I wanted to paint beautiful scenes with my words,
but creativity seems to be degraded when there’s never a happy ending. …

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Going Down, Society (in our current state, anyway)

July 12th, 2015by not_much_different

Talk to someone about something relevant, and most people will respond like they are not interested.

People that prioritize their fantasies at the expense of the reality of things are, sadly, the byproduct of a lack of education, cultural indoctrination, or more drastically, some genetic outcomes, being a victim of violence, extreme poverty, sickness, addictions, to name a few…

Now try to fix or to solve a universal, a global, a regional or a local problem, because that idea you got is closer to an

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More Perks of Being Elizabeth!

July 12th, 2015by ThePerksOfBeingMe

Well, its come to my attention that there is a ton of misconception about DID especially on the internet!

If any of you have any interest in speaking to someone suffering from the disorder I encorage you to feel free to comment here, follow me on Tumblr (http://alltheperksofbeingus.tumblr.com/) or i have a KIK (theperksofbeingus) which of course is more personal! I really look forward to hearing from anyone, if I can educate just one person I feel as if I’ll be making a difference!

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Time served on the Earth does not mean you grow in mind.

July 12th, 2015by KH

I think this has to be one of my favourite quotes (not of my own creation, but well-liked all the same).

Rather than believing in the typical meaning behind this quote that just because you grow older and ‘wiser’, it does not mean that you will also mature in body, mind and soul; I personally interpretated this quote, due to my own experiences etc., as saying that sometimes no matter how hard you try for a period of time – whether it’s a few days or a few years -, your mind will never change. I suppose this could be passed as ignorance but that is …

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The Perks Of Being Elizabeth.

July 12th, 2015by ThePerksOfBeingMe

Hey Suicide Project!

I’m new to the site and I’m kind of hoping that keeping a blog will be a good outlet for me. I’m Elizabeth and I suffer from a mental disorder known as Dissociative Identity Disorder or (DID). What does this mean? Well formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder or (MPD); DID  is a mental disorder on the dissociative spectrum characterized by at least two distinct and relatively enduring identities or dissociated personality states that alternately control a person’s behavior. But, what does this mean for me? This means that I “host” several other alternate personalities. I …

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Something Beautiful

July 12th, 2015by paranoid

Hello:)

This will be a rather quick synopsis of my suicidal attempts and what led up to them and how I managed past them but the story should come across anyways.

First Attempt:

I was about 14 at this time, and had started cutting. it wasn’t “severe” as it was mostly little scratches. I would only “cut” when I was super overwhelmed with my situation, or emotions. I had been seeing a guy for about a year, and was infatuated with him. One day, he decided to tell me that he had been cheating on me with his ex, but that I shouldn’t be worried because he can …

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I want to share this.

July 11th, 2015by ennea

Hey guys,

I’m new here and I wanted to share my story. But I have 1 problem and that is that my memory is not as it is supposed to be. I can’t remember what happened at what age, but I guessed a little. Anyway, here’s my story:

 

At the age of 6    I harmed myself. I can’t remember why, but what I do remember is that I always said to myself that I should be punished. So, I always bit myself in my hand, harder and harder each time. I told my parents how I felt, I said that I feel emotionless but still sad, …

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