Stories of Hope

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My story

July 20th, 2014by Klare

I stumbled on this site quite by accident. It sadness me reading some of your posts so young to have to feel these things. Don’t get me wrong I know they are valid I was once told “what’s the worst problem you have breaking up with your boyfriend? ” which is a stupid thing to say because yes it is traumatic.

I ‘m 30+ with an amazing 3yr old and exhausting 4yr old who have opened my eyes to a love I never knew could exist.

as I’ve grown I have learnt myself like most did not have an ideal childhood I was 12 when I started …

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good day

July 20th, 2014by thelostgirl1499

Today’s been a good day.

I went round my boyfriends house..we fucked and cuddled a lot. I even ate some junk food with him,last year I wouldn’t have dreamed of doing that.

I even had a bit of anxiety and he just held me and played with my hair

Yeah I fucked up the other night,but I recovered.

Ladies and gentlemen,there’s always hope.

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Yeah hi, I’ll take the large anxiety and panic combo to go

July 19th, 2014by killswitchon

welp, let me start the DJing off this wonderful morn in SP with this great tune. Call me DJ PattyD. #guidolyfe #GTL guns trips lisps.

Oh, and don’t forget to hit like and subscribe and of course share your tips, tricks and experiences you’ve had with intense anxiety. had it past few days and can’t shake it. *aaarrggghh* this song among many others helps calm the nerves. Some drink chamomile tea, I listen to the weeknd.

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KillDrakeOn–>>> I’m Drakin’ right now!! I’m Drakin’!!

July 18th, 2014by killswitchon

One of our many prestigiously proud Canadian exports–I present to you drake. Home grown in Toronto, Ontario, Canada! The motto is YONO. You only Nembutal once. braapt braapt.

….my only question to this day is: who the fuck is uncle Luke AND where can I find this elusively legendary character??

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KSO’s Cockpit: directed by M. Night Shyamalan

July 17th, 2014by killswitchon

just like they have in fighter jets–situation and engagement is compromised and no longer safe to dogfight–EJECT! BOOM get shot 30 feet out of my body and mind softly parachuting back to sanity, stability and consistency being planet earth. back to a civilian life where there are no rules of engagement or hard deck, where my mind doesn’t dictate my mood, relationships ergo my life. I’m not talkin’ a Goose scenario but a Maverick turn of events where he follows his story arc–mourns the loss of his best friend(his mind) and flies back to the dangerzone with the girl of his dreams in the cockpit …

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Trade My Oblivion For Your Abyss

July 16th, 2014by killswitchon

it’s days like today where I’m thrust into the valley of decision. where do I go from here? where can I go? am I just a lost boy in search of some sense of salvation or absolution or am I a broken man that can’t figure out right from his left or up from down. I’ve always taken pride in my ability to carry on despite the cost and despite the gargantuan overwhelming pain I’ve been in for the past 6 years–but days like today, reality hits hard. I’ve been fighting a mental malignant cancer for what’s felt like an eternity–it’s felt like forever! I …

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Justice, Meet Her Captor

July 14th, 2014by killswitchon

Cheer up tired eyes
We’re not saying any goodbyes
New beginnings are blossoming fresh and untainted–no tear filled cries
The bruises on your arm and the sting on your face will fade
So too shall the hurt in your heart
If the sun shows no mercy we will fight in the shade
You are resilience herself, do not waiver or be afraid of your prison guard’s tirades
Fate’s uncanny web she weaved has relinquished control; no more pain–she whispered–she forbade
She can’t keep your beauty imprisoned forever
Your captors claws and clutches–her hold on you I shall sever
Maybe a little luck, a few chances peppered in for good measure
Watch me liberate you from …

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My Story

July 14th, 2014by TheAngelWithBrokenWings

Okay so here it goes…

So, I’m Angel and I absolutely hate my life..
My entire life, my parents would get into huge fights and let’s just say a lot of cops knew my name and where I lived. My older sister would always scream at me and punch me and just constantly make my life miserable, and even today (she’s 18 and has a baby) she continues to do just that. In fact it has probably gotten worse.

Even though I am the youngest, I am ANYTHING but spoiled. I have to clean the house everyday while my sister goes shopping

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Pardon me….

July 14th, 2014by RealTalk30

Excuse me…I seem to have left my pain laying around here somewhere..have you seen it? It’s black and fowl and twisted and I just can’t seem to hang on to it anymore! lol call me butter fingers if you must but it keeps on slipping away!! :P lmao!! Anyways..if you see it, it’s labeled “loathing of a lost and forgotten soul”. It might be walking around aimlessly somewhere here, just thought I’d check again. Let me know if you find it’s sorry little bitter ass! lol
Thanks! ;)

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So on point

July 13th, 2014by killswitchon

He who makes a beast of himself, gets rid of the pain of being a man. — Samuel Johnson (English poet)

Never has a truer statement been uttered. To overcome we must transform into our own personal monsters much like bruce wayne did to overcome his fear of bats–he became one. We must become what we fear the most. We must become fear itself.

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I’m alive and free. (For everyone who saw my post yesterday)

July 12th, 2014by SeasOfBlue

I’m alive.

And I’m free.

I’ve never been more free in my life.
It feels so good.

 

I suppose I should explain what happened when I stopped posting yesterday. Basically, the pills were making me really tired and weak. I was dying, basically. It was getting really hard to type, because the simple movements were taking all of my energy. So, I said goodbye to all of you, and I fell asleep. I’m pretty sure it was closer to dying rather then sleeping, but I didn’t know at the time; I was too weak. Anyway, I never moved my laptop from on top of me, because the movement would’ve …

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Lost & Found

July 12th, 2014by RealTalk30

I’ve been stolen
And I know I can’t be found
To which these eyes can’t understand
Life’s been destroyed
And am I now
Without regards to who I’ve been
Treasured times have taken me
Far beyond the whispered willow tree
Ideologies
And simple needs that burden me
Will rest here in this place
Where was I going
I never figured out
I couldn’t wait
I want it now
That’s my testimony
It’s all I had to show for myself
Cause I’ve been stolen
And can’t be found
To which these arms keep reaching out
Can’t fill a void when all is lost and alone
But I keep trying
I might have to leave my life
And my family behind
But I keep trying till finally …

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Nothing Went Wrong

July 12th, 2014by xanadu

I think I’m going to develop epilepsy at any moment to offset the strangeness of this situation.

I have a job, finally. It seems weird I’m still posting here, to be honest, but it’s familiar, and I now have to deal with the constant projection-attacks from the rest of my derelict family (I presume because I’m working now and they’re still heroin addicts, intent on corroding every fiber of sanity they can get their claws into). So there’s that. Nothing a new cell and different number can’t remedy, I suppose, but that’s still at least a few weeks away.

Now all I have to do …

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I’m just a soul

July 11th, 2014by Katey

I’m just a soul

Just a fragment

Of one’s memory

I’m just a breath

That can be taken

If one must be pleased

I’m just a smile

Just a tear

That falls upon dry flesh

That will be erased and returned when I go back to the dead

 

I’m not here for so long

Just as long as you need

Just enough for me to finish, the reason I came to be

Just enough to bring a smile upon your haunted lips

Just enough to bring to life the words you always missed

This isn’t a poem about love, it is one about dreams

We each feel we need a purpose; a reason why we should be

There are those that fight …

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Anyone Who Saw My Post Last Night or If You Didn’t Stop and Read This Please if You are feeling suicidal

July 11th, 2014by That1guy94

First off I want to say thank you for all the people or most of the people who could understand and took time to be with me last night. I felt good when I was close to leaving that you people really cared even though you don’t know me. So thank you for that. And for that one person who was rude and inconsiderate please don’t comment. But I am going to stay positive.

So as you all know I hit rock bottom last night and couldn’t do it anymore. And I couldn’t take living anymore. So I acted. Not like other times where I was …

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Stabilizing Self

July 10th, 2014by RealTalk30

Hey, thanks for everyone who commented and talked to me on my last post. I’ve really come to some solid realizations that I need to start appreciating my life more and the things I love to do in this world. I need to find myself without the crutch of having some one else there to fill a void that needs no filling in the first place. That pursuit is not achievable! I’m not gonna pretend that I’m a whole person, because I haven’t found myself yet..I’m not secure with who I am yet. And I’m not gonna let that kill me, or drive me insane …

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Hold Me Close – Song and Video

July 9th, 2014by PJS

Some friends of mine were involved in the making of this song. About youth depression and suicide.  At times I feel as if the lyrics were written for me.

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Goodbye Polyp; Hello Larynx

July 9th, 2014by killswitchon

Site is always chalk full of negativity so I thought I’d post about some damn good news and unleash this excitement. Tomorrow is the day of all days. Tomorrow, I welcome destiny with open arms and throat. Tomorrow I welcome my deep, masculine singing voice back with a celebration of epic proportions. I will walk out of that ENT doc’s office a new man singing a new tune. Finally, I shall be able to sing again after 9 fucking arduous months of a vacuum devoid of music and vocal expression. Yeah! Fuck! Yeah! So pumped to be able to play my bongos AND sing! it’s …

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thought

July 9th, 2014by Tristeza

When you were “built” to be a melancholic individual, do you have the possibility of changing your entire personality and mindset? I don’t know but I always thought it was impossible.
Today, again, I’ve been dragged by my calm Sadness as she was taking me for a walk — and that’s why I’m on suicideproject right now. I don’t miss this place though, and this is definitely a good thing.
I guess some people were meant to always feel hurt or lifeless. Like they’re not all they could be, or tricked by life, maybe simply sad. Whatever.
“My life haven’t improved that much” — that’s what I …

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Hardly.

July 7th, 2014by hellblau

You think your days are uneventful, and no one ever thinks about you. You think your days are ordinary, and no one ever thinks about you. But we’re all the same, and she can hardly breathe without you.

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