Stories of Hope

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For a pessimist, I’m quite optimistic

April 26th, 2015by cold_blooded_freak

It’s been about three or four years since I’ve last posted something and in that time I’ve graduated high school, joined the military, got married and subsequently divorced, moved on in my life. I’ve done so many things that I didn’t think I would. So if you think your story ends here, you may be missing out on the best moments that have yet to happen.

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This world is boring , boring world . why movies, games, anime/manga, fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?

April 20th, 2015by niki

I hate this world .
This world is so boring , boring world !
Why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?

everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Marvel / …

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How i became this. (looooooong)

April 17th, 2015by hasan

For most of us life is simply overrated. Suicide is a very logical choice choice for me. But i won’t do it. Its a story how i became suicidal and then learned how to make peace with my sufferings.

 

My life was so good just a few months ago. I had no worries nothing. I came from a middle class background family. People say I’m quite good when it comes to studying. I have many friends. Most of them are rich. They have a fancy way of living. And i try to go with the flow. I’m good looking , sharp, funny and and atheist. I …

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A Curious Little Story

April 16th, 2015by GallinicideGuilty

Sorry, guys, this “little story” might be a bit long for you, but maybe you’ll find something interesting.

When my parents separated, I had to move to another school, another house, another city. The changes were drastic. From the gorgeous three-floor plus balcony house we had to the new studio-type apartment barely the size of my old bedroom. From the Dad I knew and (maybe) loved, to this absolute stranger my Mom claimed to love. My problem was at home and I found ways to run away from it.

I made a ton of friends in my new school. I came home late most days, other days, …

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Tired of life

April 15th, 2015by WhiteSpirit

I’m tired of life. Tired of obligations, tired of this world with its rules, its human society. I made a lot of mistakes in my life. And wasted a lot of chances to become successful or to fulfill my dreams. I regret a lot. Yea, if only I could revert time back, while keeping my current memory, lol.

Sure, reverting time would be great. But I don’t really care about all this now. The only things that keep me going these days are my hobbies. And my mom. She did really a lot for me. But I’m tired, I really am.

Almost every night I go to …

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moving on…

April 14th, 2015by munckin

Wondering starting to date again… I like one girl more then the others she is cute and sweet. She is originally from the country that I moved too 6 years ago. But also lived in the east and southern of Europe.

She is 8 years older then me. I don’t mind. I actually quite like it as I would like children and I think she would want them too. I wonder though if it is a wise step.. in the longer run for my happiness if that path were to happen….

we click really well so I do not really for see problems in that …

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How far will we go?

April 13th, 2015by Pretend Girl

We who deal with depression- how far will be go to hurt ourselves? I overeat. I don’t look at myself in the mirror- no idea what my hair is looking like. I don’t brush my teeth. So embarrassed at the doctor’s office when she looked in my mouth. Yuck! But I told her why and it helped to tell even that little bit.

We get upset facing the depression. We want to hurt ourselves in one way or another. Why do we do that?? The pay off is you are expressing your pain? Even the talk (hopefully only talking!) of killing ourselves is part of hurting …

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I need someone :<

April 13th, 2015by Meg725

I have no one. My best friend don’t give a f* about me. I had a fight with his friend and he forced me to apologize with them even though it wasn’t fault so i sacrifice my dignity and apologized to them. We were best friend before i had a fight with his friends , he stops hanging out with me and left me sit alone in the class . I start to have my lunch alone in the school , feeling helpless in the class . I tried to overdoes paracetamol and ended up vomited all of them out and i never going to …

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Well, I think it’s time to move on…

April 11th, 2015by killswitchon

Grey Skies Tell Lies; 20/20 Vision

Grey Skies Tell Lies; 20/20 Vision

I met a lot of great people here on SP. Some unsavory ones as well. But, I’m focusing on the good! Life can be tough. But find something that motivates you and use it. I will take my ideas and personality elsewhere. Anybody who wants to keep in touch with me, comment your email. You guys are great! Stay above the shit storm! Kudos.

Stay beautiful,

Kills

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Elusive Escape

April 10th, 2015by killswitchon

Some things in life we need to chase to obtain. One of those things seems to be escape. Escape never finds us. We need to choose to run after it and lay hold of the prize called rest. We all need down time. Especially from these dark suicidal thoughts. Life problems rule us and our situations often times. We must choose to say fuck you problems, and dominate over our situations. This video speaks to that. Finding the healthiest escape. Find it!

All the best,

You’re in my thoughts,

Kills

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Phoenix Rising — Killword

April 9th, 2015by killswitchon

Let that Phoenix burst out of your spirit. Set yourself ablaze.

Go hard. Kill pain. Kill opposition.
Always killin’ it.

All the best,
Kills

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Power To Prevail

April 9th, 2015by killswitchon

May you receive the power to prevail from deep within!!

Enjoy.

All the best,
Kills

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Sweet Moments Of Madness

April 8th, 2015by dwink

Feeling alone again, far beyond the feelings of yesterday

Insanity creeping in gently like a swift blowing wind

Looking for ways to lessen the pain without needles in veins

“Stay sane,” Is what I tell the voices in my head.

Little whispers, “Embrace the pain.”

I think, “Cutting again?” no I’ll refrain

There should be a better way, there always is

Maybe a stare back from the mirror, a slight admiration of self

Maybe the girl across the street a little kiss

Maybe an inspiration from the deceased

As the thoughts rang, it came.

Like an answered prayer

A thought, a pen and paper

I wrote it as I felt it I described it like a painter

I felt …

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Reasons I won’t kill myself

April 1st, 2015by Pretend Girl

Tonight is bad. Bad day at work. When my shift ended, I ran out of there on the dot. I can’t stand the job from the company to the day to day work. The managers are okay until they say one thing, then say the opposite. Makes me crazy. So, I was pushed to the edge tonight. I distracted myself with reading. I ate ice cream, cake, cookies, pizza. It felt good for like two minutes. Then nothing. No good feelings. I took the slow spiral dissent into my deep, dark feelings of waning to die. Just wanting this madness to end! Can’t get a …

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life for me

March 31st, 2015by kate21guns

my past is bad i was sexually abused and beat. My real dad died when i was two of a car wreck.Ive attempted suicide three times in my life and the last time i almost ended it. I still self harm and its how i cope with all the things that i go through.

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When you feel at the end of your limit, set a new limit

March 26th, 2015by Pretend Girl

I have had some rough days and nights. One night I came to my limit! I was worn out, exhausted at dealing with all my depression, anxiety, fears, anger…etc by MYSELF! I called my crisis line and got a guy that when I talk to him, I do not feel comfort. I decide, as he answers, I will tell him I only needed to tell someone how sad I was, how worn out I was and that was all. He goes into a speech trying to give me advice and I tell him, I am not looking for advice, I just want to share that feeling so …

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How I Didn’t Commit Suicide in a Theater

March 24th, 2015by Riolkin

I stood on the railing in complete darkness. The glow tape on the stage below gave me an idea of the distance I would be falling. It wouldn’t be enough on it’s own, I’d have to dive head first in order to finish the job. The warmth of the upper level of the theater was comforting in what I thought were my final moments. My balance shifted, causing the thin cuts above my knee to reopen, my blood mixing with the nervous sweat I was covered in.

From this vantage point I could see all parts of the stage. I often came to this very spot …

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To Those Who May Have Lost Hope

March 19th, 2015by katie_bear12

I am going to tell my life story up to today. There is a point to this, so just bear through all of this. I promise, it may be worth reading. I’ve been familiar with sad things for my whole life. When I was five, my mom kicked my dad out because he was an alcoholic and a drug user; he also treated her very badly. I remember seeing him occasionally after that. I didn’t realize what my dad was into until I was much older, where I grew up watching him drink and abuse his girlfriend. In 2nd grade, a man moved in with …

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rant then poem & art

March 19th, 2015by Stereotype

I had 4 public speaking engagements in three days, I taught a class and then went to a kick off for a charity walk.  No classes this week – spring break.  I still have a shitload of homework to do but I am about to leave for Niagara Falls to gamble for a 3 day vacation.  I am on the Deans list with honors 4 semesters in a row but I think this class I’m taking is going to drop my GPA.  So I joined a couple honor societies while I still have the GPA to be invited to these things.  I need something to …

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