Stories of Hope

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There’s always a reason

September 2nd, 2015by debz85

It was around 7 years ago I tried to end it all, I was a single mum and couldn’t cope anymore. I was lucky as my parents would have my daughter over night once every two weeks so I could go out. I loved to go out and drink and drink until I felt numb, I abused myself and my body I let men use me for sex. One night though I’d just had enough I couldn’t do it anymore I couldn’t live with myself for what I was doing i was drinking everyday I never ate I smoked weed aswell. People started judging …

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Going for a change

September 1st, 2015by YuTasogare

Things lately have been pretty hard for me, going to my mom’s house and therefore leaving my dad’s house. My parentes breakup was something that really has affected me, before that I can’t remember a single thing in my life that isn’t perfect. I know my memory may be deceiving me but if it’s how you remember it, being real or not, for you it really happened. Memories can be so deceiving, but I know a perfect life or time doesn’t exist, life isn’t something this easy but I guess if it was there would be no fun in it, right?

Well, my father has depression …

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Just when I thought all was over

August 24th, 2015by IBeBlue808

Hello to whoever is reading this,

Two years ago I posted a suicide note on this website with the sincere belief that I would be dead within a week of posting it. But, I guess things don’t always go as planned. The day I planned on doing it, I realized that I couldn’t do it. Whether it was me being too weak, too scared or just too depressed to even follow through with my last plan, I just didn’t end up dead.

I don’t know what stopped me, but I am thankful for it. 2 years later, my life has turned around.

Now don’t get me wrong, I …

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The end is near and unclear

August 24th, 2015by thesadguy68

The moment you put a gun to your head and debate if your life is worth living through all the hard times is when you’ve hit the bottom. I’m sitting alone because no one can do anything to help me anymore. I can’t help myself anymore. I’ve tried for better days but it seems that my days keep getting worste. I’m tired, my body is tired of taking the pain that the world is throwing at me. You think divide is selfish? What is selfish is the people in this world pushing people to the point of sucked. I’m not going to discuss problems on …

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Lost & Confused.

August 23rd, 2015by jazzyj

For the past four years I’ve struggled with PTSD, Anxiety & Depression, but the thing is I think I had anxiety and depression before I even figured out I had it…5 years ago I was 15,lost and confused.. To start off my first year of highschool was a fail and I pretty much quit the first week, I went to one class everyday for a week because all of it was over too whelming for me and I didn’t understand why I figured you know it’s highschool it’s probably over whelming for everyone, but I knew it was different for me when I started thinking …

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I decided to back and all in.

August 22nd, 2015by BrokenDreams

Hey everyone! I’m still in a barely good shape and still crying for things that shouldn’t even make you feel sad but I decided that I’ll go back writing. Well, it will probably be a run on whether I get crushed by the felling of panic or success to finish this first though.

But I decided that since I only have this I should at last risk it. As long as I can continue I’ll go back to my old routine of being crushed and get up again and again. I might be here a little less but I’ll probably come back time to time! I’m …

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The Three Words

August 21st, 2015by Tristeza

“The three words”?
Yes, I know what you thought, but no. It’s not I love you.

God, Love, and Poetry, are the three words’ which I should wish engraved on my tomb — if I ever merit a tomb
— Lamartine

When I was I teenager I wanted to get a tattoo (tell me you didn’t… Everybody wanted awesome tattoos). I wanted to get the words “God, Love and Poetry” because they carried a lot of meaning to me before.
I was raised to believe in “god” and put his word before everything I had. Family, friends and even myself. I was raised to give him my life. Literally if I …

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Tell Me How I Am

August 20th, 2015by operationmintyhippo

I’m sorry I’m about to be all wordy, jumbled, and redundant and you probably don’t care about my life story, but I need an outlet.

I grew up with an ideal life. Friends–two best friends who all did everything together. Family–mom, dad, brother, sister. We always did all the family-esque things together.

We must have looked great from the outside.

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Second living…live and learn

August 18th, 2015by CRiticalthinker

Soooo this is my first post thingy so no hate unless its at least funny and please comment your own thoughts.

I wanna start out by saying how weird life is and how unbelievably random it could be, but also how planed it ends up being. Like if I make a good choice to hang out with my first friend which goes into a bad decision of doing drugs, which leads to a path with fake friends. Then of course ended up here at block one with no friends just to start all over.

But I cant help to say that I kinda liked that part of my …

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Deleting Life

August 17th, 2015by Tristeza

Whenever I’m done with feeling this or that way or done with obsessing about something, I come to SP and delete everything — or almost everything — that I had posted before (after saving the most important parts and hiding them where no one can read my thoughts again but myself). Dunno why I do that. Maybe that’s good. Again, thank you technology for allowing me to delete my “life” and starting over whenever I want to.
Tonight, while going through a lot of physical pain, I thought about my future as a crazy cat lady and said that life’s gray, bland, tiresome and that I …

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A painful journey.

August 16th, 2015by BrokenDreams

Hi, I’m a visual novelist… well that what I was aiming to be.

People often tell you: ”With time you will get better.”

Well, I wonder and anyway… I don’t have the luxury to take my time. But before I tell you about my current situation let me give you a slice of my past.

At the age of 15 I moved away from my country and started to travel with my parents in a country where I couldn’t reach my friends.

Internet you say? Well there were 8 to 9hours of time difference between them and me and I didn’t have a computer so I could only go …

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Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?

August 14th, 2015by niki

Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, One …

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Painting

Painting

I painted this picture one day when existentialism was strong on my mind. I hadn’t painted it because I was feeling suicidal. I hadn’t painted it because I wanted some attention from my parents. I hadn’t painted it just because it looked cool. I painted it because it spoke to me. I hear a lot […]

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Symptoms…. Of What? Asking for help.

August 12th, 2015by KissOfDeath

So, this is very different than any other of my posts,
but I have been experiencing some “feelings” and I cannot find a name to these symptoms.
I feel like I can communicate with an outer me, such as if I had a twin, it’s very strange, it started with mirrors, and now I feel like I am not alone, although I am sitting in my room alone, such as another person is her. (Another version of myself.)
I have experienced this before, but only when I have been exhausted, and/or when I go from being surrounded by people for a long/short period of time, to be …

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Hope

August 12th, 2015by Darvin K. Duro

Hi! I’m ‘Darvin’ and i wat to share with you my story.
I wanted to commit suicide this june . i was feeling depressed and unwanted. i was on my way to hang on a rope and then happens something that changed my heart. my dog Iva gets in my way, she starts playing around and kisses me . i never felt better in my life because someone liked me. that moment changed my life and now i dont want to kill myself anymore :) i even found my purpose!
Everyone do not give up because love and hope will allways find the way to you!
If everyone …

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Mysterious Misery

August 11th, 2015by KissOfDeath

It’s mysterious,
the day you change,
suddenly feelings are engulfed by darkness,
and it feels as if you’re carrying a darker shadow than usual.

You wonder if people notice,
but you don’t think they can,
until you get that one person who says “Why are you so different all the time now?”
and you realize that everyone has noticed,
they’ve just been too polite to say anything.

You curse yourself,
but how could this be your fault?
This isn’t something you wanted,
this isn’t something you can change.
You swallow down the pills,
that numb your brain, feelings,
yourself.
To please you parents, your family, your significant other.

You hate this feeling,
but you …

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#SuckMyFuckDepression

August 10th, 2015by MaybeImAlreadyGone

Just a few things on my mind and I may seem harsh but reading some of these comments are making me ill. Your all encouraging each other to take your life’s? Giving each other options for easy ways out? I have been  in the exact same situation as many of you&it does get better. We don’t need to encourage each other to take the easy way out. We need to be sharing some fucking hope! So if I come across as harsh, it’s because I generally care.

First of all, I don’t give a shit what anyone says; There is no reason why  you should take …

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i just don’t understand..

August 5th, 2015by trapcloud

so my life started to begin to turn into hell when i reached the age of 4. my mom, who is asian (I’m not being racist, I’m saying that our culture heavily emphasizes the importance of education to the point its life or death, and i think that there is a limit but not according to my family.) introduced me to a tutor. i know that it doesn’t sound bad, but i promise you, its hell. I’m not the kid who complains about homework, not at all. as my life progressed, my family was a prideful family. too prideful. for example, when my brother started …

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A Girl Made of Stars

August 5th, 2015by Cheshire

(I wrote a little thing and feel free to look at it when you need someone to tell you a story to help you out a little. I’ve always been afraid to share it online out of the fear of it being stolen, because I like to keep the writing that I hold dear to me to myself, but I feel like it should be shared, not stolen.)

She had always felt worthless. Everyone and everything around her made her feel like a bad person, but she didn’t know that she had a heart of gold because no one would tell her. She tried to be …

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moonshot and mental after-walks from a before-life

August 4th, 2015by kills

from the depths of despair I wander
but not all who wander are lost
yet I am both
a wandering vagabond in search of answers i’ll never seem to find outside of my rib cage
my animal pen that keeps my true rage locked inside until it’s time to feed
hidden and looked over have I been for far too long

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.44 magnum for voice box full of ammunition that’s begging to be fired
whoever gets in the way is irrelevant; the bullets are meant to kill
cause I’m killz and I was born in darkness
birthed in hopelessness and death themselves
i have seen the face of the reaper
and shes a pretty bitch

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sour stares …