Stories of Hope

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Hell is cruel…

October 29th, 2014by deathisbliss

I posted before saying that life is the human concept of hell.

The truth of it as I see it is that life if one long self-imposed trial.

Self-delusion might avoid the trial but it does not stop it.  Most Eastern philosophies suggest we must GROW to escape the pain.

If any religion is close to the truth as I VIEW IT, it would be Buddhism.

We are tried, we are tested, and we must not trust or ignore…most religion places the responsibility else where, it tells us to trust in “God”, to pray, and to be happy with the outcome…no different than an imaginary friend or a fantasy. …

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Hey :3

October 28th, 2014by Blake SinBad

Well well…seems like every time I take a trip down memory lane to this site, there’s oodles of new people and none of my old friends left…I wonder if they ever visit? Anyway, hey guys. Name’s Blake SinBad and I thought I’d let you know that I’m always open to talk or vent to if you need a hand or someone to listen to you. Totally free from judgement of any sort. I promise.

email: frejashinepaws@gmail.com
kik: xXFrejaShinePawsXx
Tumblr: just click on my link and use my ask box
Phone: HAHAHAAHAHHAHA no.

Sometimes I find that strangers are the best form of medicine…

I promise I’m not a creepy 40 year …

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Paralyzed for 12 hours!!! & Need help?

October 25th, 2014by RiskTaker

Yesterday, I had a severe pain in the back of my head and was partially paralyzed.

This is called a TIA (Transient Ischemic Attack). I had it before but it never lasted for more than 2 hours and never paralyzed me “that much”. But this time it lasted for nearly 12 hours.

My body hurts all over since yesterday and I feel very week today.

I will actually die in less than 3 months due to my health problems alone; I don’t need to kill myself.
I don’t think my legal and “feeling-home” problems will be fixed at all (read my last post) it’s been 3 years of misery …

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Child I know

October 24th, 2014by marz

Age 11 found out life really isn’t that great,

Age 12 ran away from a rape,

Age 13 became less bright and cute,

Age 14 tried my very fist zoot,

Age 15 started drinking and became wild,

Age 16 got pregnant and lost my first child,

Age 17 tried to turn my life around,

Age 18 here I am soon to be buried deep into the ground.

No child should have to go through this, this is what leads to self-harm and suicide and worst of all depression.

 

 

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Last night, I got a long hug. And someone listened to me.

October 22nd, 2014by AmIStuckNow

Someone really helped me. It’s long, but I want to put it into words and share.

Yesterday I felt extremely lonely. Devoid of all emotion. I just…couldn’t feel anything at all.

Almost anything. Just when I looked in the mirror and saw age spots and gray hair on someone so young it just showed the fighting I’ve been doing and stress of my life. At that moment I felt anger, worthlessness, and wasted years. It was like all of the emotions I’ve felt were physically manifesting themselves as a cruel reminder, every time I look the mirror – looking back at me.

I was thinking about suicide…again…but I …

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The Broken Chain

October 21st, 2014by Maddie

” We little knew the day that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn’t go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories.
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you
You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken
and nothing seems the same,
but as God calls us one by one
the chain will link again. ”

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What is your difficulty setting?

October 20th, 2014by charlieregal

Lets play a game. I am going to comment my difficulty setting and I want you to tell me yours then think of two things that could make it worse.

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Off Topic again, oops

October 19th, 2014by Alex

I just looked around a bit more and I’m like “Holy shit, I just saw their suicide notes, I don’t know what to do, what if they go through with their plan? I didn’t speak up, I’m a little piece of shit.” So yeah. o-o I really hope none of you guys go through with your plans of ending life because ya know. *points to new route* There’s a whole new adventure waiting for you in a few years, months or even days.

Lul. I’m such a hypocrite. Telling people to keep holding on when I’m about to just end it all. >.> But hey. You …

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The Day I Tried

October 18th, 2014by That_One_Idiot

I read through some of the stories and decided I could post my own story.
Hi. I’m 13 and I have tried. You may be thinking ‘What does a 13 year old know about suicide?’

Well.

If you’re still reading thank you. It all started when I was 7. I was an ordinary kid. Only thing was that my parents were barely in my life. I clung to my grandfather. My grandfather did everything my parents neglected to do. When I was 7 he died of a blood clot in his leg that ultimately returned to his heart. I was devastated. He was my best friend. He was …

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I’m just a fucked up girl

October 17th, 2014by Maddie

I’m just a fucked up girl living in a fucked up life in a fucked up world. Welcome to where being me is- *Never Enough*-
Just because her eyes don’t tear doesn’t mean her heart doesn’t cry. And just because she comes off strong doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong.
You don’t understand me and never will. So don’t start that shit ‘bout knowin’ how I feel.
My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams. I’m hoping things will look up, and right when they do, there’s always something to fuck it up, and we’re back at square one.
Do you know what its like to be me? …

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Can i just die?

October 17th, 2014by Maddie

Can i please just die. No one cares about me. Everyone is always saying ” You’re only 13 you’re just acting depressed attention whore ” I am not trying to get attention. In reality i’m trying to stay away from people. I’m atheist. I’m bisexual. I’m suicidal. I’m emo. Apparently i should just fucking die. I don’t see any reason as to why i have to live anymore when no one wants me around. I’m done with life no one cares. Can i just die?

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of lost and found

October 17th, 2014by copelessness

Where I find hope, I also find you.
Where I find light, I also find you.
Where I find kindness, strength, calm, and a reason not to give up, I know you will be there…
I hope that when you find those things, that you also find me…
And I hope that even when we feel at our most lost, that we will always find each other…
We need only remember where to look.

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My tragic story…

October 16th, 2014by Maddie

Hello my name is Maddie and I’m 13. I bet some of you are probably thinking ” what would a 13 year old know about being depressed ” well i know alot. It started when i was 5. When i was 5 my mom died in a car accident. I don’t really remember her and it sucks :(. When i was 8 my dad put me up for adoption so i would have a better life. Since i was 8 i’ve been getting bullied because i’m either too fat or too ugly or too short. People just have so much fun judging me. So from …

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Dear Counselor

October 13th, 2014by KissOfDeath

I watch you listen to me,
but do you really hear me?

You use that sweet tone of voice, I’m sure that everyone gets,
I want to trust you, but your eyes are full of judgment and pity.

I am seeking help, but I am sure this is going to doom me.
I have nothing to say, I am choking on my tears.

I am so desperately looking for the solution to fix this problem.

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Life update

October 13th, 2014by faith099

Last time I posted on here I was 16 now I’m 19. I still struggle with depression and anxiety I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and panic disorder. I have been to a psych ward and everything. I have overcome my self harm. And now I have a wonderful fiance. I guess I just had to wait for things to come to me. No I’m not 100% okay but I’m not on the same state of mind I used to be. I still have the scars from my 16 year old self to remind myself what it was like before. It is better …

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Enough

October 13th, 2014by bchrisst

Why is it so hard to be happy with your life?

People always say you should be happy and blessed that you’re even alive. Really?

I find my life to be so stressful and horrible. I find it so hard to be happy. I always worry about my future. Then I consider suicide and it makes me feel better. Like I don’t have to deal with anything or anyone anymore. I would go into my life details, but there’s no point really.

I guess I can say the only reason I want to live is for other people, but is that how it should be?

How can I make …

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Just a question? Please, if you can (:

October 13th, 2014by vaaaaanna

So I’m currently writing an assignment for my mental health and well-being paper. The aim of this assignment is to examine the different pathways in which a well-being of an individual is enhanced.

Now, this may seem super random because compared to my other posts. I’ve never really done this. But I was wondering, if anyone, and I mean ANYONE would like to contribute.

What I really wanted to know is, when you think of that one happy moment..just that ONE HAPPY moment, what do you feel? & What is it that makes you feel that way?

Another is forgiveness. Has anyone ever taken the courage to forgive …

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Pills

October 8th, 2014by curlylion720

I am a 14 year old teenager, depressed and suicidal. I know this may sound stupid but does anyone know any pills that will make me pass out if I overdose? I am not exactly trying to kill myself, just a way of revealing my pain to my parent without having to actually talk to them, but let’s just say I wouldn’t care if I died overdosing.

I know I will receive lots of “don’t do this” “you don’t deserve life” and “you’re worth it” but I don’t believe any of that. I hate my life and myself so much, I don’t think anything or anyone …

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Hiding scars

October 8th, 2014by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times …

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