For those who have passed on.
I want to sleep for forever.
For those who have passed on.
I want to sleep for forever.
Well I don’tknow what to say or where to start, but I guess just letting it all out is a start, so here it goes. I’m a 22 year old female and at the age of 22 I never knew I would of felt the amount of pain as I have this past few years. Past few weeks all I been thinking about is sucide, why should I go on? I can barley handle the pain because of this depression its like a disease that will never go away from the feel of it. I been thinking of different ways to do it overdosing, jumping […]
The only reason I didn’t end it all was because I thought you’d miss me..I think I was wrong..I may need to rethink my options.
You saved my life once but now you’re the one helping me to end it..
IÂ sit there in the cafeteria
He sits on the floor he’s talking i cant hear him, my visions bluring black around the edges
I’m brought back because of an intense pain from my hand, my ex boyfriend yet again had bit me, i know he just flirting… that he’s only using me..
I smile laughing telling him it doesnt hurt, he doesnt realise he saved me from another embaressing seizure, he smiles biting my harder i ignore it typing on the computer with my left hand as i try to complete a school project. He lets go and we sit their for a while. I feel him bite […]
At the moment I’ve got my music blasting and I am doing art work im totally distracted From thinking about my troubles but I’m worried that as soon as I go to bed ill start thinking again or that ill have a anxiety attack again. I probably won’t be able to sleep tonight. Does anyone suffer from anxiety and if yes what is it personally like for you?
20 minutes ago I tried to get some sleep then all of a sudden I felt really worried I was that worried I felt sick then I felt really scared worried and empty all at the same time I thought I was going to pass out or something. I have never experienced anything like this. I won’t be able to sleep tonight I still feel a little scared.
Ok I’m going to just get straight into this because I’ve had all of this bottled in and I can’t find the will to tell anyone face to face which I need to learn to do. Anyway my dad has recently passed away because of cancer, it was horrible and terribly sad that in his last few months I got to see the good side of him then I had to just see him crumble away being in pain. I’ve had to say goodbye and go to his funeral. A mistake I made was when I was hurting I kept all the hurt inside I […]
I cant stop shaking as the thunder rolls on, i try to breath but i feel like my throats closing my eyes are on fire as i try to keep my self from crying as i count to 10.
My past races threw my mind and i try to fight the memories i hold my hands over my head “im sorry im sorry” i scream “no more no more” The kids in class are staring but i dont care anymore, im no longer in class . I’m in my brothers room, he presses his hands agaist my chest and kisses my face, i whimper begging him to stop. […]
I just wish she could leave my head just the same way she left me..but no she wont.i can hardly forget any of those fond memories. Is something wrong with me?
Ive come to the point in my life where death is more desired than life. Society has pushed me to my limits. Im sick of being forced to put on a face in “public” just to try and impress a damn fastfood joint. Stressing over bills at my young age because my parents were unfortunateand gave up thier future not thinking of their children would later suffer for it. Who is opting out still so hard for me? What better than not having to put up with this cold world and selfish people?
I’m back in school since the winter break. I have a few things on my mind, including the finals in 2 weeks.
My to-do list includes:
Apply for jobs (already applied at McDonald’s and the Habit, also need an auto shop for an internship for my auto class)
I need to find a recruiter for the military
Start a workout regimen that doesn’t mess up a schhedule i guess i have to compile since i will have to balance 8 hours of an internship and a normal part time job.
need to either find weed or get the psychologist to analyze me for my possible moderate depression and most likely […]
im listening to Harder Than You Know by Escape The Fate over and over
you can obviously know what happened
yes, i broke up with my boyfriend last night.
it’s no big deal, btw.
but why is it really hard to get through things we’ve been through
the memories are just TOO MUCH
and also the promises
we made promises
but he broke it
when i asked,
‘so what’s the meaning of those promises? those things we’ve done?’
GUESS WHAT HE SAID.
‘no meaning.’
hahahahahaha
im done with those shits
he was the first i had sex with
i thought, he’d be the only one.
naive, eh? whatever.
im getting tired.
tell me he’s not worth it.
tell me he doesnt deserve my love
tell me he […]
I never thought I could feel this way. Missed connections. That alone was the miraculous thing. How and why did it turn out this way… I will never understand.
I’m procrastinating really badly on school work right now and I need someone I feel really weird saying this but I don’t want to fail, sorry if I seem like I’m depending on anybody but I’m having horrible anxiety.
I’m such a loser and a nobody outside of school I don’t do much but stay in my room surfing the internet or sleeping. I’ve had a lot of anxiety recently which is making it hard to do school work, whenever I see a project I just feel like “what’s the point?” or “I’ll never finish in time” and after having a conversation with some people I feel so negative in fact I feel like nobody cares that I’m posting this right now (no pun intended). Â I joined this site in hopes of trying to get better because I don’t really come to people about […]
My name is Abbigaile Alexandria Mareeh Knight. This is my story.
Some parts have been editied out due to length and time.
I was born during the blizzard of 1993 in Raleigh, North Carolina. I’m the middle of four children, three remaining. I don’t remember much from my childhood other than battling a disease that required me to stay away from playing and doing normal things that children do, The only “sport” was able to do was ballet.I resented it, as well as the pageants that my mother forced me to do. I was living in the small town of Dublin, North Carolina. I met several close, […]
Every day its the same thing, like a movie over and over.
i can feel myself gaining weight
i can feel the escalating urges to self mutilate
i can feel the loss of sanity
of minor happiness
i feel the pain that shouldn’t exist
i’m weak
too weak to kill myself
but too weak to give no fucks and live
this aching is tearing at my wounds
these thoughts drowning me
i’m suffocating by the sorrow that surrounds me
alone i’m feeling all of this
yet, alone, i feel nothing
… because i’m worthless.
half poem half rant.
I asked for one night
Just one night where I could show you my pain
To explain myself, to apologize for the way I’ve been
But you wouldn’t give me that
Not that one single piece of reconciliation
You feel so high and mighty
On that pedestal you’ve placed yourself upon
With my best friends tongue down your throat
You said it yourself.
 I can’t be fixed.
So I’m done trying. I’m done caring. I’m done feeling. I’m done living.
Maybe ill fail once more, end up in a hospital bed somewhere with needles in my arm
But maybe for once in my life I won’t fuck something up and this time not wake […]
I feel immense anxiety when thinking about the New Year and school because it feels like time is going by so fast and I’m being left behind  like I’m repeating  a constant cycle and I keep telling myself I have to get better quickly and I’m starting to feel worn out physically I’ve had horrible headaches and nausea which I couldn’t really sleep through this week, but I feel like if I have to get better it shouldn’t feel for those reasons, I don’t know I’ve been thinking too much I feel like I need someone to talk to because I’m starting to feel like […]
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