Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

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how to stop it

March 1st, 2015by justmeUknow1

i am more then a year very suicidal,im just suffer,empty.
i have a good life,hobbies,good friends ,im not rich but i can get want i want,good grades in school (high school) and have a weekly routine.
i read all the advice and nothing works for me (except a psychologist that i havent tried).
i promised to my girlfriend to not do it but it feels impossible, i start to realy lose myeslf.
what to do?
sory for my shitty english grammer .

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I went to a psychiatric ward

February 27th, 2015by GlumPenguin

I went to a psychiatric ward after I tried to kill myself about a month ago. My first two days I wanted nothing to do with the place. I didn’t get out of my bed I just laid there not doing anything but sleeping. But after about two days I got up and went to one of the psych education class/support group they had in the unit. We sat down and did a collage of anything that made us happy/helped us cope with our conditions. Up until this point I had already gave up on living, I didn’t want to go on. I felt like …

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The Hopeless Child

February 27th, 2015by nobody special

Ever since I was born, I have always been a shy person. I would try to ignore my own feelings to help others. In fact, I was forced to at such a young age since my friends were all a few months younger than me. Therefore, since I was the eldest, I was the one who got reprimanded and to my young mind, did everything wrong. This idea was reinforced by my mother shouting at both me and my dad a lot. My dad and her yelled at each other every night. They tried to hide it from me, but I was a poor sleeper. …

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restless mind

February 26th, 2015by littlerayofsunshine

Sometimes i feel it would be just so much easier to give in to temptation… to let the blade make me forget everything i worry about. Every now and then i wonder why i put myself through all this grief and stress when i could make it all go away and never have to worry about a single thing ever again… bad late night thoughts that haunt me.

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Seems I’m not alone at being alone..

February 25th, 2015by mick9999

Hi all,

I am a bipolar, drug induced psychosis and suicide survivor.

My life was such chaos before diagnosis and I honestly don’t know how i made it out alive. I’ve had a few serious attempts. When I say serious, I mean more spontaneous, not planned, I was caught downing three months of antidepressants, had material rip when I tried to asphyxiate myself and my dogs eyes stopped me from driving us over a cliff. I have also had my cry for help attempts. I didn’t want to die, but I didn’t want to live either. I wanted help, so I would tell someone that I was …

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I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life

February 23rd, 2015by niki

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !

I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future

you see ,.. Reality / real world / real life …

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Well. This is me.

February 18th, 2015by Samnelson

THIS IS A LONG READ, I UNDERSTAND IF YOU DONT GET THROUGH IT. BUT YOU WILL NOT REGRET READING IT IF YOU DO.

 

 

Hey. So like I guess I wanna past this as a suicide survivor. And say that life. Life has always been shit. And who am I to tell anyone to, or not to do anything, like, I myself have done almost everything that you could think of that someone who was not within it would not understand, drugs, self harm, I’m diegnosed Ana, smoking, drinking, and you know what every day of my life I still tell others not to do any of …

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inescapable “depression”

February 16th, 2015by Voidt

Do you agree with this view: “Depression is the illness of civilization, without civilization, we’d be happy: We’d be happy without depression. Without depression we would not have the beautiful arts: novels, plays, paintings. If we were happy we wouldn’t need the arts. Without our depression happiness as a concept would not exist”.

https://todayistblogger.wordpress.com/2015/02/17/depression/

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my theme song for this month

February 16th, 2015by Khaliladivine28

by: seasons after

cry little sister cover

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lifes just to hard

February 12th, 2015by ezewizz

Sorry this ia written cappy

Hi my name is ezequiel and i am 14 years old and suicidal and i just wanna share my veiw on life.when i was 1-3 my parents brought me to arizona i lived with my mom,dad,and sister.Around the first few months that we moved here my dad began abuseing hard drugs like coke and lots of other drugs he would come home all druged out and abuse me and my sister(she was about 6 or 7)and he would cut my mom with knifes he was always like this.We were really poor my mom got a job at pizza hut and my …

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Should I?

February 11th, 2015by EmoGirl2250

Ive thought about it long and hard! I have this plan running away!!  killing myself!! Should i? let me explain!

Age 9-I was taken away from my dad and moved to Ohio

House 1- My mom sister(Aunt) It was horrid..My cousin took a knife to my throut and i got beat for it, that was the last day i was there.

House 2- was my other aunts house and we got in a huge fight and she moved out.. we sleft on the floor all through christmas and for my 10 birthday

House 3- An apartment with just me and my mom,  i was left home alot, she worked …

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It gets better.

February 11th, 2015by Danny26

So, I’m just updating here to say that I think things have gotten better for me. Extremely better, and all in the course of 24 hours. That’s right…. just one day. Basically I told someone that I was planning to kill myself and right after that I felt a massive weight was lifted off my shoulders. I’ve been able to control my overthinking more in the past few hours than I ever have before (I’m actually starting to realize when I overthink!), and I can also tell that I will not be contemplating suicide again anytime soon. I’ve never felt so good in my life, and I …

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I don’t get it.

February 8th, 2015by helenabeat

Ok. So umm, I have this 2 years with depression and I just realize the fact that I saved my friend’s life and they didn’t care when I tried to kill myself. So I think this is all fucked up. All this system I mean wtf people! Why are they so hypocrites? Oh my god. I’m not saying that’s why I tried to kill myself because I do have my reasons, but they knew and they didn’t care, and I just realize that. and it makes me sad, because they knew how lonely I felt and I feel, and they know about everything and

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fuck reality , fuck real life , fuck real world , because reality / real-world / real-life is boring ! Imagination /dreams / fantasy is better than reality / real-world / real-life !

February 5th, 2015by niki

I think (some) people would agree that our everyday’s reality / real life / real world life is boring, mundane, repetitive routines, jobs, to make money, and even the ‘fun’ stuff like party, sex, dance, etc in the end still can’t beat our wildest dreams / imagination / fantasy .

Movies , video games , comics , books , novels , anime , manga often are a HUNDRED times much more interesting than this mundane, dull, LIMITED / LIMITING, boring reality / boring reallife / boring realworld !
eg: Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, X-Men, Marvel heroes / comics , Star Wars, Star Trek, TRON, …

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Still in a Dark Place

February 4th, 2015by the12thdreamcatcher

Hi, this is my first post, so I thought I should tell you guys about my story…….

My parents both are a little messed up, my mother has OCD and Major Depressive Disorder. My dad has PTSD, that has made him turn to drug addiction. My parents both smoke marajuana (which is sadly, legal in our state) and that ended in my siblings and I being split up and put in different various foster homes. Since about two years ago I started self-harming (burning) and I have had two suicide attempts. After my first suicide attempt my families court case got closed and everyone returned home. …

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Virtual Reality is escape from boring reality sucks , Virtual Reality is escape from boring real world sucks , Virtual Reality is escape from boring real life suck !

January 30th, 2015by niki

Virtual Reality is escape from boring reality suck ,
Virtual Reality is escape from boring real world suck ,
Virtual Reality is escape from boring real life sucks !

We all know that this Reality / Real-world / Real-life is very LIMITED / LIMITING !
everyday we do the same routines , chores , go make money , make money / profits , go to boring shitty jobs because of money , and then we go have fun, party, sex, entertainment etc etc , and then it repeats again !
What’s so interesting about that ??
I’ve observed that most people who actually LOVE all those boring things …

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I need help

January 29th, 2015by dgjb

About a year ago I got high and bullied a friend. I hurt her so bad that she attempted suicide then I felt really bad and have been depressed/suicidal ever since. I have moments in school where just like whatever and go into the bathroom and cut myself. It also doesn’t help when someone sees the cuts and tells people. I felt as if I dug a 100 foot hole I can’t get out of. My life is done. It won’t get better.

Edit: I forgot to say I’m also bullied and have been since 4th grade (currently in 8th) and its hard to deal with …

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November 19th, 2014.

January 24th, 2015by lostsoulblanklife

November 19th, 2014 was my first suicide attempt. I’ve been suicidal ever since 1st grade. I’ve been suffering for 10 motherfucking years.

November 19th, was the day. Right before school, I ran up to my parents’ bathroom. I was about to brush my teeth, when it hit me. I looked to my left. There it was. The cabinet door was open. Full of pills. In the moment, I wasn’t thinking. They were right there. Uselessly sitting there. I slowly crept over to the cabinet. Looked at which bottle had more pills. Of course I wasn’t thinking of the details, what they were, what they could do …

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Had to tell somebody

January 20th, 2015by DeSuehill

So for starters, I’ve tried to commit suicide maybe half a dozen times.  Through pills, a few vain attempts at cutting my wrists, which have left my arms embarrassing and cumbersome for finding work.  I have been a cutter since I was 15, but those scars are hidden.

I used drugs for many years, meth, x, and shot coke for awhile.  Well, I did it, I quit drugs.  At 22, but than I started drinking.  Real fun drinking, but managed to keep a job.  When I didnt have a job, I drank all day and all night.

So I meet a man.  Also an alcoholic.  We moved …

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Idk what to do

January 17th, 2015by darksouI

uhm hi everyone,im new here.so last summer i tried to kill myself with pills but i failed and ended up in hospital for 2 weeks.i was diagnosed with major depression.my whole family thinks this is some kind of joke,they think that theres no way i could be depressed bc im just a teen and its so disgustin and annoying.my parents are horrible.theyre calling me names and expect too much.i cry almost everynight because i cant get their words oyt of my head.my mom thinks “i’ve everything” but to her everything is money and material stuff.they never tried talking to me and always act like everything …

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