Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

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2014 …

December 19th, 2014by Lupe Hernandez

Just Another Year With
12 Months, 52 Weeks, 365 Days, 8,760 Hours, 525,600 Minutes, 3,153,600 Seconds Of Fake Friends, Negativity, Drama, Number Of Suicides And New Experiences ..

The Truth .

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New website

December 19th, 2014by wingbearer

www.thesuicidewatch.org. check it out.

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Life is not fair / unfair. there is always winners & losers. I’m a loser, so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?

December 17th, 2014by niki

Life is not fair.
Life is unfair.

there is always winners & losers.
there will always be winner & loser.
so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?
rather than they keep living chasing & fixing all their way too many losses, which is probably too late anyway too.
and usually losers can’t win / can never win against winners anyway .. even the “start” is already too late!!

This is the harsh truth / fact / reality .

Reality / Real life / Real world is very LIMITING / LIMITED in what we can & can’t do !
We are limited by money (rich and poor), resources, …

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My “stash”

December 14th, 2014by username12345

Just a description of my collection…I’m not set on using it but it’s nice to know I have it just in case. I’ve heard so many stories of failed attempts leading to permanent damage and huge medical bills so I’ve never attempted suicide this method. Based on what I have, what are your thoughts?

Don’t have the bottles with me now, so I don’t know the dosages for most of them

  • Restoril: 20 pills- 15mg each
  • Effexor: 180 pills, 75mg each
  • Wellbutrin: 60 pills
  • Remeron: 60 pills
  • Hydrocodone: 30 pills
  • Adderrall: 30 pills
  • Adderral XR: 30 pills

 

 

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TO BE

December 8th, 2014by mushroom

Hi, I live in Asia and currently a 23 years old male

I feel that my entire life is in constant loops of suffering. I do not have a normal family, and I am an illegitimate child. Yet, i always do not let my identity define myself. Apart fron that, i was always bullied in school, with people constantly calling me names. Because of that, I had a very low self esteem and always tried to avoid people. I did not participate in any activities, and always went home straight if there was no make up classes. I had a really bad 5 years in my …

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Wreckage on bed sheets.

December 7th, 2014by Deathy058

NOTE: This is my personal story.  Thoughts about antidepressants were from a slanted point of view of life at the time, and actually I’ve gained a little knowledge in how they actually help people.  Trigger warning: this details pretty explicitly my first foray into self injury, as well as fragmented memories as they came about during this time of my life.  I don’t appreciate glorifying suicide, and I intend to keep writing my experience on here as a hopeful path to something better than the urge to end it all.  It’s disjointed, but it gets my point across how I want it to be.

In Vitro–2007

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Lost

December 7th, 2014by afakasiangel

This is my first time posting here and I’m not really sure whether I’m on the right track regarding what this site is about…

For the past 3 years I have had reoccurring suicidal thoughts and a couple of failed attempts. The idea of being free from this life is so inviting! In a way, I’m ashamed and I know that I don’t want to hurt my family. I’m trying to remove these thoughts from my head but the battle is tough. The only thing stopping me is knowing that I don’t want my younger siblings to ever suffer as I am.

My self esteem is pitiful. …

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Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality , boring Reality / boring real life / boring real world / boring life !

December 2nd, 2014by niki

Virtual Reality is an escape from Reality ,
Virtual Reality is the escape from Reality ,
this boring Reality (Reality is boring ) !
this boring real life (real life is boring ) !
this boring real world (real world is boring ) !
boring life ( life is boring) !

Seriously, when Reality is boring & mundane (even real Science is boring & mundane too, science fiction (sci-fi) is better than boring science real ! ) , Virtual Reality is the only TRUE / REAL progress for humanity / mankind / our human species !
with Virtual Reality (VR) technology , we can enter into UNLIMITED possibilities, …

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hey everyone,

December 1st, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

happy

Today i am feeling happy and its been hard lately, but i want to share my happiness with all of you because every single person deserves and has the right to be HAPPY! You are strong and you are worth it, keep fighting <3

***Spread the happiness***

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Out on bond….the ones we really love. the woman in our lives

November 30th, 2014by johnwhogivesashit

I’m out on 100,000 dollar bail right now. I’m facing a home invasion charge in Illinois which is a class x felony. The punishment if convicted is a minimum 6 to 30 years in the department of corrections. I am facing a death sentence. These alleged charges are total bullshit but regardless of the outcome I will come out the other side 10,000 dollars in debt from lawyers. I am 22 years old. For all intents and purposes This situation is going to cost me 6-30 years of my life. The courts are a mockery of justice in illinois. they are courts of conviction not …

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Need Some Advice.

November 29th, 2014by GerbzBaby

I have this friend whom I recently just became friends with not to long ago. My little sister (who is a year younger then me) has known him for a good amount of time and has gotten fairly close with him. She told me a bit about him, about how he has depression and also how he tried to commit suicide a few times. It was really heart braking to hear that, to know he was going threw some similar things I go threw everyday. I wanted to comfort him but I don’t know how. I’m bad at making conversations and I’m even worse at …

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science is boring ! science fiction is better than science fact ! sci-fi is better than science fact ! real science is boring !

November 29th, 2014by niki

science is boring !
science fiction is better than science fact !
sci-fi is better than science fact !
real science is boring !

Reality is boring ! Reality sucks !
Real life is boring ! Real life sucks !
Real world is boring ! Real world sucks !

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
I HATE MONEY !! and I HATE …

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Am I self-harming??

November 26th, 2014by Nyx Lavery

I have a past of self-harming – usually just to bring me pain, not to kill myself. This past year I have pierced myself 16 times. 14 ear piercings and at the moment I am getting Dahlia piercings. I noticed that during the times I’d go into my bathroom and puncture my skin, I would be extremely upset.

Am I self-harming?

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My Suicide Journals (2010)

November 25th, 2014by L4Y

In 2010, after over a decade of severe depression and several years of suicidal feelings, I made the decision to finally end things. To this day, it is the only time I have ever made concrete plans to take my life.

I kept a journal documenting my decision and feelings before and leading up to my planned suicide. Below are excerpts from two of those journal entries (the second being parts of a private message sent to someone from my past I had reconnected with. It was written as my end date was approaching).

Perhaps there are some people who will find comfort in reading these things …

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Im wanted by nobody

November 24th, 2014by Thebiggestmistake

All my life has contained of happy children and families.When I see them I can’t help but feel jealous.They seem so happy while my family acts like I wasn’t born.I wish my life could go back to normal like when I was little,we would spend every waking hour together but now we are lucky to spend 5 seconds together.After my grandfather died on January 31 2013, I have felt so alone and lost.I have tried so many times to be someone im not because I have no one to look up to and no one to help guide the way.I changed my hair

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November 24th, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

just need someone to talk to right now… please

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We can help each other

November 23rd, 2014by charlieregal

Lets do it. Lets start a trust fund. We all sell some pf our things then put it in a trust and agree to all meet someplace and use the tust money to pay the fair for who ever wants to come. Then we buy a bomb and just hold hands and sing a prayer or a hymn or something and just wait for it to us all up. Don’t you see that this is your chance!? Stop procastinating! We can do this together don’t you see! we can help each other. We’re all in the same boat so lets just punch a hole in …

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Do you remember?

Do you remember?

November 22nd, 2014by secretz180

Do you remember when your breaking point was. When you finally couldn’t take all the darkness that you felt around you. The moment you let yourself down.. The moment when you didn’t give a shit if you died or lived. I remember it and I have the evidence for the rest of my existing life. I only cut myself on the left side of my wrist. Why ruin your other wrist. Just put the pain all in one spot at a time. Just look at your artwork of scars. I remember when the breaking point was. I promised my self I would never harm myself, …

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The one of many suicidal notes

November 20th, 2014by secretz180

This will be my last note to everyone. I lay awake waiting for something to happen, waiting for someone to text me, waiting for forgiveness, waiting…. That’s all I’ve done with my life. I’ve been waiting to end all of this. Everyday I wake up, I go to school because it’s easier not to think there. I’m sitting at a table where no one wants me there. I’ve gave up with wanting to fit into a group. When I’m not there no one thinks about me. No one loves me enough to call them theirs. Theirs no place for me here. I started thinking about …

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