Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

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Gave myself a chance, nothing changed.

June 26th, 2015by Manhattan

I came across this site and when I tried to register it said I was already registered. I didn’t realize I had posted here almost 3 years ago. I decided to try and live. But today, I still feel precisely the same as I did then. There have been massive, positive changes in my life and my lifestyle, but none of it has even made a chip in the depression I’ve felt since I was a child.

Now I’m 3 years closer to that expiration date I’d given myself: if things don’t improve by the time I’m 30, I’ll know that I’ve run my course. I …

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I hate business ! I hate money ! I hate capitalism / capitalist !

June 19th, 2015by niki

I hate business !
I hate money !
I hate capitalism / capitalist !

The main reason is because business kills creativity & ideas . money kills creativity & ideas . capitalism / capitalist kills creativity & ideas !
There are a LOT of good ideas , creativity , imaginations , inspirations , dreams , & even good deeds that business / money kills ! simply because of a petty, shallow reason “it doesn’t make a lot of money or profits ! ”

money makes the world unfair ! business makes the world unfair ! capitalism makes the world unfair !

plus , the world becomes a boring place ! …

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June 19th, 2015by ariii

This is a long story, so bear with me.

From the beginning: I’m a female, live in a pretty rural setting, was 20 years old when things got really bad. I’ve experienced complex trauma and was pretty angry, violent, self-destructive, depressed etc. all through childhood and adolescence. I moved to a new town in my late teens, got a job at a local social services agency, and moved into an apartment, which after about 9 months my partner moved into also. Mid December — right before finals week at college, actually — my partner and I ended things and she moved out. We had been together the …

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Starting Over

June 16th, 2015by RealTalk30

Can’t tell you how many times I’ve had to start my life over again. Locations, friends, schools, jobs, girlfriends and fiancés.. everything. Starting over use to be incredibly hard. But once you reach that end.. there is most often, a fork in the road. And you must choose a path. Death..or starting over. I’ve reached my end enough times to realize that at the end, you lose a lot of cares. And if you can manage to come back a smarter wiser person, you come back with little to lose..but everything to gain. As long as there is breath in my lungs, my heart will …

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My Insignificant Tale

June 15th, 2015by DarknessIncarnate

Hello to you all. I am DarknessIncarnate. This is not my real name but my tale is real I can assure you.

How do I start? I suppose it started when I was in Primary. In my years in my primary school I was never able to make any friends asides from two people. One had the surname of Holmes and the other of Dell. Let’s call them H (for Holmes) and D (for Dell). My first friend was H, and we never really were that far apart from one another. We were close friends and always enjoyed more abstract, imaginative games. Often involving crossing together …

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Charles Bukowski

June 15th, 2015by ChiSox1021

I’m generally bored and disgusted with life. I don’t like the way that I live (which I could change, but not much within grasp), and the way others live (which I admittedly have no right to change), in constant monotony. I’ve known I was going to kill myself for a couple years now, but finally took some initiative in January. I took a few milligrams of Xanax, got in a bath, and tried to cut my wrists and neck. Needless to say, it didn’t work, and I was sent to the hospital for a week, on self-harm watch. Worst week of my life, I had …

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Entrepreneur – killr wings – angel readings

June 14th, 2015by Raymond

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So stoked. Already made 10$ and did a bunch of free readings. It’s not about the money however the green is nice. :)

It’s about encouragement, guidance and enlightenment. So beautiful. Stoked for what’s to come, my friends. Stay on the path of truth and love and much light.

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Losing my grip on reality

June 10th, 2015by Deadinside59

Thank you to those who read and special thanks to those who comment normally i don’t like to rant or complain i prefer to just simply tell what’s happened in my life and let you guys judge for yourselves but I’m sorry i can’t keep it in im sorry for anyone who may care I’m going crazy this is not a cry for pity my birthday is Friday and it used to be a happy occasion but in the last few years it’s been a horrific date I’ve tried to kill myself on my birthday many times last year was my closest to success i …

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Why does no one want to spend time with me…

June 4th, 2015by please just let me die

So, I know I’m a terrible person to people I honestly hate, but as for the people who I try to be nice to and care for… WHY CAN’T YOU SPEND FIVE FUCKING MINUTES WITH ME. I really don’t understand how hard it is just to get off an Xbox, or take a few minutes after you get off work, or a simple moment when you get out of school just to talk to me or hang out with me. I mean…. I actually TRIED with you. Even after I gave up on everyone else, I stuck with YOU. Not him or her, not the …

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I’m here for you

June 4th, 2015by 2sadhappy

It’s been a while since I have been on here. I consider myself a suicide survivor. My story is not anything crazy but I invite anyone to contact me, young or old, male or female, to contact me. I want to be here to be your outlet. I want to be someone to hear your story and to pass on my wisdom that things will get better. So please, please contact me before you decide to put an end to it all. I will show you the world is worth sticking around for. My email is 2sadhappy@gmail.com. If you email me I promise you a …

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IAM STILL HERE

June 2nd, 2015by rosebud78

I HATE HOW WORDS CAN HURT  U IN YOUR SOUL  . IAM NOT CRAZY I DONT TAKE CRAZY PILLS I HAVE A Mental DISORDER. I AM NOT BROKEN I AM STILL A PERSON I STILL MATTER SOO PLEASE WATCH WHAT U SAY AND HOW U MAKE PEOPLE FEEL

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“Crazy”

June 1st, 2015by Terrible

When I was younger, in the grades of 2 to 4, crazy used to mean funny, or silly.  As I’ve grown older, I’m still labeled as the crazy one. But it has a whole other meaning now.  Being called crazy really sucks. I can’t get away from it, it doesn’t matter how hard I try to.

I’m not crazy. I’m a girl who has a mental illness. Sure, sometimes, I ask myself if I really am crazy. But I know I’m not. There is nothing wrong with me, besides the depression, self hate and anxiety. I am a human like everyone else, yet I find that …

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desperate

June 1st, 2015by treekoke1

I am 18 years old im not posting this for any other reason than to just do it, my lifes not always been easy but its not always been hard either ill admit that however all my life I’ve had bi polar schizophrenia I didn’t know about this till very recently and well my familys abandoned me they lied threw me out hell my moms a special ed teacher and well I never knew how hard this was going to be but I tried to commit suicide when I was 16 I rehabilitated and focused on positives it was ok till I was thrown out …

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Still Hanging In There – Even If There Does Not Seem To Be Any Light In Sight

May 31st, 2015by Justanotherfaintstar

I was twelve-years-old when I had my first thought about ending my life. I do not think that there was a specific event that triggered it. I think it was just an accumulation of many different events and circumstances that left me feeling helpless and completely out-of-tune to the world and my life. I did not have many close friends in school, and my family always seemed to jostle me back and forth with their demands and expectations. People saw me, but it did not feel like people took the moment to look back and actually acknowledge me and get to know me. As I …

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Ask.fm

May 28th, 2015by Terrible

If any of you know who I am, you know that when I was 14, last year, I tried to kill myself by swallowing 60+ pills. I was in the hospital for a week. Besides that, I want to tell you what it was like going back to school, and back to social media.

Being back to school was different. I was different. I was much more different than I give credit for. Either way, people took notice of me. I was the talk of the school for a whole month. People watched me like halks. Sympathetic looks? I’ve seen a million. People could be mean, …

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Friendships never last.

May 28th, 2015by Terrible

When push came to shove, and I found that most of my friends left me. It seemed like they had left me to die.

I will never forgive some of them for leaving me when I needed someone. I felt so alone already, and when they left, I fell into a deeper depression than I was already in.

I guess I’m writing this to tell the truth. Most friendships don’t last. I was friends with someone for 11 years, and as soon as high school came around, everything changed for good. We drifted apart, as people do, and became different people.

We don’t talk anymore. There are still …

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It’s been a while.

May 20th, 2015by lostsoulblanklife

Hello everybody.

In my other posts, I do not think I made myself as clear as I wanted to. To me it’s a miracle I’m still here. Still breathing. Still fighting. A couple of weeks ago, I lost my best friend. She said I was too sad for her well-being. How selfish can one be? How inconsiderate?

I’m not surprised I feel like this. I feel like I’m at the breaking point. I feel hopeless not only about my social life but also because of my skin condition. I haven’t mentioned this in the other posts. I have acne. Acne that I can cover up with makeup, …

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Suicide of friends/family

May 20th, 2015by RadiantLight

A friend of mine just committed suicide 4 days ago and everyone in my community is totally shocked.

I was wondering what experiences you may have had with a suicide of a friend or family – whomever – and how you dealt with it.

He was a very smart student was best in his school year and an extremely intelligent and good person. He left a note that said noone should feel guilty with all his bank accounts and formal stuff. Then he left and jumped from a 10 story building. Before he has been fighting depression for one year and had medication ( I’m not sure …

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3rd attempt. How to stop?

May 16th, 2015by I_just_want_2Bhappy

I’m currently in a partial hospitalization program after half-hearted attempt number 3. Counseling seems to be triggering a lot and I feel worse. I suffer from depression, PTSD, am a victim of abuse, abandonment and neglect. Been in therapy for years. It’s not that I want to die (at my worst I do), it’s that I have no will to live. Does anyone else feel that way?

I want to be happy again. I want to stop the daily thoughts to kill myself. I’m on meds, I’m in intensive therapy, I like my psychiatrist but need a new therapist. My cousin is doing ECT, but I …

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How did you get better

May 11th, 2015by thebottoms

Im tired of medication and psychiatry sessions I’m slowly watching everything die around me or walk out of my life and i just want to get better but i cant save myself . How did it get better for any of you

Im a recent graduate and its hard not having structure. In order to feel any emotion or fill my boredom i have given in to impulse decisions,unsafe decisions and have alienated everyone important to me. I have watched my life fall to pieces in weeks. I just lost my bf of 5 years and im struggling to see the point. Im know people will …

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