My mom just took her own life back in july and i am the one that found her. I dont know what to think of this. and i have a really difficult time understanding why. I am going to counseling and it helps.. I just feel down a lot of times. I have thought a [...]

Two daggers pierced through my heart and tore up my soul;    My heart bleeds;    My body lay still;    Numbness consumes me,   Yet I continue to breathe mindlessly.    It is a battle between life and death.    I ask myself Why?   I faint voice inside of me whispers to me [...]

I sit here hating myself for being myself. I try everyday to live to be happy, but nothing ever works. The realization of the fact that the one person you love so much will never love you back torments me and leaves me unable to move. I pray for the torment to end.   He [...]

My mediation sessions have be hijacked by an old memory that i just cant shake. I  return to a time when i was really happy, genuinely happy. When i think about this time i spent with my first girlfriend i am happy, but when i come back to reality i feel sad again. The moment [...]

                              I fucking live off coffee and cigarettes, to be honest i just don’t give a shit , thats deff another lie, affirmed by my predisposition to cry. I claim to be emotionless when really I’m overrun by it. You all [...]

Well as most of you know…I have been struggling with something rather big since I got here on my Dad’s birthday.  Did I forget to tell you during my many rants that my Daddy was my first and best hero?  Oh man…I am soooo raw right now…but it feels good for a change.  Sorry had [...]

Check out my blog of journal entries threw my struggles with depression anxiety along with heroin addiction to try and stop the pain. I keep my journal raw and for all to see . No one in this forum is alone !! Http://www.jlb462606.blogspot.com

I know, only I can make my life better. I know that just wishing and whining will accomplish nothing. But how is it so hard to actually live by that knowledge, to put it to a good use? I have always been really shy. People have told me “it’s just a phase” “you’ll grow out [...]

i met my boyfriend  at work in march 2007.  i was heavily attracted to him.  he showed me around the workplace so i spent my whole shift with him.  he bought me lunch, was a complete gentleman and at one point he took me to his locker to give me his jacket.  i felt him [...]

A friend posted this on my Facebook page and I thought about all the pain expressed by people via the Suicide Project website who feel no one understands or cares. If you think you don’t matter, if you feel all alone, you’re not alone in spirit. You Matter. This isn’t a religious song; it’s a [...]