Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

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Am I self-harming??

November 26th, 2014by Nyx Lavery

I have a past of self-harming – usually just to bring me pain, not to kill myself. This past year I have pierced myself 16 times. 14 ear piercings and at the moment I am getting Dahlia piercings. I noticed that during the times I’d go into my bathroom and puncture my skin, I would be extremely upset.

Am I self-harming?

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My Suicide Journals (2010)

November 25th, 2014by L4Y

In 2010, after over a decade of severe depression and several years of suicidal feelings, I made the decision to finally end things. To this day, it is the only time I have ever made concrete plans to take my life.

I kept a journal documenting my decision and feelings before and leading up to my planned suicide. Below are excerpts from two of those journal entries (the second being parts of a private message sent to someone from my past I had reconnected with. It was written as my end date was approaching).

Perhaps there are some people who will find comfort in reading these things …

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Im wanted by nobody

November 24th, 2014by Thebiggestmistake

All my life has contained of happy children and families.When I see them I can’t help but feel jealous.They seem so happy while my family acts like I wasn’t born.I wish my life could go back to normal like when I was little,we would spend every waking hour together but now we are lucky to spend 5 seconds together.After my grandfather died on January 31 2013, I have felt so alone and lost.I have tried so many times to be someone im not because I have no one to look up to and no one to help guide the way.I changed my hair

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November 24th, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

just need someone to talk to right now… please

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We can help each other

November 23rd, 2014by charlieregal

Lets do it. Lets start a trust fund. We all sell some pf our things then put it in a trust and agree to all meet someplace and use the tust money to pay the fair for who ever wants to come. Then we buy a bomb and just hold hands and sing a prayer or a hymn or something and just wait for it to us all up. Don’t you see that this is your chance!? Stop procastinating! We can do this together don’t you see! we can help each other. We’re all in the same boat so lets just punch a hole in …

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Do you remember?

Do you remember?

November 22nd, 2014by secretz180

Do you remember when your breaking point was. When you finally couldn’t take all the darkness that you felt around you. The moment you let yourself down.. The moment when you didn’t give a shit if you died or lived. I remember it and I have the evidence for the rest of my existing life. I only cut myself on the left side of my wrist. Why ruin your other wrist. Just put the pain all in one spot at a time. Just look at your artwork of scars. I remember when the breaking point was. I promised my self I would never harm myself, …

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The one of many suicidal notes

November 20th, 2014by secretz180

This will be my last note to everyone. I lay awake waiting for something to happen, waiting for someone to text me, waiting for forgiveness, waiting…. That’s all I’ve done with my life. I’ve been waiting to end all of this. Everyday I wake up, I go to school because it’s easier not to think there. I’m sitting at a table where no one wants me there. I’ve gave up with wanting to fit into a group. When I’m not there no one thinks about me. No one loves me enough to call them theirs. Theirs no place for me here. I started thinking about …

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Well here goes nothing….

November 20th, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

Tonight is the night I tell my story

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My story

November 20th, 2014by littlerayofsunshine

About 5 years ago I attempted suicide, to this day I now suffer from PTSD resulting in never ending anxiety… it never stops or leaves me alone. That being said, suffering from body image and depression has always been a struggle for me, recently this summer I started cutting myself and now it seems to be the only thing that keeps me sane these days. Weird. I know.  But it’s something about the pain that reminds me i’m alive and still here, it’s like a horrible reassurance that I need to remind myself everyone now and then.

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hello everyone,

November 14th, 2014by keepsurviving

I am fairly new here. I found this website in my darkest days and I am not sure if it is gonna make everything better or worse but it is good to read people’s experiences and have a chance to help them. I can say that I have survived and strayed from the darkest version of myself. I hope I can help you also! I am here when you need me. I mean it.

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I survived Suicide.

November 14th, 2014by 28unknown28

During life we all face things that are difficult to cope with. no story is worst then the others. everyone has their own amount of pain they can deal with.

this is a very short version of my story.

I was 7 years old when i heard my fathers door close. My best friend entered my room and started revealing the darkest secrets i could of imagined. My father has been molesting and raping her in his room every day. i didnt know what this meant at the time and i thought that it was normal. she had kept telling me to keep it a secret so …

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Is it Fair? By: KristinLewis

November 11th, 2014by yourgirlkrissy

At some point in life, you have to take a deep breath and think twice. You have to put aside all the things that made you cry, and look at the brighter things in life. Like going home to love and support, instead of going hold to a homeless shelter because you’re poor. But always be thankful for the life that you’re livin, because you could’ve been just another abortion. Sometimes we don’t see a reason for livin’, because we are raped, abused, and mistreated. So we cut, do drugs, and become suicidal , for some of us the voices in our head can make …

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Damaged Goods Short Film

November 10th, 2014by dgshortfilm

Because we all deserve to live. It does get better man. It really does.

 

www.damagedgoodsfilm.com

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Her

November 9th, 2014by BecomingAnAngel

I call her M&M. Because those are her initials.
She used to be one of my bestfriends.
Her dad went all manic and went crazy on her family and got sent to a mental hospital.
Then she got crazy.
It was like, She was a complete different person. She’s 13 right now and She has probably had sex with 30+ highschoolers at my school.
None of the highschoolers like her for her. and she knows that but she still lets them do whatever.
She got super suicidal before all this happened.
Then she tried to overdose.
and then she slit her wrists.
Then she went to anorexia, and she told everyone about it.
she wanted …

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I’ve never told anybody this before.

November 9th, 2014by rizcr

When I was 16 years old, I was at the peak of a very dark place.

Everything really started when I was twelve. I hated myself, and everybody else hated me, whether it was too my face or behind my back. I allowed people to walk all over me because I wanted to have friends, no matter how little they were actually friendly. Just people I could sit with at lunch, or talk to during class. I hated being alone. I still do. I started cutting a few months after I turned twelve, when I overheard one of my “friends” talking about it with someone else.

I …

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one of my suicide attempts

November 8th, 2014by the enigma

In april this year, I attempted suicide.
I was broke living on the streets for about 2 months in the philippines at the age of 36. Got burnt by friends and lied to by others and was left to fend for myself.
I then found refuge in a slum but having to rely on people that would spend less than 2 dollars in one day the guilt and burden was all too much.
The fact that I suffer from depression and couldnt but any medication played its part too. So many attempts to call home and ask for help fell on deaf ears. The sad thing …

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I’m Living a Lie

November 7th, 2014by cbag90

I can’t stop shaking.

I’ve been lying to my parents for 5 years. They think I just graduated from university when in fact I failed my second term, never even finished my first year. My parents are so proud of me. It’s all a lie. I honestly don’t know what to do right now. I have no friends, I have nobody except for my parents, where do I even begin to pick up my life? The son that they love is a complete lie, he doesn’t exist. They’re coming to visit me later tonight or tomorrow, and there’s no way of continuing to lie to them …

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why didn’t the poison hemlock work?

October 31st, 2014by dancininnovember

On October 26th, last Thursday, I ate a handful of poison hemlock seeds I had researched thoroughly. I was so ready. I had prepared all summer. Ready for peace, or nothingness, or heaven, or hell, or my next life, or a reset. I want to die, and I’ve wanted to die for a very very long time. My chest and gut physicaly hurt when I think of having to push on for 60 or so years living only for my friends and family. ..the seeds are from a camping trip. I know hemlock. The leaves, the flowers, the colors, the smell, and yes, the taste. …

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Hell is cruel…

Hell is cruel…

October 29th, 2014by deathisbliss

I posted before saying that life is the human concept of hell.

The truth of it as I see it is that life if one long self-imposed trial.

Self-delusion might avoid the trial but it does not stop it.  Most Eastern philosophies suggest we must GROW to escape the pain.

If any religion is close to the truth as I VIEW IT, it would be Buddhism.

We are tried, we are tested, and we must not trust or ignore…most religion places the responsibility else where, it tells us to trust in “God”, to pray, and to be happy with the outcome…no different than an imaginary friend or a fantasy. …

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final steps

October 29th, 2014by ghost walking

maybe my last letter written to him…

i registered for some blog open blog of suicide notes etc..

i once wanted to leave my story. but now..

 you have taken the last shred  of me.. with your coldness, dismissal. and lack of compassion..
i am but a hand full of dust waiting to be blown, and scattered, erased  in the winds … of  a life  vanished meaningless and alone

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