Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

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My story

July 23rd, 2014by mav123

The truth is she’s a mess. Once so well put together. Once was that happy girl that smiled twenty four- seven. The girl that had great friends and was nice to everyone. She was complete with joy. That girl faded. That girl doesn’t exist anymore. A gloomy depressed girl now exists. Battling for her life every day. Battling with life. She went from going out with friends to staying up all night crying. She shut down. No words spoken. But she woke up the next day and painted that smile on her face. Look in her eyes and you will see a world filled with …

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Life goes on

July 21st, 2014by PaleHorse

This is going to be my first post in a while but ill try to keep things concise.

Im a guy aged 20 studying in university at the moment. Im writing this because last time I was here a few years back somebody told me that age old cliche things get better with time.. But im still waiting and the last few weeks have just gotten harder and harder.
I keep wanting to talk to someone but being from a not particularly close family ive sort of grown up never discussing feelings and problems, and when I try it feels too much like counselling again and just …

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good day

July 20th, 2014by thelostgirl1499

Today’s been a good day.

I went round my boyfriends house..we fucked and cuddled a lot. I even ate some junk food with him,last year I wouldn’t have dreamed of doing that.

I even had a bit of anxiety and he just held me and played with my hair

Yeah I fucked up the other night,but I recovered.

Ladies and gentlemen,there’s always hope.

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Yeah hi, I’ll take the large anxiety and panic combo to go

July 19th, 2014by killswitchon

welp, let me start the DJing off this wonderful morn in SP with this great tune. Call me DJ PattyD. #guidolyfe #GTL guns trips lisps.

Oh, and don’t forget to hit like and subscribe and of course share your tips, tricks and experiences you’ve had with intense anxiety. had it past few days and can’t shake it. *aaarrggghh* this song among many others helps calm the nerves. Some drink chamomile tea, I listen to the weeknd.

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KillDrakeOn–>>> I’m Drakin’ right now!! I’m Drakin’!!

July 18th, 2014by killswitchon

One of our many prestigiously proud Canadian exports–I present to you drake. Home grown in Toronto, Ontario, Canada! The motto is YONO. You only Nembutal once. braapt braapt.

….my only question to this day is: who the fuck is uncle Luke AND where can I find this elusively legendary character??

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Living with a demon.

July 17th, 2014by rekotsmarb

Certainly not the spiritual kind, just an emotionally and physically abusive, narcissistic and controlling human woman.

It feels like only one of us will make it out of this war alive. On nights like tonight I often think about taking the situation into my own hands and exiting this war on my own terms. I’m tired and I’m dreary.

Then I’m reminded that I fight back harder every single time. Tonight, when physical abuse came at me, I did not allow it. I fought back, I defended myself physically. That was my first time.

There must be something in that, I wouldn’t be fighting so hard if I …

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My story.

July 15th, 2014by famouslivingdead

I don’t really know where to start off. This is my first post so please don’t criticize me or anything.

Okay. So ever since I was a little kid, I mean little like 3, I’ve been terribly anxious. Anxious about anything and everything. And I don’t really have a reason, I just am. I’ve never really liked who I am, appearance, personality, etc. And in 5th grade I would constantly get made fun of and I just hated going to school. And then in 6th grade, I hated myself. I hated how I looked and I hated that other people were so much better.. So I …

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How am I to cope with all THIS?

July 14th, 2014by PippinLink

I don’t think I want this, but what am I saying? I never did.

This isn’t the life I ever wanted to live. I used to have so many hopes and dreams… And now? There’s… Nothing. Just broken remains of the buildings of my hopes and dreams, shattered by those who thought lesser of me, as if their cruel words could never hurt me. But not just them. The family never helped me, if anything, they made it worse. This isn’t where I should be starting though. The suicidal feelings, the depression, everything like that, developed at around the age of 7.

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I’m alive and free. (For everyone who saw my post yesterday)

July 12th, 2014by SeasOfBlue

I’m alive.

And I’m free.

I’ve never been more free in my life.
It feels so good.

 

I suppose I should explain what happened when I stopped posting yesterday. Basically, the pills were making me really tired and weak. I was dying, basically. It was getting really hard to type, because the simple movements were taking all of my energy. So, I said goodbye to all of you, and I fell asleep. I’m pretty sure it was closer to dying rather then sleeping, but I didn’t know at the time; I was too weak. Anyway, I never moved my laptop from on top of me, because the movement would’ve …

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Anyone Who Saw My Post Last Night or If You Didn’t Stop and Read This Please if You are feeling suicidal

July 11th, 2014by That1guy94

First off I want to say thank you for all the people or most of the people who could understand and took time to be with me last night. I felt good when I was close to leaving that you people really cared even though you don’t know me. So thank you for that. And for that one person who was rude and inconsiderate please don’t comment. But I am going to stay positive.

So as you all know I hit rock bottom last night and couldn’t do it anymore. And I couldn’t take living anymore. So I acted. Not like other times where I was …

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Hardly.

July 7th, 2014by hellblau

You think your days are uneventful, and no one ever thinks about you. You think your days are ordinary, and no one ever thinks about you. But we’re all the same, and she can hardly breathe without you.

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Easier

July 6th, 2014by hellblau

I don’t know your thoughts these days.
We’re strangers in an empty space.
I don’t understand your heart,
It’s easier to be apart.

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Intent2Ki!!

July 5th, 2014by RealTalk30

I’ve told this story before but rather than have it disappear into obscurity I’d like it to be a lesson for all new comers, if it can help you understand your life a little better.

I tried to kill myself when I was in my early twenties. It’s been roughly 10 years since that night, and I won’t ever be able to shake it..that I know!
I was getting wrapped up into drugs and suffering from depression, and needless to say I wanted to die and had every intention in doing so. There wasn’t all this easy access to the Internet so methods were …

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My experience

July 5th, 2014by PerfectDay

It’s  my first time here, I want to say that English is not my first language so I’m sorry if I make mistakes.

I’m 20 and I’ve been suicidal since I was 9, I’ve tried it a few times when I was younger and didn’t succeed but luckily no one even noticed. I’ve regularly made cuts in my legs since I was 12, my family and friends have seen the scars and even asked about them but none of them seems to actually care about it.

Last year I started talking with who is my best friend now, she’s suicidal too. We support each other and we …

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He

July 3rd, 2014by hellblau

He makes me weak, He makes me smile, He makes me cry, He makes me love him, He makes me hate him, He makes me happy, He makes me sad. And still, I can’t get him out of my fucking mind.

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July 4th, 2013 The day I died

July 3rd, 2014by astalawago

In less than 24 hours it will be the one year anniversary of my suicide. Just typing that now the tears swell in my eyes. I’m left with multiple organ damage, some nerve damage and a dying heart valve that causes an arrhythmia. Memories that were so special are blurs and I’m but a shadow of my shadow. I meant every second of my suicide and it was the only time I’ve ever felt free. Free of pain: mentally, physically and emotionally. Free of fear, free from my past, free from the numbness and so alive that night is burned in me. The sensation was …

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Hello Darkness, my old friend…

July 1st, 2014by darknessfriend

“The Sound Of Silence” is track #12 on the album Old Friends Live on Stage. It was written by Traditional, . / Mcglynn, Michael Philip
Hello Darkness my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again

Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted
In my brain still remains
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams, I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
‘Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash
Of a neon light that

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The Guy

June 30th, 2014by Sammie Motionless

So today I met a guy really sweet and generous he went thru the same things that I have has the same things as me and we got along really well that guys in a band and going to the urban fest I can’t wait to see him again he has that guy has burn scars yet hes helping the outcasts in ways he could never imagine and I feel so glad to call him a ftiend that guy didnt say his name yet when we met next time ill update this that guy has a wonderful personality and everythings I am happy for him …

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i want to help u

June 29th, 2014by ronal007

There was a time when i posted my sad story on this forum.To be honest i never want to remember those moments again in my whole life. But I definitely want to remember and thanks to this forum, that today i am a better person.

I met somebody through this forum who really helped me to overcome those bad days. I would like to do the same with people out here. I want to help you all and make you feel comfortable. I want you all to know that i will always be there if anyone needs me then feel free to msg me on inhellut@gmail.com

 

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First Post

June 29th, 2014by greensky

Hi. I’m a 38-year-old female. I’ve been reading on this site for many months. But I’ve never posted. Today I felt like I should share my story. The first time I thought about suicide was when I was 10. I can remember locking myself in my bedroom closet for two months surrounding myself with pillows crackers and fantasizing about who would be at my funeral and whether anyone would care, I scratched at my wrists. That was the only self harm I can ever recall. That was the beginning of what I consider the bad gene. Fast forward to now present day and what I …

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