Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.


Confessions of a Dead Angel

May 29th, 2016by Mexicanwhiteboy96

Hey everyone, just me- Im 19 right now and I really hate my life . I see people complaining back and forth about trivial things and the truth is I always believed they didn’t know what true pain was. But I know it isn’t right or fair because I’m just comparing their pain to mine andy oroblems aren’t anyone elses. I was molested by my cousin when I was about 8 in 4th grade. the earliest time I can honestly remember this, I was experimented on and I was penetrated my older cousin. Both my cousins fondled me though. That may not …

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New – not sure what I’m doing

May 28th, 2016by nomoreleft

Well I’m new to this site as found it looking into water intoxication.

Last week I took about 40 setraline (anti depression) and then realised that you can’t kill to yourself with them.

This week I have drank approx 70 pints of water of 3 days hoping that would kill me but nope – ended up in A&e and, after a long que – blood tests, urine test I was out on an Iv drip and still fucking lived.

I’d had diarrhoea the days I was doing it and tried to hold in my wee when I could and most of water was drank over 7 hour in …

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Forensic Cleaning Documentary – An Antagonizing Source for Strength

  I like this documentary very much. Not in a morbid way. But in the way that where it becomes evident that there isn’t anything pretty about death, the main character in the documentary finds strength and positivism from her job: Forensic Cleaning, aka. Crime Scene Cleaning, aka. Bio-hazard Cleaning Specialists, etc. She has gone […]


I don’t want to live anymore

May 25th, 2016by skysie

I guess I should start from the beginning. I am 17 almost 18 and have a brother who is 16 and a sister who is 20. My life sucks is complicated and somewhat confusing at times.

I was adopted when I was 4 by a family who we were all happy to be part of. I was adopted because my parents did drugs and were nearly always unconscious. We were malnourished and my sister was looking after us. So I guess the positive was we got a new family and well that’s where things were supposed to get better but in fact things somehow got worse.

My brother …


HELP or GET HELP… Talk to Someone.

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Suicide And Me (Documentary)

It’s no walk at the park for anybody. Life I mean. We all have our good days, our not so good days, our bad days, and our wtf am I doing here?! days… But you know what? At the end of the day- scratch that, at the of the call, text message, IM, or email, […]


Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring , not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

May 22nd, 2016by niki

Reality is boring
real-life is boring
real-world is boring
not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

I hate Humans , Humans suck
I hate Human , Human suck
I hate Humanity, Humanity suck
I hate people , people suck

Most humans / people only think about Money ,
and this reality is boring !
reallife is boring !
realworld is boring !

people / humans are so shallow, superficial, stupid, ignorant
Humanity is hopeless

if there is God , then God is boring !
even Science is boring too !
Science fiction (Sci-fi) is much more interesting than real Science facts !

why we can’t live in movie / …


Pain and Pleasure (a quick true story of a kid who fucks with the minds of depressed girls…)

May 22nd, 2016by

So I am a senior male in high school. I’m 17 going on 18 at the end of June. There’s this one kid Zack who is a freshman at my school and I fucking hate him. I haven’t really talked to him but knowing what he does makes me sick. He dates a girl and makes out with her and everything, he is all sweet and charming and everything (little does anybody know he’s really a bitch and extremely aggressive and violent with guys) but the catch about the girls he dates is that they all self-harm (usually cutting). Sounds like a sweet boy right? …


Thank You! Keep’em Coming :)

May 21st, 2016by HERE4UOK



Remembering, and…

May 21st, 2016by Cordless

It’s late enough that probably everyone has gone to sleep or is out partying in that fuzzy world where beer helps us forget everything else.

But I’ll just post this anyway, to help myself think.

About 3 months ago, I posted THIS about a guy in our symphony who died.  (Possibly/probably suicide).

His memorial service was last Thursday (they kept him on ice an extra long time because they had to wait for his brother to get home from overseas).

Since he was an excellent trumpet player, I’ve been trying to think of a way to pay tribute to that by composing a piece …


My Story…

May 19th, 2016by Airrie

I’ve heard so many life stories… Some sad, some happy, and some all of the above, but now I want to share mine… So here we go… Hey, my name is Arianna… I’m a 13 year old girl. I guess you could say I’ve been through a lot in life, but not as much as others… Currently I’m in a depression.. I lose and gain my appetite all the time, for no reason at all, I’ll get sad and or angry at myself, and lastly….. I self-harm… It all started 2-3 years ago. I was being bullied by two boys, that I will not name. …


The Truth of Life After Suicide

May 18th, 2016by HERE4UOK

To Airrie. To IamABuilding. To vho. To Soco. To Iwantpeace2.
To joeld. To AnnieBear. To Raven. To Fantajin. To Nathaniel_Morisawa.
To into_the_sky. To rivets. To butterfly1123. To whiskered-fish. To those I missed.
To ALL of you.

I urge you to watch this documentary. No, I am not here to “save” you.
I don’t come here with false promises or magic potions. All I have is me.

I just want you to be more aware, more informed, to feel encouraged a little. Maybe. For a moment even. In a positive way.
Don’t let the tunnel vision of entrapment, the wall of people and circumstances around you, block your view of what’s …


Wait to be Picked…

May 17th, 2016by HERE4UOK

…Don’t cut your stem prematurely.


suesyd . nomore at gmail . co m



So I’m in a bit of a rut…

May 13th, 2016by Hope342

So a few months ago I left university for the day, half way through, because I couldn’t take the overwhelming nervous feelings of being with my classmates, and lecturers, who are the type of people that make you feel on edge, never good enough. Leaving my coat, bag and items sprawled out across the desk to look as if I was just leaving for lunch, I escaped and walked home as fast as I could, heavily breathing because of the stress of the day.

I don’t know what it was, maybe the fact that my lecturer is quite harsh and makes me feel my work is …



May 7th, 2016by One Million Masks

i don’t really come here for help anymore, so please ignore me; i just wanted a place to ramble.

i never in my wildest dreams thought i would make it to eighteen- not once, even at my most optimistic, did i seriously consider the possibility that i’d still be here today… but i am here.

i don’t really know how i feel about that.

it’s almost kind of laughable, you know? like a bad joke or a fucked up riddle, what’s still there but not, what should be gone that isn’t, what do you call a ghost that’s still alive– and it’s me.

it’d be nice to say hey,


Partly My Fault

May 3rd, 2016by Cordless


Possible problem.

Last night I logged off and went to bed hours earlier than usual. I laid there and cried for what was probably an hour before falling asleep.

When I woke up today, I found that a friend had emailed me 20 minutes after I’d logged off. The email was brief and very desperate sounding, begging me to be there and answer. This friend has been in a suicidal mindset for quite a few months now; possibly even longer. Lately they’ve gotten more and more serious about it.

I feel awful that I didn’t catch their email last night; …


Is it my fate?

May 3rd, 2016by Gypsyguy93

Hello, this is my first time writing on here, I became aware of this site last year when I had a severe depression and anxiety relapse and after I had tried to end my life more than once, had I not been discovered when I had been I would not be here right now. Just knowing that there are people out there who aren’t judgemental, oblivious or unable to understand has just such a great comfort to me since then.

I can remember a life without anxiety or depression, Before 2012.

In 2012 my ex fiancée ( I am a gay male) ended his life after we broke …


1 Email

April 25th, 2016by InTheShadow

Dear all,

I got the first email which someone had asked for help. Someone cannot take Depression anymore and wished to erase herself from existence. Due to privacy, I will not disclose the name. I wasn’t sure of what happened but I have replied the email, hoping to hear from the person soon. I am neither a psychologist nor a psychiatrist; I do not have the expertise in medication or knowledge of how to deal with Negativeness and by that, Depression or any of the problems that many are facing. I can only be a reader and/or a listener of your problems and challenges faced, be it created …


Catch Up ?

April 25th, 2016by PrincessX_xPoptart

Well hey lovely people of suicide Project. I haven’t been here in awhile if you have noticed if any of you know who I am.

So awhile back I made a post about I Dye my hair. Its my self distraction from self harm. People seemed to like that so I think I’m going to make a journal hopefully everyday or maybe a cpl days or once a week in not sure yet. But I’m here for all of you. I wont judge because everyone needs a friend and you shouldn’t feel alone. So if I make a journal for you guys it’ll be self distractions …


I tried to show you a way out

April 24th, 2016by Salt

There has been a tangible regime change at suicideproject. Maybe it’s for the better, but it’s no longer for people like me. About a week ago, I found the way out of hell. For my old friends here (I’m talking 3-4 years ago when I first crash landed on this site under another name… before re-registering as Salt because I didn’t want to upset a beautiful person in my life who didn’t need to know how much I was suffering), I left my final post which I had put a lot of effort into wording with just enough cryptic references to literature, Latin, and scriptures …