i have thought about why i am still living. and i came up with; i am here for my baby brother. i never had a reason to be happy. but now i do. i spend all my time with him, we are always with eachother. i dont wanna let him suffer. so i shall stay [...]

So I don’t want a wake or funeral.  I want absolutely zero fuss made about my death.  But I feel bad killing myself and taking all these healthy organs with me… so I think, I know, I will donate them.  So I had this idea to do it in winter on a snowy day, so [...]

the life I’ve come to know has naught but Shown me how cruel this world can be Some say it’s the worlds way of making you stronger But I know that I won’t last any longer Because there are razors ever where For drugs, for tools, for hair All can be used for the simple [...]

Life is funny for some of us.  As long as we keep toiling and hanging on the moments of joy and peace are fleeting and teasing like a contest at a county fair or a playful friend. And then one decides on ones own demise.  One makes final preparations and gets the methiods ready. One [...]

Once again, I am back from the hospital for suicidal thoughts and depression… Yippy. Just what I want, right? Wrong. I wish that I didn’t have to come back to school… I hate it here…. Anywaysssss I was there also for my anger. I have a terrible temper and I needed to get that under [...]

My race I have run and my time is done.  Have traveled this mortal coil for several decades and found nothing worth me living for.  Add some abuse and a couple of bouts of non self caused disease to that and you have a nice little going away party. Then again maybe my programming was [...]

Even though the history books are not 100% correct one can still glean from them the idea that many past societies had little or no conveniences.  Things we accept as normal like running water, plentiful food, protection of children from slavery/chil labor, decent medical care, decent housing and transport.  Some places still lack some of [...]

i was fed up the other day of fighting just to survive everyday, you see, i’ve been living on the streets for a couple of months and life if just getting worse and worse by the day… i dont have any money for food or drink as the goverment have fucked my benfit claim up [...]

To the youth and adults who have decided to live, at least for today… The person who makes your soul shiver. The song that makes your ears quiver. The food that makes your tongue dance. The activity that lulls your mind into a trance. The relative whose love warms your heart the most. The pets [...]

So after keeping everything bottled up inside me I decided I have to share my real feelings. Hmm…where to start? I guess when everything began. I had just moved to this town in Texas because my father’s in the military. I was excited about the new experience. I had my heart set on going to [...]