Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

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Sometimes, I think I hate everyone

August 21st, 2014by Engie

and I just get by by pretending that I don’t. Not inwardly, I mean on the outside. A mask of sanity. I’m a apathetic misanthrope portraying the character of a normal lovable person in a perpetual improv act.

I’m polite and sweet. I listen to people. I laugh at their jokes. I’m considerate. My mind is dissecting them. I’m dead inside.

I’m just not there.

I’m not depressed any more. I haven’t been for almost a year, but I no longer feel complex emotions of any kind. Some would call this a mixed blessing. There is nothing mixed about it. If I had to choose, I would trade …

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is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

August 21st, 2014by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & …

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The Rope

August 21st, 2014by KissOfDeath

I don’t understand what you’re expecting of me,

your needs a bottomless pit.

Just because you don’t understand these feelings,

doesn’t make me a misfit.

I don’t wish you to understand,

this mind, it’s my own personal hell.

I’m scribbling down my note written in my own twisted fate,

hoping no one remembers to tell.

The rope, hung ever so delicately,

my last and final hope.

The knocking on my door loudens,

as my body begins to mope. 

 

 

 

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Questions

August 20th, 2014by KissOfDeath

What in life makes it so hard for you to stay?

 

What is your magic potion?

 

What has made you stay this long?

 

What’s the thing you’ll miss the most?

 

Who do you think will miss you the most?

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My Story – Scottish Tornado

August 19th, 2014by ScottishTornado

Since October 2012 I have been living in a nightmare. I was engaged, with 2 children living in a nice house with a good job. Then I made a mistake and I lost it all. I lost the job and then family within the space of 7 days.
 
I had regular access to my kids until Christmas 2012 when after an argument my ex decided I shouldn’t see my kids. I missed my daughters 1st Christmas, so on the 31st I decided to kill myself. I drove to the cemetery near where I grew

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An Introduction

August 16th, 2014by EiramPheniex

Hello all. This is my first post so please bear with me. I am a 35 yo female struggling with several mental illnesses including chronic depression and Borderline personality disorder. Im not sure how i should be anymore because everything i have tried f-ed things up. I finally have gotten to the point i understand im not lazy, faking, seeking attn or looking for an excuse. However, it does not take away the Emptiness inside. Nor does it take away the feelings of wanting to commit suicide. I don’t understand why even on my good days small things can happen and i think i dont …

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Should you commit suicide?

Should you commit suicide?

August 14th, 2014by TheLastHope

I am heartbroken by how many lives suffer daily. Abused, tortured, bullied… I often just want to leave the earth and take man kind along with me, but I can’t.

I am making this post to say to all people, non matter where you are, if you have mixed feelings if you should kill yourself. Then speak to me.

I used to be suicidal myself. My life was luckily good. I had education, middle class, but my head. My head killed me constantly. Causing me to injure myself to get it to stop. I am better. Kinda, and I decided that I want to spend my time …

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Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??

August 14th, 2014by niki

Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world …

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I hate money , money sucks , money make people shallow & superficial !

August 12th, 2014by niki

I hate Money
because it makes people (& society , Humanity as a whole) very shallow & superficial these days / nowadays / today !

90% (or perhaps even more?) Majority / Most people nowadays / today seems to only think about how to make money, how to be rich (and famous), and all/everything of the notion of “success” is simply/only just measured by how much Money (or materials / materialistic stuff) you have.

Most people are so brainwashed by just that mere piece of papers, that they think almost EVERYTHING today/nowadays is & must being ‘ruled/controlled’ by that -ironically- human’s own invention !
Most people I see nowadays …

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My Story

August 12th, 2014by vitamin_water

Most days I want to end it. I don’t have a plan. I don’t dwell on a way out. I just want it all to end.

When I was 12 (I’m 30 now) I first thought about suicide. It seemed romantic. Maybe I’d come back as a ghost – if a somehow fashioned a guillotine then I’d haunt my house like Marie Antoinette. Maybe I’d get to meet god, the real god. As irrational as it sounds, I was curious about death – what was it like on the other side? IS there an other side? That being said, I was also looking for a way out. I …

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August 10th, 2014by ashleysimzfan

Hey guys, I just wanted to check in for possibly one of the last times. I rarely get on here anymore, due to the fact that the last time I was on the site was overtaken by trolls, and that I’m on the road to a slow recovery. I’m starting to get better, and even though I won’t ever fully recover, I can at least say that I’m in the clear. I hope you all can hang in there and fight for another day, and just take it a day at a time. Goodbye.<33

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I’m not sure

August 7th, 2014by skp1996

I started out in a hell hole. I was born to a family that was a mix of two. One brother from my mother and one from my father. The one that lived with us was James (names have been changed). I was two and james was 10. So, one day our parents up and left. James had to look after me for about a week I think. When they came back, they were mad. The mother threw me into a window. My brother tried to protect me and ended up getting all his fingers bent backwards for it. Next door heard the screaming and …

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It’s not okay, and that’s okay.

August 6th, 2014by iamsamijo

One year ago today I was faced with the most difficult task I’ve ever had to do in my 21 years. With the help of amazing men in my life, I checked myself into the hospital for 8 days where I was diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 Depression. Following those days, I began a long road of outpatient therapy. I learned to value myself, to care for others in ways that would no longer hurt me, and to believe in what I have. I made some incredible friends along the way. This adorable kid we call “Ducky” gave me hope when I walked into the …

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trapped

August 6th, 2014by shhyanne

the pills I take deflect the pain. but it’s only temporarily. the darkness creeps back in eventually. it’s causing me agony.

the withdrawals are so bad

nobody takes me seriously.

when I cry for help, it’s just for a hug. I don’t want your pity, I want your warmth.

the pills saved my life you fucks – they maybe the reason my life ends soon but

they did more for me than any person can

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Do i even deserve to live

August 4th, 2014by LonleyAphrodite

Ok first off, yes I’m fat. But being told from a guy that your fat, useless and ugly really hurts. I’ve been called down all my life by my mom and other family member, people at school . There’s not a lot I can take in life. I’m very self conscious. I think about my image all the time. I’ve never felt like this until I started getting called down. I never thought I was ‘fat’ I knew I had a little more weight then skinny people, but I’m not extremely fat. I just have a little extra meat. Now I think if …

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Life is NOT supposed to be easy for ANYONE

August 4th, 2014by Patrick Anarchy

This story is 100%  batshit nut  TRUE  STORY. and its pretty queer and peculiar  but here it goes……I NEVER thought I would be so unhappy in life  but I realized shit hit the fan in my life from the beginning ….

BOTH of my parents conceived me in the state mental hospital and I was born in 1988 and was adopted

I have been homeless for over 2 years since 2011. and I tried to commit suicide 4 times too.  I suffered a lot of emotional torture from being a crossdressing punk rocker who was raised in a adopted  close minded conservative home , that I moved out of in 2006. …

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Hi please read and help

August 1st, 2014by engfi

Hiya for who ever has reads this. My problem has been going on for nearly 9 years now, out of a 7 day , say 3 to 2 days am happy full of life,loud making jokes,love my girlfriend full of trust , then for next 4 days am down in dumps don’t want to get out of bed,moody,paranoid,want to kill my self this has been going on for years and iv never been for help (and don’t plan to) but a came across this site and was wondering if any one has symptoms and can help ?

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Update ;

July 30th, 2014by lostsoulblanklife

I’m still struggling. Suffering every single day, trying to get through this god damn life. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts suck.

I just can’t do anything about it.

I’m lost.

I’m hopeless.

I’m desperate for happiness.

And I’m suicidal.

“Pain Demands To Be Felt” – John Green

“I’ve come to learn this world is full of sin”  Her Last Words by; Courtney Parker

If you guys are up to helping me, I’d very much appreciate that. Give me advice, on how I should deal with this. Anything will help. 

 

 

 

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Just a thought

July 29th, 2014by Jaye

I haven’t posted on here in a while so thought I’d just give an update in the hopes it will maybe help others.

If you’ve read any of my other posts, you’ll know I was in a pretty bad way. I stopped sleeping and eating. I was in constant physical pain, had lost control of my bodily functions, was having hour-long panic attacks and constantly crying. I couldn’t go outside, couldn’t make phonecalls, could barely get out of bed. I would have meltdowns in public, screaming; had to have midnight trips to several hospitals. I was permanently shaking and on a massive cocktail of drugs …

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Bro, do you even SP? awwyeahhmawfuckersyeahhhh

July 28th, 2014by killswitchon

DONT GIVE UP. DONT GIVE IN. JUST PUT OUT. IF YOURE GUNA SMOKE WEED, USE A CLEAN NEEDLE. HOO AH. G’LUCK IN YOUR BATTLES YALL.

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