Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

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Four years ago today !!!!!

June 29th, 2016by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 …

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Is it my fate? (part 2)

June 27th, 2016by Gypsyguy93

In my last post I talked about my ex-fiancee (gay male) who committed suicide after we broke up four years ago, I think if he knew how much it would hurt those he loved and left behind he never would of done it, but then I also understand that the pain he was going through in his mind was intolerable to him and he just wanted the pain to end…

I didn’t know my ex was suicidal, we had been together for a couple of years, I know he had PTSD and Anxiety, but I never knew about the depression…. before we broke up he cheated …

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First time on here..

June 26th, 2016by Tin_Cup

Hi,

Y’all can call me Tin if you’d like.

My story and why I’m here?

Well, I was a victim of a very violent form of abuse. My father, a drunk sadistic bastard, would beat my brothers and I. Though I was left without an escape my brothers could run to school, as I was only 4 through 8 at the time.

My mother was framed for abusing us when we were young. I was 3, and my brothers were 4 and 7. Our church were the ones who framed her, and lied to DCFS which led to our being taken away from her.

I suffer from a form of PTSD, sort …

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rewind for the weekend

June 24th, 2016by forward

weekend, more like a week now, that i have been in the same mood, state and motivational skill as i did last month when i swallowed pills to kill myself.

i dont know whats going on.

ive been a victim of depression, anxiety, PTSD and SAD for 2 years now, and yet i still have times where i dont know how to fight it.

i want to tell you that i will survive but i feel id be lying.

this week, the week after fathers day is the worst relapse ive had in a long time. I’m barely eating, barely drinking, not sleeping, im cutting again, im smoking way …

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Suicidal and Confused

June 22nd, 2016by snugglepuff

Well, I never thought I would post something like this and honestly its kind of weird but what the hell. As I type this my husband is sleeping next to me, and has no care in the world. Me on the other hand, I carry the weight of all of the care and pain. This is my story.

I am 24 years old, and I currently do not see even a glimpse of a promising happy future. It weird because I am in college and successful at it; I’m smart,have tons of motivation, and can light up a room. But, just as much as I can …

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Seeing the Demons

June 18th, 2016by xmwdhx

This is my story to tell and the story you should know.

Janaury of 2013, I was a suicidal trans male. I suffered depression almost 3 1/2 years. It’s very long time than you all expected. I was hurt, scared, tired, lost, abandoned, and many words I should describe myself of being sad. Every day during my middle school year and the year of my 7th grade, people treated me like an animal or a beast. I was beaten up by bunch of kids especially middle and high school boys. I was known as a freak, emo freak, tranny freak, or boy freak. I couldn’t stand …

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People Are causing Me To suffer

June 13th, 2016by GerbzBaby

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(A mini drawing I drew to help calm my nasty thoughts :/ )

 

All my friends and family are unsupportive and them not being here for me is causing me to suffer. Day after day after day all I think about is suicide but.. I’m to much of a chicken to fucking do it. I want to live but then again I want to die.. In the least painful way.. I’ve been waiting for so long to find those friends who finally care.. The day my family finally realizes I have a problem and I need their …

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I’ve unblocked my posts

June 13th, 2016by LittleBead

I am convinced that I hold a very personal and unique legacy which is enclosed within the structure of my posts. By telling you about it, I want to inform you that I have unblocked all of my posts, if you were interested in things which had brought me to this website. They include, but are not limited to, the time before my suicide and the time when I was at the psychiatric hospital. I believe that my experience, sometimes positive experience, will help you deal with your own situations and personal issues. I found a few ways to go through my inner struggles and …

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“You’re So Much Better Than That.” —Cassie, Suicide Survivor

June 7th, 2016by HERE4UOK

 

Please reconsider. If you can’t find motivation, it’s not because there aren’t reasons out there, out here. It’s because your state of mind blocks your view and your spirit from seeing ahead. And it’s ok, remember: IT’S OK TO NOT BE OK, as long as you ask for help.

I, unfortunately, am no genie. But like most of us here, I have my past. I have my experiences, and with all due respect, unless you’re terminally ill, you have every chance at witnessing how things really DO get better, but you need to do your part too. Help others help you.

Things most likely didn’t get bad …

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“I Didn’t Want To Die, But I Felt That I Had To…” —Kevin Hines, Suicide Survivor

  SeeSmith on another post here on SP said it well: “You are the LEAST qualified person to judge yourself [when you are in an ill state of mind]”. Don’t make the mistake of thinking for others, don’t assume you’re a burden or that others are just too “busy with their own lives” to care […]

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Don’t Be Sorry for Struggling. We All Do at Some Point. It’s NOT Wrong Asking for Help, Not Doing So Is..!

  Ema il: suesyd . nomore at gma il . co m Kik: H4UOK Facebook: Suesyd Nomore

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I will survive

June 5th, 2016by skysie

I want to thank everyone on this site who has commented on my posts. Many of you will know that i set a suicide which was the 1st of June well its now the 5th and i am still here.I have decided to take my life back for my little nephew who is due in 4 months and also odd reason but for my ex. I promised my ex i will not give up and he will not lose me and i am not one to break promises. But also i want to fight for my life as i have a long life ahead of …

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Confessions of a Dead Angel

May 29th, 2016by Mexicanwhiteboy96

Hey everyone, just me- Im 19 right now and I really hate my life . I see people complaining back and forth about trivial things and the truth is I always believed they didn’t know what true pain was. But I know it isn’t right or fair because I’m just comparing their pain to mine andy oroblems aren’t anyone elses. I was molested by my cousin when I was about 8 in 4th grade. the earliest time I can honestly remember this, I was experimented on and I was penetrated my older cousin. Both my cousins fondled me though. That may not …

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New – not sure what I’m doing

May 28th, 2016by nomoreleft

Well I’m new to this site as found it looking into water intoxication.

Last week I took about 40 setraline (anti depression) and then realised that you can’t kill to yourself with them.

This week I have drank approx 70 pints of water of 3 days hoping that would kill me but nope – ended up in A&e and, after a long que – blood tests, urine test I was out on an Iv drip and still fucking lived.

I’d had diarrhoea the days I was doing it and tried to hold in my wee when I could and most of water was drank over 7 hour in …

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Forensic Cleaning Documentary – An Antagonizing Source for Strength

  I like this documentary very much. Not in a morbid way. But in the way that where it becomes evident that there isn’t anything pretty about death, the main character in the documentary finds strength and positivism from her job: Forensic Cleaning, aka. Crime Scene Cleaning, aka. Bio-hazard Cleaning Specialists, etc. She has gone […]

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I don’t want to live anymore

May 25th, 2016by skysie

I guess I should start from the beginning. I am 17 almost 18 and have a brother who is 16 and a sister who is 20. My life sucks is complicated and somewhat confusing at times.

I was adopted when I was 4 by a family who we were all happy to be part of. I was adopted because my parents did drugs and were nearly always unconscious. We were malnourished and my sister was looking after us. So I guess the positive was we got a new family and well that’s where things were supposed to get better but in fact things somehow got worse.

My brother …

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HELP or GET HELP… Talk to Someone.

  Thinking about suicide? Ok! Now let’s talk about it. Help each other out. España/Spain: www.telefonodelaesperanza.org Atención en Crisis: 902 500 002 USA 1 (800) 273-8255 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org En Español: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/gethel­p/spanish.aspx UK 0800 068 41 41 PAPYRUS www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Suicide/Pages/Gett­ing-help.aspx México 01800- 290- 00- 24 Línea de Intervención en crisis suicidologia.org.mx/podemos-ayudarte/ Australia 13 11 […]

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Suicide And Me (Documentary)

It’s no walk at the park for anybody. Life I mean. We all have our good days, our not so good days, our bad days, and our wtf am I doing here?! days… But you know what? At the end of the day- scratch that, at the of the call, text message, IM, or email, […]

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Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring , not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

May 22nd, 2016by niki

Reality is boring
real-life is boring
real-world is boring
not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

also,
I hate Humans , Humans suck
I hate Human , Human suck
I hate Humanity, Humanity suck
I hate people , people suck

Most humans / people only think about Money ,
and this reality is boring !
reallife is boring !
realworld is boring !

people / humans are so shallow, superficial, stupid, ignorant
Humanity is hopeless

if there is God , then God is boring !
even Science is boring too !
Science fiction (Sci-fi) is much more interesting than real Science facts !

why we can’t live in movie / …

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Pain and Pleasure (a quick true story of a kid who fucks with the minds of depressed girls…)

May 22nd, 2016by emotional.monster

So I am a senior male in high school. I’m 17 going on 18 at the end of June. There’s this one kid Zack who is a freshman at my school and I fucking hate him. I haven’t really talked to him but knowing what he does makes me sick. He dates a girl and makes out with her and everything, he is all sweet and charming and everything (little does anybody know he’s really a bitch and extremely aggressive and violent with guys) but the catch about the girls he dates is that they all self-harm (usually cutting). Sounds like a sweet boy right? …