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Who was I ??..

September 29th, 2016by kupo95

 know who I am now (which is not some one I like ( damaged sensitive unhappy lazy stubborn ect) ….but the me  before marriage , my ex before Arizona .
What was I ?
My mom mentioned therapy but it felt was a trap to see if im still mentally unstable .Which I am lol but if I tell any one that it will be bad …because my dad brought it  up too. (She is crazy make her fake sanity  more ) will probably happen I will get no help ….idk.  But maybe I do need therapy my family talks about me as if I was a

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Night

September 29th, 2016by Present

Why do all my worst thoughts happen at night? During the day I’m not much better however at night my emotions heighten. My darkest thoughts are at night. I think too deeply about everything and spiral into bad thoughts. During the night is when I’m closest to finally ending it, but never do as I remind myself of how desperately I don’t want my thoughts to overrule me. All my feelings become too real at night, I get too close to doing bad things. I don’t sleep during the night I don’t like to. I have too many things to think about instead

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Just Waiting

September 29th, 2016by AshCoveredAngel

No longer pregnant so I have my method picked out. It’s a double method because suicide has a 75% failure rate or so. Basically the only way to be successful is overkill. Both have a high failure rate but in combination and how I’m going to carry them out I’m pretty confident in the ability to complete.

I just got to wait until there’s not a doubt in my mind. Doubt will save ya.

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I got my answer yesterday

September 29th, 2016by disgusting

Spent my last $20 of the next to the last paycheck I’ll ever see in my life on food for him and then he got super pissed off at me because we got caught in the rain and got drenched, then I got on the bus while he was in the middle of playing his game but my back was killing me and there were homeless people camped out at the bus stop and wouldn’t let me sit down and I have a disability with my back and I can’t just stand all day because everyone else has a reason why they deserve the seat …

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Forever…

September 29th, 2016by whenallthestarsfall

Because this says it all….and I think, we can all relate to it:

 

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I’m sorry, please forgive me

September 29th, 2016by madhurgupta

Hi folks,

A few weeks back, in overconfidence, I posted an article justifying suicide for chronic pain sufferers. I didn’t think about its consequences, that some chronic pain sufferer might have gotten pushed over the edge because of it and gone ahead with the suicide.

I feel that God has punished me by exacerbating my pain in the past few weeks, so much that I am now getting to realize how difficult it is to let go off my life.

Please forgive me for giving you the wrong and careless advice. Pray to God that I stay alive. I have a mother for whom I want to stay …

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am i worth it?

September 29th, 2016by lostbutfound

i keep going back to the same person hurting me. i swear he loves me but i don’t think he does. I feel like my love is taken for granted and i don’t know it may not be, but thats how i feel, i always feel like that with him. He cheated on me i stayed because i cant bare to leave. he tells me everything will be ok, that he’ll fix it, he doesnt want anyone else. but his actions speak louder than his words. i need him. hes my comfort. my home. no one else is here for me. i feel like this …

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Hard Living Hard Dying

September 29th, 2016by NotBreathing

I don’t know what to say. I’m just tired of things. I hate myself, maybe it’s because my parents don’t love me. I feel totally worthless and useless. I’m living in a home which doesn’t seem mine. Everyday’s the same and I have to listen to all the hurting words. My inside is full of pain. I tried killing myself but it felt hard, however, I found something more easy. I started cutting myself two years ago and I still cut. I don’t want to live like this and I don’t even want to die like this. But sometimes I think if things keep on …

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Things are getting hard Again

September 29th, 2016by talesofme

Since I was 13 I knew that one day I would commit suicide. Ive always been able to go one more day and one more day turned into 7 years. And now things are getting so hard that I dont think I can go one more day. I feel like I cannot keep trying. I keep failing, the depression is taking control of me and I just have no reason to be happy anymore. Is life even worth it anymore.

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Another stupid mistake

September 29th, 2016by mindlessgamer619

It seems that’s all I’ve done lately. I had finally found some people I had really enjoyed talking to, who I felt close with, and one by one, I’ve had to stop talking to them, be it age or otherwise… I know you’re supposed to make mistakes, but all of these mistakes back to back, makes me feel like I’ll never do something right with my life. Makes me not want a relationship with anyone anymore.
Makes me want to just stop existing. It’s always women too, never guys. I feel like an idiot. Like someone undeserving of friendship. I just want to be alone. I …

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Yesterday’s Tomorrow

September 29th, 2016by BL98

Yesterday was a disaster , today is no different , tomorrow will be worse …

I feel numb , i feel like trowing up , my legs hurt so fucking much i can’t describe it … they are like .. numb .. but i can feel every inch of pain …

Someone wants to talk about something … anything … ?

i feel so fucked up …

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Just tired

September 29th, 2016by HopeForMorning

I’m so tired of hurting myself I’d honestly rather have someone else hurt me instead. Even got to the point where I asked someone to hit me… They obviously didn’t but I just wish someone would.

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An overdue song

September 29th, 2016by Salt

Over a year ago I recorded this song and reluctantly posted the audio on SP.

I made a lot of good friends through that post: Sammi6xoxo, Dawg, quirkyfox, Mickeymooo, cephalus, Opacity, TheRiver, others I’m forgetting to name because it’s way too early in the morning to be recovering from insomnia…

I promised yall a video I “just needed to edit together in a few days”. A few hundred days ha. I don’t think any of the usual suspects above are active on this site anymore, maybe lurking, but if you are then this one goes out to you. Thanks gang for getting me through hell. A lesser …

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Way To Dampen The Day

September 29th, 2016by AnnieBear

Wow, I so did not need to hear about my aunt and uncle talking shit behind my back, mom. I’m well aware that I’m behind in life compared to my peers. It haunts me every night; the eye bags are proof of that. I’m trying my best to catch up, to grow up. After 9 hours on my feet today working, finally getting a job for about 2 months now, I was feeling proud of myself for taking a step forward. I would have preferred to remain ignorant to the bit of gossip, thanks.

She’s like a 13 year old. No college, can’t drive, she must

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September 29th, 2016by snader

The thought, the truth, the fact, that I can choose to end my life at whatever moment I choose, is soothing. Nobody can decide this for you or even hold you back from deciding if you wanna live or die. Setting a date for killing myself, gives me peace of mind. It gets me calmer, reminding myself how I have the highest power in my own life.

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Maby

September 29th, 2016by 200085

Maby the reason why we are here is simply just to exist, because we have tried so many times not to and yet here we are.

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Its getting harder to live a lie, stressed and depressed

September 29th, 2016by ZombieGirl

I’ve cut again…this is my only 2nd time, but this time, it was both wrists, deeper, enough to bleed blotchy, but not dripping or anything, it’s been a while, last time it was practically a scratch. Today I have to ‘sign on the dole’, I’m so ashamed, when I was little I thought life would be easy, I’d become a famous artists or scientist or something and live happily ever after, that was between the bouts of childhood depression though, even then I was confused. I cant provide for my family, it stresses me when I have to talk to people and fill on forms, …

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It’s okay to give up

September 29th, 2016by blythe_ann

when you know in your heart of hearts that you have exhausted every option.

 

 

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October 19th

September 29th, 2016by blythe_ann

Will be the day.

Would they miss me if I never came back. I hope they forget me soon enough and live happy, long lives full of nature and joy.

I don’t want to leave them. I don’t want to leave him. My deepest sorries.

Please know I do not have any other option.

My wish is that they all will be okay.

And that no one will ever find any physical part of me.

I was not meant for this world.

I’ve tried so hard but it wasn’t in the cards.

You can’t fight fate, you can’t fight your physical clock.

 

 

 

 

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I cannot live anymore

September 28th, 2016by blythe_ann

I love you both so very, very much.

Wanted you to go on adventures, rolling hills and grass, butterflies and wildflowers. You deserve that.

 

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