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December 7th, 2016by dramaqueen90

No peace

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Is this it?

December 7th, 2016by Salt

Today won’t be the day so don’t worry. But I just set the end in motion, and I don’t think anything will stop it now. I just sabotaged everything I ever stood for, so now let’s sit around the campfire and smell it burning.

Everything seems meaningless: money, power, happiness, validity, salvation, not that I ever had any of those things for long. You might as well be showing me travel brochures of places I’ll never see. Not worth the paper they’re printed on.

I’ve experimented with 3 different methods and talked about them here in the past, but it’s funny, my real method will be a …

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December 7th, 2016by impasse

If I die…
I do not want you to deliver your eulogy on my funeral.
I do not want to hear how great I am within your lies.
Because the words you’re gonna say are all unnatural
For someone is great and wonderful when she dies.

If I die…
I do not want you to cry on my coffin.
I do not want to see those tears fall
Because in the movies that is all I’ve seen
Crying and weeping are courtesies that we call.

If I die…
I want you to show them the smiling pictures of mine.
I want you to play the songs I always listening to.
I want you to say the words that …

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They mean well…

December 7th, 2016by impasse

I have friends and really am grateful to have them yet I find myself keeping my distance from them. They know I cut, they know my scars, they know almost everything about me. Professionals say that telling someone your burden will lighten your load. I think its not applicable for everybody. I’ve been wanting death to come but I am afraid to do it with my own hands.

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Why her, God?

December 7th, 2016by anxiousloth

It’s been a year since a delightfully happy friend of mine changed completely, she was so religious, extremely cheerful, always helping others, and then! God chose her to fuck her life, why her? Is that even fair that the only life she’s living is ruined? Suddenly she suffered from depression that she can barely smile, she lost weight, she has become a mess, always stray, a whole new fucked up person, it really hurts watching this awful transformation, my heart breaks whenever I see her family, we tried to help in every single way, we never figured out the reason, I tried everything, but I …

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Again

December 7th, 2016by Jenfmpr

Suddenly,  I don’t wanna go again anymore. I do not feel sad or tired or sick or wtvr it was like before. I just… Well, I don’t know. There’s no urge in cutting or committing suicide too unlike before. I’m just, i don’t know. I feel like i’m standing in the middle of a crossroad with cars passing by,  not wanting to take a single step off the ground. It’s not that I like to be in that place or I’m just too tired to move. It’s just that I think, maybe,  there’s just not reason for me to walk? It’s as if i’m in …

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I am really mad

December 7th, 2016by Forevertorn

Iam mad. Is there a way out of it ? Or just admission in the mental institution?
It’s okay
It’s okay you don’t have to answer if you don’t have a respectable solution. My mind is going dizzy. I’m awake till 5 a.m. I have people speaking shit in my head , men who meant me wrong, my willingness to cry in public and sit on a pedestal ranting, being unable to respectfully talk to people, entire body aches, regrets in my mind, uneasy. Not willing to get help because I’m sure convinced they’re all monsters who mean me wrong.

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Do they know?

December 7th, 2016by carly

I’m sitting here at work smiling and doing my job while my suicide note is in my bag and I wonder, do they know? Do they suspect a thing? Will they say “She seemed so happy. How could this happen?” I guess I’ll never know.

Does anyone else feel like they’re living a lie? A carefully constructed lie. An empty, meaningless lie.

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Tick Tick Tick…

December 7th, 2016by Randall

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An old song on cold metal

December 7th, 2016by Salt

[Deleted because I do that a lot]

Splitting mind’s thread got me thinking about what material possession matters to me the most. Not including my dogs, a handful of people and some abstract concepts, I couldn’t think of anything I’d save if the place caught on fire. Everything I have can be replaced. Except this aluminum guitar I had built about 10 years ago.

There have been a few aluminum body/wood neck guitars in the past (Fender strat around the mid 90s I think), and 1 or 2 aluminum neck/wood body guitars (Kramer?). But, at least at the time, I hadn’t heard of a guitar that …

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Caught

December 7th, 2016by gemini

I just got caught hurting myself knew I was going to be caught sooner or later damn!

The worst thing is the last time I talked about hurting myself I got a palm to the head from my partner, he told me he did it because I’m so stupid and he can’t see me going through this and I need my head sorting and he’s getting desperate as I won’t accept help (so he can hurt me but I can’t?) dunno what’s that about, I can see why he did it and I don’t blame him at all as he just wants to get through to …

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Pieces are fitting

December 7th, 2016by kamidaka

I have a list of things I want to do before I die, and more than 70% of it is already done or in the process of making it. Even those things that I thought I would never be able to make. Is this a sign that I’ll really die in January?

God for once wants me to leave. After so long, you sick and twisted entity.

I don’t want to start a new semester in the uni, I’ll kill myself before that happens. I fucking hate that place.

But for now I’m at peace.

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I’m a piece of shit

December 7th, 2016by numba

I can’t have friends. my existence is a joke.

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What to do with loneliness

December 7th, 2016by Atintofgreen

How do you cope with loneliness? There are things I wasn’t ready to talk about when I was six or seven and it has taken 12 years. I’m ready to face the past but don’t know were to begin. I feel like I should seek out help but were? How munch is one session with a psychologist?

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What do you feel as you imagine the end?

December 7th, 2016by Atintofgreen

Maybe its true that I don’t want to die. Maybe that’s why I keep looking for things to anchor me down. Something that I’ve realised is no matter how many things I find and seek I still feel sad and empty. When you picture yourself ending it what do you feel? Is it normal to feel nothing?

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How Invisible Am I?

December 6th, 2016by J Doe

Hello. After I came back from break, I did my best to avoid a particular person. It wasn’t hard seeing as this person doesn’t even know I existed. Today they called me over as I was sitting on the bench and asked if they could braid my hair. I have long hair for a guy. Their hands ran through my hair. They made a few comments about how soft my hair was. All of a sudden they stopped. My hair wasn’t braided. They looked down at one of their friends phones and said nothing to me. …

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Loneliness

December 6th, 2016by Luci94

Loneliness is the barbed wire that stretches across the plains and take roots into the veins . Like broken glass it peels the skin and takes root again. It’s the scars that are ugly, never the glass and as much as you hate it , it’s going to last.

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December 6th, 2016by Luci94

” Don’t act like I didn’t care ”
– a person who truly doesn’t care .

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Just Existing

December 6th, 2016by Thebadguy

I feel like all of my life all I have really done is exist. I have been numb for years. I just dont know if I remember how to feel anything. At an early age my dad almost killed me. My mom to this day hates the person that saved my life. Great, both of my parents (the two people that should always care) want me dead. How bad was I? What kind of child I must have been that they wanted rid of me this bad. How do you trust anyone after this? I don’t… Following this was my Mom getting re-married. Now to …

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That moment

December 6th, 2016by joeld

Gotta love the moment you realize you’re to chicken to actually end it but realize life is gonna absolutely suck for at least the next ten years if not longer.

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