So I came here because I’m really confused, I can’t tell if I’m actually depressed or just really evil and using my sadness as an excuse to hide away. I seem to be slowly piecing my life back together shard by shard, I just don’t think I can live in the proper world though, I’ve spent so long as a drop out of life that I don’t think I can handle things, I’m so lost
Idk why I even bother sometimes >.> I don’t want to move.I don’t even want to talk >.> but I bother changing nothing & just complain.this is my first time on this site but I’ve been on other sites trying to deal with my “problems” and let me just say,I’ve meet some…lovely…people.
I’ve already tried to hurt myself…maybe I do that by hurting other’s?not bullying…but just doing stuff to myself to make them feel bad..?but I don’t tell people..so it’s not for attention…IDK…I’m not sure how people are on this site..so I’m not really sure how it works..I just feel like I’m shutting down and stress […]
Hello ladies and gentlemen. Where do I begin? 16 years as of yesterday. Texas raised, so yeah, kinda crazy already! Most people think I’m normal. They don’t know I’m withering away. A lot of things have happened to me to make me feel this way. I’m the stereotypical loner. No much to say. Not much to do. I hide away in a shell. Like a coward, a beaten dog. The only thing that keeps me going are my animals: Horses, dogs, goats, and sheep (Bet y’all were wondering the name). And one the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met. We met in our FFA group […]
When I hear other people’s stories of depression, anxiety and suicide, I feel like I have no reason to feel the way I do. Although my life is not one to be desired, there isn’t anything wrong with my life and yet maybe I feel that makes things worse, because I don’t know how to fix things, how to make myself be happy, when I should be happy. I’m tired. Tired of a life where everything looks bleak and everything seems so pointless and no amount of pills can change that. I’m tired of life yet scared of death. So here I am stuck in […]
I wish I could sit in front of all of you, look you in the eyes and tell you everything’s gonna be okay. All of you are so great I just wish you all could see it. If I could give away happiness, id give it away in an instant to all of you. Xx
“I am alone. I am… I am s-so alone, and there’s nothing I or you or anyone else can do about it. I’m gonna be stuck here forever. No one can help me. It’s like… Like you’re invisible, even though you do everything as loudly and as brightly as you can in their very faces. They just don’t want you to be a part of their lives, so that even your own home feels like a cold place where you’re not wanted…â€
Good morning beautiful people 🙂 Do me a favor and smile okay? Laughter is the cheapest medicine, remember that. Â So let me help. Um. If someone calls you a name or treats you like crap, tell them a joke. Ready? Omg this is hilarious I heard this yesterday. “Are you from europe? Cause europiece of shit” bahaha. Okay. That was lame. Whatever. That would prob make them mad but whatever youd laugh. Thats all that matters 😉 Â love you guys. Xxx
“When you are sad, know this need not be. Depression comes from a sense of being deprived of something you want and do not have. Remember that you are deprived of nothing except by your own decisions, and then decide otherwise.”
Sometimes it’s just so hard you know? Of course you know, that’s why you’re here.
I never realized how horribly bad I was until I was genuinely happy yesterday, I had forgotten the feeling. Mind you this was a two hour relief, then something/someone ruined it.
I’m the strong one, always have been. My friends don’t realize, my seemingly perfect family. There’s the families that everyone knows are bad, the druggos, dropouts. But sometimes I think it’s the families that hide it, put up a mask and everyone thinks they are perfect that are the worse, the ones like mine. Oh your dad smokes weed […]
I tried talking to my friend today.
but when i did she just ignored everything i said
i told her i cut she said cool
i told her i hate my self and she said me to
i left it but in side i was hurting even more then before
Do you ever hear a song and wish your life could be like that? That you could feel that way all the time? Mine is Good Time by Carly Rae and Owl City. What about yours? Come on people. List your feel good/cheer up songs so people can have a listen and feel happy! Even if just for 3-5 minutes 🙂
Also I tried posting the youtube video with no luck.
And I have returned.
Is it a drug almost? The thought that someone on this merciful site understands.
Since my previous posts, the situation has changed significantly. But the memories hold me here, they bring me back. I remember all to well my days of pain. I am numb now nearly, or more callous I should say, I take what I can now, but I refuse to beg for more. I am arguably better, happier. I wasn’t thinking about suicide. But here I am, over one year I kept away, yet here I am. Only the MEMORY, the vague shadow, of my pain.
I still think it’s true, […]
The doctors are giving me to many meds. I like to call them “crazy pills”. It puts a grimace on my mothers face when I say it. The meds make me feel slow, like my brain isn’t working at 100%
They released me from Eating Disorder Treatment. Apparently I’m “fixed” now. I sure as hell don’t feel fixed yet. Today I didn’t eat lunch. If I want to stare, who has the control to  stop me? Just because I’m a minor does that mean I have absolutely no right make choices for myself? I actually feel guilty for lying to my parents about lunch. Shvile
It’s been a few weeks since I last came on here, since I last hurt myself. I’m doing okay and even though life is getting harder on me, I’m still kicking and screaming. I’m not doing ‘great’ but I’m alright with just saying I’m ‘okay’. Helluva lot better than being in my rut.
I try to convince myself that suicide is so easy. I just hit a vein & im gone. But everyday I try to look at positives. Like everyone here. I love all of you guys already and I know nothing about any of you. The comments I receive are incredible. They honestly get me going even if its for a minute. Dont destroy your lives. Im trying for you guys and you should do the same. Hold my hand. The world is bullshit but we are all better than it all <3 you guys are amazing. Thank you so much. My “family” cant even make […]
It’s a Monday night and I’m sitting here staring at this page. Â Thinking where to begin. Â Thinking how to start. Â What have I done today? Â The same thing it feels like I do every day. Â Nothing.
I don’t know why I’m doing this. Â It isn’t anything I’d normally do. Â The truth is, I’ve always been content to sit back and absorb whatever came to me. Â Bottling up my own problems to avoid burdening others. Â It wasn’t like anyone ever wanted to listen, anyway. Â So I throw myself upon the anonymity of the Internet in the vain hope that I don’t burst.
Maybe I should start at the […]
“Although depression can occur at any age, it affects teens more than younger children. Depressive symptoms may start appearing around age 13, and often peaks between 16 and 24. Yet depression can be difficult to diagnose in young people, because symptoms seldom involve mood alone. One study concluded that fewer than half of teen patients suffered mainly from depressive symptoms. More often, they developed a mix of mood and behavioral problems, for example, agitation, anxiety, attention difficulties, or defiant behaviors.”
© 1998-2013 Mayo Foundation for Medical Education […]
The title. I am in no mood or state of mind for SP tonight.
So i really should’t post this. BUt i don’t care i just want to runawey.
I can’t be here anymore i can’t take it. Please help me escape this.
I don’t want to kill myself. I just don’t want to be here anymore.
im curious what it is people do when feeling they want to kill themselves. i mean most of us feel suicidal, but we find a spurt of hope and thats why were all still here; especially on this website. can someone reach out to me and help? i would love to kill myself, but i want to attempt to help myself before giving up
Okay, well everything first started when I was in 8th grade, I got accepted into this really awesome school and I was so happy that they would even accept me But when the time came to go I got freaked out. My mom told me that I was making a huge mistake when I left the school and I kind of knew I was . Well now I’m at this really shitty public high school and I feel like such a moron And to make matters worse every time I ask my parents to please take me out of it they remind me of my […]