I spend most my days thinking about suicide. I want the pain to stop but it never does. I continue to do things to screw up my life more all the time. I lose job after job because I can’t cope. I can’t sleep or I can’t stay awake.I have been to cousling on always a short term because I can’t seem to keep the appoinments and they will no longer see me anymore.I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know where to turn anymore. I feel loss all the time.