Real Loss

I sit here tonight as I do every night, wishing that I had the answers to this tragedy that seems to be consuming so many people every day. I didn’t realize that there were some many suicides each day. Now that I do know, I know that we are losing really beautiful people at an alarming rate! My son died by suicide six months ago. Everyone thought that his life was perfect! He was 19 years old, in college, had his own place, handsome, so many friends and no one knew the pain that he must have been hiding. He left no note. He shot himself outside his home in the middle of the night. When he didn’t show up for work…
That became the worst day of our lives. Since, there’s been therapy, anger, feeling so helpless and we all still think “We failed, we should’ve seen something.” There was nothing there to alert us that he was having problems.
Now for the rest of our lives, we have to live without him. Knowing that our lives are forever changed. Our futures will never be as bright as we thought
they would be. I feel guilty for laughing! Days I can’t stop crying! Days that I too would like to give up, but I can’t. For anyone thinking that life has handed you a bad deal, please just remember that your life is entwined with others someone, someone you’ll leave to feel so much agony and pain! Please give someone a chance to help. Those of us left behind will never heal from the loss that suicide has left behind.