i find it hard to write this, i feel silly as i have not had a hard life, my family is not extremely wealthy but we do ok, i had a good education and im now at univeristy. i suffered badly from depression wen i was younger and used to cut myself and attempted suicide a few times, although never seriosuly i think. however i thought id sorted myself out. yet since i have come home from uni 4 the summer i can feel myself slipping back into m old ways. i have started cutting again, which is so hard 4 me coz i cant put my mum through that again. i just feel so alone, my friends who i used 2 spend all my time with just dnt seem to have time for me anymore, they all say they like me and miss me but it doesn’t seem to be enough. i feel so insecure, and constanty need reasurance. iv also taken to drinking by myself. im scarred that if i dnt do something soon il go back completely to my old ways, but i feel stuck in a hole i cant get out of. i also broke up with m boyfriend who was my first ever realy love in novemeber, and although were still good friends i dnt seem to b able to get over it, does anyone out there feel the same as me? i really think if i just had someone i could talk to about all this it would help, but i have no one in my life i could…..i feel very scarred and alone, i know i must sound awful as i dnt have any real problems but i just cant see the good in my life anymore