As I lie here on the couch [my 19 yo brother gets my room] my favorite feeling has comeback to haunt me.suicide.My whole life has been shit.I mean my brother is my moms favorite (even tho she acts like hes not)and all he does is treat me like scum even tho I bend over backwards 4 him.(BTW Im 15)No girl likes.I mean im not ugly or anything.Point is I just want this pain to end.If anyone thinks im doing the wrong thing plz tell. otherwise im going to end my suffering by thursday.see ya guys on the otherside
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ya i feel the same way my 9 yr old sister is my parents favorite. it seems like i dont exist except for when they need someone to do something. every day i just lay there on my couch or my bed thinking what it would be like to just end it, get it over with but every time i try someone walks in and stops me but its never the answer you may not believe it i may not even believe it myself but its true just think about everything that you will leve behind and you probly dont want to hear my opinion, im only 14 but your not the only one trust me
me 2. was cinderella to older sis, Mom. Mom said if abortion was legal in 1966 I would not be here. Left me alone with sex offender step father (my step grandfather – you can guess what happened next), Fed me beer from age, like 2, put lit cig in my hand at age 5 and then bitched when I drank and smoked. In short, it was horrid and I was trapped and left home to live in a tent with a dog. And yet I WAS A PROBLEM CHILD. No. found out from counseling it is definitely her, not me. Always no witnesses. She even admits to killing off my pets. She is very sick and I had to face it at age 33 finally. I am 45 now and still patching my life up but it is worth it. My younger daughter is 14 and I tell her all the time how much I love her. I screwed up with her older sis (age 25) but learned from her. Bless her heart. You are good and will get out alive to find peace and more to make this time a nothing event in your beautiful life. It will happen I promise. No suffering on earth is unrewarded. You DO get multiplied joy if you hang in there and learn from the situation. I swear to you this is the truth. – Daggsy 🙂