Hello i am 21 years old and a survivor of rape. I was raped over a period of 4 years. Life has not been the same for me since. I started self-harming when i was 13 two years after the rapes started. It quickly became an obsession for me and i am now addicted to it. It is the only thing that will take the pain away for me. I really feel now that my need to die is greater than my need to live. It is all i think about he has won and i have lost. I have tried to be strong but this is no longer is the case i am giving up slowly. I cannot seem to function anymore i was happy i was a happy kid and now i am an isolated depressed adult. Life for me is just not worth it anymore.