lonesome lingering

Hate, disspare, hidden traps, eyes maced, tears, mournings, nights, scars, all in witch lies , how do i share. All i live for …happiness? What am I to think? It comes with a price. You say…You would die for me..Look at our soldiers? Look at our friends..It comes with a price. I don’t know how much longer I will be here? But at least maybe theres someone out there that I can relate too, maybe 1 life, one day.. Before I do something supid…I’m tryin to talk about this…Whats crazy is I think life is ok sometimes? But when it rains it pours down on me and I’m tierd Of LIVING THIS CRAP! It’s not worth the bullshit , the headache , the worry, overand over again. When will it stop? I hate it! I want to destroy it and every thing in it . I want to blame this on stuff like the goverment, people attitudes, gossip, religion, cultures, drugs….Do u see? We create our own destruction just in different ways . So what is it you would like to do? What would you do to make life easier on ower children? Well, I feel a little better? Humm? why? IDK? But it only temperary, depressing isn’t it ..I hate this lol