I can’t take it anymore.

I am not sure how much more I can take of him calling me and texting me. I try and ignore him but I can’t. I think about answering and what I might say so that he doesn’t talk me into seeing him again. I have to stay away for my family. For myself. I can’t keep doing this to myself. He makes me not want to live at all. I wish he would die so that I don’t want to anymore. I just want some peace in my life and less drama for myself. I am tired of my friends competing for my attention on myspace like they have no life or something. Why can’t everyone get along? I wish I knew the words to describe how much pain this man has caused me but I don’t. I hope that someday he will realize that I loved him and that what he has done to me has ruined me for all other men out there. I feel so bitter, so hurt. He couldn’t even write that he loved me in a text. He said it was because he was busy and stressed at work. It’s no excuse. He stopped saying he loved me so I figured it was time to move on. So I am trying, but I am not sure how long I can do this. God please help me.