i am 35 years old, a recpvering alocholic, have been employed off & on for 15 years. Am gay & rather conservative, been legally married to my husband since 02/02/2007. We have been together for 15 years. I am sick of all the violence, & cruelty to humans & animals. I have been to therapy, hospitalized, and am tired of putting on a facade on for the world. I am tired of being rejected for everything. I can’t even get a job flipping burgers here in the Baltimore area. I have been a failure at everything I attemp to accomplish. The only things that keep me from putting the bag over my head and doing the world a favour, is I want to wait until my husband is more financially stable to bury me. Yet, if I do it He would literally have a breakdown, & then who would love, & take care of, my 2 furbabies(my cats Puddin’ & Ashby). Iv’e just made the wrong choices, & made a mess of my whole stupid life. I have always wondered why I was born, & will probably not wait to do it. I just have to write my letter tomorrow whan he is at work, & do everyone a favour while he is at work on Monday. The way I feel now is the exact words to Sarah McLachlans Lyrics to her song “angel” Which I will thell him to listen to before I do the big job om Monday afternoon. Just want to say I Love my husband, & Puddin’ & Ashby. The world * society will be better off with me gone.