IN LOVING MEMORY OF BY BEST FRIEND BRANDEN WOODS

August 24th, 2008by bo noyes

TODAY IS AUG.24TH,08
I AM WRITING THIS ENTRY BECAUSE TODAY I HAD TO SAY A “FINAL GOOD-BYE” TO MY FRIEND BRANDEN. BRANDEN WOODS TOOK HIS OWN LIFE ON AUG.18TH,2008…HE WAS ONLY 30 YRS. OLD.
I PROBLEY SHOULDN’T BE WRITING THIS STORY ON THIS WEB-SITE,
BUT I HAVE SO SO MANY QUESTIONS & I’M SO MAD RIGHT NOW!!!

NO ONE REALLY STOPS TO THINK ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN AFTER THEY ARE GONE-THEY ONLY WANT “THEIR” PAIN TO GO AWAY…NOT REALIZING “ALL” THE PAIN THAT THEY WILL CAUSE EVERYONE ELSE IN THE AFTER MATH!!!!
MY FRIEND BRANDEN WAS GOING THROUGH A BAD DIVORCE, AND COULDN’T SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, SO HE DECIDED TO TAKE HIS OWN LIFE.
HE SHOT HIMSELF IN THE MOUTH…SO WE COULDN’T EVEN HAVE A OPEN CASKET FOR HIM, TO SAY GOOD-BYE, THEY CREMATED HIM RIGHT AWAY…WRITING THIS IS VERY HARD FOR ME-I AM SO SO SO MAD AT HIM RIGHT NOW…AND I AM BEATING MYSELF UP FOR NOT SEEING THE SIGNS BEFORE HAND, TO BE ABLE TO HELP HIM…”GOD, WHY DID I MISS ALL THE SIGNS? WHY DIDN’T YOU STOP HIM? WHAT ABOUT HIS 2 LITTLE BOYS (SKYLER-8 & SETH-4)? IS HE UP IN HEAVEN WITH YOU? CAN YOU FORGIVE HIM AND TAKE HIM TO HEAVEN ANYWAY? HE WAS A VERY GOOD-HEARTED PERSON, WHY DID HE HURT SO MUCH? HOW CAN SOMEONE HURT SO MUCH ON THE INSIDE AND WANT TO DIE BUT MAKE EVERYONE ELSE SO HAPPY AND LAUGH ALL THE TIME?” I’M SO DAMN CONFUSED….I “KNOW” BRANDEN IS IN HEAVEN WITH OUR GOD, BUT THAT DOESN’T EASE MY PAIN AT THE MOMENT!!! I’M MAD AT HIM FOR BEING SO SELFISH, FOR LEAVING ALL OF US (WHO TRULY DID LOVE HIM) FOR HIM LEAVE HIS 2 LITTLE BOYS WITHOUT A FATHER, AND FOR HIM MAKING ME HURT SO BAD INSIDE…I KEEP DOING THE “WHAT-IFS” AND THOSE HURT TOO!!!

IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT KILLING YOURSELF…PLEASE STOP AND THINK ABOUT WHAT IT WOULD DO TO THOSE AROUND YOU!!! YOU HAVE TOUCHED MORE LIFES THAN YOU ARE EVEN AWARE OF…I GARRENTEE YOU THAT!!!!!!!
BRANDEN THOUGHT THAT “NO ONE” LOVED HIM—BUT HE HAD THE WHOLE FURNEAL HOME PACKED TODAY…(YA KNOW-WITH ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO DIDN’T LOVE HIM)…….

*THIS IS A VERY SCARY AND SAD SUBJECT, BUT THINGS CAN AND DO GET BETTER—IT MAY TAKE ALONG TIME-BUT JUST PRAY TO GOD……………..

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST,WHO STRENGTHENS ME…PHILL 4:13……………………..

SUICIDE AFFECTS EVERYONE…AND FOR YOUR ACTIONS—YOU WILL BE HURTING THE ONES THAT TRULY DO LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! PLEASE DON’T HURT YOURSELF, ITS NOT WORTH IT.

*****REST IN PEACE BRANDEN…I PRAY THAT YOU HAVE MEET UP WITH GOD, AND I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN SOMEDAY, IN HEAVEN…I KNOW I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN, BECAUSE “HIS GRACE IS ENOUGH”….I LOVE YOU BRANDEN.

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY FRIEND WHO SHOT AND KILLED HIMSELF ON AUGUST 18, 2008
(13 DAYS AFTER HIS 30TH B-DAY)…REST IN PEACE!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO BELINDA

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