I’m Fay, almost 18 years old and kind of in a dark place right know. I don’t want to kill myself anymore, but about a year ago I saw no way out anymore.
For the last 1.5 year my life really haven’t been easy, my dad died, my grandfather died, my uncle comitted suicide and my aunt died as well, 4 people I really cared about. And because of that I almost lost all my friends, people don’t like someone who is not simple. It’s really hard to just keep on going but I feel like I have to. I’ve met a girl who lost her dad three months after I lost mine, we became really close but she graduated, and I didn’t so in a way I feel like I lost her as well. We don’t talk that much, and I really miss her. And my best friend really hurt me. I almost never cry, only if I really can’t take it anymore, and she told me 2 days after my aunt died she was tired of me. She said I should stop ‘playing’ the pathetic girl. Nice friend! =D I don’t want to see her anymore, maybe she’ll understand after her dad dies.
Also I feel like I have to take care of my mum, she’s really strong, but she’s human, just like we all are. It’s hard for her.
I loved my life, I just have to find a way to get it back.