The site www.metanoia.org/suicide saved me. Yes, of course, it was me, my decision, at the end. But if the site had not been around I am sure I wouldn’t be here.
The idea that someone, even someone I didn’t know, cared to write it. That I wasn’t alone, even if all I could do was look over and over again at the words on the page. That I can still do that now.
I am not happy yet, but I am in another place, happily. Thank you so much. I really hope that other people here can feel the same way. You are really not alone, even though I know you may feel that way. It can get better. I promise. I promise.