Reading some posts on here made me realise that im NOT the only one going through these things. Ive always thought that once im in my adult years all the depression will go away. For me it started when i was 14, when i moved to this country. I just felt out of place you know? Ive been depressed for the past 7 years. I didnt feel like i was living. Even now im out of highschool it still continues. Im 21 now and it just gotten worse when my bf just “TXT MESSAGED” 2 days ago saying ” he never wanted to see me again and wont hear from him again”, after breaking up with me then asked me out again and then leaves me again..he didnt call but instead he TXTD. We have been through so much in the past 2 years together and how he can JUST txt me and say such a thing like that tells me I was just an idiot to him. Ive been crying all night and so i decided that i was going to make ablog and type whatever i wanted in it without someone judging me bt then i found this. Ever since i was in my early teenage years ive always felt useless and pathetic..i guess the jokes my family make about me got to me..i just couldnt say anything..ill just go to my room
and cry..Ive had bad years in highschool, thought id be over when im out of it but no.
today i took a walk.. a long walk to have a think about things, i sat down on a bench near a park where i was..i thought tomyself “how on earth did i get to this point”that im actually thinking of ending my life because of the hurt that i have”, i felt stupid but it feels like the right thing to do you know.. its hard.. living feeling like this..
Love can be so beautiful and it can also kill..
I hope things get better for everyone who are hurting right now..xxooxx